p style="max-height: 999999px; font-family: Verdana, Verdana, Arial; font-size: 11px; -webkit-text-size-adjust: 100%;""No! No no no!" Kate screamed in her sleep./p
p style="max-height: 999999px; font-family: Verdana, Verdana, Arial; font-size: 11px; -webkit-text-size-adjust: 100%;"Gibbs immediately started to try and wake her up, "Kate! Kate, wake up. Kate." He gently shook her shoulders./p
p style="max-height: 999999px; font-family: Verdana, Verdana, Arial; font-size: 11px; -webkit-text-size-adjust: 100%;"Kate woke up startled, "The baby?" She gasped scared./p
p style="max-height: 999999px; font-family: Verdana, Verdana, Arial; font-size: 11px; -webkit-text-size-adjust: 100%;""Kate..." Gibbs began when Kate remembered they were burying their son tomorrow. Tears filled her eyes./p
p style="max-height: 999999px; font-family: Verdana, Verdana, Arial; font-size: 11px; -webkit-text-size-adjust: 100%;""He's gone..." Kate mumbled./p
p style="max-height: 999999px; font-family: Verdana, Verdana, Arial; font-size: 11px; -webkit-text-size-adjust: 100%;""Katie, what were you dreaming about?"/p
p style="max-height: 999999px; font-family: Verdana, Verdana, Arial; font-size: 11px; -webkit-text-size-adjust: 100%;""You, me, the baby. We were at the park and I was pushing David on a swing and he was smiling and squealing. But then he collapsed and turned pale and cold a-and y-you started y-yelling at me that i-it was my fault. I s-should have known there was something wrong," Kate choked out, "Oh Jethro, he was so beautiful. He had a head full of brown hair, dark blue eyes, and he was so...happy."/p
p style="max-height: 999999px; font-family: Verdana, Verdana, Arial; font-size: 11px; -webkit-text-size-adjust: 100%;""I dreamt about him too." Gibbs admitted./p
p style="max-height: 999999px; font-family: Verdana, Verdana, Arial; font-size: 11px; -webkit-text-size-adjust: 100%;""Really?"/p
p style="max-height: 999999px; font-family: Verdana, Verdana, Arial; font-size: 11px; -webkit-text-size-adjust: 100%;""Yes. We had taken him home and you were so happy. He was sleeping in your arms and we went to put him in his crib and then, you and him disappeared."/p
p style="max-height: 999999px; font-family: Verdana, Verdana, Arial; font-size: 11px; -webkit-text-size-adjust: 100%;""I'm not leaving, Gibbs."/p
p style="max-height: 999999px; font-family: Verdana, Verdana, Arial; font-size: 11px; -webkit-text-size-adjust: 100%;""And I don't blame you for anything that happened."/p
p style="max-height: 999999px; font-family: Verdana, Verdana, Arial; font-size: 11px; -webkit-text-size-adjust: 100%;""I do."/p
p style="max-height: 999999px; font-family: Verdana, Verdana, Arial; font-size: 11px; -webkit-text-size-adjust: 100%;""You shouldn't. It happened and there's nothing you could have done to prevent it and we can't change it. We can only remember our son."/p
p style="max-height: 999999px; font-family: Verdana, Verdana, Arial; font-size: 11px; -webkit-text-size-adjust: 100%;""Thank you."/p
p style="max-height: 999999px; font-family: Verdana, Verdana, Arial; font-size: 11px; -webkit-text-size-adjust: 100%;""Get dressed, love. Come downstairs today, you'll feel better."/p
p style="max-height: 999999px; font-family: Verdana, Verdana, Arial; font-size: 11px; -webkit-text-size-adjust: 100%;"Kate nodded. She picked out dark blue, almost black clothes. She washed up and felt a bit better. She meant to go to the kitchen, but her legs carried her into the nursery. There on the shelf were the three teddy bears she had bought the day of her first ultrasound, a momma bear, a daddy bear, and a baby bear. Kate scooped all three bears up and brought them down with her./p
p style="max-height: 999999px; font-family: Verdana, Verdana, Arial; font-size: 11px; -webkit-text-size-adjust: 100%;""He needs a teddy bear." Kate told her husband looking at the stuffed bears./p
p style="max-height: 999999px; font-family: Verdana, Verdana, Arial; font-size: 11px; -webkit-text-size-adjust: 100%;""Of course. Which one?"/p
p style="max-height: 999999px; font-family: Verdana, Verdana, Arial; font-size: 11px; -webkit-text-size-adjust: 100%;""These two, the mom and dad bears." Kate clutched the smaller bear close to her./p
p style="max-height: 999999px; font-family: Verdana, Verdana, Arial; font-size: 11px; -webkit-text-size-adjust: 100%;""So, he can keep his parents close by," Gibbs finished, his eyes watering as he realized they were saying goodbye tomorrow, "Here eat." Gibbs put a plate of waffles and a cup of coffee in front of himself and his wife./p
p style="max-height: 999999px; font-family: Verdana, Verdana, Arial; font-size: 11px; -webkit-text-size-adjust: 100%;"They ate in silence, both of them dreading the following day. Kate's biggest fear was forgetting about her son. Gibbs, however was scared he was going to lose Kate in addition to their son./p
p style="max-height: 999999px; font-family: Verdana, Verdana, Arial; font-size: 11px; -webkit-text-size-adjust: 100%;"Kate made her way to her lounge chair. She noticed the small couch was gone and she was grateful for that, the last time she had seen the couch it was covered in blood. Gibbs came over and sat with Kate for a while holding David's teddy bears as if their touch was filling it up with love./p
p style="max-height: 999999px; font-family: Verdana, Verdana, Arial; font-size: 11px; -webkit-text-size-adjust: 100%;""Will you be okay alome for a while?" Gibbs asked wanting to finish his project./p
