AN: This chapter begins the series of one shots that take place between the two year time jump between The Crow's Nest and An Outlaw's Love. It's all still dated so there shouldn't be any confusion.

July 12, 2004

*Hanna's POV

It'd been two days since I got to Phoenix and all I wanted to do was crawl in a damn hole. I couldn't do that though, I had a baby that needed my attention and there was nowhere in hell that would make me forget about my responsibilities as Veronica's mother.

I tossed my phone yesterday. I was tired of the constant phone calls from every single person that I ultimately ran from. Happy was the most frequent caller and I was finding it to be harder and harder to ignore his calls.

I missed him, hell I still do but he fucked up. He cheated on me and that doesn't just go away. He can't apologize and expect everything to just be ok. It's not ok, he cheated on me. He betrayed me, he hurt me and he ultimately hurt Veronica.

When we got to Arizona, I honestly didn't think I'd run into any Sons, especially SAMTAZ members. But running into Red, the president wasn't such a bad thing. He's nice, I've known him for a long time. I didn't know how well he knew Happy but apparently Happy was well known in every charter. All I did was show them my crow and they knew exactly who's crow it really was. But then again, the smiley faces could've easily given away the Son.

Red helped me get a place that was about five minutes away from their clubhouse. He must've did that on purpose. Oh well, I didn't mind… I liked being close to them in case anything happened. Red didn't ask many questions, or any at all, really. He did help me get furniture in the house and helped me get settled. Sons really did protect their own.

I'd gotten a new phone this morning and decided it was really time to make a call to Charming.

"Hello?" Her voice sounded so sad, I almost didn't want to say anything and stir up anymore sad feelings. But I missed her and needed to talk to her.

"Hey, you…"

"Oh my god, H!?" Thank god she didn't say my name, there was no telling who was around her.

"Please don't say my name, Don… I don't want anyone to know you're talking to me. Just listen."

"H… what the fuck is going on? Why'd you take Roni and leave?"

"Just listen, say ok when I'm done. Call me when you know you're free to actually talk to me." I heard her say ok and I continued. "No matter what, no one can know where I am. I don't want Happy to find me. He could hurt me or kill me… I took his kid from him and that's fucked up shit but I had to do it. He cheated on me at the clubhouse and I know I shouldn't have reacted the way I did but it happened. I don't want to see him, I don't want to talk to him but once I figure out how to deal with this bullshit, I'll contact him and discuss visitations for Veronica. But for now, I don't want him seeing her. It's not fair, I know but I'm doing this my way. Please don't tell them I called, don't even tell Gemma. I love you, ok? I love Ellie, give her kisses for me. Ok? Call me when you can, use this number."

I heard her mumble an ok and I hung up the phone, trying to rid myself of the shitty feeling that washed over me. I missed my best friend and I miss my family. Fuckin' hell… I miss my boyfriend, I miss him so damn much!

I miss waking up to him tangled up with me, I miss his random calls during the day. Shit, I miss it all but I'm not going back and I'm not going to contact him. Not until I am ready and I know for sure that it's a good idea for Veronica.

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"You ever gonna tell me what happened?" Red sat down at the table, watching Hanna feed Veronica a bottle.

She shook her head. "It doesn't matter, Red. I just need my location to be a secret. If they reach out, don't tell them anything, please."

"Hanna, I can't just lie to them, ok? We are a damn club. We are all closely affiliated with each other. If Clay contacts me asking about you, I have to tell him what I know… I'm sorry." Hanna slowly nodded her head, her blue eyes connected with his brown eyes for a brief moment. He saw the sadness in her eyes, he saw the pain and he just wanted to hold her, he just wanted to protect her from it all. "Tell me what happened, what made you run? What made you take your baby and leave your man?"

The blonde looked away from him, shaking her head. "He's a dick… That's all."

AN: Let me know what ya think ;)