50 Sentences #2

Disclaimer: I don't own anything. :( it's a very depressing thought.

Rating: T

Summary: Ed loves Roy, but he's getting married. Onesided!Ed/Roy Onesided!Riza/Roy

Note: I'm sorry this is late. I have another story to post sometime today or tomorrow and am working on another to post this weekend as well to make up for it.

Walking

Ed had vowed to never stop walking before his Automail recovery had even finished but that didn't mean that he always wanted to.

Waltz

As a boy, Roy had learned to waltz from his father; as a child, Ed had learned from books—and there wasn't a moment that went by as he stood on the sidelines, watching, that he wasn't jealous of the woman and her partner's graceful moves because there was no way he could move like that, too, with or without Roy as his partner.

Wishes

Ed often has to wish for the strength to move on—especially every time that he remembers Mustang is straight and there was no way he would be kept on their team once they found out how bent he was.

Wonder

Havoc often wondered when it would be; when Ed would muster up the balls to tell the team what he—the most homophobic person there was—already knew.

Worry

Riza often worried over the man; he was young and shouldn't know how to care for himself as well as he does, but nevertheless he took everything in stride—including Mustang's engagement to another woman.

Whimsy

Ed realized only after the second sip of his beer that Havoc inviting him out to drinks that same night, apart from everyone else, hadn't been a fleeting whim and the smile that touched his face was the warmest it had been in a long time as he realized this man didn't care.

Waste/Wasteland

Ed supposed that getting wasted that night had been exactly what he needed as he noticed the couple kissing outside their apartment and reminded him of his dilemma; that reminded him of the love that was getting away.

Whiskey and Rum

The choice between whiskey and rum had been a hard one and in the end it was the letter on the rest of his mail that morning that had made the decision for him.

War

"Boss," Havoc's voice called his attention and he turned from where he stood, waiting for the train, to where the man walked forward and tilted his head "isn't this train for the warfront" but Ed was certain that it was his answer that was more unnerving than the question; he nodded and stepped forward as it pulled into the station.

Weddings

Roy wouldn't be able to have his wedding when he was missing his Best Man and best friend; he had talked to Mariselle and they had agreed to wait for their call to war to end and for them to come home before the wedding.

Birthday

Ed's birthday had come and gone on the battlefield—it had been the day he watched Havoc get shot in the chest and fall down as they were talking about why he liked Mustang.

Blessing

With all the blood the man had lost, Ed was positive it had been a blessing from some form of deity that existed somewhere out there that Havoc had cracked his eye open hours after his last-minute surgery and continued on with his sentence like nothing had happened.

Bias

It may have been his own personal bias, but watching Havoc return home in heavy gauze made Roy realize how much more that man deserved to have taken the train than the woman from Xing who wanted no more than a new life.

Burning

The smell of burning flesh was what awoke Ed, only for him to find that a great deal of his side was on fire from where the last bomb had exploded as he pushed Hawkeye—who had been sent in Havoc's stead—out of the way.

Breathing

If he was going to survive loosing so much of him, he had to control his breathing but it seemed that the longer he lay there, paralyzed, the less he could do just that.

Breaking

His life had hit the breaking point as he realized that this pain was better than the pain Mustang caused him and he let his eyes slide shut, envying it for the past few moments of his life as it was released from his hands, flowing as soft as silk—just like Hawkeye's hands as they fisted in his chest and she screamed his name.

Belief

"Thank God you're alive Edward," someone's voice cried in his ear and it didn't bother him at all as the guilt swept him at his shatei's* voice.

Balloon

"Life's a balloon," Havoc laughed and rolled his eyes as he fell back in his chair, relaxing "I've just yet to figure out why."

Balcony

The hospital he was at wasn't known to the Military; he was safe here with Al and Havoc knowing his whereabouts while everyone was at the office scared shitless—because that way, as he looked over the balcony into the pastured distance, he would know that on some level Mustang did care for him.

Bane

"Mustang's the bane of my existence," Ed would always say, but the fact that Havoc knew otherwise was what made it useless.

Quiet

They were both quiet on Havoc's birthday—Ed and he—but Havoc knew it had everything to do with Mustang and not with him.

Quirks

"I thought you were homophobic," Ed pointed out, but it was when Havoc nodded and said what he said next that made his eyes fill with tears; "that doesn't mean you don't deserve a chance at happiness."

