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Staring down at my phone screen I gulped, Cat couldn't have sent that text at a worse time if she had tried, raising my eyes to meet Jade's I offer her a smile; but her brow is etched into a deep frown.
"We're not going." She states
"What? Cat, our friend, has invited us to a sleepover and you just expect me not to go?"
"You agreed to no more sleepovers with Dani!" she says her voice rising.
"I didn't agree to ones that she would be attending with other people, besides how strange is it going to look if neither of us turn up? You won't let me tell them that we are together so how would I explain it?" I exclaim, anger burning through me.
"You lie Tori, jeeze it's not hard.
"I hate lying! It's bad enough that I have to lie about us!" I snap, "I'm going tomorrow night Jade. You can either come with me; and see that nothing will happen, or sit at home imagining scenarios that are not going to happen. It's your choice.
How did this happen? Not too long ago we were sharing the most intimate moment of our relationship so far, it has not yet been an hour since she had me convulsing beneath her, yet now we are basically at each other's throats.
"Fine go, of course I'm coming too, I'm going to be keeping a close watch on Dani."
"You have nothing to worry about, I'm sure it will be fun. It's going to be hard to keep my hands to myself with you sleeping in the same room though." I tease.
Raising an eyebrow she smirks at me, "now now Vega, once the lights go out I have no intention of keeping my hands to myself, so you'd better know how to be quiet."
My face flushes scarlet and my eyes widen "you cannot be serious?" I question, despite the fact that I think she probably is.
"Oh but I can! Now lie down, I'm tired and you my lovely are going to cuddle me too sleep."
"I'd love to" I respond; leaning down to kiss her, then I lie down next to her and wrap my arms around her. "I love you" I whisper into her hair.
"Love you too Vega" she responds pushing back into me so that we are spooning. It isn't long before we both drift off to sleep.
The sound of my phone ringing catapults me from a deep sleep.
"Hello?" I grumble into it, glancing over to the clock on Jade's bed side table I learn that it is already 10AM.
"Do not even tell me that you have just woken up!" Trina's shrill voice echoes down the pone.
"What do you want Trina?"
"I want to know when you are going to talk to Beck of course; I've already kept my end of the deal after all Tori"
Sighing into the phone as I realise she is right "yer sure errm look can you pick me up in half an hour and drop me at his RV, I'll do it then." The last person I want to talk to right now is Beck but there is no way Trina is going to drop this.
"Ughh Fine! But you better be ready when I get there!" and with that the line goes dead.
"RV? As in Beck's RV?" Jade's voice questions
"Yep that is the one. Trina seems to think I will be able to convince him to date her." I reply causing Jade to explode into a laughing fit.
"Good luck with that then, but half an hour Tori? That not nearly enough time."
"Enough time for wh-" I start but I'm cut off when her lips push upon mine. "Oh" is all I can manage as her hand starts stroking across my clit, maybe half an hour really isn't enough time.
Twenty five minutes later when a car horn sounds from outside we are a mess of entangled limbs collapsed on top of each other, both of us trying to catch our breath. Groaning I pull myself up and search the floor for my clothes. Dragging them onto my body I catch sight of myself in Jade's mirror "Christ I look a mess" I mutter to myself.
"You look beautiful babe, but you definitely have sex hair" Jade giggles from the bed.
"Not funny." I say trying to pull a stern face, but a laugh escapes my body betraying me. Hearing the horn sound again I sigh, "Got to run babe" I say leaning in to kiss her goodbye, "I'll let you know how this pans out."
"Can't wait she responds.
"Tori! What on earth took you so long? Jade didn't try to kill you or something did she?" Trina exclaims when I reach her car.
"No, just couldn't find my shoes" I reply, smiling to myself. I wonder what Trina would say if she knew the truth.
