Shredded it remains

I'm not going to take this fucking shit anymore rin! I'm fucking sick and tired of hearing this shit it's the same old story every damned time. You drink, you smoke. You pass out in class because you're popping pills! You'd rather get wasted instead of talk about it! no I'm sorry you do talk about it, when your goddamned heads in the toilet puking your guts up, and you know it kills me, it fucking tears me apart to see you like this, but do you care? Yea for a second and then you're unconscious. You"

"STOP!"

Rin covered her ears with her hands, she couldn't take the anger that he was directing towards her, it tore at her to hear such blatant disappointment in his voice.

"stop? I can't rin! I can't stop because you can't stop! God dam nit can't you see that?" Akiro crawled over to where rin was huddled and pulled her hands off of her head.

"Rin, baby look at me." He tilted her chin upward so that she was looking directly at him as he wiped a few tears away.

"I don't want to make you cry koi, i love you, but what you're doing is just killing me, you don't know how badly it hurts to just sit back and watch you destroy yourself. I wish you'd talk to me, i know things with your parent's aren't perfect, but it can't be so bad that you have to destroy yourself."

Rin wanted to throw up, her stomach was tying itself into knots and hearing such love and compassion in his voice practically ripped her in half, Akiro was always so damned patient with her and kind and caring, understanding too. It was just too much she wasn't deserving of such a kindhearted person, she wasn't deserving of anything. That's what her mom always told her. Rin looked up at Akiro and seeing such raw emotion on display for her, made her realize he really did care, and that she was an awful fucking person for putting him through this. She really was going to kill him wasn't she? Rin couldn't help it though, being with bankotsu, selling his drugs, being untouchable; it gave her this rush of power. She was the right hand girl of the demon lord of the yakuza, how fucking powerful was she? Very. Just a snap of the fingers, and whoever her john doe was, was dead the next day no questions asked. She controlled the drug world. All those big tough bad men and demons, they all bowed down to her whenever she was in their presence. Who could give that up? Not her, she craved the attention far too much. But there was no way at all that she could tell this to Akiro, there simply was just no way.

Rin shook her head as she let the tears flow freely, god all she ever did when she was around akiro was cry these days. Hadn't she run out of tears yet?

"No don't, just don't, you cannot possibly freaking understand, just, i need some time alone okay? It's not..."

Akiro backed away with spite in his eyes

"Oh what? It's not you it's me? Is that where this is headed towards huh? Your just gonna up and leave me now Rin? Is that it?"

"N,NO! What the hell? I just need some time to think, i don't want to end us!"

Rin stared up incredulously.

"Wait, do you?"

She couldn't believe she was asking him this, but something about the look on his face; it didn't sit right with her.

"Well Rin, in case you need a news flash things aren't exactly smooth sailing right now with us."

Rin rolled her eyes and shock back with malice in her voice.

"Oh here we fucking go again! Would you give it a goddamned rest already? Of course things aren't perfect, you're breathing down my god damned neck every ten seconds, open your ears akiro and listen to me, I need some time to think, okay? I need some space, I NEED SOME FUCKING ROOM TO BREATHE!"

"FINE!"

Akiro shoved Rin down onto the bed.

"TAKE ALL THE FUCKING ROOM YOU WANT!" Rin gasped in shock as the back of her head collided with the concrete wall.

Akiro gasped in shock and rushed over to pull rin up into his lap the dingy wall was smeared with a trickle of bright red blood.

"Oh, no baby! Rin? baby? Can you hear me? God I'm, I'm so fucking sorry, I, i don't know what happened, i just, i just lost it, oh shit babe, please kami please say something...RIN!"

Rin could hear akiro but he sounded a million miles away, she felt like she was swimming, everything was darkened and fuzzy looking, she couldn't focus on anything. He pushed her; the knowledge had set in but the realization, no not at all. Flames, why was she seeing flames? What was burning? Rin tried to shake the odd image from her eyes but she couldn't. She couldn't shake her head at all. She was losing consciousness.