p style="max-height: 999999px; font-family: Verdana, Verdana, Arial; font-size: 11px; -webkit-text-size-adjust: 100%;""Only if you give me a kiss first."/p
p style="max-height: 999999px; font-family: Verdana, Verdana, Arial; font-size: 11px; -webkit-text-size-adjust: 100%;"Gibbs smiled his wife has been a sassy comment. He leaned in and kissed her./p
p style="max-height: 999999px; font-family: Verdana, Verdana, Arial; font-size: 11px; -webkit-text-size-adjust: 100%;""I'll be fine now." A small smile appeared on Kate's face./p
p style="max-height: 999999px; font-family: Verdana, Verdana, Arial; font-size: 11px; -webkit-text-size-adjust: 100%;"Kate didn't know if she was relieved or upset that she was alone. She was having so many confusing feelings and she was so emotional. She clutched her teddy bear tight against her chest and tears began falling from her face. All she could think about was her, Gibbs, and David happy, like at the neginning of her dream. A knock on the door didn't even tear her from her thoughts./p
p style="max-height: 999999px; font-family: Verdana, Verdana, Arial; font-size: 11px; -webkit-text-size-adjust: 100%;""Jethro? Kate?" A familiar voice asked as they stepped into the house./p
p style="max-height: 999999px; font-family: Verdana, Verdana, Arial; font-size: 11px; -webkit-text-size-adjust: 100%;"Kate and the woman's eyes met, "Director." Kate was taken aback by the sight of her boss's boss./p
p style="max-height: 999999px; font-family: Verdana, Verdana, Arial; font-size: 11px; -webkit-text-size-adjust: 100%;""We aren't working, it's Jenny. How are you?" Jenny asked./p
p style="max-height: 999999px; font-family: Verdana, Verdana, Arial; font-size: 11px; -webkit-text-size-adjust: 100%;""I'm fine." Kate's mind went back to the baby./p
p style="max-height: 999999px; font-family: Verdana, Verdana, Arial; font-size: 11px; -webkit-text-size-adjust: 100%;""I'm really sorry, Kate. I know how excited you and Jethro were."/p
p style="max-height: 999999px; font-family: Verdana, Verdana, Arial; font-size: 11px; -webkit-text-size-adjust: 100%;""Jenny." Gibbs greeted as he saw her in the living room with Kate./p
p style="max-height: 999999px; font-family: Verdana, Verdana, Arial; font-size: 11px; -webkit-text-size-adjust: 100%;""Jethro. I'm sorry to hear about your loss."/p
p style="max-height: 999999px; font-family: Verdana, Verdana, Arial; font-size: 11px; -webkit-text-size-adjust: 100%;""Thanks, Jen. DiNozzo destroying the agency at all?"/p
p style="max-height: 999999px; font-family: Verdana, Verdana, Arial; font-size: 11px; -webkit-text-size-adjust: 100%;""No, you're the one who causes all sorts of chaos. Though, he's driving McGee and Ziva crazy already." Jenny replied./p
p style="max-height: 999999px; font-family: Verdana, Verdana, Arial; font-size: 11px; -webkit-text-size-adjust: 100%;""Sounds like him." Gibbs replied./p
p style="max-height: 999999px; font-family: Verdana, Verdana, Arial; font-size: 11px; -webkit-text-size-adjust: 100%;""Any idea when you two will be back?"/p
p style="max-height: 999999px; font-family: Verdana, Verdana, Arial; font-size: 11px; -webkit-text-size-adjust: 100%;""Jen, we just lost our son. Getting back to work isn't the first thing on our minds!" Gibbs growled. Kate was thankful for his response, because she wasn't sure if she wanted to go back to NCIS./p
p style="max-height: 999999px; font-family: Verdana, Verdana, Arial; font-size: 11px; -webkit-text-size-adjust: 100%;""I'm sorry I didn't mean to imply that- a son?"/p
p style="max-height: 999999px; font-family: Verdana, Verdana, Arial; font-size: 11px; -webkit-text-size-adjust: 100%;""David Todd Gibbs." Kate quietly informed her of their son's name./p
p style="max-height: 999999px; font-family: Verdana, Verdana, Arial; font-size: 11px; -webkit-text-size-adjust: 100%;""The grapevine didn't tell you?" Gibbs asked, everyone knowing the grapevine was Tony./p
p style="max-height: 999999px; font-family: Verdana, Verdana, Arial; font-size: 11px; -webkit-text-size-adjust: 100%;""No."/p
p style="max-height: 999999px; font-family: Verdana, Verdana, Arial; font-size: 11px; -webkit-text-size-adjust: 100%;""He was so...perfect. He was so small..." Kate trailed off./p
p style="max-height: 999999px; font-family: Verdana, Verdana, Arial; font-size: 11px; -webkit-text-size-adjust: 100%;""Kate, it's alright." Gibbs put his hand on her shoulder, figuring that she was becoming upset./p
p style="max-height: 999999px; font-family: Verdana, Verdana, Arial; font-size: 11px; -webkit-text-size-adjust: 100%;""Jethro, he's gone. emGone/em." Kate's grief took over her words./p
p style="max-height: 999999px; font-family: Verdana, Verdana, Arial; font-size: 11px; -webkit-text-size-adjust: 100%;"Jenny, still there wasn't sure what to do. She could run a whole damn federal agency, but she had no idea what to say to her two friends who were grieving over the death of their baby. The only time she had seen any of them vulnerable was when Kate was shot in the head and when Gibbs was in an explosion, but what she was seeing now was a different type of vulnerability and she didn't know how to react./p
p style="max-height: 999999px; font-family: Verdana, Verdana, Arial; font-size: 11px; -webkit-text-size-adjust: 100%;""I should be going. I'll see you tomorrow. Take care of yourselves." Jenny told them before hurrying out./p
p style="max-height: 999999px; font-family: Verdana, Verdana, Arial; font-size: 11px; -webkit-text-size-adjust: 100%;"Gibbs held Kate close, never wanting to let her go. They both cried. Their child was gone and they couldn't do anything at all to bring him back./p