Question

"Why have you been here for me this entire time, Havoc" Ed asked, quietly, no louder than a whisper to which Havoc shrugged and admitted "You're in love."

Quarrel

Edward would never admit it, but the fight he had had with Mustang the day he had shown up at work after his month-long absence was what took most of the life out of him—moreso than the fact that he could no longer trust himself.

Quitting

Havoc sat next to Ed at the bar and nudged his side a little to get his attention; "Quitting won't do you any good—that's what Hughes said to me when Mustang stole the twelfth girl from me and I've only ever had twelve girlfriends."

Jump

Mustang was the kind of man that when he said 'jump' people would ask 'how high' but when Havoc reported to him one morning and not Mustang, he could see the latter question in his eyes.

Jester

"I'm no court jester," Havoc said, and his country-boy accent was thick and obvious as he muttered to the sky "I'm just a guy who knows what you're going through."

Jousting

"Really now—you feel you've been speared through the heart with a jousting spear—or whatever they call them—too?"

Jewel

Edward wasn't someone you could foul easily so when Mustang's fiancée walked in, he had known instantly the jewel of the man's life would be the diamond cutting his apart.

Just

"I was about your age," Havoc explained as they ate their lunch on the HQ's rooftop, away from where the bustle was so they could be alone, "maybe a little younger, when I proposed to her but it turned out she had been cheating on me the entire time and was already engaged to someone else."

Smirk

Ed smirked as he swallowed his small bite and muttered "no rest for the wicked, huh?"

Sorrow

It was when Ed had found Hawkeye bawling her eyes out in the park on his way home that he realized he wasn't the only one losing the love of their life.

Stupidity

"He's always been a stupid man," Riza cried softly into his shoulder, "but before now he's always been my stupid man."

Serenade

The bedclothes' soft serenade only sounded in Hawkeye's apartment hours after she had cried herself to sleep in the park and Ed had gotten the courage to carry her home.

Sarcasm

"No, Full Metal, I really love you," Mustang rolled his eyes to which Ed scowled, scoffed, and slammed the door shut behind him—not because he said it, but because he didn't mean it and never would.

Sordid

Havoc and Hawkeye betrayed Mustang's order to not follow Edward and not to let him back into the outer office for the rest of the week—that was nothing new—but it was when the latter turned to him, glared, and slammed the door behind her that he realized how sordid the order had been.

Soliloquy

"I wonder when Macbeth's soliloquy will come," Ed muttered as he was told the order the other man had said; "It won't be much longer now until the end of the play, after all."

Sojourn

Ed shut his eyes and remembered Germany before he wondered why he had only made it sojourn; why didn't I stay?

Share

Ed met Mariselle two days before hers and Mustang's wedding and he knew that there would be no sharing here—he had already known, granted, but this just solidified it.

Solitary

Ed had wondered if his promotion to Lieutenant Colonel (because of the war, sadly) would put him alone, but the moment immediately after it, Havoc handed him his and Hawkeye's transfer papers simply saying "it's not worth being under him anymore."

Nowhere

He didn't want to leave Mustang stranded and neither did the other two so they agreed together that they would boost him for the top, even if no one knew and even if he never found out—because they liked it that way.

Neutral

Ed had kept his face neutral any time he had met with anyone else from his old office years after his promotion but it was definitely the hardest on him to see the other two the same exact way any time Mustang showed up.

Nuance

The blond could see every little thing on Mustang's coat from where he sat in the pews closest to the back of the Church.

Near

He wanted nothing more than to go up to him and clean him off—in more ways than one.

Natural

"It's natural to feel this way around someone you love," Hawkeye told him, honestly, but he couldn't tell if it was for his sake or hers.

Horizon

The doors opened in the back and they turned to watch was their sun of hope begun to set over the horizon.

Valiant

It had taken a lot to muster up the courage and say "congrats but you're still a jackass" when the engagement had been announced and looking back he truly saw himself as a hero—because at least then he was able to speak to the man of his dreams.

Virtuous

Ed wasn't very virtuous yet still, as he waited there, he became more and more patient—only because he couldn't admit to himself that Mustang's near-devastation was making him hopeful.

Victory

Victory slipped from both his and Hawkeye's grasp as their knees locked and the Minister asked "Does anyone object to this union?"

Defeat

"I do."

*shatei : little brother (it's like aniki, only for little and not older)