July 10, 2004

Happy's POV-

Hearing that the damn Irish were trying to sell us bullshit guns and then take 70% of our earnings pissed me the fuck off. I, like a lot of my brothers at that fucking table, had mouths to feed. I had a family to worry about. My mom was right, babies are expensive as hell and I didn't have the fucking time to be having a shortened pay. Yeah, I had a lot of money saved in the bank for rainy days and shit but I like money, I like getting it and I like being able to give my girls anything they damn well want.

Goddamn Fucking Irish. Stupid ass fucking pricks. I needed to get this shit out of my mind before I go home, Hanna doesn't need this shit… She's got enough going on without having to worry about shit that's not her business. It's not her place to be worrying about our money problems. It's her job to take care of my baby girl, that's it.

I sat down at the bar, beside Bobby and Chibs, taking a beer from the croweater behind the bar. I turned around and surveyed the room. There were croweaters begging for attentions, damn sweetbutts lingering around the room and some of my brothers chillin' around various parts of this big ass room. One croweater, in particular, some brunette bitch was looking at me. I didn't give a damn about it but she was just fuckin' smiling at me. She wasn't ugly, but she wasn't fuckin' gorgeous either. She was no fuckin' Hanna. Hanna is the most beautiful woman I've ever seen but I just need a fuckin' release. I just needed this shit. I grabbed the croweater and pushed her down the hallway toward the bathroom at the end of the hall. The looks on my brother's faces told me I was making a huge mistake but I didn't care. There's no telling where my woman was it's not a fuckin' blowjob would matter anyway. She'd never have to know, really.

We got to the bathroom and I instantly shoved her ass to the ground, on her knees. I put my beer beside the sink and pushed my jeans and boxers down just enough to pull my dick out. Before she could do anything, I had my dick in her mouth and my hand in her stringy ass hair. It felt fuckin' stupid… She wasn't good at this shit, she wasn't even getting me worked up. Stupid bitch.

I heard some cheers from the bar room but continued to try to get off. This stupid bitch could at least try, Jesus Christ.

Why the fuck did I even think this was a good idea? No one can get me off like Hanna can, nothing feels as good as my girl does. Where the fuck was she? Fuck it, I quit… this stupid bitch can suck dick for nothing.

I pulled myself out of her mouth and jerked her to her feet. I turned the bitch around and bent her over the sink. "Don't move." I pulled my pants up a little bit and grabbed my wallet out of my back pocket, I pulled a condom out and stuck my wallet back in my pocket. I ripped the wrapper open and rolled the condom on my dick. I grabbed her scrawny ass hips and slammed into her. Hearing her moan made me want to rip her fucking head off just so she didn't make a damn noise. I closed my eyes and started to picture Hanna. I saw her in the shower, washing her blonde ass hair then I got in with her and fucked her against the wall. Her moans were fuckin' treasure, I love the way she moans, the way she says my name. Goddamn, it's so good.

We haven't been in that house a year yet and we've already fucked in every single room, all over the place. That girl's a goddamn nympho or something. But she's always been like that, ever since I got with her in San Francisco. That's all she ever wanted to do. Hell, it's all she wants to do now. There was just those few times after Veronica was born that she thought I didn't find her fine ass sexy anymore so she wouldn't come near me. Damn woman… Hanna not sexy? Please… Her ass invented sexy.

FINALLY! My fuckin' release. This stupid bitch can't possibly enjoy this shit. I'm close to breaking the sink just to get something out of this. I pulled out of her once I came down from the high. That could've been so much better, goddamn.

"You can get out now." I took the condom off and threw it in the trash after I wrapped it up in some tissue. I pulled my boxers and jeans back into place and stared at the dumb bitch. She finally got the hint and pulled her thong up her skinny ass legs and left. I took a swig of the beer, before setting it back down and bracing myself against the counter.

Hanna would kill me if she found out. Hell, she'd probably tell me I can't see Veronica anymore and kick me out of my house.

Going back to the barroom earlier was weird as hell. Everyone was acting weird as fuck but I didn't really think anything of it.

I pulled into my driveway and saw Hanna's BMW was gone. She's probably at Gemma's with the baby. I walked inside the house and went up the stairs. A shower was much needed and I'd love to have my woman with me but whatever. I'll get in and get out, simple as hell.

I walked into our bedroom first, the place looked like it had been robbed. What the fuck is going on? All the drawers were hanging out of their place. The closet had clothes all over the place. The bed was unmade and Hanna's pillows were gone. What in the fuck happened here? I walked into the bathroom to see all her little products and shit was gone. Her hair products, her make-up shit… It was all gone. The entire side of hers was empty. It was just the sink and the hand towels hanging beside the sink. What the fuck!

