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Kanda had run to the hospital wing but the Moyashi was missing from his bed and not one of the nurses saw him leave. Kanda began to panic. What if Allen was off trying to kill himself again? Kanda couldn't live with himself if Allen died because of his horrible behavior.

Kanda's P.O.V.

Where is he? That troublesome moyashi was absolutely nowhere to be found. It was like he just disappeared of the face of the earth. I checked the bathroom, the cafeteria (which was Allen's favorite place in the world) and all our annoying friends. No one had seen the peculiar boy. I paused to think and catch my breath. Now if I was an annoying, emotionally unstable moyashi where would I be? I questioned myself. Then the answer hit me like a thousand Akuma bullets. The moyashi had to be in the…..

Normal POV

Allen took a deep breath to steel his fragile nerves. It was only natural for him to be slightly jumpy in this situation. Even if his life was hell there were little parts that he would miss, things that he did enjoy to some extent. He would miss the cafeteria and having a bed to sleep in. He would miss the feeling of being needed even if it was to just fight akuma. He would miss, most of all, the people he had grown quite fond of. Lenalee, the cheerful and pretty Chinese girl with a tough mindset and a dark past. Lavi, the future bookmen/genius that was always smiling and very caring (even against the rule that he couldn't get attached). Komui, the eccentric sister-complex leader of the misfit exorcists. Everyone from the science department to the finders to the cafeteria crew (especially Jerry). Even Kanda…..

Yes he admits it. He would miss Kanda, maybe more than the others. The cold hearted bastard has officially taken his heart. And had broken and mangled it till it was shriveled up on the floor, beating weakly. Only love could make him feel whole again but that wasn't going happen from Kanda anytime soon. He just hoped maybe...

'No don't think about that now! He's just going to hurt you again!' his inner self yelled at his wandering thoughts. It was right of course, He couldn't allow himself to hope because that would make him question what he was doing, back out then just end up in the same predicament again. He couldn't handle this loneliness anymore and that thought calmed his nerves and gave him a sense of peace with this.

"I'm ready" he declared sadly as he stepped towards the flames.

Kanda stood outside the Moyashi door debating with himself. Should he enter and check on Allen? Would that make the boy even angrier? He didn't seem to really appreciate Kanda's last attempt at showing affection.

"Maybe I should just leave him alone." Kanda muttered under his breath but he knew he couldn't. His heart ached at the thought of Allen doing something stupid and knowing that he could have stopped would haunt him forever. Gathering his courage he grabbed the door knob and twisted it, expecting it to be open like the last time but it was locked.

"Well that confirms my suspicion. The moyashi probably learned his lesson from last time."

He slipped mugen out of it sheath and swung with as much strength as he could muster (which is a lot) causing the door to fall to the ground in pieces with a resonating thump.

Komui's going kill me he though, running into the bathroom...

Allen was almost in when a loud thump came from the direction of his bedroom. He paled at the sound.

'Oh no, someone's hear.' he though, immediately thinking that maybe Kanda was in his room.

He dismissed this thought and moved with new urgency. He swung his leg over the ledge and quickly submerged himself in flames. At fist the flames were warming but soon he could feel the intensity of the flames lick at his skin with a vengeance. It was mind wipening. The pain was so over-whelming it seemed to wipe everything away in its path. His sight, smell, and hearing were gone. He could only feel. He could feel the tears as they streamed down, getting evaporated as soon as they left his face, he could feel his throat getting dry and raw from the screaming he was probably doing. The flames began to spread, engulfing everything in its wake. Stars began to dance across his vision as it blurred and turned to endless black.

Kanda heard screams erupt from the bathroom and he ran towards the door. He was shaken by the sight before him. Allen was covered completely in flames; his skin became discolored and seemed to be erupting in blisters. It was horrific and it made Kanda sick and queasy. Not fully thinking of what would be the best plan of action he ran closer to the tub and thrust his hands in the flames, trying to reach the boy. It hurt like hell but he didn't care. The only thing that seemed to be running through his head was to save Allen. Finally getting a good grip on the boy's arm he pulled upward with all his might. The boy's body broke out of the flames surface and landed on the hard floor with a thud. Kanda hurried to his side and started to feel around, looking for a pulse, for any sign of life no matter how small. He could feel his heart beat through his chest lightly
Kanda let out a breath he didn't know he was holding in. The moyashi was alive, barely, but that meant there was a chance to save him.
Scooping up the smaller listless boy in his arms he ran as fast as he could to the infirmary. Allen felt so broken; being cared in Kanda's arms it was sad. A sense of déjà vu washed over him as he barged throw the nurses door and urgently asked for help.

Allen had been asleep for hours now. The doctors said he was badly burned and might not live through this. He was covered in bleeding blisters and skin had been peeling off at an alarming rate. His skin was a horrible mess and it looked as if he was mangled. It made Kanda sick as they bandaged him and applied all kinds of medication. Nothing seemed to work though. He had been burned so deep it had damaged nerves and blood vessels in the dermis. They also mentioned that he had inhaled a lot of gas that could be harmful.