p style="max-height: 999999px; font-family: Verdana, Verdana, Arial; font-size: 11px; -webkit-text-size-adjust: 100%;""Katie, love, are you ready?" Gibbs asked his wife./p
p style="max-height: 999999px; font-family: Verdana, Verdana, Arial; font-size: 11px; -webkit-text-size-adjust: 100%;"Kate appeared in a long black dress holding her son's teddy bears, "Can anyone ever be ready to say goodbye to their child?"/p
p style="max-height: 999999px; font-family: Verdana, Verdana, Arial; font-size: 11px; -webkit-text-size-adjust: 100%;""No, but we have to do this. For David." Gibbs said./p
p style="max-height: 999999px; font-family: Verdana, Verdana, Arial; font-size: 11px; -webkit-text-size-adjust: 100%;""For David." Kate agreed./p
p style="max-height: 999999px; font-family: Verdana, Verdana, Arial; font-size: 11px; -webkit-text-size-adjust: 100%;"They arrived at their church where the Pastor hugged them both, apologizing for their loss. He lead them to the tiny casket, where their son was./p
p style="max-height: 999999px; font-family: Verdana, Verdana, Arial; font-size: 11px; -webkit-text-size-adjust: 100%;""Take your time." The pastor told them./p
p style="max-height: 999999px; font-family: Verdana, Verdana, Arial; font-size: 11px; -webkit-text-size-adjust: 100%;"Inside the coffin was their son. Kate picked up the baby blanket she had bought for him and swaddled him in it, to keep him warm. She kissed his tiny head and put a rosary next to his tiny hand. Gibbs put the teddy bears on each side of him, to keep him company and as a reminder that his parents love him. Gibbs kissed his son as well./p
p style="max-height: 999999px; font-family: Verdana, Verdana, Arial; font-size: 11px; -webkit-text-size-adjust: 100%;""I love you." Kate whispered to baby David./p
p style="max-height: 999999px; font-family: Verdana, Verdana, Arial; font-size: 11px; -webkit-text-size-adjust: 100%;""We'll always love you." Gibbs added./p
p style="max-height: 999999px; font-family: Verdana, Verdana, Arial; font-size: 11px; -webkit-text-size-adjust: 100%;"They each gave their son one last kiss before heading to the sanctuary in tears. The Pastor said nothing, his heart broke for Kate and Gibbs. He remembered the day he married the two and how in love they were, they still were very much in love but they were both hurting. He carefully picked up the little casket and carried it into the sanctuary./p
p style="max-height: 999999px; font-family: Verdana, Verdana, Arial; font-size: 11px; -webkit-text-size-adjust: 100%;"Their friends from NCIS, Kate's family, and Gibbs's dad all showed up for the funeral. Kate's family of course was all over them. The funeral seemed to go by so quickly. Both Kate and Gibbs had tear stained faces. It was a beautiful service for their son, Gibbs had made sure of it. When the Pastor announced Kate would be giving the euology, Gibbs squeezed her hand before she went up to the podium./p
p style="max-height: 999999px; font-family: Verdana, Verdana, Arial; font-size: 11px; -webkit-text-size-adjust: 100%;"Kate nervously looked around at all her friends and family, "My son, David Todd Gibbs may have only been with us for 17 w-weeks a-and he may not have ever meet anyone, but Jethro and I l-loved him so much. H-he was an e-energetic baby, at each ultrasound we could see him squirming around. H-he completed us. D-David was the most beautiful baby I had ever seen. We s-shouldn't be burying h-him today, he," Kate choked back sobs, "was only a little baby, who should still be in my womb alive and happy. We love you David." Kate completely broke down into tears./p
p style="max-height: 999999px; font-family: Verdana, Verdana, Arial; font-size: 11px; -webkit-text-size-adjust: 100%;""You did great. It was beautiful." Gibbs told Kate through his own tears./p
p style="max-height: 999999px; font-family: Verdana, Verdana, Arial; font-size: 11px; -webkit-text-size-adjust: 100%;"They all quietly walked to the graveyard, where a small plot was waiting. A blue tinted headstone read: DAVID TODD GIBBS OCTOBER 15th 2006 AN ANGEL FOREVER IN OUR HEARTS. Kate stared at the headstone when she noticed a medium sized angel statue next to it. She was confused, they had only bought a headstone./p
p style="max-height: 999999px; font-family: Verdana, Verdana, Arial; font-size: 11px; -webkit-text-size-adjust: 100%;""Where'd the angel come from?" Kate whispered as the Pastor said some final words./p
p style="max-height: 999999px; font-family: Verdana, Verdana, Arial; font-size: 11px; -webkit-text-size-adjust: 100%;""I don't know." Gibbs told her./p
p style="max-height: 999999px; font-family: Verdana, Verdana, Arial; font-size: 11px; -webkit-text-size-adjust: 100%;"Kate and Gibbs both tossed white roses onto the coffin as it was lowered into the ground. Kate was sobbing while Gibbs had a few tears in his eyes, but had no expression./p
p style="max-height: 999999px; font-family: Verdana, Verdana, Arial; font-size: 11px; -webkit-text-size-adjust: 100%;"Abby, Tony, Ziva, Tim, Ducky, and Jenny had all put some flowers on the coffin as well./p
p style="max-height: 999999px; font-family: Verdana, Verdana, Arial; font-size: 11px; -webkit-text-size-adjust: 100%;"People slowly began leaving one by one./p
p style="max-height: 999999px; font-family: Verdana, Verdana, Arial; font-size: 11px; -webkit-text-size-adjust: 100%;""Oh honey." Was all Kate's mother said before embracing her daughter in a hug./p
