I kissed Randy back, my heart pounding in my chest. He weaved his fingers through m hair, pulling me closer to him, kissing me deeper. I wrapped my arms around his neck and pulled myself closer to him. I felt us move, then felt his bed beneath me. I froze and he pulled away. gI'm sorry,h he said gI shouldn't have done that. This isn't right.h
gIt's all right,h I said softly gI just wasn't expecting you to put me on the bed or anything-h
gNo I meant kissing you. That wasn't right.h
I sat up and looked at him, his eyes were wide and wild looking and he was running a hand over his short hair while the other was on his hip, his fingers drumming nervously. gRandy what's wrong?h I asked.
gThis ish he replied.
gWhat this Randy? Explain it to me. Please.h
He looked at me and said gI shouldn't want you, I shouldn't covet you or want to be the one who takes your innocence. I shouldn't be feeling what I'm feeling for you, but I am and I know it's wrong and the worst part is I don't care that's it wrong because I want you."
I swallowed nervously and looked down at my feet, afraid to look at him. He came over to me and lifted my face to look at his and he whispered "I'm no good for you. I have a dark soul and an explosive temper. I've done bad things in the past and I've hurt more people than I care to remember. I've taken things that I knew didn't belong to me, but I didn't care because I wanted them. I'm a danger to you every second you're alone with me. I'm the devil and I want to take away your innocence, I want it all to myself. I want to corrupt you and make you succumb to my darkness, but at the same time I don't want too."
"Why is that?" I asked softly.
"Because you're so pure and innocent," he replied softly "Because you're so good and so full of life and hope... I can't take that away from you. I want to be able to have that though because it's all the things I'm lacking, it's all the things I want and you're the only one who can give me those things Rowan."
"What you're saying is scaring me Randy."
He let me go and ran a hand through his hair before looking at me. "I want you Rowan," he told me "I know it's wrong and I know you're scared, but I want you."
I got off the bed and slowly backed up near the wall, my heart pounding in my chest, tears filling my eyes. "I can't-" I began.
gI know,h he said gBelieve me I know and I'm sorry.h
gRandy I feel something for you and it scares me. You're so much older than me and with everything you just said...h
He came over to me and pulled me into his arms. gI know I could be a better man if I had you Rowan,h he told me gI know I could because you're everything I'm not and you have everything I'm lacking and... I know this is wrong, but I just don't care.h
I looked up into his eyes and said gI'm scared.h
gI am too Rowan.h
I bit my lip and looked away. He pulled my face up and whispered gI will give you all the time you need Rowan because I want you. I'm not going to take no for an answer, so I will wait, but don't make me wait too long.h
He pulled away from me and grabbed his beer, walking out of the bedroom. I shakily followed him out of the bedroom and into the living room where he was holding my schoolbag. gI'm taking you home,h he told me gWe both need time to cool off.h
I nodded quietly, grabbing my bag out of his hand. Before opening the door he said gGive me your cell phone.h
gWhy?h I asked softly.
gYou'll find out.h
I handed him my phone and he pulled out his. He dialed a number into my phone, then pressed the call button. After a minute he pressed a button on his phone, typed something in, then handed me back my phone. gWhat did you do?h I asked.
gNow I have your cell phone number and you have mine,h he said gSo now you can reach me whenever you want.h
He opened the door and I silently followed him out of the apartment.
We were quiet the whole way back to my house. When he pulled up in front of my house he turned off the car and looked over at me. I looked back at him and he said gI'll see you around Rowan.h
gAll righth I whispered, opening the car door.
Just as I was about to get out Randy pulled me back in and kissed me passionately. When we pulled apart he whispered gSome food for thought. Don't make me wait too long Rowan.h
He let me go and I quickly got out of the car and ran into my house. The moment I heard his car pulled away I sank onto the floor and began to cry.
What am I going to do?
So their feelings are laid out on the table, nothing is hidden anymore.
Think Rowan will give in and be with Randy?
Or will she continue to let her fear control her?
And what do you think will happen the next day at school when she has to face everyone?
Review and let me know!