Heyy guys :),

I'd like to start by saying I am SO sorry for taking so long to update! I know it has been far too long and you probably all hate me right now. But what with moving house and searching for a job (Which hasn't worked -_-) I just haven't had much time.

I will try really hard to update again soon, but please don't hate me if it isn't for like a week or so.

I love you all for reviewing they truly encourage me to carry on.

I hope you enjoy!

One minute she was all over me like a rash, the next she was gone, leaving me to sit on the floor of the cubicle panting for breath. My panties lying next to me coated with saliva where my mouth had covered them muffling my screams. Noticing that a dark shade of red has covered my face as I stare at my reflection in the mirror, my mind screams at me to stand and make myself decent. My body however refuses to comply; my legs still shaking far too violently to possibly withstand my weight were I to try. Moistness spreading across the cold floor beneath me, seeping from my centre and running down my thighs.

I hear both Cat an Dani's voices echo over me from outside the cubicle, I seem however held to the spot; as if some suction device is rooting me there. Sometime after their voices stop calling for me, my phone sounds text alerts repeatedly, but I do not even turn my head. My eyes bore into the mirror, my reflection looking back. I am barely aware when the cubicle door pushes open and make no attempt to cover myself up. Black blinds my vision as Jade's arms wrap around me pulling me close to her, and the familiar scent of her seems to drag me from my trance. Pulling away she looks at me concern ripe in her eyes.

"Are you ok Tori?"

Staring up at her warmth fills my own eyes, and in turn seems to melt the concern in hers. I move my hand up to pull her into a gently kiss, which she breaks away from chuckling.

"Did someone lose it a bit there?" She laughs before smirking "I know I'm good Vega. But I didn't know I was that good."

I blush up at her in response once again looking at my pile of clothes finally considering getting dressed, seeing as I have spent far too much time in this cubicle as it is. But before I can move Jade is at the pile of clothes. She presses soft kisses against every inch of my skin as she begins to dress me, and for once the kisses do not feel sexual, it is as if she knows that part is over, and with every kiss she is printing layers of love. I smile gently as she stands me up; a hand on my waist holding me steady. I rest my head back against the wall pressing my eyes closed smiling into the darkness feeling her slide up my panties, followed by my jeans. Her lips trail gently across my stomach before reaching my lips. She pulls away again and leans round me to clip my bra, before pulling my top over my head.

"There we are, all done." She states smiling at me.

I flick my eyes open and lean in pressing my lips to hers and kiss her passionately, before pulling away to look at her.

"I love you too Jade." I say staring deep into her eyes watching her blush slightly, before turning her head and grabbing my hand and squeezing.

"Come on they are waiting for us."

She grabs the dresses which I never got round to trying on and pulls me outside, pushing them at the attendant she walks on head staring straight ahead, whereas my gaze is glued firmly to the floor, embarrassment rushing through me. Looking back she gives my hand another squeeze in an attempt to reassure me, and upon raising my head I catch the shy 'Jade smile' which many people are never able to experience, just before she turns away. A small smile creeps itself onto my face as the embarrassment fades, replaced with adoration and a sense of privilege. So few people ever manage to see this aspect of Jade; this shy, caring, and protective side that I feel it may be possible to overlook her rash decisions, her unrelenting need for dominance. And more to the point, if she is allowing me to see this part of her, there really is no reason for me to feel any sense of embarrassment over her having seen me in such a futile state.

The rest of the shopping trip seemed to pass by quickly; Jade, Cat and Dani all having brought dresses. Cat had seemed confused and Dani's eyes had bulged upon hearing that I was yet to pick out a dress. I managed to shrug it off stating that I simply hadn't found one I had liked, gaining a smirk from Jade. We parted our ways Dani offering Cat a ride, and Jade taking me home. Pulling up outside my house Jade let out a gently sigh and turned to face me.

"Are you sure you can't spend the night again?" She asks me for the third time.

"Yes baby. I have to go home or my parents' are going to get angry, I haven't stayed at home for days."

"Fine." She grunts unenthusiastically, "But it won't be the same sleeping without you."