p style="max-height: 999999px; font-family: Verdana, Verdana, Arial; font-size: 11px; -webkit-text-size-adjust: 100%;""Mom, give them some space right now." Kate's sister, the psychologist, Rachel told their mother./p
p style="max-height: 999999px; font-family: Verdana, Verdana, Arial; font-size: 11px; -webkit-text-size-adjust: 100%;""I'll see you in a bit." Mrs. Todd told them./p
p style="max-height: 999999px; font-family: Verdana, Verdana, Arial; font-size: 11px; -webkit-text-size-adjust: 100%;"Kate clutched her husband's arm as they looked at the grave. They must have stood there for an hour or two before turning around and seeing the team there waiting./p
p style="max-height: 999999px; font-family: Verdana, Verdana, Arial; font-size: 11px; -webkit-text-size-adjust: 100%;""What are you doing still here?" Gibbs asked them./p
p style="max-height: 999999px; font-family: Verdana, Verdana, Arial; font-size: 11px; -webkit-text-size-adjust: 100%;""Waiting for you. We wanted to support you guys." Abby explained./p
p style="max-height: 999999px; font-family: Verdana, Verdana, Arial; font-size: 11px; -webkit-text-size-adjust: 100%;"Kate's heart was warmed by her friends actions./p
p style="max-height: 999999px; font-family: Verdana, Verdana, Arial; font-size: 11px; -webkit-text-size-adjust: 100%;""It was a nice service for David. The angel is a very nice...touch? He will be watching over you." Ziva told them./p
p style="max-height: 999999px; font-family: Verdana, Verdana, Arial; font-size: 11px; -webkit-text-size-adjust: 100%;""No idea where the angel came from." Gibbs replied./p
p style="max-height: 999999px; font-family: Verdana, Verdana, Arial; font-size: 11px; -webkit-text-size-adjust: 100%;"McGee stepped forwards, "It was me. I know how much he means to you and I...thought it/p
p style="max-height: 999999px; font-family: Verdana, Verdana, Arial; font-size: 11px; -webkit-text-size-adjust: 100%;"would be a nice way to honor him." Everyone except Abby looked at him in shock./p
p style="max-height: 999999px; font-family: Verdana, Verdana, Arial; font-size: 11px; -webkit-text-size-adjust: 100%;"Kate teared up and hugged Tim, "Thank you, Tim. Thank you."/p
p style="max-height: 999999px; font-family: Verdana, Verdana, Arial; font-size: 11px; -webkit-text-size-adjust: 100%;""Thanks, Tim. Appreciate it." Gibbs thanked./p
p style="max-height: 999999px; font-family: Verdana, Verdana, Arial; font-size: 11px; -webkit-text-size-adjust: 100%;""No problem, Kate, Gibbs."/p
p style="max-height: 999999px; font-family: Verdana, Verdana, Arial; font-size: 11px; -webkit-text-size-adjust: 100%;"The couple took one last look at the grave and headed home, remembering the 17 weeks David was with them./p
p style="max-height: 999999px; font-family: Verdana, Verdana, Arial; font-size: 11px; -webkit-text-size-adjust: 100%;"16 MONTHS LATER.../p
p style="max-height: 999999px; font-family: Verdana, Verdana, Arial; font-size: 11px; -webkit-text-size-adjust: 100%;"Kate and Gibbs held their 16 week old daughter, Sophia at David's grave. It had been a long road before they had even started making love again. Kate had become depressed after losing David and Gibbs alone couldn't help her. All she had done was work, come home, and cry herself to sleep. Occasionally Kate would beg Gibbs to just f*ck her senseless, because she wanted to feel something over than her grief. Of course, Gibbs always refused to and it usually ended with Kate crying on his shoulder. Gibbs had finally convinced her to see a therapist. Kate and Gibbs had then together joined a pregnancy and infant loss support group three months after the miscarriage. Kate and Gibbs had both begun healing after talking about it to other families going through the same thing. Another three months, before Kate began to return to herself. Then, two months more before they started making love again and Kate had gotten pregnant within two months./p
p style="max-height: 999999px; font-family: Verdana, Verdana, Arial; font-size: 11px; -webkit-text-size-adjust: 100%;"The pregnancy had been scary for both of them, scared they were going to lose Sophia too, but they were ecstatic as well. Towards the end of the second trimester, Kate wasn't as worried as she had been. Then, in December Kate gave birth at home to their beautiful daughter./p
p style="max-height: 999999px; font-family: Verdana, Verdana, Arial; font-size: 11px; -webkit-text-size-adjust: 100%;"Today, they were introducing Sophia to her big brother. Kate held the little girl as Gibbs began to tell her about he big brother./p
p style="max-height: 999999px; font-family: Verdana, Verdana, Arial; font-size: 11px; -webkit-text-size-adjust: 100%;""Soph, baby girl, this is where your big brother, David is. He died when he was younger than you. He lives up in Heaven with Angels." He told his daughter./p
p style="max-height: 999999px; font-family: Verdana, Verdana, Arial; font-size: 11px; -webkit-text-size-adjust: 100%;"Sophia looked up in the sky and squealed. A white bird was flying close to them before landing on the angel next to the headstone. Sophia smiled and pointed to the bird./p
p style="max-height: 999999px; font-family: Verdana, Verdana, Arial; font-size: 11px; -webkit-text-size-adjust: 100%;"Kate gasped, "David." The bird hopped close to them./p
p style="max-height: 999999px; font-family: Verdana, Verdana, Arial; font-size: 11px; -webkit-text-size-adjust: 100%;""He is here. Watching over us." Gibbs managed to say, looking at the bird./p
p style="max-height: 999999px; font-family: Verdana, Verdana, Arial; font-size: 11px; -webkit-text-size-adjust: 100%;"At that moment, they knew their family was all there. They were complete./p
