Sorry I haven't updated in so long, but a lot has been going on over the past few months and it just hasn't been the easiest time for me, but I'm back now and will try to get in at least two to four updates a week. For everyone who is still waiting for my updates I thank you for sticking around and I hope you like what I have in store for you!

I woke up the next morning and rolled over to find Randy gone and the smell of bacon and eggs coming into the bedroom. Pulling off the covers I got out of bed and followed the smell out to the kitchen where I found Randy by the stove cooking in his black drawstring pants. He looked over at me and smiled. "Good morning beautiful" he said.

"Good morning handsome" I said back.

"I was hoping you'd stay asleep until I was done with breakfast because I wanted to bring you breakfast in bed."

"That was a really sweet thought Randy. Sorry I ruined your plan."

"You didn't ruin it, just postponed it."

I laughed and sat down at the counter as Randy placed a plate of bacon and eggs in front of me. "Coffee or juice?" he asked.

"Juice please" I replied.

He filled up a glass with juice and set it down beside my plate before grabbing his own plate and coffee and sitting down across from me. We dug into our breakfast silently until I cleared my throat and said "Randy about last night-"

He stopped eating and looked up at me, a small smirk across his face. "You looked so sexy and innocent last night," he told me "And you look so beautiful when you sleep."

"It's not about that-"

"I spent too much on your gifts and it's making you uncomfortable, isn't it?"

"It isn't that either."

"Then what it is?"

"Last night when we were in bed and we were kissing, when you thought you were losing control and you pulled away, your eyes looked black and you looked so haunted-"

Randy put his fork down and looked at me. "What are you getting at Rowan?"

"Randy did something happen in your past that is still haunting you to this day?"

"Rowan we aren't having this discussion."

"Why not?"

"Because we aren't."

"Randy if something is haunting you I want to know."

He stood up and said "Nothing is haunting me. This discussion is over."

"How are we supposed to have a relationship if you don't trust me?" I asked him "How are we supposed to be together if you lie to me?"

"Now you're accusing me of lying?"

"Randy I know there's something in your past that's still haunting you, I can see it in your eyes."

He picked up his plate and put in the sink before turning to me and saying "Like I said this discussion is over. Finish up your breakfast, get dressed and grab your things, I'm taking you home."

"Randy-"

He didn't give me the chance to finish, he just walked out of the room, leaving me alone.

I picked up my plate and set it in the sink next to his and followed him into the bedroom where he was already in a pair of jeans and pulling on a black shirt. He stopped when he saw me. I walked past him and he grabbed my arm, turning me around to face him. "I'm sorry," he said softly "But there's just somethings about me and my life that you're better off not knowing."

"If I don't know you, how can we have a real relationship?" I asked quietly "How can I trust you if I don't know you?"

"Maybe you can't trust me and maybe we can't have a real relationship, maybe we're just fooling ourselves into believing this is possible."

"So you're breaking up with me?"

He let go of my arm and said "No I'm not breaking up with you, I just need time to think and so do you."

"There's nothing for me to think about Randy."

"Well then I need to think."

"Fine."

He grabbed his socks and shoes and said "I'll leave you alone to get dressed. Meet me in the living room when you're ready.

He left me alone and I quickly got dressed and went out to the living room where he was holding my gifts and jacket. I grabbed them from him silently and walked out the door, Randy following behind me.

The ride back to my house was uncomfortable and silent with only the radio doing any talking. When he pulled up to the front of the house he shut off the car and looked at me. "Rowan" he said softly.

I looked over at him and he caressed my cheek. "Rowan I want to keep you as pure and innocent as I can for as long as I can," he whispered "And if I tell you about my past, I ruin that, I ruin you and I can't let that happen."
"And what if I want to be ruined?" I asked him "What if I don't want to remain pure and innocent anymore? What if I want to know all about your past?"

"You don't want to be ruined and you don't want to know about my past, trust me."

I looked at him and said "Maybe I do have things to think about now."

"Rowan-"

I pulled away from him and opened my car door, getting out and slamming the door behind me. I heard his door open and him yell "Rowan!"

I turned to see him coming toward me. He pulled me into his arms and kissed me deeply and passionately, almost desperately. I held him back, tears forming behind my closed eyes. When we pulled apart he looked at me and said "I'm not letting you go no matter what. I just hope you feel the same."

He let me go and took a step back. "I'll give you space," he told me "Maybe that's what we need most right now, but when you're ready, you know where to find me."

With that said he got back into his car and drove off, leaving me alone.

Just yesterday everything was so good between us and now... I don't even know where we stand.

All I know is one way or another I'm going to find out what Randy's hiding from me.

What do you think Randy is hiding from Rowan?

Do you think Rowan will discover it on her own?

Or will Randy give in and tell her?

Review and let me know!