Lisa is the best beta anyone could have.
Thanks, again, for reading. I'm updating now twice a week.
November 9th, 2007
About an hour ago, I sat here in this chair and wondered what I would be writing about today. Since there hasn't been much happening lately, I had no idea what to write. Wait, maybe I did. More self-pitying words saying how much I need Edward to need me. When is that going to be enough?
Instead, I read all the things I've wrote: ever since he first noticed me until I thought he was actually jealous of me.
And I thought, a few minutes ago, "Why does my life revolve around him?"
Why do I keep trying to make something that does not exist be my entire life?
So I've decided to change that. Even if my attempts are futile, I am going to change that. I'm going to find a hobby and meet new people and maybe have a boyfriend. Or lots of new friends, who knows? I want to get over him once and for all.
I'm going to get dressed now and I'm going to drive to Port Angeles to check out the theater group I've read about in school.
No more Edward from now on.
B.S.