False Hope
"ANNIE! ANNIE!" Johanna shouts bursting into my room, she looks frantic but also there's a glisten of hope in her eyes, "some of them survived, they're back!"
It takes me a while to process it but I suddenly understand and leap up; Finnick might be alive! He might not be gone! Johanna grabs my hand which makes me feel uncomfortable because the last person to hold my hand was Finnick but he might do so again! We sprint round the corners, almost falling over, headed to the hospital because we know that's where they'll be. When we get there I see some familiar faces. "Peeta!" Johanna exclaims rushing towards him. I search around desperate to find Finnick but he's not there. 'Don't give up Annie, he may just be somewhere else.' I tell myself reminiscing Finnick's beautiful laugh, the way his eyes light up.
As a nurse walks past I immediately ask her, "Finnick?" She shakes her head and I fall to my knees in despair. I thought he may be alive, I gave myself hope but he's dead. I shouldn't have been so stupid. When Joanna had told me it was like everything had been fixed but now I was broken again and there was nothing I could do. I let the tears fall, my hands covering my face, the pain and loss ripping me apart as it had done when I first heard of his death. I try to take deep breaths in and out but it's getting harder. I'm forgetting how to breathe. I feel an arm on my back and a soft voice whisper into my ear, "Let go Annie. Let go of him. You'll always remember him but now you have to be strong, strong for him."
My breathing steadies and I remove my hands from my face though the tears still fall and nod in agreement. I won't waste my life, not when the lives of some many I love have been taken away from them. This won't stop me; instead it will make me stronger. Finnick will always be with me. In my heart, in my memories and as long as I can remember him he'll be with me. I can't stop the pain. Or the anxiety that I may forget him and he may truly go forever but it stops the crushing feeling, at least, for now…