When a heart breaks no it don't break even
She wasn't sure when exactly they had slipped the roofie in her drink or who "they" were but as she came to; her groggy eyes focused on the empty car door and the silhouettes' sitting in front of her. Her head was pounding.
"Oh she's awake, should we tell her?"
"Shush, no poodle let's wait a bit till she comes around some more."
Rin didn't recognize the higher feminine voice but she definitely could recognize the second lower pitched forced feminine voice. Jakotsu, a million thoughts all of the sudden poured into her head pushing the grogginess away and causing her to moan out in pain as the pounding in her head intensified.
"Where is bankotsu?" That was the first thing she rasped out as soon as she was able to form coherent words. She was met with silence as she watched her vision slowly clear. Sitting in front of her were jakotsu and some really pretty woman who looked dressed for a corporate meeting in her slim black blazer and pencil skirt. Jakotsu was smiling but the woman's face was blank. Why was he smiling?
"Jak what the fuck?"
Rin tried to sound non chalant as she sat across arms tied behind her back and ankles chained together. The slow realization of that alone made her start to panic.
"No worries poodle-kins you'll see him soon."
Rin didn't like the underlying tones in his voice or the smirk on his face, this didn't feel right at all the people in the club, jak coming down, he never came down to visit unless bank needed a cleanup job. Rin pushed forward pulling against her restraints
"This isn't funny jakotsu don't play games with me!" Rin rasped out trying to sound as forceful as possible. Jakotsu reached forward and caressed the side of her cheek
"No one's playing games rinni-kins this is strictly business."
Rin felt her face drop as the panic started to take hold. Strictly business? Strictly business? The word floated around in her head over and over again she couldn't shake the queasy feeling in the bottom of her stomach. He was going to kill her. That's what all this meant. Rin's head felt as if it was spinning a hundred miles a minute why? Why was he going to kill her, what had she done? Rin fought hard to keep the panic at bay but it was starting to seem like a losing battle.
"Ahem"
Rin pulled herself out of her gloomy epiphany and looked up at the man and demoness sitting across from her so comfortably, drinking chardonnay and talking quietly amongst themselves. She had to get out. Rin pulled against the plastic cuff restraints. And bit the inside of her cheek as they bit into her wrist with every jerk. Well that was out of the question. Rin looked around slowly. No sharp objects within reach. Plus not like she could even try, the demoness Kagura she believed her name was would hear it in a heartbeat. Rin's best bet was to wait till they stopped the car and pulled her out. Rin took a visual sweep of the car. Bingo. She thought as she spotted the bottle opener off to her left. If she could only grab that when they pulled her out and stuffed it into her pocket. Well no Rin thought, that still wouldn't work her hands were tied behind her back. However she had no other possible option maybe it would come in handy. She was going to have to improvise here. She had to do something. At least go out with a fight. Rin refused to die complacent. That thought stopped her in he tracks, "die" It was the unspoken word floating around in the car, she had known it from the minute she had seen jakotsu hadn't she? Yes rin confirmed for herself, she did.
"Ah arrival at last."
Rin jerked her head to the side as the car finally rolled to a stop. The car door swung open and Kagura stepped out first followed suit by jakotsu.
"Call katsu to get the girl."
Rin couldn't believe it her window of opportunity. They had closed the door and left her tied up in the car. Rin rolled her eyes over to the bottle opener. Well it was literally now or never. Rin squirmed her way over to the bottle opener biting down on her lips hard as the cuffs cut into her wrists. As she maneuvered the sharp point across the cuffs making a sawing motion. A loud snap and the release of pressure on her wrists told her she had succeeded as she tucked the opener underneath the back of her skirt. The car door swung open as rin was trying to reposition herself. Cursing silently Rin braced herself to be caught. Lady luck was on her side however, the guy was facing the other way talking to one of bankotsu's other meat headed cronies.
