7. No good deeds
Hello lovelies, hope you all enjoyed chapter six. I would like to say thank you once more to all who have reviewed, followed or favourited my story, I seriously love you guys, and if there is ever a Tumblr/fanfiction gathering in the London area, I would love to meet you all :D Hope you guys enjoyed the playlist as well and let me know if there is anything you would like me to add to it for future chapters. The title for this chapter was indeed inspired by the song from Wicked. It's because the lyrics suit Loki so well. Loki believes everything he does in both Thor and the Avengers is for the best. He sees his actions as good deeds and feels he is being punished for them, just like poor little Elphaba. Ok, once more, I own nothing other than Daya (but what I wouldn't give to own Loki) so with that, enjoy!
Loki paced the throne room, his mind unsettled. He finally realised that his power and plans for the future of Asgard were no longer a comfort to him if he had nobody to share them with. Daya had spent his reign walking by his side when he wasn't sneaking off looking forlorn. He didn't know whether her vanished attempts at trying to uncover the truth were a relief or a worry. Had she given up on him? He thought. Does she no longer care for me or what I plan?
In truth he could not blame Daya for her behaviour. She had been nothing but loyal to him, her misery had only been brought on by Loki's secrets, so finally, he decided to come clean with her. After all, she had bared her soul to him only the day after they had met, he deserved the same treatment.
He found her sitting in her favourite spot. The balcony in their chambers. One of her legs hanging carelessly over the edge. She turned and smiled at him, throwing a fresh orange at him. He caught it in one hand and put it aside. Her smile faded once she noticed he wasn't in a good mood. He sat opposite her on the balcony wall, running a smooth hand over her foot softly.
"My darling, I must tell you something. I know you know I have kept secrets from you and I feel now I must speak the truth, and beg your forgiveness for my dishonesty".
Daya breathed a sigh of relief, finally glad Loki was going to open up to her about his recent actions. She nodded once as Loki stumbled on his words, not entirely sure where to start.
"It was I, who was the traitor that allowed the frost giant's access to Asgard the day of Thor's accession to the throne. I only did it because it was the last resort I could think of, so Thor wouldn't be crowned. I couldn't allow the people of Asgard to suffer at the hands of an idiotic king. I also may have persuaded Thor to take drastic action after Laufey invaded. It was so the focus would be taken off trying to find the traitor who was responsible for the frost giant's invasion."
Daya stared at Loki, unsure of how to respond, she could hear the words he spoke but wasn't clear on what he meant, she couldn't believe he had been the traitor, she couldn't believe his words had been the ones to spur Thor on with the idea of travelling to Jotunheim.
"I couldn't get caught Daya. Odin has never had the same amount of love in his heart for me that he has for Thor. If I had been caught Odin may have imprisoned me for life, maybe even sentenced me to death. Even banishment would have been too hard for me; I couldn't bear the thought of being away from you. So I phrased my words to make Thor want to travel to Jotunheim. Believe me my love when I say I had no idea Odin would banish him for his mistake. My mistake. I thought with fathers past treatment of Thor, my brother would get away with a simple verbal warning."
Daya gave Loki a sad smile, she had never seen him so shook up. She knew it was hard for Loki to admit all that to her. Even if he was known for his verbal talents, he found it hard to admit the truth a lot of the time, especially when it was truth that involved Loki making a mistake. Despite the awful mistakes he had made, she was proud he had finally admitted everything to her.
"Thank you for telling me all this Loki. I understand your actions, they may have gotten out of your control but I understand why you did what you did. Perhaps, to make all this better once more, we should invite Thor back to Asgard, and accept whatever happens on his return."
Loki frowned, how could Daya believe in Thor over him? How could she want him to be king over her own husband?
"You want him back?" Loki gritted his teeth.
"No Loki. I love things the way they are, you deserve to be king, but Thor deserves to be back home, you know that as well as I do."
Loki bowed his head, once again he knew his wife's words were true.
"That's not all I lied about my love".
"Go on" she replied.
"I visited Midgard. I told Thor Odin was, dead. I said it because I didn't want him to return to Asgard to become king. He has friends on Midgard now, I thought perhaps he would mourn his father's death there, with them, and leave Asgard to me."
She frowned and inhaled deeply. "Loki, you told your own brother that your father died?"
Loki rose from the balcony and stood next to Daya. "They are not my family! They never were!"
Daya also rose from her seat and stood in-front of Loki, she was still a good five inches smaller than him but could still stand her ground when she tried.
"They are as much your family as I am Loki. They love you!" She told him forcefully.
"They lied to me!" Loki cried out.
"You lied to me! You have been doing so since you became king, that doesn't make me love you any less Loki".
Loki shook his head. "That was different Daya. I lied to protect you, so people couldn't possibly question you over my actions. I did it to keep you happy, you like being queen do you not?"
"I have loved watching your rise to power. You know I have wanted nothing but your success. However now I know the true manner of your rule, I don't know how I feel. Loki, you must come clean to everyone. You must make this all right again, do it before people see your choices as selfish and wrong. Do it so people see you as I see you, a great ruler, and an even greater man."
Loki's eyes filled with tears as Daya spoke. Feeling that his own wife, the only one that had always trusted and believed in him, was losing faith in him. He took hold of her hands in his own.
"I have already begun to make amends my darling. I travelled to Jotunheim, to speak to Laufey. I told him I would allow him entrance to Asgard so he could kill Odin himself, but when he arrives Daya I will kill Laufey myself. I'll erase my heritage, kill that monster once and for all, nobody will ever have to mention Laufey again, and nobody will ever know I am his son. Then I will free Asgard from the threat of the Frost giant's, I will destroy Jotunheim."
