Lisa and Rags, thanks for being the fastest and the most efficient betas in the world.
Thank you all for the love and constant support this fic has. It's wonderful to know someone out there is appreciating it.
February 29th, 2008
This week was slightly better when it came to Edward.
He tried to talk to me a little bit more, and he even tried to explain his standoffish behavior, even though I could tell he wasn't really feeling it. It's as if once he had me, he was no longer interested. But when it looks like he might lose me, I'm now this precious little thing.
It's so sick and obvious that I don't know how I didn't realize it before.
Maybe that's why Alice is so mad at me. She knows I'll end up hurt, and she can't avoid it. After all, she must know her brother, just like she knows there's no one else he would love besides Rosalie.
We've also talked to Renée about going to Seattle. She was just indifferent to it all and wished us good luck with the moving. Pathetic doesn't even begin to cover her shitty behavior. But I guess no one was really that surprised. She's just like that. Eccentric, selfish and indifferent to everyone.
Emmett is the one taking this change very badly. I'm pretty sure it's not because he's going to miss his jackass friends or the football team. It's all because of Rosalie; we all know that. God, that bitch has the best people in her life. How can they look at her and not see what I see? Even Alice says she's a horrible person. How come she gets the best, being the way she is?
The worst thing of all is that, deep down, Edward still wants her and no one else. Why do I keep thinking I, plain ol' Bella Swan, is going to change that?
I should just settle down with someone like Mike and get it over with. It would be faster, simpler, and it wouldn't make me hurt this much.
B.S.