Lisa and Rags cleaned this up.
February 15th, 2008
I've been avoiding him like the plague. I feel too embarrassed and hurt, and seeing him and his smile is not going to make all these feelings go away. Especially during the week of Valentine's Day.
Dad is happier now, and I think that's good, even though he has been whistling around the house. Not only is that weird, but annoying. We're all in a crappy mood, except for him. I wonder what happened to make him so happy. I guess we'll know soon.
Emmett has been in a shitty mood, just like me. I really don't think it's about Rosalie. I think it's something else school-related that he's not letting anyone know. Either way, I won't offer my shoulder for him to cry on or my good listener experience; he can find that elsewhere. I'm done trying to talk to him. It's like he's ashamed of me, or feels superior somehow. I'm only two years younger than him, so I don't know what the big deal is.
But I guess eighteen-year-olds don't want to hang out with sixteen-year-olds anymore. Yes, that was a jab at Edward.
He seems to want to talk to me, but I can't know for sure, since I really am avoiding him. Shamelessly.
He knows he shouldn't have played with my feelings, so what does he want now? Does he pity me? Is that it?
Well, he can go to hell.
And Alice can do the same thing. I'm tired of her constant cruelty.
B.S.
Bad things are coming. Sorry.