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As i have forgotten in all of the previous chapters i should probably note a disclaimer so here it is: i don not own Victorious!
"I think you should tell him" what was I thinking? God Tori do you actually want Jade to have another boyfriend. Could you seriously cope with that? It's been hard enough watching her with Beck, and he's your friend! Honestly, sometimes I wonder about my own sanity, do I like feeling hopeless or something? These thoughts and many others speculating who the lucky guy might be seem to consume my thoughts for the rest of the school day which to be honest is a complete blur. 'I do not want to talk about it, especially not with you!' of course she didn't, I honestly cannot tell you why I allowed myself to think even for the briefest moment that she would consider opening up to me.
"Ughh, at least now I can go home" I think to myself, then groan as I remember Danielle is coming over tonight, great just one more thing I don't need right now. You see Danielle, or Dani is my ex-girlfriend from my old school; we were together eleven months, but we broke up six months ago, she didn't take it very well so I agreed we could still be friends. What I didn't realise was that even after I started at Hollywood Arts she would still want to see me regularly. At least I can finally talk to someone who will understand how I am feeling I suppose. Also if I'm honest with myself I do still love having the girl in my life, the intimacy we once shared was special, it was a relationship full of firsts; first dates, first kisses, and truthfully the first time I had slept with a girl. It would have been a shame to completely wipe out someone who knew me so well.
On the surface it is easy enough to see certain similarities between Dani and Jade. They are both pale, with dark hair. Yet while Dani's skin is pale, it still doesn't have the same blemish free porcelain glow of Jade's, and her hair lacks the volume which leaves Jade's tumbling past her shoulders in loose curls. The most distinguished difference however is that Dani's hazel eyes pale in comparison to Jade's majestic blue/green orbs. None the less I'd say it's clear I have a 'type' as Andre would put it.
I'm lying back on my bed with my eyes closed and my headphones in, thinking about my earlier conflict with Jade when I feel the weight on my bed shift signalling that Dani has arrived. Pulling my headphones out and sitting up I flash her a smile,
"Hey" I say smirking; she's no Jade but dang she is still hot I think to myself.
"Hey to you too stranger!" she replies beaming at me, "I haven't seen you in forever! What has been going on with you?"
Thirty minutes later after giving her a complete explanation of my feelings for Jade and the issues surrounding them i.e. she's straight, and she appears to hate me. I have transformed into a blubbering mess with my head on her lap.
"Oh Tori, that sucks so much" she sympathises stroking my hair, "she's a fool Hunny, your gorgeous, loyal and so kind, she would be lucky to have you." She pauses briefly as if to think before continuing "I know you say there is no way she would like you, but maybe you should talk to her about it? You'll never truly know how she feels unless you give yourself a chance to find out."
"But she's straight Dani" I reply sitting up,
"Now Tori I don't know if you've forgotten; but that is what you thought about me until I told you otherwise. I must say your face was such a picture when I admitted to you that I was bisexual."
Memories flood through me, God she's right. How could I have forgotten that?
"You always have been the voice of reason haven't you" I smile, and she chuckles,
"Well you know I do try" she says suppressing a further laugh,
"So, are you free tomorrow night?" I enquire "see my friend Cat is having a party and Jade will be there, and to be honest unless your there I seriously doubt that there is any chance of me having the courage to talk to her about this, so maybe if you wouldn't mind-"
"Of course I'll come Tori" she cuts me off "look at that, who would have thought little old me would have ended up your wing man" she says laughing again. "So Mrs I guess the only question left; is what are you going to wear?"
"Ughhhhh!" I groan into my pillow realising that I'm going to have to make an effort for Jade; Dani however is in her element already at my wardrobe pulling out clothes. After a relentless forty minutes of trying on outfits its decided that I shall be wearing a short red strapless dress and some plain black heals because according to Dani my "arse looks amazing in it."
Its nine when she finally leaves, stating that she will be round tomorrow at five, Andre is getting here at seven. Right now I need to sleep because if I keep over analysing the possible outcomes of tomorrow I may go insane. God I hope things go well.
My night's sleep was far from satisfying, and stretching myself out of bed at 10AM I feel anything but relaxed. The morning passes exceptionally quickly, Trina had heard about the party and insisted on me giving her an opinion on every outfit she owned before ignoring what I had to say and settling on a hot pink denim playsuit and some ridiculously high healed purple boots.
After that ordeal five o'clock seemed to creep up on me and before I knew it the doorbell rang. Opening my door I was literally left speachless, Dani looked amazing; she had straightened her hair and was wearing an emerald coloured low cut dress which stopped mid way down her thighs.
"Wow" was all I could muster.
"Nice to see you again too" she giggled "I thought I might as well try to look good, after all if things go right for you and Jade I don't want to stand around alone all night, you never know I might find someone I think is cute" she states with a wink.
"Oh don't worry Dani you'll have them queuing up" I assure her.
The next couple of hours fly by, and not even ten minutes after I finish getting ready Andre arrives. I introduce him and Dani, leaving out the fact that she's my ex, and me him and Trina head to Cat's. To say I am nervous would be a gross understatement; this evening could end with me ridiculously happy or completely destroyed.