I soon tune Trina out as she begins a one sided conversation about herself, and all the qualities she processes which I should tell Beck about. My mind has strayed away to think of the extent to which I am currently betraying Beck. He is my friends, how did I get here? My hair is a mess; or as jade put it, I have "sex hair", will he know? What would he say even if he did know? But it's worth it, I tell myself, Jade is worth this, and I couldn't stop now even if I wanted to.
"Are you getting out or what?" Trina asks, dragging me away from my thoughts.
"Yep just making sure I remembered all of your talents, I don't want to miss any out" I respond, and the smile which breaks out across her face tells me she didn't catch my sarcasm.
"Thank you so much for doing this Tori, love you" she says as I as pulls away leaving me with nothing to do other than talk to him.
The door swings open mere seconds after I knock,
"Tori?" he questions "Hey"
"Hey Beck, sorry to just turn up but well Trina wants me to convince you too date her" I mumble
"No problem. And wow err tell her I said I'll think about it. Anyway how are you I haven't really had a chance to speak to you since-" he trails off.
"Can we just forget about it? We were drunk and you were emotional, and to be honest so was I, so it really doesn't matter."
"Yes, that I was" he laughs "it's just this whole Jade thing, I really love her you know" his brow forms a slight frown. "So you're gay then? You sure kept that one quiet."
"Yer I guess I did, but I guess I thought it didn't really matter. Dani, the girl who came with me; she's my ex-girlfriend" I reply awkwardly.
"Ahh I see." He seems to be thinking about something, my heart is pounding, please don't let him know about me and Jade I repeat in my head. "Would you do me a favour Tori?" he asks.
"Umm yes of course what is it?"
"Well she would kill me if she knew I was telling you this; but the person Jade left me for; it's a girl. I don't know who it is or anything; I'd like too but she won't tell me. Maybe you could talk to her, get her to open up and give her some advice or something?" my heart sinks as I hear these words leave his mouth.
"I have spoken to her a bit since you two broke up" I say trying to keep my voice even, "I-I think she is seeing someone Beck." I say bracing myself for his response.
"She is?" he says, his voice starting to break "do you know who it is?" I watch a tear slide from his cheek as he says this and I feel my heart break a little. Words cannot express how much I want to tell him the truth, I want to give him the chance to hate me, but I promised Jade I wouldn't so for now I will have to settle with hating myself.
"N-no" I stutter, god I've always sucked at lying, however Beck doesn't seem to notice. "Maybe you should try dating someone, just to try and move on?" I suggest.
"Thanks for telling me Tori, I really just want to know that she is ok. Like if I knew who it was I could keep an eye on them, make sure they couldn't hurt her. After everything we have been through I guess I thought she would want my approval or something, which sounds stupid I know because she doesn't need my approval. I just feel like I've lost my best friend as well as my girlfriend. I mean I haven't seen her once in the last two weeks other than at school." Tears are gliding down his face and I want to be able to say something to comfort him, but I seem to be unable to form words. "I mean she has even seen you Tori, not to be harsh but isn't she supposed to hate you?"
"Oh I was with Cat" I stammer in explanation, "I'll talk to her Beck, I'll let her know how you feel. She cares about you loads, I know that for a fact, I guess she's just been too busy with her new- umm her new girlfriend. She would never mean to make you feel like this."
"Thanks Tori" he sighs pulling me into a hug "you such a good friend."
I feel my eyes start too pool with tears, and realise I have got to get out of here fast or I am going to crack, to tell him everything.
"I'm always going to be here for you ok? But I've got to go right now, I need to spend some time at home, Cat's having a sleepover tonight, Jade should be there I will try to talk to her then."
He hugs me tighter still as we say our goodbyes, tears threatening to stream from my eyes; but I hold them back until I leave; on the walk home I allow them to run freely down my face, not caring about people seeing them, I feel like it's the only way I am able to display my shame right now. I'll have to tell my parents that I'm staying at Dani's tonight seeing as they thought I was at Cat's last night, this is getting too complicated.