I lean in and press a soft kiss to her cheek, "Mm I know baby, but it can't be helped."

She sighs in response turning to bring her lips to mine. Her teeth nip at my bottom lip as I brush my tongue across her lips. We let out synchronized moans as our mouths open allowing our tongues to meet, and lose ourselves in each other. I am the one to pull away causing her to groan and pout, as a chuckle tumbles from my lips upon witnessing it. I press a last gentle kiss to her lips and we say our goodbyes.

Entering my house I let out a sigh, it really will feel strange to sleep alone tonight. Trina intercepts me on my way up the stairs. She looks drained, biting at my bottom lip I realise that she is still hurting, and I haven't been there for her. She passes me without a word, her ego deflated, a shadow of the person she once was. I move on up to my room unsure of what to say, or even if there is anything that I could say.

People never truly understand Trina; never see past the obnoxious front she keeps up. Never see who she really is. But I know her, and I know that she has so many insecurities, and so much love inside her that it terrifies her. She is in all, not so dissimilar to Jade; they both put up fronts, push people away. But I see past it, I know that she just needs someone to love her, to anchor her down in the same way I hope I do for Jade.

I know there is no way I can find that person for her, and that really I cannot free her from her own mask. But the nagging voice in my head tells me that maybe, just maybe there is one small thing that I can do. One way in which I can rid some of the humiliation, give her some sense of pride back. Sighing I pull myself back up and move to leave my house, knowing that I am not going to be met by pleasantries, and that it quite possible my words will not be listened to. None the less, I have to do this; I have to do this for her.

My palms are damp with sweat, and my breathing is shaky as I stand outside, my eyes bore into the door, avoiding looking at the window where I know he is standing, glaring at me, waiting for me to make my move. After taking one last deep breath I step forwards, and knock once on the door, and within seconds it opens, raising my head to look up at him I attempt to give a strained smile, forcing it, he nods gently and steps back allowing me to walk in before closing the door and sitting on his couch, biting my lip I move over and sit beside him. Silence washing over us as we realise that we do not even know how to speak to each other anymore. Once good friends have become distant strangers: caught in the battlefield which accompanies loving Jade West.

"Why are you here?" He sighs, running his fingers through his hair. I stare up at him and gulp.

"This has to stop." I mumble weakly. "We can't stay like this. You know that right?"

"I know. But how?"

"I don't know." I admit trailing off. "Beck, I really am sorry."

"I know."

Silence once again overcomes us, neither wanting to speak for fear of the others reaction. Not knowing what to say or do, words once again failing.

"You really hurt her." I stare blankly, "Trina. Why did you do that?"

"I don't know." He groans running his hand over his face. "I hate that I done it though. It was you I was mad at, not her. She didn't deserve it." Seeing the genuine regret on his face caused me to smile faintly, a sense of hope returning.

"You can still make it right." He looks up at me a questioning look on his face.

"How? How can I ever make up for that?"

"You'll figure it out. I know you Beck; I know you can do this." I smile at his properly for the first time since entering the RV and after a moment he returns it before turning away.

"I've missed you." He whispers into the air, I can only assume he didn't wish me to hear is, so turn my head away blushing.

"Can we please just try again, start over?" I ask lip trembling. "I don't want to lose you."

My nerves shoot through the roof when he doesn't respond. And realisation sets in, it's over there is no way back. I've ruined it. Biting down hard on my bottom lip; I stand and edge towards the door. I let out a small sigh as I touch the handle.

"Okay." His voice carries softly across the room. "We can try."

Shy smiles are shared as our eyes meet, tears dripping down my cheeks and pained expression crosses his face. We both know there is a long way to go before we will truly be comfortable with each other again. The unspoken words suspended between us, the knowledge of the love we both feel for Jade hangs in the balance. Yet a faint glance to his eyes gives me hope that we can make it through this. As I walk outside he moves to the doorframe giving a small wave as he watches me go.

Returning home I find Trina on the sofa, her eyes trained to her phone, a slight smile on her face. She looks happier than I have seen her in weeks, looking over at her I smile softy before heading back upstairs to my room. I knew he could make it right.