Even for Happy Lowman, the Sons of Anarchy Enforcer, the Assassin, the Killa, seeing someone he cared about hurting was something he didn't want to see. But this wasn't just someone he cared about, this was the blonde beauty, the SAMCRO Princess, his exact reason for being… She was slowly breaking, piece by piece. The longer she stayed with Jax, the more hurt she was becoming.

She was staying with him again, at his cabin. She was hiding out for the time being, secretly trying to choose between Hap and Jax. She loved Happy with her entire heart but something kept her with Jax and she just couldn't figure it all out. But Happy was the love of her life, Hanna didn't think a person could feel so strongly about another person but here she was, deeply in love with him. Regardless of her being with his brother or not, it didn't matter at this point. She knew what her decision was going to be, she just had to talk to both of them.

She knew deep in her heart that this was how things would turn out because she knew that Happy had deep feelings for her, she knew Happy had always loved her, since they got together years ago in San Francisco. Hanna knew that, no matter what, Happy was always going to be the captor of her heart. She knew that the feelings she had for Jax when she was younger was just puppy love, it was starter feelings as Gemma called it.

Hanna thought the Queen and the mother of Hanna's boyfriend would be furious with her because Jax was going to end up hurt and heartbroken over the information that had been kept from him about Hanna and Happy but surprisingly enough, Gemma still had love for the girl. Hanna guessed from hindsight, it'd be a little hypocritical if Gemma felt differently about the entire situation. Hanna had a sit-down with Gemma a few days back and told her everything; much to Hanna's surprise, Gemma hugged her and told her everything would fall into place.

The short words of wisdom from her stand-in mother made everything seem ok but to get home and have yet another knock-down, drag out with Jax pushed Hanna to leave again. This fight was it for Hanna, she was tired of pushing her feelings for Happy to the back of the stage and trying to find reasons to be with Jax. She didn't mean to show up at Happy's cabin, it just happened.

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"You thinking about anything particular or just thinking?" Happy sat down beside Hanna on the couch, the TV was on, but the volume was turned down awfully low.

Hanna pulled herself out of her thoughts long enough to shake her head and give the man a smile. "No, just trying to relax my mind. I didn't think you'd come back out here since I was here again."

"Me either but here I am. What the fuck are you watching?" He pointed to the TV, seeing three women speaking together then a man appeared on the screen through blue and white lights.

Hanna shrugged her shoulders, but started laughing when she looked back at the TV. "It's Charmed… I know you remember this show back when I used to watch it at the apartment."

"Hanna, why are you here? You've been here a lot lately and I don't mind it but I need to know what the fuck is going through your head. It's like you're trying to be with him but with me, too." Never being one to discuss feelings, his especially, Happy was a little fed up with the back and forth activity the blonde beauty was sporting. "Make a goddamn decision…" He stood, grabbing his discarded cut and leaving the cabin.

Being gone for the whole day, he almost expected her to be gone but when he pulled into the driveway of the cabin, he couldn't help but smirk. Damn hardheaded bitch.

He hung his helmet on the handlebar and walked inside of the cabin. He saw the blonde beauty sitting on the couch. She was holding her phone, scrolling through it. She turned to look at him as he closed the door.

"You just wanna move in?" Happy toed off his boots and sat down beside her.

Hanna smiled and nodded her head. "Even though you don't want me here… I like the peacefulness, it's calming."

Happy threw his arm over Hanna's shoulder and pulled her into him. "You know you gotta fix it, ya know."

Hanna shook her head and stood up. She turned away from Happy and continued shaking her head as Happy stood up to stand behind her, his hands on her shoulders. He turned her around to face him.

"You get your ass over there and fix this shit. No more of this back and forth fighting shit, Hanna. The only problem is you two, not the club, not me, nothing but you and him. You drive each other insane, he has too much shit on his plate right now and you guys fighting all the time isn't making shit any better. You guys clearly aren't ready for this shit, he doesn't need this shit… Our history definitely isn't helping him out either. You didn't make any mistakes back then, I did. I told you to come home because you need him, you guys may fight and argue but he is what keeps ya going. He always has. You feel guilty about the past and that baby but you gotta get over it. I love you so much, girl and I tried so hard to make you happy but I know what he means to you. You need to be with him, that's where you belong. There's no question about it… me and you were a trial run; had to prepare you for this life… A life with him so quit thinking about the past and go fix your problems with him. I'll be fine, I always am."

Happy turned to walk away but he felt her hand on his lower back. He turned around to see tears rolling down her beautiful face. He grabbed her instantly, wrapping his arms around her as tight as he could. Pressing kisses to her head and running his hand over her hair, he sighed.

Hanna pulled away from him, wiped her face and whispered. "I don't want to hurt anyone, Hap. I'm tired of being stuck in this place. I love him and I love you… I can't be this way. I can't be stuck. I have to choose and I don't know what to do. We weren't supposed to get serious, Hap… we were just supposed to be having some fun. But here we are… I don't know what to do… I can't talk to him about this shit. I can't even have a normal conversation with him, we always end up either fucking or fighting and that's not healthy."

Hanna turned away from him and threw her head into her hands. "What the fuck do I do?" Her voice was barely even a whisper.

Happy pulled her to him and kissed the top of her head. She still faced away from him as he wrapped his arms around her. "You got to think about your happiness. Who makes you happy, babe?"

Hanna turned around and buried her face in his chest. She breathed in his scent: leather and cigarettes. It was the most familiar smell to her. Hanna knew she was in a messed up place… Not only was she torn between two men, but they were brothers, they were close.