I ran to the nursery to see what was left in here. Empty, completely fucking except for the shit I gave my daughter. That fuckin' bitch! She took my goddamn daughter and ran! I pulled my burner out of my pocket and dialed her number.

When she didn't answer, I just chucked the fucking thing at the wall. Goddamn bitch! How the fuck could she do this shit?

I just started slinging shit around, I picked up the fucking crib and slammed to the ground. Goddamn her, goddamn that bitch! She fuckin' did it again, she fuckin' left me again! I knew she had left her ass alone! I grabbed some fuckin' stuffed animal and ripped the little fucker in half. She fuckin' took my kid from me! That's MY fuckin' kid, she has no goddamn right! Veronica is MINE! That's my baby!

The room was a fuckin' disaster but I didn't get a shit. I sat against the furthest wall, my head in my hands… Goddamn her, I fuckin' love her stupid ass. Why would she just fuckin' leave like this? Unless she knew! No there's no fuckin' way… she wasn't even at the clubhouse. How the fuck could she have known about that shit? Goddamn it, I need to talk to her. I need to see her… I need something here. I need her.

I heard Kozik's voice whisper to someone else, he told them to find Hanna and Roni.

Then his voice got louder… "What the fuck did you do, man?"

"She's gone! She took the kid and left she fuckin' left!" I punched the wall. "She took my fuckin' kid and left! WHERE THE FUCK IS SHE? Goddamn it!" I yelled, this was driving up the damn wall.

I watched Kozik pull out his phone and dial a number, he pressed a button repeatedly before dialing a new number and put the phone to his ear. I barely listened to the conversation but I heard him ask about Hanna and Veronica, I heard him tell whoever that Hanna had left, taking my little girl with her.

I couldn't deal with this shit! I had to fuckin' find her! I got to do something! Goddamn it, where is she? Kozik told me Opie didn't know a thing and that Chibs had texted him, wanting us to the clubhouse so we went up there. I didn't want to be near any-damn-person yet here I was.

I watched everyone dial different numbers trying to get a hold of my blonde beauty. Everyone was trying to found her, figure out what the fuck was going on but no one had any damn luck.

Jax got a hold of her briefly, but it was long enough for Juice to trace her call. She'd hung up on him anyway.

I eyed Jax closely, waiting for the explanation of why my girl left. Jax looked around the room to see everyone staring back at him. "She said she doesn't want Veronica being a part of this life, it's too dangerous for her." Jax sat down by Juice to see what the idiot had come up with. He looked up to see me glaring at him and the fucker shrugged his shoulders. "She wants you to back off and leave it alone."

"ARE YOU FUCKING SERIOUS? I'M NOT GONNA FUCKING LEAVE IT ALONE… SHE TOOK MY GODDAMN KID FROM ME! SHE THINKS SHE CAN JUST FUCKING LEAVE AND TAKE VERONICA WITH HER? SHE'S LOST HER GODDAMN MIND!" I was seething, I was angry and pissed. I was fucking livid. I felt so damn betrayed, I honestly didn't know what to do. This was the most emotion I'd ever displayed in front of anyone, except my Ma, Hanna and Koz.

"Are you sure you're just upset about her taking Roni? There's so much more to it and you know it." Bobby stood up, looking directly at me.

"It's not about her… She doesn't want to be here, then fuck her. But she's not just taking my fuckin' kid without my permission!" I knew they could see the hatred displayed on my face, my eyes trying so hard not to give away any emotion.

"You don't fuckin' mean that, brotha! You love her and you know it! If you didn't, then ya wouldn't have gotten that tat for her." Kozik jumped up, essentially pissing me off.

"Shut the fuck up, mind your own business!" I turned around to walk away when I felt a big hand on my shoulder that turned me around.

"You got a fuckin' tat for my sister, you ink her up and have a kid with her then you let her leave? I'm going to fuckin' kill you if you don't bring her back! I don't give two shits what you have to do, you're gonna get her back and you're gonna fix whatever stupid ass mess you made! I suggest you hurry the fuck up and get it done!" Opie pushed me away from him.

A switch instantly flipped inside me and I lunged at Opie, sending my fist flying into Opie's jaw, I watched the big man stumble back. He really was a fuckin' giant but I don't care. Ope regained his balance, stalking toward me. Right as he was about to draw back, Jax, Chibs and Tig caught him, pulling him back as fast as they could.

"Fighting won't bring her and Roni back… You guys need to fucking cool off." Tig yelled at us. I finally just sat down at the bar, waiting to hear something from her.

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