9. Is it madness? Is it?
Oh yeah guys, a title named after a Loki quote. I hope last chapter was good, I originally was going to put half the material of this into the last one, but I decided last minute to split it up into two chapters, didn't want too much happening in one, otherwise you guys might have just exploded from all the Loki and Daya feels… but mostly Loki feels. This chapter kind of shows Loki isn't the only one that can seem a bit crazy sometimes. It also addresses something that annoyed me in the avengers which was when Thor tells Loki they did mourn his loss, which was bullshit because they were all having a big party, and only three people seemed to care that he had gone. So here you see Daya's response to all that. Here we go, enjoy. Once more, I own nothing but Daya.
Daya hadn't moved from her chambers since Loki had fallen. Not that she could have gotten far anyway, Thor had guards following her around everywhere. One night, three days after the incident at the Bifrost, Odin had organised a celebratory feast in honour of Thor's return.
Daya could hear the sounds of people laughing and talking even from her rooms. She drank red wine as she listened to the noises of the party, growing more bitter by the minute.. As she drank more and more, her senses began to dull and she decided to venture out of her chambers and make her way down to the halls. The young, slightly intoxicated goddess stumbled through the corridors, a wine goblet still in her hand, her make-up running down her face from the tears she had endlessly cried.
As she crossed the halls, she stood by the throne, in-front of all the people sat at the tables, watching on in disgust.
"Look at you all, feasting and celebrating" she spoke up. They all turned to watch Daya, she swayed in place and gave them all false smiles.
"You all talk of honour and pride, but I see none of that present here. You should all be mourning. Mourning your former king but none of you even care, you act as if nothing has happened at all. You all disgust me. Did any of you mourn? Did nobody cry a single tear? Did you really care about the loss when you heard the news? Do any of you hurt as I do? All you ever cared about, all you will ever care about is your precious God of thunder. Thor, did you know all Loki ever wanted to be was your equal? You failed him" Daya frowned as she turned to address Thor.
He stood up and glared at Daya angrily.
"Ooh scary. Is the great and noble Thor angry with me? Strike me, go on then. I have nothing left to lose, you might as well kill me. I was dead as soon as Loki was lost to me. You would just be forgiven anyway, because everybody here loves you so very much" Daya laughed sarcastically.
"Loki will be remembered well Daya, I loved my brother".
Daya scoffed at his words. "You loved him? Oh really? You shunned his opinions always, you broke his heart frequently. You spoke down to him, you and your pathetic friends. What will you do now? You may built a monument in Loki's name, perhaps have a portrait done to hang in the walls for all to see, but then you will forget, you will move on. Because it's all about you Thor, it always has been. You leave no room in your vain heart to mourn Loki. I hope it haunts you forever. I hope you never find peace, I hope Valhalla shuts its gates to you."
Thor turned away from her and walked away briskly as Frigga got up to stand next to Daya. "Come on Daya, I will take you back to your chambers".
"Of course" replied Daya. "My words no doubt fall upon deaf ears here anyway". She allowed Frigga to escort her back to her chambers where they both sat together.
"I have never seen you voice such strong opinions before Daya" Frigga chuckled lightly.
"I am sorry to have offended your son so publically your majesty. I don't know what came over me, I am just so unpredictable these days. Sometimes I am just hurt and other days I am angry and overcome with all kinds of emotions. I just, I miss him so much. I feel like nobody cares about Loki, all anyone seems to talk about is Thor's heroic return, and in my heart I know he is very much responsible for Loki's fate."
Frigga crossed her hands on her lap before looking at Daya sympathetically. "We all mourn the loss of Loki, trust me Daya. Thor does as well, perhaps even more so than the rest of us. He loved his brother so much".
Daya wiped her tears away, cleaning her make-up off. "I know, it's just, Loki let go. He let go when he promised he wouldn't. It makes me wonder, was my love not enough to make him hold on?"
Frigga shook her head and placed her hand on Daya's.
"It sounds to me like Loki realised he had made a terrible mistake. Perhaps he was just so upset, so broken by the thought he had let you down, his precious wife, his entire reason for existing, he just couldn't take it, and had to let go to see where the abyss would take him. Because maybe he believed that he couldn't redeem himself here, on Asgard. Sometimes people see their mistakes as being so big, they have to go very far away to start over completely."
"Start over without me? How? I cannot imagine life without him, doesn't he feel the same way? I know he is still alive Frigga, I can feel it, and I will find him. Somehow, I will find him."
"I am sure Loki will find his way to you too" Frigga smiled. "Eventually, he will. I don't think it's wise to follow where he went, the abyss could lead you anywhere. It might not even be a portal anymore, it may just be, oblivion".
Daya smiled faintly. "At least if I go elsewhere, I would have a better chance of finding him than if I stayed here."