Kanda hadn't told anyone what had happened but everyone was still suspicious and rumors seemed to be flying across the Order. He didn't care though. He only cared about staying by Allen's side until he woke up. Once that happened Kanda would tell him how he felt, that he loved him and that he would never leave Allen alone ever again. He would force the boy to hear what he had to say so they could live happily ever after. He smiled slightly at this.

'Yes, Allen will survive this' he thought hopefully.

2 days later: Kanda's POV

Allen's condition has been getting worse as time wore on. None of the treatment seems to be making any difference. The boy was getting skinnier to the point that he looked like a stick. They stuck an IV in his arm so he didn't die of hunger. His light breathing turned to shallow gasps, as if every breath caused him immense pain. He just wouldnt walk up, it was like he had lost all will to live and refused to awaken from his slumber. I felt so helpless, not having any way to ease his agony. If only I had acted without hesitation, maybe I could have got to him faster and he would be on the verge of death.

The room once silent in my quiet thinking was filled with an urgent beeping. Startled I looked around looking for the source of the beeping.

"Where is that coming from?" I asked aloud, obviously confused.

The Medical monitor, the source of the beeping, was showing lines that were rapidly going up and down. Not knowing much about medicine, I ran urgently to find a nurse. As I reached the door the insistent beeping transitioned into one long note, BEEEeeeeeeepp and I ran back towards the bed in a panic.

It was late at night and yet Kanda stood there, looming over the coffin, his silhouette outlined with a white light reflecting from the bright full moon. It wasn't fair! Why was the moon happily shining when the room itself was pitch black, filled with sadness so thick it seemed to roll of the walls themselves? Kanda gazed with sorrow at the opened coffin. The white haired beauty looked so peaceful, as if he was just asleep but Kanda knew better. The boy was dead to this world and that was the truth. No matter how much everyone tried to deny it, to wish that this all was some kind of freakish nightmare that they would soon wake up from, the truth was lying underneath that falsehood like a sore waiting to arise.

The funeral had been a somber occasion filled with silent sobs and heavy hearts. The raw emotion flowing through the room was staggering. Even Chouji, though he had hated the boy, couldn't stop the tears from flowing. Allen had been an important component to the order, why hadn't he realized that before? Everyone here cared for him so much, especially Kanda.

The samurai tried to keep up a strong face while inside he was hurting. The pain was stabbing him repeatedly in the heart, each time more painful than the last and leaving him just as breathless. Finally alone in the dark room Kanda broke. He fell to his knees with an agonizing scream. It hurt, It hurt so much and Kanda didn't know how to deal with this despair.

"Allen...please come back!" he screamed at the dead body as he clutched the boys hand in a death grip. He didn't care that he was showing weakness, he didn't care about anything at that moment. The only thing he could thing of was Allen and how cruel God was for taking his beloved away from him. Hatred that began to bloom inside him mingled and merged with despair, creating a sensation so foreign to him. It was frightening.

"Please God! Just give him back to me!"

"My dear exorcist, what pain and sorrow you must feel~" a sickeningly sweet voice said through the dark. Kanda instantly jumped into a battle pose. His hand reached for mugen but he realized he had left it in his room. Cursing himself quietly for being so careless and relaxed, Kanda readied to try and hold his own.

"Who the hell are you?" Kanda growled to the general direction the voice came from.

"I have only come to help you relive you pain and sorrow your detestable god has caused you~" the voice answered as a grotesque face arose from the dark corner, smiling as though he was a mad man.

Kanda stared in horror at the face of the Millennium Earl. "Why are you here?" Kanda questioned harshly, willing his voice not to break.

"I can return the soul of your beloved back from you detestable god...All you need to do is call out his name~"

Kanda stood there shocked, how could the Earl come here to try this? He was an exorcist and he knew the horrors that this deal caused. But what shocked him the most was that he was actually tempted to try it.

I knew this deal if just a trick...but to have Allen back, even if it is as an Akuma would be better than not having him at all. Even if I have to die to get it. I deserve to die because I am the reason Allen killed himself. I deserve to die! I've should have been to one to die!

In all his musing he didn't feel the presence of the Earl drift even closer. Snapping back to reality Kanda took a cautious step back to evade the diabolical aura that was overwhelming.

"Just call out to him and you can have your poor Allen's soul back~" The Earl cooed as he gestured to the akuma skeleton that had appeared moments ago. It should have been so easy to say no but Kanda couldn't do it. He tried to remember everything Allen had told him about Akumas. About how they suffered in intense agony. Right then and there he knew that he couldn't allow that to happen to the white haired boy, especially not for his selfish desires. He finally had his answered

Squaring his shoulders Kanda said " No! I love Allen more than anything and I would never let his soul suffer. He once told me that an Akuma's soul is trapped and suffer when it is turned into an Akuma. He said he could see the souls crying because they are saddened that they caused their beloved ones so much pain and they cry out to be released. I wouldn't wish that on Allen. He doesn't deserve to suffer!"

An erie silence filled the room as the Earl processed the young exorcists words, his creepy smile faltering a bit before it cam bace with a vengence.

"Okay my dear exorcist, I'll make you a deal you couldn't possibly refuse~!"

CLIFFHANGER!