Skeergirl-This is what I get for trying something new. Well, anyway there are technically two new chapters. I replaced the KanaxHatori story with a songfic. This songfic can be found as the new chapter three. That's the first new drabble. This is the second. Another total re-doing of the KanaxHatori pairing I did before. Inspiration for this came from a sentence I saw from a writer on here. So thanks goes to Yanikei, whoever they might be.

Cursed Memories

He had been freed from the curse a few days ago. All of them had, even Akito. All of them had been freed from the curse for good. They all hadn't been freed at once. But, within the time-span of a couple days they all felt the chains and bonds of the Sohma curse fading. None of them really understood why. He didn't understand why, but nevertheless the bonds had broken down completely. The power that Akito had had gone. The double curse Kyo had, had gone. His own curse, gone, and so was everything that went with it.

Not that Hatori Sohma fully realized what this meant. None of the Sohma's quite realized what being free meant. Sadly though what it meant would be a lot of pain. Something the Sohmas might not have been able to take even with Akito and Tohru on their sides now.

For now though Hatori was hoping he could put some sort of life together. As a doctor it wouldn't be hard but he was so used to his busy lifestyle having nothing to do was new to him. So, that left the unfamiliar feel of boredom for Hatori to toy with.

In the last hour he had waited by the phone for calls from several people. He looked at his beeper every time he thought he heard something thinking it to be Akito or another Sohma he had to take care of. But, that never happened. Though he had interviews for jobs in quite a few places, and had impressed more then just the women there, Hatori still had gotten no calls back for a job and he was not needed as far as family went.

So now, sitting on the porch of his house Hatori looked straight ahead having decided to quite smoking for the sake of his new job that would surely come and call soon. It would be a bit of a demanding task later, giving up, but for now he could handle it.

She remembered. In fact she remembered close to everything. But, she almost rather not remember these things. These memories that were so full of warmth and love they were painful. After all she was married now. And, now to suddenly have memories of great love for one she was supposed to never have loved, that was scary for Kana. After all the pieces that were missing from her memories were vital. But, yes, ever since the curse had been broken she had started to remember Hatori.

It was true that she didn't know why the never got close. Or why they had broken up. But she knew that the time she had spent with Hatori had been the greatest time in her life. So, why forget about it until now? Especially when her feelings for Hatori had only been unrequited love. She had her husband now, and needless to say she was more then happy. And yet, here she was at the Sohma Estates following her heart that said she loved Hatori while her mind was still shocked at the memories coming back.

"I have to ask him." she muttered to herself. "I have to if I ever want to get my life back and stop worrying everyone." a small frown on her face Kana made her way as casually as she could towards where she remembered Hatori lived.

She was inside the Sohma Estates as she still was a bit of a Sohma and allowed in at least the outside parts of the estate. But, now she had traveled to the inside part, not fully realizing she was tress passing, and inside the place where the cursed Sohmas and the ones who knew about them lived.

It took a few more moments but she finally reached Hatori's house a mild look of worry on her face as a blurry memory of something dark came to her. But, she wasn't sure of what it was. A black figure, a splash of red, something dark and small, that was all she could remember clearly. That, and strangely enough a feeling of fear and sadness that she could not quite recognize as such.

As Kana approached the door opposite of where Hatori sat she wondered if anyone was home. It didn't seem it because it was quite dark and quiet. And yet, Kana couldn't leave without an answer. So, she rang the small door bell on the side of the door and waited.

The last thing Hatori expected was for the door bell to ring. Jumping slightly Hatori stood up wondering if someone was asking for a checkup or something similar. Deciding it was probably something like that Hatori stood up and headed for the door just as the door bell rang impatiently once more.

Opening the door the last person Hatori expected to see was a slightly flustered Kana dressed in a blue dress shirt and small skirt. Too surprised to even say anything Hatori just took a deep breath millions of things running through his mind as his heart thumped heavily.

"Sohma-san." Kana stated softly. "I need to talk to you. It's really important that I talk now. I know your busy but please-"

Kana was cut off their as Hatori nodded and moved aside for Kana to come in. "What is it that you needed to tell me Sohma-dono?" he asked pretty sure whoever Kana had married was an outside Sohma making the term not quite appropriate but close enough for now as Kana didn't seem to mind.

"I...it's just. I've been remembering strange things lately. About you Sohma-san. And...And I thought you could help." Having looked down to the ground feeling silly for how she must have sounded Kana failed to notice how white Hatori suddenly turned at the mention of him and memories.

Not saying a word, for Hatori could guess at what was happening, Kana looked up at Hatori mildly confused. "Sohma-san?" she asked worriedly seeing how Hatori looked. "Did I say something wrong?"

Hatori just managed to shake his head. "No." he said hoarsely before picking up his right hand and looking at it for one long moment. "What is it that you remember Sohma-dono?" he asked voice shaky.