p style="max-height: 999999px; font-family: Verdana, Verdana, Arial; font-size: 11px; -webkit-text-size-adjust: 100%;"Gibbs immediately started to try and wake her up, "Kate! Kate, wake up. Kate." He gently shook her shoulders./p
p style="max-height: 999999px; font-family: Verdana, Verdana, Arial; font-size: 11px; -webkit-text-size-adjust: 100%;"Kate woke up startled, "The baby?" She gasped scared./p
p style="max-height: 999999px; font-family: Verdana, Verdana, Arial; font-size: 11px; -webkit-text-size-adjust: 100%;""Kate..." Gibbs began when Kate remembered they were burying their son tomorrow. Tears filled her eyes./p
p style="max-height: 999999px; font-family: Verdana, Verdana, Arial; font-size: 11px; -webkit-text-size-adjust: 100%;""He's gone..." Kate mumbled./p
p style="max-height: 999999px; font-family: Verdana, Verdana, Arial; font-size: 11px; -webkit-text-size-adjust: 100%;""Katie, what were you dreaming about?"/p
p style="max-height: 999999px; font-family: Verdana, Verdana, Arial; font-size: 11px; -webkit-text-size-adjust: 100%;""You, me, the baby. We were at the park and I was pushing David on a swing and he was smiling and squealing. But then he collapsed and turned pale and cold a-and y-you started y-yelling at me that i-it was my fault. I s-should have known there was something wrong," Kate choked out, "Oh Jethro, he was so beautiful. He had a head full of brown hair, dark blue eyes, and he was so...happy."/p
p style="max-height: 999999px; font-family: Verdana, Verdana, Arial; font-size: 11px; -webkit-text-size-adjust: 100%;""I dreamt about him too." Gibbs admitted./p
p style="max-height: 999999px; font-family: Verdana, Verdana, Arial; font-size: 11px; -webkit-text-size-adjust: 100%;""Really?"/p
p style="max-height: 999999px; font-family: Verdana, Verdana, Arial; font-size: 11px; -webkit-text-size-adjust: 100%;""Yes. We had taken him home and you were so happy. He was sleeping in your arms and we went to put him in his crib and then, you and him disappeared."/p
p style="max-height: 999999px; font-family: Verdana, Verdana, Arial; font-size: 11px; -webkit-text-size-adjust: 100%;""I'm not leaving, Gibbs."/p
p style="max-height: 999999px; font-family: Verdana, Verdana, Arial; font-size: 11px; -webkit-text-size-adjust: 100%;""And I don't blame you for anything that happened."/p
p style="max-height: 999999px; font-family: Verdana, Verdana, Arial; font-size: 11px; -webkit-text-size-adjust: 100%;""I do."/p
p style="max-height: 999999px; font-family: Verdana, Verdana, Arial; font-size: 11px; -webkit-text-size-adjust: 100%;""You shouldn't. It happened and there's nothing you could have done to prevent it and we can't change it. We can only remember our son."/p
p style="max-height: 999999px; font-family: Verdana, Verdana, Arial; font-size: 11px; -webkit-text-size-adjust: 100%;""Thank you."/p
p style="max-height: 999999px; font-family: Verdana, Verdana, Arial; font-size: 11px; -webkit-text-size-adjust: 100%;""Get dressed, love. Come downstairs today, you'll feel better."/p
p style="max-height: 999999px; font-family: Verdana, Verdana, Arial; font-size: 11px; -webkit-text-size-adjust: 100%;"Kate nodded. She picked out dark blue, almost black clothes. She washed up and felt a bit better. She meant to go to the kitchen, but her legs carried her into the nursery. There on the shelf were the three teddy bears she had bought the day of her first ultrasound, a momma bear, a daddy bear, and a baby bear. Kate scooped all three bears up and brought them down with her./p
p style="max-height: 999999px; font-family: Verdana, Verdana, Arial; font-size: 11px; -webkit-text-size-adjust: 100%;""He needs a teddy bear." Kate told her husband looking at the stuffed bears./p
p style="max-height: 999999px; font-family: Verdana, Verdana, Arial; font-size: 11px; -webkit-text-size-adjust: 100%;""Of course. Which one?"/p
p style="max-height: 999999px; font-family: Verdana, Verdana, Arial; font-size: 11px; -webkit-text-size-adjust: 100%;""These two, the mom and dad bears." Kate clutched the smaller bear close to her./p
p style="max-height: 999999px; font-family: Verdana, Verdana, Arial; font-size: 11px; -webkit-text-size-adjust: 100%;""So, he can keep his parents close by," Gibbs finished, his eyes watering as he realized they were saying goodbye tomorrow, "Here eat." Gibbs put a plate of waffles and a cup of coffee in front of himself and his wife./p
p style="max-height: 999999px; font-family: Verdana, Verdana, Arial; font-size: 11px; -webkit-text-size-adjust: 100%;"They ate in silence, both of them dreading the following day. Kate's biggest fear was forgetting about her son. Gibbs, however was scared he was going to lose Kate in addition to their son./p
p style="max-height: 999999px; font-family: Verdana, Verdana, Arial; font-size: 11px; -webkit-text-size-adjust: 100%;"Kate made her way to her lounge chair. She noticed the small couch was gone and she was grateful for that, the last time she had seen the couch it was covered in blood. Gibbs came over and sat with Kate for a while holding David's teddy bears as if their touch was filling it up with love./p
p style="max-height: 999999px; font-family: Verdana, Verdana, Arial; font-size: 11px; -webkit-text-size-adjust: 100%;""Will you be okay alome for a while?" Gibbs asked wanting to finish his project./p
p style="max-height: 999999px; font-family: Verdana, Verdana, Arial; font-size: 11px; -webkit-text-size-adjust: 100%;""Only if you give me a kiss first."/p
