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Author's note:

Hey lovies! I hope you all have enjoyed your Christmas break. :D I am really really sorry for not posting for so long...So I might be a bit rusty with my grammar and spelling... :P I'm being a bit slack during the holidays... If you guys can understand what I mean that's good enough.

Thank you for all the support that you have given me, and I'll try to post more frequently and more chapters at the same time.

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Edward POV

I had seen Bella, at the bar all by herself so I gathered all the courage I had to ask her to dance with me once more. She looked absolutely stunning, her blush complimented her skin tone against her outfit. She hasn't failed to amuse me yet.

She was magnificent, our movement flowed like honey, her dancing ability were greatly underestimated, there was nothing that could tear us away at this point in time. I didn't want to boast, but mum made all of three of us do dance classes when we were younger and I used to also dance with Tanya, we entered one or two competitions just for fun back in high school. All of a sudden I heard my name being called out followed with a tap on my left shoulder. I could feel Bella tense up in front of me.

Bella pulls away from my hold and muttered a quite "I have to leave.." before she sprinted for the door.

I turned around to see Tanya in a fitted black salsa dress. Speak of the Devil and the Devil shall appear. That was the same dress that we had won our first competition in. I was stunned at first to see her standing in front of me, but as soon as I realised it was her anger started to course through my body.

"Tanya," I roughly grabbed her wrists and pulled her aside from the dance floor. "What the hell are you doing here?"

"I guess wanted a dance, just like old times huh."

"Tanya, I thought that we've made this clear last night. I have no intension of seeing you after what you have put me through." I hissed with venom flowing through my words.

"Edward, what I put you through?!" She was getting mad now."I was the one who was pregnant, the one who lives with the guilt and the scar imprinted in my abdomen to remind me of my mistakes forever. FOREVER!"

We were both silent at this point. "I just..." Tanya continued

"I've been thinking and, I want us to end on good terms. Here" She handed me a black and white photo. There was a small blurred figure in it.

"It was our baby, it's the only photo I have of him... I want you to have it"

My emotions once again came crashing down onto me. Tanya took my silence as a cue to leave. I couldn't understand the feelings that were flowing through my body. Anger, frustration, hurt and angst, I couldn't bare to stay in here any longer. Six pairs of curious eyes stared at me, questioning what just happened. I didn't say anything, I wasn't ready to face them yet.

I stormed out of the room, and headed towards the bar. I gripped the photo tightly as if it would slip away from me any second, but of course everything has. My girlfriend, my son, Bella, my life. Everything was falling through the cracks.

When I got to the bar, I tried to drown my sorrows with alcohol. Thankfully there was a piano at the bar, I tried to play to calm myself, but it was all too much, my handed was shaking so hard I couldn't even play. Miraculously, I had no trouble pouring myself drink after drink, it could have been hours or days wallowing in despair. It was then Emmett found me, he took mostly empty bottle of Jack Daniels away.

"Heey! Ii'm not finnished yet." Even my speech started to slur, he was not going to like this.

"What the hell is wrong with you bro, since when do you drink and you have a hell of a lot of explaining to do."

I shoved him the photo. "You see this."

"Yeah, what's this got to do with... is Tanya pregnant?"

"She wass... that WAS our child. Buuut not anymore. Noope, not annymore"

"Ed, I'm sorry I didn't.."

"Noo oonne did... that'ss the proobbleemm. I diddnn't knnnoww unnntill lassst nighht."

"Okay bro, we need to get you to sleep." It was then when I started to break down. The tears that were held back finally broke through. They were pouring out of my system uncontrollably. I think this was the first time my brother has seen me like this. He silently hooked my arm over his broad shoulders and hoisted me up and dragged me back to my room.

He placed the photo on my bedside table. I murmured a soft thank you and then Emmett turned and left. Then all of a sudden I saw a brown headed girl standing right in front of me holding a child with wild bronze hair and shinning green eyes. I was pretty sure I was dreaming, but it seemed so realistic. I couldn't help but stare back into them, I tried to reach out to them but before everything I knew it everything turned black.

Please don't hurt me!

I know I'm a terrible drunk writer soo please don't hate on it... and I know there wasn't a lot of Bella action in it but please bare with me!

But still...Not too bad huh? For someone who hasn't written in ages... like back when the dinosaurs were still alive...

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Happy New Year

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