Xxx

Was this what they had turned into? Rin wondered as she stared at the still untouched English test on her desk. it was pretty disturbing how in only a few short months her 3 year relationship with akiro was slowly burning right in front of her, and there was absolutely nothing she could do about it. She wanted to sink down and cry but that would only succeed in intensifying her week long migraine. Rin unconsciously rubbed the stitching on the back of her head. She into the wall with breakneck speed, the doctor said it was a miracle she hadn't snapped her neck. Yea well she had one word, narcotics. Thank god for fucking pills right? Yea those little fuckers had kept her nice and relaxed, well for the most part.

Rin sighed and turned her paper over. Screw it; she didn't care if she failed, like school had ever gotten her anywhere. Rin had more important things to worry about like where her leather pants were, and who she was going to be dealing to tonight. Not who Shakespeare was or how many stupid plays he had written.

Also, what was she going to say to akiro? He had avoided her ever since last Friday when he had pummeled her. She still couldn't believe he had done it, that she had pushed him so far that he had just snapped and shoved her, and where did that super strength come from? Yes Akiro and bankotsu were related, through the same father but for some reason the demonic gene had skipped over Akiro, he had told her so himself. Maybe he had kept his strength? Well that could have been a possibility everything considered. Still that didn't give him a right to practically bash her skull in! Did it? She was the one who showed up at his apartment completely intoxicated and high. Oh who the fuck was she kidding? Rin wasn't mad, she could pretend all she wanted but she really was not mad at akiro, she didn't blame him, she couldn't. Rin knew Akiro loved her and wanted what was best for her always, she had just pushed him too far, and everyone makes mistakes. Rin packed her bags as the bell rang. She would definitely have to discuss this with her sister later.

"Rin!" Rin turned around and saw her friends hannah and mitsu waiting for her in the parking lot.

"Hey guys, whats up?"

"Oh you know same old same old, Hannah is sucking face behind the bleachers during p.e leaving me to fend for myself out there during stupid lacrosse, whoever heard of that sport anyways? It sucks! Completely messes with my hair and nails."

Hannah cried out in mock outrage.

"I do not suck face! I suck sticks get it right! Besides, Nenji will totally score us some serious weed."

"Oh okay so now your occupation is a whore? seriously?"

Rin rolled her eyes at her two friends bickering back and forth. "guys chill out! and focus here what are we gonna do this weekend?"

Rin asked as she stuck herself in between her friends. Hannah stepped back and unlocked her car

"Yea, we've got plans...hop in."

Rin looked at the car and back towards her car, she really didn't think she wanted to be out right about now but at the same time...she really could use the distraction. Rin closed the door behind her, "i know this really awesome club."

xxx

It was the biggest mistake of her life. Rin held her hair back as she heaved up the rest of the vodka and fruit in her system. She shouldn't of gotten talked into drinking bankotsu under the table to impress her girlies. Dumb idea. Rin turned over and sat down underneath the dimly lit sign to the back of the club. "ew puke chunks in my hair" Rin shuddered as she pulled bits of smoothie out of her tangled hair. "Rough night sweetheart?" Rin looked up and rolled her eyes lazily waving her hand back and forth to shoo the bozo off.

"Awh now rinniy-poo don't be so cold." Rin frowned and looked up not recognizing the voice or the face.

"Do I know you?" The said man bent down next to rin's slouched position near the employee exit door letting rin get a closer look at the man's face. Feminine features and short spiked black hair with Azul eyes. This really wasn't ringing a bell in her head.

"You should I am after all bankotsu's fabulous brother."

Rin did a double take and finally through the thick alcohol induced haze in her brain it clicked.

"Jakotsu?"

Said man smiled broadly "The absolute one and fucking only, sweetheart."

