Chapter 4: Help
Come time for dinner all I could think about was the strange fondness as I glanced at Severus. I new that I would half to approach him at some point in order to learn his identity. Mind made up I decided to venture to his room cloak on and map in hand.
Finally in the dungeons I became hesitant to knock on the door of a man who I know for some reason hates my very being. Pushing that aside I allow my Gryffindor courage to take charge and do so anyway.
I am not surprised when as the door opened I was greeted by an angry scowl and a dark and impatient voice, "what are you doing here Potter?" the distane in his voice was impossible to miss.
For a moment I wondered if this was such a great idea. then remembering why I had came I spoke regardless, "I need to talk to you about something of great importance as well as secrecy. If you don't mind I would appreciate this conversation to be held with some privacy."
His eyes stared into mine for what seemed an eternity. Finally it seems as though he found what he was searching for giving a brief nod. "In." Happy to not have been refused I rushed in at the offer.
"Say what you have to say Potter I don't have all day."
Putting aside my frustration at his attitude I rushed to explain my situation. I told him of my visit to Gringotts and showed him the piece of parchment that I showed Hermione,and then continued on to explain how exactly we learned I would be able to tell who was who from my past life compared to my present.
Seeing as he remained silent for my explanation I continued to show him my list of possible familiars, and described the emotions I felt when I looked at him.I told him how I knew he would not be Arthur but that I wish to figure out who he was in my life previous. finishing what I had to say I waited patiently for his reaction.
"Merlin? if what you say is true it is still not reasonable that you would feel compassion towards me as we have hated each other since your school year began.."
shaking my head in disagreement I gave a soft chuckle, "No I have never hated you. You were the one to show immediate hatred towards me in the first class I had here, assuming I am like my father rather than taking the time to know who I am actually. I had rather looked up to you before you shot me down in front of all of my peers."
My professor at least had the audacity to look embarrassed. choosing not to comment he changed topic fairly quickly, "Very well, who all have you discovered so we might narrow down the options. do you know who all was closest in his life during that time?"
I was surprised at myself and my friends for not thinking to look up who was closest in Merlin's life, as it seemed such an obvious place to start. slightly ashamed in my lack of thought I shook my head in the negative, "We have not looked at who was closest to him however we have discovered Gaius my once mentor and Will my once best friend."
"as much as I loathe to say I believe its best we spend time together each night and perhaps I will say or do something to trigger the memory of who I am. Meanwhile I will research my library to see if I can find anything on your past."
grinning at getting such an offer I nodded quickly, "thank you sir for not turning me away and giving me an opportunity to learn who you are. I will do my best not to waste your time."
"Be here tomorrow 9 o'clock sharp. do not be late."
I quickly nodded before running off to Gryffindor common room to tell Ron and Hermione the events of the night.
The next morning I knew I would have to also make contact with Draco, as I was determined to postpone Dumbledore as long as I could. At least Draco and Snape most certainly safe ground. For some reason Dumbledore gave me a bad feeling. A cold one that terrified me.
walking up to the mini malfoy with confidence and determination I nearly held out my hand. unsurprisingly Draco raise an eyebrow as if to say I was a moron.
Within a moment I had jumped myself into an explanation, "I was wrong to turn away your hand in friendship those years ago. if you are not opposed I would like to extend this offer now with the condition that we will B at least hospitable to one another as friends and company."
I could see the question and suspicion in his eyes and decided to lighten the air. "If worst comes to worse you can always hand me over to the Dark Lord and gain favor." I took care to be sure he saw the amusement in my eyes and that I meant no insult with what I said.
Several moments later the tense atmosphere was lifted as Draco laughed and accepted my proposal and friendship. This of course brought surprise to the school but I could care less, as the house rivalries needed to be lessened anyway. Perhaps the end of a feud so long ago made would help the other classmates to be more willing to get closer to one another.
"If you don't mind meeting me on the 7th floor corridor I would very much like to discuss some important matters with you," I requested is pleasantly and respectfully as I could manage.
