Sorry I haven't posted in forever…

Edward POV

She said YES!!!! SHE SAID YES!!!!!!!!! I gently wrapped her up in my arms and kissed her forehead.

"I love you, Bella, with all my heart." I said.

"I love you." She replied chuckling a bit.

"What's so funny?" I ask getting frustrated. I just asked this girl to marry me and she was laughing in my face.

"I love seeing you so happy, Edward. You have a huge smile on your face. I'm just happy." God I loved this girl. Why was I blessed with her. There was no way I deserved her even the least bit. Alice burst into my door yet again.

"Whooooo!!!!" She yelled. "Bella and Edward are getting married!" She yelled, and my family rushed in. I could smell the blood rush to Bella's cheeks.

"Oh, Edward, I am so happy for you!" My mother gushed beside Alice. Everyone took their turn putting in a word. Even Emmett said something even though it was more along the lines of, "Maybe Edward will actually get some now." Rose slapped the back of his head right away and everyone left shaking their heads.

"Am I?" Bella asked me.

"What?" I asked confused, not having any idea what she meant.

"Am I going to get some?" She asked, blushing and looking down.

"No." There was no way that that could happen. I could hurt her. I could kill her. We never could do anything like that.

"Why?" Was that hurt I heard in her voice? No, couldn't be. She understood my reasons.

"Bella, don't push it." Wait, were those tears?

"Okay."

"Baby? What's wrong? Why are you crying?" And then I realized what I had done. I just told her I did not want to have sex with her. She thought I was denying her.

"Oh, Bella, I love you. Baby, I am not saying that I don't want to. I just don't want to hurt you. I love you."

"You wouldn't hurt me Edward."

"I could Bella, you are just so fragile."

"I don't want to be." I knew what she was implying immediately.

"I'm not changing you, Bella." I said. This was final I had made my decision, I don't care about anything I said before. I was not going to damn the one person that I loved the most to this eternal hell.

"Well then I'm not marrying you." That was a low blow. I was mad. How could she possibly understand. How could she say that to me? Changing her to vampire was out of the question. I did not want to do that to her. It was not an option!

"Bella, take that back." I said harshly.

"No." I could tell in her words that she meant it and that just made me madder.

"Take your fucking words back." I said, I was so mad.

"Hell no." She replied giving me a dirty look. I got right in her face.

"Fuck that. There is no way I will ever damn you to this hell. For you to say that to me is ridiculous. You should be ashamed of yourself. You have no idea what it is like to be this way! You have no clue! You do not know what you say to me! If you do NOT want to marry me, then don't. I don't care. Do whatever the fuck you want." I did not realize my words were so sharp and I was scaring her so much until I was done. Tears started to flood out of her eyes and she slowly started to back away from me to shrink into the corner of my room. She grabbed her knees up to her chest and started to cry.

"Oh my….Bella…Love, I'm so sorry." I walked closer to her and set my hand on her shoulder. She instantly flinched away.

"DON'T HIT ME!"

"Baby, I would never hurt you." I knew I was scaring her, but I knew that there was no other way. I wrapped my arms around her and held her close to me.

"Bella, I love you so much. I did not mean to hurt you. I love you. I want to marry you and if that means that I have to change you I will. If that means that it will make you happy I will. I will do anything for you. Please just forgive me. I didn't mean to hurt you. I was just frustrated. Please, Bella." I begged her.

"I love you." I knew when she said those simple three words that I would be forgiven. I kissed her and hummed her lullaby until she fell asleep.

Bella POV

I forgave Edward, I knew that everything was just being blown out of porportion and I knew that he loved me, plus, I loved him.

I dreamed of me visiting my father. I didn't get to the part of me seeing him, but I got a idea of what I would be feeling if I went. Scared, anxious, nervous but, I wanted it all the same. I wanted to be able to start over. I wanted to stare him in the face and tell him all that he did to me and the piece of shit that he was.

I knew I had to go. When I woke up, Edward wasn't there. I whispered his name and instantly he showed up in front of me.

"Morning Bella." he siad in his angelic voice.

"Hi."

"What would you like to do today Bella?"

"I want to see my father." Why not blurt it out?

"What?" He said shocked.

"I think I should."

"If that's what you want." He sighed.

"It is."