I spent my lunch hour in the janitors closet; cutting up trash cans with scissors and crying, generally speaking I don't cry, however Tori seems to inspire it in me. Barely anyone has seen me cry, even Beck has only witnessed it a handful of times in the two years we spent together, whereas Tori who I have only known for three months can nearly match that already. I hate what she's doing to me. None the less I have still somehow wound up in 'our' janitors closet, the one which we regularly drag each other to when we need to talk.

"Well now I'm Tori 'Sweet as peaches' Vega, I'll solve all your problems and leave you feeling warm and fuzzy!" I mutter in my Vega voice. "You can't solve this though Tori, I won't let you.

The rest of the day seems to drag past, I don't know whether its due to my drastic lack of sleep, or how emotionally draining this day has been for me; but as soon as I arrive home I head for my bed and fall into a deep slumber.

"Tori! Tori please!" I scream at the figure disappearing down the corridor, "I love you!" my sobs are growing with every word I shout.

"Love? You love me? Is this some kind of sick joke or are you really that twisted? You're not capable of love Jade. All you have ever been to me is disrespectful and jealous. I hate you" she spits out her voice laced with anger, and with that she disappears.

"Dyke, lesbian, disgusting, freak" a voice whispers in the darkness,

"Andre please, I'm still Jade. Please don't hate me!"

"Dyke, lesbian, disgusting, freak" a second voice repeats from behind you,

"Robbie, don't do this! I cant help it!"

"Dyke, lesbian, disgusting, freak" there it is again,

"No! Not you too Cat! You're my best friend, please!"

"Dyke, lesbian, disgusting, freak" Its surrounding you now, with every breath there are more voices; suffocating you.

A piercing scream wakes me up; and it takes me a moment to realise that I am the one making it, a cold sweat has coated me body, and my breathing is ridiculously fast. "Oh thank god I was dreaming", turning I glance at my clock 5:30 AM, jesus; I've been asleep for 12 hours! Well I might as well get up now, I pull myself out of bed and open my laptop ready to check my Slap page, 15 notifications, "what the-" I begin; before noticing my relationship status has changed, "I guess that explains it then2 I grumble. Brilliant everyone knows.

Everyone assumes that I am completely sure of myself and ridiculously confident, which in certain situations I am. However entering school alone today and heading to my locker; I have never felt so uncertain of what to do. Usually I would just grab my books and head over to Beck, who is as usual already at his locker, but at the moment I have no idea how to approach him, how do you spend two years loving someone and then just be their friend? Especially knowing that he still wants to be with me.

My inner monologue must be written all over my face, because upon looking up and seeing me he heads over, shit what can I do now?

"Hey" he says awkwardly, "you feeling any better today? Everyone missed you at lunch yesterday."

"I'm fine, good I guess; I actually slept last night, and you?" I reply, but inwardly I'm thinking 'everyone missed me'? That means Vega right? No of course not Jade, she was probably just happy to get some peace for a change. I exhale deeply and look up at him ready for his response, not sure that I'll like what I'm about to hear.

"I'll get there Jade" he states, his voice riddled with sadness "And you will too, I'm always here if you need to talk, you know that right? Now let's get to class."

The morning seems to pass swiftly; without me taking in much, if anything that the teachers are saying and before I know it the lunch bell is sounding. I decide to go to lunch today, because let's face it, the longer I avoid my friends the more questions they will have to fire at me when I do eventually confront them. I assume my usual seat next to Beck and begin eating, I figure there is no way I will start a conversation surrounding the subject of the break up, but I don't hold out much hope for everyone else avoiding it too. An awkward silence surrounds the table briefly and I keep my eyes on my food.

"So, what's all the wonk between you and Beck then?" questions the obnoxious puppet, man I hate him.

"We broke up." I state in a tone which I hope shows just how much I do not want to talk about this, but looking up I see five pairs of eyes staring at me. Vega is looking at me from across the table, I fixate my gaze on her, her chocolate orbs expressing such a mixture of emotions that I am unable to speculate exactly what she is trying to convey, I can only assume its concern, because as we all know it is Tori Vega's life purpose to fix everybody's problems.

"My parents are out of town this weekend!" Cat squeals, breaking the tension and everyone averts their gaze from me in order to look at her, "they have to take my brother to see a specialist, so I'm going to have a party, everyone's invited!" the red head looks as if she could burst due to the levels of excitement pulsating through her body. The atmosphere of the table takes a turn for the better as the guys fall into conversation with Cat about the party, but I stay silent, and so does Tori, much to my surprise. She looks as if she wants to speak but doesn't quite know what to say, a feeling I know oh too well.

"I'll be there" I state getting up to leave, I can't cope with Vega looking at me any longer, it is very possible that I could say something I would regret. I'm half way down the corridor heading towards the janitor's closet when I realise that she has followed me. Sighing I turn on my heal,

"What do you want Vega?" I spit out with as much venom as I can muster.

"I j-just wanted to see how you are doing, if you're ok?" she stammers "Beck, he told us about the break up, about you liking someone else I mean, and I- well I was just wondering if you wanted someone to talk to?"

"I'm fine Vega" I hiss "I don't know why Beck felt the need to let that little detail slip but rest assured I do not want to talk about it, especially not with you!", her face falls, and my heart twists, I hate seeing her like this, but she can't know the truth, this is best for both of us.

"If your sure Jade" she sighs with a hint of defeat "just remember we are your friends and we are here for you." With that she starts to walk away, and I breathe a sigh of relief, until she turns back round "I think you should tell him by the way, you must really like him to have broken up with Beck for him. You deserve to be happy Jade." She adds as an afterthought, and with that she disappears.

"I can't tell her" I mutter repeatedly into the silence, if only she knew what she had just suggested to me.