p style="max-height: 999999px; font-family: Verdana, Verdana, Arial; font-size: 11px; -webkit-text-size-adjust: 100%;"Gibbs smiled his wife has been a sassy comment. He leaned in and kissed her./p
p style="max-height: 999999px; font-family: Verdana, Verdana, Arial; font-size: 11px; -webkit-text-size-adjust: 100%;""I'll be fine now." A small smile appeared on Kate's face./p
p style="max-height: 999999px; font-family: Verdana, Verdana, Arial; font-size: 11px; -webkit-text-size-adjust: 100%;"Kate didn't know if she was relieved or upset that she was alone. She was having so many confusing feelings and she was so emotional. She clutched her teddy bear tight against her chest and tears began falling from her face. All she could think about was her, Gibbs, and David happy, like at the neginning of her dream. A knock on the door didn't even tear her from her thoughts./p
p style="max-height: 999999px; font-family: Verdana, Verdana, Arial; font-size: 11px; -webkit-text-size-adjust: 100%;""Jethro? Kate?" A familiar voice asked as they stepped into the house./p
p style="max-height: 999999px; font-family: Verdana, Verdana, Arial; font-size: 11px; -webkit-text-size-adjust: 100%;"Kate and the woman's eyes met, "Director." Kate was taken aback by the sight of her boss's boss./p
p style="max-height: 999999px; font-family: Verdana, Verdana, Arial; font-size: 11px; -webkit-text-size-adjust: 100%;""We aren't working, it's Jenny. How are you?" Jenny asked./p
p style="max-height: 999999px; font-family: Verdana, Verdana, Arial; font-size: 11px; -webkit-text-size-adjust: 100%;""I'm fine." Kate's mind went back to the baby./p
p style="max-height: 999999px; font-family: Verdana, Verdana, Arial; font-size: 11px; -webkit-text-size-adjust: 100%;""I'm really sorry, Kate. I know how excited you and Jethro were."/p
p style="max-height: 999999px; font-family: Verdana, Verdana, Arial; font-size: 11px; -webkit-text-size-adjust: 100%;""Jenny." Gibbs greeted as he saw her in the living room with Kate./p
p style="max-height: 999999px; font-family: Verdana, Verdana, Arial; font-size: 11px; -webkit-text-size-adjust: 100%;""Jethro. I'm sorry to hear about your loss."/p
p style="max-height: 999999px; font-family: Verdana, Verdana, Arial; font-size: 11px; -webkit-text-size-adjust: 100%;""Thanks, Jen. DiNozzo destroying the agency at all?"/p
p style="max-height: 999999px; font-family: Verdana, Verdana, Arial; font-size: 11px; -webkit-text-size-adjust: 100%;""No, you're the one who causes all sorts of chaos. Though, he's driving McGee and Ziva crazy already." Jenny replied./p
p style="max-height: 999999px; font-family: Verdana, Verdana, Arial; font-size: 11px; -webkit-text-size-adjust: 100%;""Sounds like him." Gibbs replied./p
p style="max-height: 999999px; font-family: Verdana, Verdana, Arial; font-size: 11px; -webkit-text-size-adjust: 100%;""Any idea when you two will be back?"/p
p style="max-height: 999999px; font-family: Verdana, Verdana, Arial; font-size: 11px; -webkit-text-size-adjust: 100%;""Jen, we just lost our son. Getting back to work isn't the first thing on our minds!" Gibbs growled. Kate was thankful for his response, because she wasn't sure if she wanted to go back to NCIS./p
p style="max-height: 999999px; font-family: Verdana, Verdana, Arial; font-size: 11px; -webkit-text-size-adjust: 100%;""I'm sorry I didn't mean to imply that- a son?"/p
p style="max-height: 999999px; font-family: Verdana, Verdana, Arial; font-size: 11px; -webkit-text-size-adjust: 100%;""David Todd Gibbs." Kate quietly informed her of their son's name./p
p style="max-height: 999999px; font-family: Verdana, Verdana, Arial; font-size: 11px; -webkit-text-size-adjust: 100%;""The grapevine didn't tell you?" Gibbs asked, everyone knowing the grapevine was Tony./p
p style="max-height: 999999px; font-family: Verdana, Verdana, Arial; font-size: 11px; -webkit-text-size-adjust: 100%;""No."/p
p style="max-height: 999999px; font-family: Verdana, Verdana, Arial; font-size: 11px; -webkit-text-size-adjust: 100%;""He was so...perfect. He was so small..." Kate trailed off./p
p style="max-height: 999999px; font-family: Verdana, Verdana, Arial; font-size: 11px; -webkit-text-size-adjust: 100%;""Kate, it's alright." Gibbs put his hand on her shoulder, figuring that she was becoming upset./p
p style="max-height: 999999px; font-family: Verdana, Verdana, Arial; font-size: 11px; -webkit-text-size-adjust: 100%;""Jethro, he's gone. emGone/em." Kate's grief took over her words./p
p style="max-height: 999999px; font-family: Verdana, Verdana, Arial; font-size: 11px; -webkit-text-size-adjust: 100%;"Jenny, still there wasn't sure what to do. She could run a whole damn federal agency, but she had no idea what to say to her two friends who were grieving over the death of their baby. The only time she had seen any of them vulnerable was when Kate was shot in the head and when Gibbs was in an explosion, but what she was seeing now was a different type of vulnerability and she didn't know how to react./p
p style="max-height: 999999px; font-family: Verdana, Verdana, Arial; font-size: 11px; -webkit-text-size-adjust: 100%;""I should be going. I'll see you tomorrow. Take care of yourselves." Jenny told them before hurrying out./p
p style="max-height: 999999px; font-family: Verdana, Verdana, Arial; font-size: 11px; -webkit-text-size-adjust: 100%;"Gibbs held Kate close, never wanting to let her go. They both cried. Their child was gone and they couldn't do anything at all to bring him back./p