Daya's head span as she took in his words. She felt weak, it was all too much for her to understand.
"Wait" she whispered. "Wait, you plan to destroy Jotunheim?"
He nodded, and Daya saw a spark of insanity within him, never seeing his eyes filled with such a hatred for something before.
"You can't destroy Jotunheim Loki. Not an entire race."
He laughed manically. "Why not? They destroy others, they have done nothing but kill, and nobody would miss them".
Daya squeezed his hands, pulling herself closer to him. "They have women, and children. Wives and husbands just like us. Loki, my darling, I understand. I know you believe wiping out the frost giants will erase the shame you feel from your true origins, but it won't Loki. It will only make you more like them. I don't want to see my husband with innocent blood on his hands. I don't want to see you turn into something I know you will live to regret."
Loki looked at her longingly. He knew she was right, but he had already set his plans in his motion. There was no way he could stop all of it now. Laufey was probably already on the way to Asgard, and even if Loki could stop him, the people of Asgard would see their king as a failure. A disgrace, they would see him as the king that couldn't even go through with even the worst of his plans. He wanted, he needed to prove his worthiness, one way or another.
"It's too late Daya. I can't change anything now, it's already happening."
A single tear fell from Daya's eye, she didn't know what she could possibly say that would persuade Loki to change his mind.
"I fear you are making choices I cannot support Loki" she frowned.
"So I am alone in all this then?" Loki asked, looking at Daya with a furious expression. It was one of the very few times he had looked on his wife with any sense of anger.
"I don't want you to feel alone my husband. Never. I could never leave you alone, but I beg of you to reconsider your plans" Daya pleaded, holding onto Loki's arm.
He held her close and stroked her face. "I will make a better world for us Daya, for all of us, for the whole of Asgard. We will never have to fear monsters again, I will rid the world of them forever."
Daya cried silent tears, and closed her eyes as she felt Loki's tender touch against her cheek. How could such a gentle man have such destructive plans set in motion?
"Please don't cry my love. I cannot bear to see you cry. It pains me to see you so hurt, I promise you everything will be better soon."
Daya made a desperate noise as Loki kissed her cheek and pulled away from her, leaving her alone once more.
She paced the room, thinking desperately on what to do to stop Loki from destroying Jotunheim. She found herself wishing for something she never thought she would. She wished Thor would return, if Daya could not talk sense into Loki, perhaps Thor could.
An unmistakable sound alerted Daya to more danger. She ran to the vault, where the sound had come from and saw Loki walking away from the destroyer.
"Loki, what is happening?" she asked, striding towards him.
"I have sent the destroyer to Midgard, to stop Thor from returning to Asgard. To stop him from meddling in my plans" Loki answered her.
She shook her head again violently. "Have you completely lost your mind Loki? The destroyer will not only hurt your own brother, but it will kill anything in its path. Innocent Midgardians will die."
Loki's fists curled up in tight balls, Daya had never questioned him like this before, and she had never questioned insanity. "You think I have gone mad?"
"Loki, please, I beg of you to stop this madness. I know you have not lost your mind, but you are not thinking clearly, please, let's just stop all this, and return to our chambers, and forget all of this happened. Let's just go back to the way things were, before you wanted to seize power, and destroy an entire realm."
Something inside of Loki, a dark place inside of him took over for only a brief moment. "Who are you to question my actions? You act like you are so innocent, my sweet goddess of compassion, but I know your secret. You have killed before. You struck your own father down, so who are you to question my actions as king?"
As soon as the words left Loki's mouth he regretted them. He felt a wave of sickness pass over him as he stared at the deep hurt on his wife's face. "I am so sorry Daya, I don't know what came over me, I didn't mean it. I'm so sorry, please forgive me" Loki pleaded with her.
She turned away from him, tears streaming from her face, unable to face Loki after his harsh words.
He raced after her and pulled her back into his embrace. "Please Daya, I know it's too late, I know I have hurt you, I know I said the one thing that you have every right to hate me for, but please, forgive me. Forgive me for all of this, for everything, please" Loki wept as he fell to his knees in-front of her.
She wiped her tears away and reached a hand down to stroke his hair, knowing he was truly sorry for what he had said. "I know you didn't mean it Loki, but I can't protect you from your mistakes anymore. I will always love you, I will always stay by your side, but you need to figure this out on your own. You need to find your way, I cannot support this madness. I will be waiting for you when the aftermath of all this arrives. I love you" she told him before reluctantly pulling away from him and returning to their rooms, hoping desperately Loki would make the right choice in the end. Hoping for a miracle.
So a fairly short chapter, it was Loki's and Daya's first argument, the first time Daya has ever disagreed with Loki's choices. The next chapter will be a big one, I promise you that. This one was just a filler, just to show Loki's dark side and to show that their relationship isn't all rainbows and smiles all the time. I am battling a really horrible cold right now so I have had a lot of time to write, I cannot promise that I will be able to update every day forever. I have to maintain some sort of social life ha-ha, but I promise I will update things as soon as I can. Don't worry I have the next chapter sorted already, and loads of ideas in the pipeline. Don't give up on the story guys, I promise to never be one of those people that updates and then leaves it for a month, I would rather end it completely and then work on a sequel than abandon it for that long. I am thinking of being super nice and uploading another chapter tonight seeing as this one was so small. What do you guys think? Until next time