"I...I'm not sure exactly." Kana said turning red not sure how she could tell this man she felt as if she loved him. "I just remember us being together. And being pretty close. But, we never hugged or...you know, and I don't know why. And I don't know why this all suddenly stopped but it did and I'm scared." Kana admitted shaking slightly

Not sure of what he could do Hatori let his hand drop. "It's better that you don't know." Hatori said finally having literally nothing else to say.

On the verge of tears as it was Kana suddenly broke down tears streaming from her eyes. "How could you say that Sohma-san?" she asked. "I remember that I loved you and you say it's better I don't remember? I'm married. But I still feel as if you were the right one for me. You can't be though. You were only unrequited love. I realized that after I met my husband. So why, why suddenly all this?" she asked sobbing and falling to the ground on her knees very much so in pain.

Hatori could barely look on seeing Kana so much like she had been after he had been hurt. "I'm sorry Sohma-dono." he said softly. "I really am."

This said he slowly bent down. And, quite suddenly before he could stop Kana, was hugged stiffly and awkwardly by her. At first Hatori too was stiff not used to being so close with anyone even with the curse gone. Still as he remembered how good it was to be able to experience this sort of thing his stiffness softened and he held Kana closer if only to make her feel better.

"I'm sorry Sohma-san." Kana said her voice teary. "This isn't fair to you."

"Its-" Hatori was cut off here as Kana suddenly drew back with a gasp of surprise another memory suddenly clicking into place and becoming clear to her.

"I...I remember why you never hugged me." she said slowly still teary though she had stopped crying. "I remember how I thought you would reject me over such a silly thing as that." she said a small smile on her face now. "I remember not knowing if you needed fresh or seawater. And you said, if you had been a real Seahorse you would have died."

Falling back slightly Hatori said nothing knowing Kana still had to speak.

"So why now, can we get close? Why now can we hug? Why now can we do things that shouldn't be painful but are terribly so?"

"I was freed." Hatori said simply. "I don't know why. No one does. But, I'm free. And it seems that all the power I held is gone."

"Power?" Kana asked quietly suddenly afraid of what Hatori was going to say next. "What power?"

"When I was cursed." Hatori began. "I could suppress people's memories. I could take them away or at least put them where they would not be found. It seems I lost that power when the curse broke and now it seems the memories I erased are being erased as well."

Kana thought about this for a moment before her eyes suddenly went wide. "But then...you..you would have had to erase my memories right?" she asked. And then, without waiting for a reply she asked. "Why though? Why would you want me to forget about you. And tell me the truth."

Hatori knew Kana had a right to know the truth. But he said nothing. Instead he slowly turned his head up to her and with on hand swept up the hair that covered his left eye. The one that he could barely see out of now. The one Akito had hurt when he had asked to marry Kana.

Seeing Hatori's eye Kana gasped the last memory clicking into place. The memory of them standing before Akito, the dark figure. The memory of Akito slamming a vase into Hatori's eye, the splash of red. The memory of Hatori doubled over in pain, the small dark figure.

Suddenly in tears and gasping Kana shook her head. "No, no NO!" She yelled trying to banish this memory. This pain. "I didn't, I didn't hurt you Hatori. I didn't I'm sorry. I'm sorry I can't help you. I'm sorry I'm so useless."

Seeing Kana like this. Seeing her on the edge like this as she had been before, it was too much and even Hatori found tears rolling down his eyes. "Kana please stop. Please stop." he said barely aware of what he was saying. "You didn't hurt me. I should have never brought you into my life. It was my mistake. I'm sorry."

It seemed though that Kana didn't here for she kept repeating the same things over and over again until she was screaming to the point her voice was becoming hoarse.

Still unaware of what he was doing Hatori suddenly moved forward and pulled Kana into a tight hug pressing her mouth against his chest so she couldn't scream so loudly. "Kana please stop." he said both of them unaware that they had switched to a first name basis not long ago. "I can't stand seeing you like this. It hurts so much. Please, please stop."

Unable to scream anymore Kana just cried clutching Hatori's shirt in bunches, sobbing. "I'm sorry." she said finally her voice hoarse and weak. "The last thing I ever wanted to do was hurt you."

Hatori just nodded and comforted Kana the best he could while she calmed down.

"I don't know what to do. I don't want to forget you again...but I'm married." Kana said as she calmed down a great deal but still clung to Hatori. "I never want to forget you again.

"Then don't." Hatori said. "I know you have a hard decision to make but you don't have to forget me.."

"Kana nodded. "All right, then I'll remember you. I'll remember you as my first love and go on with my life. I...I won't ever forget you. I'll tell my husband everything I remember and if he doesn't like it then I'd have to face the fact that perhaps my love for him is a bit one sided."

Hatori smiled slightly glad to see Kana happy. It was true she'd be leaving him again but this time at least it wasn't forever.

"Thank you Kana." he said before Kana softly placed a chaste and friendly kiss on Hatori's cheek.

"Your welcome."

END

Skeerqueen-I hope you all enjoy the fanfics I posted. I know I like these versions so I hope you do to. Anyway please read and review.