Frigga didn't answer, for she didn't know what else she could say to Daya that the young goddess would listen to. Daya had always been strong willed, and Frigga knew nothing could bend her will when it came to Loki. She stayed with Daya until finally she was tired enough to fall asleep. Daya soon developed a habit of staring out at the stars to see if Loki would ever send her a sign that he was still there, somewhere, searching for her. She was still determined to escape the palace and find a way to travel to her husband, wherever he may have been. Days without Loki turned to weeks, and weeks then turned into months until finally the security Thor had on Daya began to calm down. The god of thunder foolishly thought she had begun to adjust to life without Loki.
One evening, when Thor had gone hunting with the warriors three and Lady Sif, Daya used the time to escape. She had found some of Loki's old potions. Some of which had been sleeping potions. She used the potions on the guards outside her chambers, placing them carefully in the guard's drinks. When she was sure they had fallen into a deep slumber, she made her way out of the palace and to the Bifrost, where Loki had fallen that fateful day.
She balanced on the edge of the bridge ready to jump, the abyss calm beneath her.
"Good evening Lady Daya".
She jumped, startled at the voice and spun around to see Heimdall. Standing all but five metres away from her.
"Don't try and stop me Heimdall, please" she told him.
"I know you well enough my lady to know that you will always do what you feel is best, even if others tell you to do the opposite, but if you choose this, your fate will be uncertain" Heimdall said calmly.
"Is fate not meant to be predictable? After all, the Midgardians live as if each day is their last, they have no idea what is around the next corner. If I jump, yes my fate may be uncertain, but at least it will give me hope. A greater chance of seeing Loki again. It's better than staying here, unhappy always, kept prisoner in my own home. You understand that don't you?"
Heimdall nodded. "Yes my lady, I understand that."
"Do you think Asgard would ever welcome us back? If we returned?"
Heimdall paused and then crossed his arms before speaking. "You always had a way of bringing the best out in Loki. Despite his flaws, Odin and Frigga still love him. He will be shown mercy if he returns, as will you my lady".
She smiled back at Heimdall before looking into the abyss once more.
"Thank you Heimdall. I shall forever be in your debt because of this".
He nodded and stood back as Daya took one last deep breath, before flinging herself off the bridge.
As Daya fell she thought of her's and Loki's first night together, falling into unconsciousness as she fell.
Daya had spent the past five days with Loki secretly, they had kissed and told each other of their pasts and their secrets, falling deeper and deeper in love, despite the short amount of time they had spent together. Finally Daya had agreed to allow Loki to visit her chambers at night for the first time. They had promised each other nothing of what was to come, but if Loki was honest, he was hoping for one activity in particular.
He knocked on Daya's chamber doors and she opened them quickly and pulled him inside before locking the door behind her. Loki spun her around and hoisted her up against the wall, one hand on her behind, earning a surprised yet pleasant gasp from Daya as he held her up, the other around her waist. He kissed her gently. His kisses had a lasting effect on her, her lips had almost been constantly slightly swollen from all the kissing they had done since meeting. As he moved his tongue over her teeth slowly before moving it to caress the inside of her mouth gently, butterflies filled her stomach.
He finally pulled away after a few minutes of kissing, allowing Daya back onto the ground. She smiled and stared at Loki as she took a moment to gather her thoughts.
"So, tomorrow you will tell Odin about us, and request that the All father allows us to marry, instead of Thor and I?"
Loki nodded and ran his hands through her hair gently. "Yes, of course I will my darling" he said.
"What if Odin doesn't allow it? What if he doesn't give us his blessing? What if he banishes us for going against his orders?" Daya began to panic at the thought of not being with Loki for the rest of her life.
"Then so help me I will run away with you and we will get married. We can live in the woods, and I'll hunt wild boar for our dinner and we will wash in rivers and build our own house" Loki joked. Daya laughed at his suggestions, even though she was almost certain he really meant it.
"Besides, I'm pretty certain Odin already knows. Every time he sees me with you in the hallways he winks and Frigga raises her eyebrows playfully every time she sees me after speaking to you. They know their son well, they can tell when he seems happier than ever before. It doesn't take a genius to figure out it's probably not a coincidence I have acted differently since you arrived" Loki told her, a grin playing about his face.
"Thor doesn't know about us though" Daya said.
"I said it didn't take a genius to figure it out, It does however require somebody with a brain bigger than that of a pigeon's. So no, Thor will have no idea, but fear not my love, he will not be hurt when he learns the truth. As you said yourself, he doesn't want to marry anyone".
Daya nodded as Loki snaked his arms around her waist seductively. "Even still my darling" he whispered. "Tomorrow is yet to arrive, and tonight is all ours."
Daya grinned and kissed him again, placing her arms around his neck.
"Before we go further, I want you to know I love you, and we don't have to go any further if you don't want. We can take this as slowly as you want, we have forever" Loki told her as he slowed their kisses.
"I know, but I want this Loki, I want you, because I love you" she smiled up at him.
As if that was the only confirmation he needed, Loki hoisted Daya up into his arms and led her to the bed. Daya was already breathing heavily as he reached down to unclasp her robes. She tightened her grip on him as she held her arms around his neck.
