Upon arriving home last night my mood had transferred from elated to dismal. My parents had literally torn into me about the lack of time I had spent at home over the weekend; and long story short I am grounded for a week. Jade would not take that well; however I would not trade the brief time we had spent together this evening for anything. 'I just wish I could be with you always' she had said; the feeling was most definitely mutual; I'm not sure if Jade has captured my heart or if I have given it to her, but one thing that I do know is that it now belongs to her and I have no desire to reclaim it. I had vowed to myself there and then that I would find a way around this grounding; the idea of spending a week away from her was impossible to comprehend.

Trina is in an exceptionally blissful mood this morning; not even my unimpressed attitude can cast a shadow over it. Beck and her have arraigned to go on a date tonight; something Trina has been hopeful for as since she first laid eyes on him. But whilst I am happy for her I cannot help but question his motives. The concept that he would both flaunt his body to Jade in an attempt to seduce her, and ask out my sister; in the same day baffles me. Words cannot describe the level of unease and anger that this fuels inside me. The two girls who mean more to me than anyone else; my sister and my girlfriend, have both been hit on by Beck, someone whom I consider to be my friend, mere hours apart. I will not let him hurt them. Whilst it could be said that I am being a terrible friend at this moment in time and that I am betraying his trust; I still believe there is a colossal difference between that and what he is doing. He is manipulating people's feelings in a feeble attempt to mask his own feelings of helplessness and hurt; this in my opinion renders him somewhat inhumane.

The only noticeable difference throughout the first half of the school day was the severe distance; both emotionally and physically, between Beck and Jade. Andre, Cat and I tried to remain on neutral ground by simply ignoring the situation between them as it surrounded us, and Robbie remained blissfully unaware. Lunch hour however was proving to be more difficult. Andre and I had headed for our usual table together; but had paused upon noticing that only Beck and Robbie were sitting at it, and that Jade and Cat were situated on a different table all together. After a brief discussion about where we should sit, both Andre and I join Beck and Robbie. On my way over to the table I catch Jades glance and smile apologetically.

Andre has been the one to point out that whilst my heart may be screaming at me to sit with Jade; to others this would seem odd. As far as my fellow students; Robbie and Beck included, knew Jade still hated me. Beck is one of my friends where as Jade is considered an enemy, it would be illogical for me to sit with her rather than him under such assumptions. I can only hope that she realises this.

"Hey guys" I offer upon arriving at the table, both Beck and Robbie reply in a similar manner.

"Why are we missing half the group today then?" Andre asks pretending to be ignorant of what is going on.

"Jade is a bitch." Beck spits out in an aggressive manner causing me to flinch. "I don't want her anywhere near me."

"Whoa." Andre blurts out cutting him off, "I know you broke up and everything, but when did you two stop talking?"

"When she stopped considering me her friend. When she cut me out completely. When she refused to be honest with me. And when I realised that the only thing worse than wanting somebody, is knowing you can never have them" he states trailing off.

"I'm sure she still wants to be your friend" I begin, trying desperately to keep my voice even, but he cuts me off.

"Oh you're 'sure' are you Tori? I don't mean to be blunt but let's face facts you don't know fucking anything about her! I get that you want to make me feel better, but don't bother. I've already found someone who will be more than willing to take my mind off of things." A sickening feeling sets in my stomach as I realise what he means by this.

"Who? What? I'm lost now." Robbie stammers seeming shell shocked by the entirety of conversation flowing around him.

"I mean that I have decided to date someone new; someone who will do anything to be able to call me theirs." He responds smirking.

"But who?" Robbie repeats looking just as confused as he had a moment ago.

"Trina" Beck laughs "The girl actually thinks I like her."

"Not cool Beck, that's Tori's sister!" Andre exclaims seeming genuinely shocked at the malice Beck is protruding. My body has frozen to the stop and I seem to be unable to react.

"What? You know what they say, any hole is a goal." He smirks, "it's not like anyone actually likes her. This way I have my own stress relieving tool and get to fuck Jade off at the same time its perfect." This causes something inside me to snap.

"A 'stress relieving tool?' She is my sister Beck! What the fuck is wrong with you? And you want Jade to be 'fucked off'? Hurt? Why? I thought you loved her. Why would you want her to feel like that? I get that you are hurting but that doesn't give you the right to create a path of destruction. And if you are intent on behaving this way then I want nothing more to do with you!" I scream flinging my lunch tray across the table and jumping to my feet before tearing away from him.