p style="max-height: 999999px; font-family: Verdana, Verdana, Arial; font-size: 11px; -webkit-text-size-adjust: 100%;""Katie, love, are you ready?" Gibbs asked his wife./p
p style="max-height: 999999px; font-family: Verdana, Verdana, Arial; font-size: 11px; -webkit-text-size-adjust: 100%;"Kate appeared in a long black dress holding her son's teddy bears, "Can anyone ever be ready to say goodbye to their child?"/p
p style="max-height: 999999px; font-family: Verdana, Verdana, Arial; font-size: 11px; -webkit-text-size-adjust: 100%;""No, but we have to do this. For David." Gibbs said./p
p style="max-height: 999999px; font-family: Verdana, Verdana, Arial; font-size: 11px; -webkit-text-size-adjust: 100%;""For David." Kate agreed./p
p style="max-height: 999999px; font-family: Verdana, Verdana, Arial; font-size: 11px; -webkit-text-size-adjust: 100%;"They arrived at their church where the Pastor hugged them both, apologizing for their loss. He lead them to the tiny casket, where their son was./p
p style="max-height: 999999px; font-family: Verdana, Verdana, Arial; font-size: 11px; -webkit-text-size-adjust: 100%;""Take your time." The pastor told them./p
p style="max-height: 999999px; font-family: Verdana, Verdana, Arial; font-size: 11px; -webkit-text-size-adjust: 100%;"Inside the coffin was their son. Kate picked up the baby blanket she had bought for him and swaddled him in it, to keep him warm. She kissed his tiny head and put a rosary next to his tiny hand. Gibbs put the teddy bears on each side of him, to keep him company and as a reminder that his parents love him. Gibbs kissed his son as well./p
p style="max-height: 999999px; font-family: Verdana, Verdana, Arial; font-size: 11px; -webkit-text-size-adjust: 100%;""I love you." Kate whispered to baby David./p
p style="max-height: 999999px; font-family: Verdana, Verdana, Arial; font-size: 11px; -webkit-text-size-adjust: 100%;""We'll always love you." Gibbs added./p
p style="max-height: 999999px; font-family: Verdana, Verdana, Arial; font-size: 11px; -webkit-text-size-adjust: 100%;"They each gave their son one last kiss before heading to the sanctuary in tears. The Pastor said nothing, his heart broke for Kate and Gibbs. He remembered the day he married the two and how in love they were, they still were very much in love but they were both hurting. He carefully picked up the little casket and carried it into the sanctuary./p
p style="max-height: 999999px; font-family: Verdana, Verdana, Arial; font-size: 11px; -webkit-text-size-adjust: 100%;"Their friends from NCIS, Kate's family, and Gibbs's dad all showed up for the funeral. Kate's family of course was all over them. The funeral seemed to go by so quickly. Both Kate and Gibbs had tear stained faces. It was a beautiful service for their son, Gibbs had made sure of it. When the Pastor announced Kate would be giving the euology, Gibbs squeezed her hand before she went up to the podium./p
p style="max-height: 999999px; font-family: Verdana, Verdana, Arial; font-size: 11px; -webkit-text-size-adjust: 100%;"Kate nervously looked around at all her friends and family, "My son, David Todd Gibbs may have only been with us for 17 w-weeks a-and he may not have ever meet anyone, but Jethro and I l-loved him so much. H-he was an e-energetic baby, at each ultrasound we could see him squirming around. H-he completed us. D-David was the most beautiful baby I had ever seen. We s-shouldn't be burying h-him today, he," Kate choked back sobs, "was only a little baby, who should still be in my womb alive and happy. We love you David." Kate completely broke down into tears./p
p style="max-height: 999999px; font-family: Verdana, Verdana, Arial; font-size: 11px; -webkit-text-size-adjust: 100%;""You did great. It was beautiful." Gibbs told Kate through his own tears./p
p style="max-height: 999999px; font-family: Verdana, Verdana, Arial; font-size: 11px; -webkit-text-size-adjust: 100%;"They all quietly walked to the graveyard, where a small plot was waiting. A blue tinted headstone read: DAVID TODD GIBBS OCTOBER 15th 2006 AN ANGEL FOREVER IN OUR HEARTS. Kate stared at the headstone when she noticed a medium sized angel statue next to it. She was confused, they had only bought a headstone./p
p style="max-height: 999999px; font-family: Verdana, Verdana, Arial; font-size: 11px; -webkit-text-size-adjust: 100%;""Where'd the angel come from?" Kate whispered as the Pastor said some final words./p
p style="max-height: 999999px; font-family: Verdana, Verdana, Arial; font-size: 11px; -webkit-text-size-adjust: 100%;""I don't know." Gibbs told her./p
p style="max-height: 999999px; font-family: Verdana, Verdana, Arial; font-size: 11px; -webkit-text-size-adjust: 100%;"Kate and Gibbs both tossed white roses onto the coffin as it was lowered into the ground. Kate was sobbing while Gibbs had a few tears in his eyes, but had no expression./p
p style="max-height: 999999px; font-family: Verdana, Verdana, Arial; font-size: 11px; -webkit-text-size-adjust: 100%;"Abby, Tony, Ziva, Tim, Ducky, and Jenny had all put some flowers on the coffin as well./p
p style="max-height: 999999px; font-family: Verdana, Verdana, Arial; font-size: 11px; -webkit-text-size-adjust: 100%;"People slowly began leaving one by one./p
p style="max-height: 999999px; font-family: Verdana, Verdana, Arial; font-size: 11px; -webkit-text-size-adjust: 100%;""Oh honey." Was all Kate's mother said before embracing her daughter in a hug./p
p style="max-height: 999999px; font-family: Verdana, Verdana, Arial; font-size: 11px; -webkit-text-size-adjust: 100%;""Mom, give them some space right now." Kate's sister, the psychologist, Rachel told their mother./p
