Lisa and Jenn are my lovely betas.
October 5th, 2007
Dear Diary,
He's now hooking up with Tanya Denali. If it weren't for their not-so-sneaky glances at each other and the gropes, I would have known from Emmett, who keeps saying "good for him," all the fucking time.
And that's something right there.
Emmett telling Edward he should move on and forget Rosalie? He keeps talking about how perfect she is, how much she deserves the best. Besides, he's constantly telling Edward to get over her. I feel like I'm missing something here.
Either way, I'm done with Edward Cullen. I'm pretty sure it's not his fault I'm this disappointed though. I created this for myself. He would never look at me twice, would he? I'm the one imagining a fairytale, imagining that he could ever be with me. How can I be so ridiculous?
But, of course, this false sense of maturity is accompanied by an emptiness I didn't know it was possible to feel. And why am I feeling empty? We weren't together. I don't know him at all. So why the fuck do I feel like this? I keep telling myself it's temporary. Let's just hope it is.
There is good news, though. Alice Cullen is transferring from some school in Seattle to Forks High, according to Emmett, so I'm hoping we can be friends. I've talked to her a few times and I think she's really nice. Let's see how that goes.
Also, my mom is coming in a few weeks to visit us.
In our phone conversation with her, Emmett kept his mouth shut, agreeing with everything she said, but I know he was trying to hold back a few words. We are now trying to come up with a way to tell our dad the news. I have no idea how he'll react.
Apart from that, I'm glad she's coming. I haven't seen her in a while. And I miss Phil.
Now I'm heading to bed and maybe I'll even read a book. At least there I will find romance, whether it's in my dreams or in the worn pages of Pride and Prejudice.
B.S.
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