Alarm bells rang off inside Rin's head the only other time she ever had seen jakotsu was when bankotsu had ordered a hit on someone. Everyone knew he only called his brothers in when he really needed someone to disappear and never be found, alive or dead.

Shit, rin thought as she smiled at jakotsu accepting his offered hand as he pulled her up. She had to get her friends out of here and fast, who knew what they might be witness to, and besides she knew bankotsu never liked her present when he was killing someone. She vaguely wondered who had been marked this time. Maybe riouku? There had been some tension between him and bank lately. Ah it didn't really matter she decided as they made their way back inside the building. The important thing here was that she got her and her girls out before bankotsu decided to play the murder game, because if one of her friends even so much as heard a yelp they'd be dead as well, that was bankotsu's number one rule, no witnesses, no matter what.

Hey darling why don't we have a seat by the bar and have us a chat, it's been eons since us girls have been able to gab. I'm just dying to know the new company my brothers keeping lately."

Rin slipped her arm from the gay mans grasp. "of course jak, but probably another time, I've gotta get my girlies home, they're not cut for the scene this late at night. Wouldn't want their moms up my ass about this ya know?"

Rin smiled and turned to leave when jakotsu grabbed her hand with a pleading look on his face, oh but rinni-poo you simply must stay, I haven't seen you in months! Just a quick few minutes I promise, I did after all drive two hours just to get here and you and I both know all bankotsu ever calls me down here for is work, I mean psh how boring. Won't you please make my night rinni-poo?"

Rin had a sinking feeling, jakotsu was a little trigger happy, he probably didn't realize that if her friends witnessed anything that they would be killed, and here at the club, most people were fair game because most people who came to this club really didn't have anyone significant who cared about them, they were all strippers from foster homes or drug dealers and no one had legitimate i.d, so if they disappeared there really wouldn't be what bankotsu liked to call a paper trail. However if one of her friends didn't return home tonight they could rest assure that come morning their parents would be on the phone with the police demanding an amber alert effect immediately. Rin could already see it now, however Maybe Jakotsu really wasn't here to kill anyone, no he said bank had called him here on business so he was, but he maybe was gonna go somewhere else, to do it, or talk about it at a secured location? So no worries about a witness at the club. Rin shook herself, she was completely wasted still, of course they would go somewhere else to kill the guy! And duh they wouldn't just drag him out in front of everybody cause then they'd have to kill everyone here tonight and bankotsu would kinda be royally screwed.

Rin laughed to herself for being so damned retarded. "Yea alright jakky, but just ONE drink, I'm already totally wasted I don't need to get up to black out status, not tonight. Alright poodle?"

Jaktosu laughed as he led her towards a quieter corner at the end of the neon bar. "Take a load off those killer heels and I'll go fetch us something strong and 80 proof."

Rin chuckled as she watched the gay hit man saunter off in leather cut offs and a neon pink fishnet top. Rin shrugged her shoulders as she sprawled her arms out over her head brushing out the knots with her finger tips as she watched her friends flirt with a group of college boys, eh it was a Friday night and it was October there was always some tourists, as bank called them, this time of year. Rin sighed to herself. Her friends would be fine; all the panic was probably due to all the drinking, she always did get a little hyper on vodka. It never occurred to her that she was the one being targeted.

Jakotsu was standing near the end of the bar talking up the bar tender probably trying to persuade him to play a lil bedroom baseball with him. Rin wrinkled her nose at the thought. Ah it would take a while for jak to make his way back over so it was definitely nap time. Besides not like anyone would try anything they all knew only one guy could end her game. And that was bank. No one else would dare even think about it.

….tbc…(hey guys well I figured I'd write a couple of chapters on what had happened in the past I mean there's been hints here and there but I'm sure a lot of people really are curious as to what exactly happened. So this is it. It's too long for one chapter plus I don't think you guys really want to wait that long it's been forever since my last update! And for that I'm really so sorry! .

So please forgive and please review. Thank you much.