p style="max-height: 999999px; font-family: Verdana, Verdana, Arial; font-size: 11px; -webkit-text-size-adjust: 100%;""I'll see you in a bit." Mrs. Todd told them./p
p style="max-height: 999999px; font-family: Verdana, Verdana, Arial; font-size: 11px; -webkit-text-size-adjust: 100%;"Kate clutched her husband's arm as they looked at the grave. They must have stood there for an hour or two before turning around and seeing the team there waiting./p
p style="max-height: 999999px; font-family: Verdana, Verdana, Arial; font-size: 11px; -webkit-text-size-adjust: 100%;""What are you doing still here?" Gibbs asked them./p
p style="max-height: 999999px; font-family: Verdana, Verdana, Arial; font-size: 11px; -webkit-text-size-adjust: 100%;""Waiting for you. We wanted to support you guys." Abby explained./p
p style="max-height: 999999px; font-family: Verdana, Verdana, Arial; font-size: 11px; -webkit-text-size-adjust: 100%;"Kate's heart was warmed by her friends actions./p
p style="max-height: 999999px; font-family: Verdana, Verdana, Arial; font-size: 11px; -webkit-text-size-adjust: 100%;""It was a nice service for David. The angel is a very nice...touch? He will be watching over you." Ziva told them./p
p style="max-height: 999999px; font-family: Verdana, Verdana, Arial; font-size: 11px; -webkit-text-size-adjust: 100%;""No idea where the angel came from." Gibbs replied./p
p style="max-height: 999999px; font-family: Verdana, Verdana, Arial; font-size: 11px; -webkit-text-size-adjust: 100%;"McGee stepped forwards, "It was me. I know how much he means to you and I...thought it/p
p style="max-height: 999999px; font-family: Verdana, Verdana, Arial; font-size: 11px; -webkit-text-size-adjust: 100%;"would be a nice way to honor him." Everyone except Abby looked at him in shock./p
p style="max-height: 999999px; font-family: Verdana, Verdana, Arial; font-size: 11px; -webkit-text-size-adjust: 100%;"Kate teared up and hugged Tim, "Thank you, Tim. Thank you."/p
p style="max-height: 999999px; font-family: Verdana, Verdana, Arial; font-size: 11px; -webkit-text-size-adjust: 100%;""Thanks, Tim. Appreciate it." Gibbs thanked./p
p style="max-height: 999999px; font-family: Verdana, Verdana, Arial; font-size: 11px; -webkit-text-size-adjust: 100%;""No problem, Kate, Gibbs."/p
p style="max-height: 999999px; font-family: Verdana, Verdana, Arial; font-size: 11px; -webkit-text-size-adjust: 100%;"The couple took one last look at the grave and headed home, remembering the 17 weeks David was with them./p
p style="max-height: 999999px; font-family: Verdana, Verdana, Arial; font-size: 11px; -webkit-text-size-adjust: 100%;"16 MONTHS LATER.../p
p style="max-height: 999999px; font-family: Verdana, Verdana, Arial; font-size: 11px; -webkit-text-size-adjust: 100%;"Kate and Gibbs held their 16 week old daughter, Sophia at David's grave. It had been a long road before they had even started making love again. Kate had become depressed after losing David and Gibbs alone couldn't help her. All she had done was work, come home, and cry herself to sleep. Occasionally Kate would beg Gibbs to just f*ck her senseless, because she wanted to feel something over than her grief. Of course, Gibbs always refused to and it usually ended with Kate crying on his shoulder. Gibbs had finally convinced her to see a therapist. Kate and Gibbs had then together joined a pregnancy and infant loss support group three months after the miscarriage. Kate and Gibbs had both begun healing after talking about it to other families going through the same thing. Another three months, before Kate began to return to herself. Then, two months more before they started making love again and Kate had gotten pregnant within two months./p
p style="max-height: 999999px; font-family: Verdana, Verdana, Arial; font-size: 11px; -webkit-text-size-adjust: 100%;"The pregnancy had been scary for both of them, scared they were going to lose Sophia too, but they were ecstatic as well. Towards the end of the second trimester, Kate wasn't as worried as she had been. Then, in December Kate gave birth at home to their beautiful daughter./p
p style="max-height: 999999px; font-family: Verdana, Verdana, Arial; font-size: 11px; -webkit-text-size-adjust: 100%;"Today, they were introducing Sophia to her big brother. Kate held the little girl as Gibbs began to tell her about he big brother./p
p style="max-height: 999999px; font-family: Verdana, Verdana, Arial; font-size: 11px; -webkit-text-size-adjust: 100%;""Soph, baby girl, this is where your big brother, David is. He died when he was younger than you. He lives up in Heaven with Angels." He told his daughter./p
p style="max-height: 999999px; font-family: Verdana, Verdana, Arial; font-size: 11px; -webkit-text-size-adjust: 100%;"Sophia looked up in the sky and squealed. A white bird was flying close to them before landing on the angel next to the headstone. Sophia smiled and pointed to the bird./p
p style="max-height: 999999px; font-family: Verdana, Verdana, Arial; font-size: 11px; -webkit-text-size-adjust: 100%;"Kate gasped, "David." The bird hopped close to them./p
p style="max-height: 999999px; font-family: Verdana, Verdana, Arial; font-size: 11px; -webkit-text-size-adjust: 100%;""He is here. Watching over us." Gibbs managed to say, looking at the bird./p
p style="max-height: 999999px; font-family: Verdana, Verdana, Arial; font-size: 11px; -webkit-text-size-adjust: 100%;"At that moment, they knew their family was all there. They were complete./p