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"Why would you say that?" I deflect, both fully aware he's hit an exposed nerve.
"In my experience, Edward, jealousy becomes a problem for people in two instances. First, where there are prior abandonment issues or misplaced trust. From everything I've learned about your family life and previous romantic history, that's not your damage. Have I missed something there?"
"So we don't have to talk about my mother?" I half-joke. Honestly, I'd just assumed everyone had to.
"Not unless you want to," Banner answers, barely stifling a grin.
"No, I'm good there."
Banner nods knowingly. "So, then, the other instance…"
-o-
Here it comes.
"Jealousy tends to sprout up where one person in the relationship feels he's undeserving of the other, and therefore, is destined to eventually lose his partner. Once the subconscious mind gets hold of that conundrum, it functions to protect the ego. The logic goes something like this: She's bound to leave me anyway, so I'm going to invent a justification to leave her first. I'm afraid it creates a self-fulfilling prophecy."
"And you think this describes what happened to me?"
"Yes."
The simplicity of his direct response forces me back into the stiff cushions of the couch.
-o-
My eyes pinch closed and I fight to still the accusatory voices:
You did this.
You were right—you don't deserve her.
Stupid ego.
"Edward." His calm voice breaks through the storm. "This does not have to be a permanent state of affairs. Look at me, please?"
Cautiously, I open my eyes. Banner is leaning forward in his seat, elbows folded on his knees, his face tipped upwards, completely non-threatening.
"You mean, I might get her back?"
He smiles kindly. "The goal would be for you to see yourself clearly, see you're worthy of Bella—or anyone else you choose."
A/N: FYI, You might want to remember I was an ACCOUNTING major, so this is all based on research and perhaps a few hours on the 'VISITOR' side of the room. Just in case anyone is planning on getting better from reading this or some such nonsense. :) XXX ~BOH