Loki paused. "I can go slower if you want?"
She shook her head and took off the top layer of his armour. He ran his hands over her clothed body slowly before unclasping her robes. He didn't pull them off instead he kissed her neck and moved his hands over her body until they fell off her body. She gasped as Loki bit her neck ever so delicately, Daya blushed as she realised she was naked in-front of him. She had never let anyone see her naked before and panicked Loki wouldn't like what he saw.
As if he could read her thoughts he drew back from kissing her neck and let his eyes search her naked form. He looked at her, seeing her cheeks turn a deep red and smiled charmingly.
"Please don't fret Daya, you are so very beautiful, you have absolutely nothing to be ashamed of. I love every part of you, all of this just makes me love you more" he whispered in her ear, nibbling on her earlobe. Her blush faded as she let herself feel freer around Loki. Giving into the heat that was quickly rising inside of her as Loki began to remove his own clothes. He made her lie down as he moved to lie on top of her. She inhaled sharply as she felt a part of Loki's anatomy very hard against her and looked down to gaze at his impressive length. Her eyes widened at the sight, she had never seen a sight like the one in-front of her before and gulped. Loki tilted her head up softly to face him.
"I will go very slowly, and I will stop if you ask me. I promise you" he told her.
She nodded as Loki moved in to kiss her again, he moved to run his tongue along her collarbone patiently, and then moved even further down to kiss her breasts, taking one of her hardened nipples into his mouth as he sucked and kissed it so very gently. She moaned in delight and arched her back to meet his teasing kisses. He traced his mouth over her chest and moved across to give the other breast the same treatment. She smiled and closed her eyes as she allowed this new high to wash over her. He reached back up to kiss her mouth again and she felt as light as a feather. She barely noticed one of his hands travel down to her entrance. He stroked his fingertips over her now throbbing bud slowly. Her head rolled back in sheer ecstasy, like she had just discovered the most wonderful thing in the entire world. Loki grinned and allowed a long finger move inside of her. Her eyes snapped open and she stared at Loki, her gasps still the only noise filling the chamber.
"Should I stop?" Loki asked, pausing his motions.
She shook her head, "No, keep going" she told him, her tone desperate.
Loki smiled and kissed her again before continuing his circular motions with his finger. As he felt her arousal seep on his finger he placed another one next to it and continued rubbing until finally he drove her over the edge. Daya's vision became blurred and words couldn't express the amazing sensations she felt. Her heartbeat sounded in her throat loudly and she desperately wanted to hold onto that one moment forever. He felt her muscles tighten around him and removed his fingers as she relaxed.
When he could see she was relaxed enough he positioned himself at her entrance and stared into her eyes.
"Are you sure?" He asked one final time.
When she nodded he pushed only the tip of his length into her, feeling her sweet warmth tight around him. Daya gasped loudly and raised her head up towards him. He kissed her again before pushing the rest of his length into her patiently. She cried out loudly and her eyes filled with tears. He looked at her apologetically and waited, giving her body time to adjust to him. When she pushed into him gently, giving him the signal it was alright for him to continue, he built up a rhythm and made love to her slowly. Loki made sure to kiss her mouth and her neck often as he murmured comforting words into her ear. After the pain ceased Daya could feel the same heat she felt before rise even more rapidly and Loki increased his pace. She held him close to her until finally she experienced the same flurry of sensations as before, once again her heartbeat almost beating out of her chest. Loki soon followed, his cries loud as he joined her in feeing the same sensations.
Once they had caught their breath Loki moved to lie next to her. She rest her head on his chest as he pulled her close to him. After a few minutes she reached up so her head was level with his own and kissed his neck gently.
"That was perfect" he said, smiling at her widely. His perfectly white teeth gleaming at her.
"I was good?" she asked.
He laughed. "Yes, you were wonderful, why do you seem so surprised?"
"Well, I don't have any experience, I have never done that before" she said shyly.
He took hold of her hand and kissed it. "Well, you were perfect. How was it, for you?"
She shifted in place. "Sore at first, like the sharpest pain I have ever experienced, but after that it was wondrous. You are the only one I would have ever wanted to do that with" she grinned.
He nodded. It won't hurt anymore, that stands for everything now Daya. I won't let anything hurt you ever again".
She smiled at him sleepily before finally falling into a deep slumber as Loki watched her, before falling asleep next to her. More content than he had been in so long.
Aww so chapter nine, that's it. It was a pretty long one, and guess what, in the next chapter, Daya meets the avengers :O so exciting! Sorry for any spelling mistakes, I wrote this really fast for you guys as I am busy tonight and am going to a sleepover (yes I am 18 and still going to sleepovers, it's not illegal I swear) I didn't want to leave you guys with nothing but I had to sleep so I typed this up super quick before going off to sleep so I am sorry for any grammar mistakes I may have made. Please forgive me, I shall publish a chapter on Sunday most likely. So I hope you guys enjoy your Saturday. Until next time :D