He agreed easily but asked if he could bring his goons. I told him he could but that I would be putting up with silencer as they did not need to be hearing what I had to say. He was again agreeable and we parted ways to finish out our breakfast before we met again before lunch.
later in the room of requirements we sat comfortably in front of a warm fire and a homie looking room similar to that of our common rooms.
He looked to me with curiosity, "what is it that you needed to discuss pot... I mean Harry?"
once again for what seems like the millionth time I explained my situation gave my proof and told him how he was won of those that I had been familiar with in my past life. I asked if he would talk with me for a while to see if he said anything that would bring up any memories or clues as to who he was. like everyone else he was shocked as to my identity.
"so do you even have an idea as to who Arthur will be?"
Blushing slightly I gave a tiny nod, "I have an idea as to who it may be though the idea terrifies me. I have had no visions about him so it is not something I have proof of, but in my mind it makes sense. Arthur was someone who was always in Merlins life in one way or another. He was there in good ways and bad ways and there is only one person who has ever been a constant impact to me. I have chosen however not to sprout names until I've met all of those on my list of possibilities. no need to worry for no reason."
Draco go to look in his eyes that told me he knew who I was talking about, and I appreciated him not continuing further on to the topic. instead he smiled, " its alright amorous. I'm sure fate would not give you a second chance just to make your life once again help."
Instantly I clutched my head as a headache struck me. I did not receive a name this time but an image, an image of a small boy and a blue hood.
As the headache passed I looked up to be greeted by the sight of a worried Draco, "Harry are you alright? what happened?"
I gave what I hoped to be a comforting smile, "I'm alright, I just had a small picture off who you were when i first met you. Unfortunately no name though."
He laughed, before stating that this was another situation that they would have to run by a certain bushy haired bookworm.
That night at dinner i found myself joined draco at the Gryffindor tables. It was good to know that all of my friends would get along despite previous animosity between them.
As dinner came to a close I Bid farewell to Ron and Hermione as well as my newly aquired blonde friend, before heading once again down to the dungeons. Knocking at the door with more confidence than I did the night before, I was greeted once again by the Same scowling man. No words were shared between us as i entered the room.
"Alright Potter you have an hour. What do you wish to discuss, make the most of it."
as I had promised not to waste my professors time I allowed him to cut to the chase, "Alright why do you hate me so much then? it can't be just because my father bullied you as a child."
I saw the hesitation in his eyes and was surprised when rather than throw insults or simply ignore me he actually answered, "it's your eyes. you see when I was a child your mother and I were very dear to each other, then James, your father had to come into the picture and ruined it all. I think the reason for my treatment of you now is that when I see I see her eyes, and James on all the rest. It reminds me of how she picked him and you are the result of such a choice."
I was to say the least shocked that snape of all people had been that close to my mother. Everyone always told me about my dad but no one ever knew about my mother Lily. I felt the fondness I felt before grow in strength, before another question entered my mind.
"If you loved my mother so much then why did you join the dark knowing that she light herself?"
Fear crept into his eyes before he started slowly, "In the beginning it was because of my anger towards your father for taking Lily from me, however I am going to tell you something I need you to Vow will never leave this room."
Knowing well that trust was not something this man gave freely I spoke with pure honesty, "I Harry James Potter aka Merlin Emerys vow that anything said in this room will not leave this room without express permission from Severus Snape himself so mote it be." I felt the magic of the vow swirl around me and seal the deal with my magic in it.
Nodding to acknowledge that he trusted the vow he continued to speak, I am not as light as many believe thanks to Dumbledore's backing of me at my trial. I do follow the Dark Lord fully and holy. His beliefs have been tampered wit and lied about due to that meddling old fool. Do not be so quick to make your decision until you have heard the Dark Lord's believes for himself. Yes he has caused much destruction but he kills for a reason vengeance. this is of Dumbledore's doing."
It was his last sentence that caused it. For the second time that day I was hunched over in pain but this time with the name. Terrified of his reaction I stared in awe and in silence...
AN/:
CLIFF HANGER!
who is Snape?
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