Heyy guys

I only got 2 reviews on the last chapter :( does this mean its staring to get boring? should I continue?

Also i am slightly confused by the fact that chapter 6 has more views than chapters 4&5 :S did some people miss them?

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It has been almost weeks now since Jade and I finally admitted our feelings to each other. Weeks which have been wonderful; yet somehow also bittersweet. I have never been the type of girl to keep secrets from my friends, up until now both Andre and Dani have always known everything there is to know about me. But I had promised Jade, she says she isn't ready for people to know and although she won't admit it, I know it is because she is scared. She doesn't want to break her 'tough girl' image. I am honestly so happy to be with her but this is killing me, I've had to lie to my best friends, I am completely going behind Beck's back; and I just generally feel like a horrible person whenever I am left alone with my thoughts.

The day after we got together I wasn't sure of how to act at school, as soon as I had entered I was ambushed my Andre and Cat demanding to know what had happened.

"She wouldn't talk to me" I had said looking down at my feet, thankful that I could act.

Both of them had seemed shocked and had tried comforting me, but I had shrugged it off; I didn't deserve this; lying to them made me feel so dirty. Lunch that day had been interesting, Jade had joined us at the table and had behaved as if nothing at all had ever happened between us; she insulted me with her usual venom; however I could see a change in her eyes there was warmth in them where before they had always seemed icy cold. I took great pleasure in teasing her legs under the table with my foot and she had flashed me a look which said 'quit it'. I had noticed however that throughout the whole time Cat had her eyes practically glued to Jade. Sighing inwardly I thought to myself that Cat is going to want to talk to Jade about this.

Whilst time alone caused me to consider that what I was doing wrong, time spent with Jade had the total opposite effect. Every night after school I would return to her house, having told my parents we were working on a school project. I can't believe I ever coped without being able to hold and kiss her. And my god the girl is an amazing kisser, she causes my inhibitions to melt away, I seem to vanish into her all other aspects of the world disappear completely. It is as if time stands still for us.

Tonight however is Friday, and the first night I am to spend with Jade, a full night lying in her arms. I know that I am ready to take our relationship to the next level; however I am not sure about Jade. Sure I know she must have slept with Beck before, a fact which makes me feel slightly ill, but I am certain that she has never experienced sex with a woman. The prospect of being the one to show her the way fills me with delight, but seeing as I know what it's like I am also hungry for it to happen. I don't want to push her too soon though; I definitely do not want to take that step unless she is completely ready. But seeing as I have been ready since the start I have decided that tonight shall be the first time I broach the subject to her.

My first time with Dani had also been her first time; needless to say we were both clumsy and very unsure of our actions. But as time went by we had become more sure of ourselves and much as I don't like to boast we had gotten pretty fucking good at it. After Dani I had only slept with one other person, and that was four months ago now; being with Jade and not touching her was really testing my self-restraint.

The excitement pumping through my body as I thought of the night ahead caused my day to pass in a whirlwind of a blur; nothing that my teachers of friends had said to me throughout the day had even penetrated my thoughts. I don't think I have managed to put together a full sentence once today, until the car ride home with Trina.

"Tori!" she screeches pouting "why are you not listening to me!"

"Oh sorry, my mind was somewhere else" I reply

"Clearly, but I am more important so listen! I said why didn't you tell me Beck is single now?"

"Errm I guess I didn't think you needed to know" I state honestly

"Didn't need to know?" she questions looking outraged at the thought "in case you haven't noticed baby sister he is one of the hottest guys at our school! God just because you prefer bumping muff with other girls doesn't mean you are blind to male beauty does it?" she throws at me

"TRINA!" I exclaim blushing furiously "don't say it like that!"

"Whatever Tor. Just tell me if it is true."

"Yes he's single, but he still loves Jade" I answer honestly, a pang of guilt stabs me as I say it.

"Yer well things can change that" she responds wriggling her eyebrows and poking her tongue out. "Can you talk to him for me?"

Groaning I begin to argue but she quickly pulls out the 'I'm your sister card' and I reluctantly agree, "But you owe me!" I growl at her.

"Yer sure what do you want?" she says seeming displeased at the idea

"Drop me at Jades at six." I respond, before quickly adding "she has invited Cat and me for a sleepover." In order to cover the real reason.

"That it?" she questions and I nod in response "Well consider it done." She says smiling; probably thinking that she has gotten off easy.

Once we arrive home I practically run to my room, locking my door behind me, and jump straight in the shower in my en suit bathroom. Once done I select my underwear for the night, if all goes to plan this choice could be essential. I finally settle on violet lace French panties and a matching bra which just happens to push my boobs to look bigger than they actually are. Over the top I pull on some jet black skinny jeans that cling to my butt in just the right way and a low cut white vest top, I smile thinking to myself that I might as well show off the effect m bra has produced and after grabbing a cardigan and slapping on some fresh make up I am ready to go. "Let the games begin" I mutter under my breath.