ACHE
An ache that's what it was a hollow ache consuming her slowly like a parasite consuming its meal. Rin's head swam with the wasted effort of thinking so many thoughts so much time wasted on pointless thoughts pointless tasks.
She could feel it in her veins an empty burning, a burning for desire only quenched with death. A shallow sigh escaped her lips as she watched the expensive black Mercedes drive up through the rain. Sliding down further on the sill she closed her eyes any minute now her mother would come barging in horrifyingly fake smile smeared on her taunt skin checking Rin for any cuts or signs of self harm.
It had been 6 months since the hospital, six long months of counseling, shrinking and mental evaluating. Countless doctors tried to make Rin talk, tried to get inside her head to 'understand' and 'help' her'. Rin laughed a sour laugh 'Bullshit'.
Lies all of it and yet, here she was falling for it all, feeling like a prisoner in her own home, being strip searched every night followed by a long silence or a lecture of how much pain she cause her poor collagen stuffed mother, like she gave a shit.
Rolling her eyes at the thought Rin sat up pulling off her shirt waiting for the never failing sound of expensive parade heels clicking on the wood flooring. Now, imagine what a shock it was to hear instead, light laughter and the clinking of glasses followed by a gruff males voice. 'Wow now there's a change' Rin pulled back on her long gray shirt and walked down stairs to see what had her mother laughing like a moron.
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Mitomi beamed at the handsome 6'5" demon sitting on her couch with two cups of scotch in her hands.
"Oh Sesshomaru-sama you simply can't be serious an American did that."
The said demon turned seemingly indifferent bored eyes towards his secretary "Oh but I am serious." Sesshomaru looked his secretary up and down as she bent over ever so slightly, handing him his glass of scotch and bending at just the right angle to get a good glimpse of her implanted cleavage. The sight was enough to make the crotch in his slacks tighten with want.
Mitomi sat down next to her knew boss, legs crossed, giving him a good glimpse up her ridiculously tight skirt.
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Rin could hear the clinking of glasses as she rounded the corner towards the kitchen, where she pulled open the fridge pouring out her 'poison' for the night…rum and coke.
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Sesshomaru turned when he heard the clanking of another glass, followed by the soft padding of feet. Looking over, his eyes did a double take. There, in the kitchen, stood a woman smaller than Mitomi but maybe no bigger than 5'2". Her delicate hands grasping the fridge door her hourglass figure was hidden behind bagging sweat pants and a tight shirt. It was simply mouthwatering, who was this woman?
Mitomi could feel Sesshomaru's gaze stray knowing just exactly what he was gazing at. Her face reddened, a smile only the damned could pull spreading across her face. She called out to her daughter in a sickly sweet voice "Rin honey why don't you come and join us I want to introduce you to my new boss Mr.Tashio"
Rin froze, she knew that voice oh yes she knew that voice all too well. It was a voice that said she had just ruined a perfectly good deal for her mother and she was going to reap the benefits very soon.
Slowly she turned and…stopped standing stock-still. Shock written all over her face, there in the living room stood… "Inuyasha?" She mouthed the words so quietly only demon ears could pick them up and that's when she noticed her mistake.
The demons eyes narrowed slightly in annoyance or maybe anger? She wasn't sure but then she noticed the lack of fuzzy cartilage on the top of his head.
'No its not Inuyasha that was a stupid assumption' Rin shook her head and bowed slightly towards the white haired demon. "Tashio-sama" Sesshomaru bowed his head in turn.
Mitomi took this as her 'q' to play hostess. "Tashio-sama this is my lovely daughter Rin." Putting emphasis on lovely, the underlying meaning clear to all in the room despite what some thought. Sesshomaru nodded in acknowledgement no sign of shock outwardly visible.
Rin looked carefully at her mother's new boss and the position they were both in she dared to take a wild guess that she would be seeing much more of her mothers new boss, 'Oh the joy.'
Rin held back the urge to outwardly roll her eyes. "Rin sweety why don't you join us?" Rin turned her head towards her mother 'I know your game' was the only thought passing through her head as she took a seat on one of the few cushions spread around the low marble table.
Sesshomaru eyed the girl closely, 'hypnotizing' he thought as he watched the gentle sway of her hips her delicate fingers laced around the glass, her elbow length hair tinted with natural red and purple highlights with icy purple eyes giving her an ethereal glow.
And yet she looked no older than 14. 'What a shame'
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Rin twisted the shower letting the water run as she undressed, it had been hell humiliations and accusations hurtled at her without end for about a good few hours before finally Sesshomaru was bored enough to say he had to go abruptly ending the poorly concealed insults being spat in her face.
Sighing Rin slid into the shower letting the scalding hot water singe her flesh a hiss of both pain and relief slipping from her lips as she slid down the marble wall. There it was again that ache that hollow aching pulsing beat of its own. Spreading, aching, numbing, hurting, festering, bleeding. A nothingness consuming her as she stared at the droplets forming on her legs, the memories always intense as she felt wave after wave of nausea hit her. A ripping pain that felt like everything and yet nothing, reminding her of every fucking emotion she tried so hard to become immune to. She could feel her eyes burning from the lack of blinking. Turning her head towards the water she closed her eyes bending forward, oh if only she could turn back time go back to that very day and redo her supposed suicide. Maybe this time she'd be smart and just pop one in her head, easy, simple, permanent, done.
Oh how she wished.
Turing off the faucets Rin pulled the plushie yellow towel around herself; wiping the fog from her mirror she caught a glimpse of herself.
Long black hair with purple and red streaks matted down, dazed purple eyes, a scar in the shape of an X on the side of her cheek, another scar behind her ear and another one cutting slightly into her lip. Pulling the towel down further she could feel her hands numbly tracing the scars down her chest, her sides, her stomach. The further she went the uglier they got until she couldn't bare to keep staring at it for much longer, wrapping the towel tightly around herself once again.
Rin padded towards her bedroom she could hear her mother yipping away on the phone like a damned bird repeating the same annoying lines over and over again. Pulling down the shades Rin stripped herself of the soft material trading it for another pair of sweat pants and an overly sized Iron Maiden shirt, brushing her hair back before tousling the silken strands with her hands.
Flipping the power button on her laptop, she picked up her 3 day old water bottle and a bottle of Rum while pulling from her open drawer and taking out a bottle full of pink pills. Popping two into her mouth she signed on to a chat room and that's were she spent the remainder of her night trying to kill the ever-lasting ache.
A/N: OMG EEEEP!!!!!!!! i am sooo sorry i like never updated this fanfiction just refused to let me update for im serious 5 MONTHS...it sucked!!!! well anyways heres an update no editing i just sat down for like 30 minutes and wrote this out hope it doesnt suck too bad well anyways plz review flame critique w/e just dont read it and not click that little button and leave a comment...or w/e well anyways happy holidays ja: 3