Howdy :)

A couple of things, I'm glad you all like Cat, i know she is a little ooc but i refuse to beleive that she is actually as stupid as she appears on the show.

Something I forgot to do a few chapters back was say YAY! to Newsies73 For noticing my little switch up with Dani (having based her on the fact that in the show Tori has an ex-boyfriend called Danny)

Here come the disclaimers: Nope i still do not own Victorious , nor do i own the Skins qoute which i have embedded in this chapter!

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Monday morning I am beginning to regret my decision to put off talking to them; now I'm going to have to face them both. Dani and Andre had left around four last night and both of them had urged me to speak to at least Beck, seeing as I had made it clear that I was not ready to talk to Jade, I'm not sure I ever will be. I am happy to say however that my memory is nowhere near as foggy today as it had been the previous day, which makes day dreaming about kissing Jade far easier. For the most part of the morning I am in separate classes from the rest of the gang; I know that lunch however will be a completely different story. How am I supposed to cope with the two people I need to talk to sitting in such close proximity of each other?

Arriving at our usual lunch table everyone was present, except Jade, hmm I guess I don't have to deal with seeing them together yet I think to myself. It doesn't take long before talk turns to the party.

"Thank you so much for coming" squealed Cat "anyone got any exciting stories?" I could have sworn she looked at me when she said that, but why would she?

"I woke up in Tori's bath tub" Andre offers "apparently I convinced Dani to leave me there because I could turn the tap on if I got thirsty" he states with a shrug.

"I woke up on Cat's bedroom floor wearing a pink dress" Robbie muttered, everyone seemed to take great pleasure in continuing on with this story, everyone that is except Cat. What is going on with her? I start to think to myself.

"What about you two?" Cat asks motioning to Beck and I, "I heard you kissed"

"I-I what?" I gasp "who told you that?" panic is flooding through me, people cannot know about this.

"Oh, Jade told me; she saw you" Cat says nonchalantly "so what is the deal are you to like together now?"

Jade saw us? No, no, no! This cannot be happening. She saw us and I haven't talked to her since, what the hell must she be thinking? My mind seems to have shut down as I gawk at Cat across the table, my mouth hanging open. I want to respond, hell I need too! But I can't it is as if I am in a state of shellshock.

Luckily for me Beck is still as composed as ever and therefore able to explain,

"No Cat we are not together" as he says this I exhale deeply a breath that I hadn't been aware I was holding in, "We were just drunk, I missed Jade, Tori tried to hug me to comfort me but I turned it into a kiss, Tori pushed me away and now I feel really guilty" he states to the red haired girl, then turning to me he continues "I'm sorry Tori, I know I made you uncomfortable."

After briefly telling Beck that everything was fine, I grabbed Andre and bolted to the closest empty classroom.

"She saw! Now what the hell do I do?" I practically scream,

"Tori! Calm down" Andre replies "will you stop beating yourself up? Dani was right, you didn't initiate either kiss, you need to tell Jade that."

"How can I calm down? She isn't going to want anything to do with me now!"

"Jade is pretty mad" a voice states from the doorway, Cat had followed us, oh shit; how much had she overheard? Hang on what did she say?

"But she's hurt too, she really likes you Tori and after seeing you and Beck together she was a mess, she doesn't forgive easily."

"Wait a minute Little Red, how do you know all this?" Andre enquires, with the same level of confusion that I am feeling.

"Well Tori talked too you and Dani, Jade talked to me" she answers with a giggle. My god, she really isn't as dim-witted as we all assume her to be, and at this moment in time this one girl knows more about the predicament than anyone else. Jade 'was a mess' after seeing Beck and I kiss? So she does like me, oh my God I could have already screwed this up.

"Cat please, tell me what to do" I beg "how can I make this right?"

"You need to talk to her but it won't be easy, I know Jade; she is going to attempt to avoid this situation, avoid you, for as long as she can. Jade's best defence mechanism is to protrude hatred but she doesn't hate you, so no matter what she says or does you have to remember that." The girl pauses and sighs sadly before continuing, "She likes to believe that no one truly knows her; she is so good at hiding from and avoiding her feelings, concealing them from everyone else. But I do know her. And I know that she has got so much love in her heart. But the thought of letting it out, showing her cards, that scares her to death." At this moment in time with the words she's saying and the look on her face Cat Valentine appears to be the wisest person I have ever met.

"I'm going to make her listen, she needs to know the truth, and that I-I love her." I stammer "Could you drop me at her house after school Cat?" the girls nods, smiling in response and with that the bell sounds announcing the end of lunch. Heading towards my next lesson I sigh inwardly, tonight is going to be tough but I need her to hear me out, and I'm not going to give up until she listens.