Rin wrapped her hands around the sliced part of the cuffs. Right now wasn't the greatest of times to try to escape. They had her trapped. And the car still had the driver in it; it would be better to have the element of surprise. The guy finally turned around.
"Alright bitch lets go."
Rin jerked back on reflex as he reached for her causing him to grab her rough by her hair and shove her out of the idle car.
"ahh."
Rin winced as he kept a tight hold on her hair.
"I'd like to see you try that again."
Rin rolled her eyes exaggeratedly.
"Want to loosen your grip there tiny? You're messing with my hair."
The big ball of doom that currently had hold of her hair grunted, was that a laugh? Good god. Looking around as inconspicuous as possible; Rin moved in a little closer as she eyed the slim knife dangling from his pocket.
"Don't think you're going to care about your hair much longer."
Rin snaked her hand slowly around her side in time with her steps up the stairs.
"Not the point two ton tiny. Didn't your mother ever teach you not mess with a girl's hair?"
Almost almost. Rin bit the side of her lip as she leaned forward on the last step and slipped the knife off and up under her skirt. There. Now at least she wasn't completely defenseless against her possible murderer or maybe murderers.
Rin hissed as he yanked back on her hair momentarily losing his balance on the stairs. Rin didn't know whether to laugh or take it as an insult that Bankotsu had sent this idiot to escort her. Maybe she should laugh. It might loosen up the knot of impending doom nestled in her stomach.
"Copy that boss, were turning around."
Turning around? Rin looked to the side in time to see that they were above dragon street where the shanghai theatre was. Just the smallest of glimpses but she'd recognize the bright ivory and blue rooftop anywhere. Her heart started to speed up as the adrenaline kicked in. Who was she kidding she wasn't going to come out alive locked in a room with bankotsu not if he didn't want her to. She had to escape and She had to soon she realized as he opened a door leading down a very narrow dark tunnel. Rin was immensely glad Bankotsu had only sent a fat human to escort her to her execution.
Tiny Opened the second set of doors, it was now or, well never. Feeling the adrenaline start to take hold Rin jerked back and pulled the bottle opener from under her skirt. Tiny turned around and she could see the gun cocked in his hand but he was too slow. Rin shoved the bottle opener deep into his throat. Grabbing the gun quickly she turned and bolted. Her mind was racing as she stormed out the double doors and into a maze of hallways. This must be one of the abandoned buildings Bankotsu had bought. Rin shook the random thought as she slid down the banister to a set of stairs, opposite of the way they had come.
Game plan Rin Game plan. Heavy footsteps and jangling told her she wasn't alone any longer. Okay no time for game plan. Rin raced around the corner taking a sharp left sliding on the smooth floors as she went. The doors to her right burst. Rin let out a scream as she catapulted past black clad figures. An extremely loud crash sounded behind her followed by something whizzing by her ear. It took Rin a moment before she realized they were Shooting at her. No longer thinking, simply reacting. Rin twisted around and fired off three shots behind her. Two loud thuds followed as she turned back around just in time to see the flight of stairs she was barreling towards. Jumping up Rin caught the banister as she slid down. More shots were heard somewhere off in the distance but they didn't register. Another set of double doors were just up ahead. She hoped like hell that these doors led out onto the street. They couldn't kill her there not without the cops getting involved. Rin reached her hand out to push the doors. She grasped the handle and shoved but she fell back. Inhaling sharply rin kicked out as hands wrapped around her torso. The gun was ripped out of her right hand.
"Gotcha now Princess."
Rin thrashed and screamed.
"Scream all you want princess you're not going anywhere."
Hysteria was setting in as she was carried further away from the door. Rin wasn't sure when exactly tiny's knife had landed in her hand but the next thing she knew she had stabbed her captor in the groin. He dropped her hard. Rin felt the breath knocked right out of her but it didn't seem to faze her as she rolled out from under him and ran barreling through the backdoors.
Cold winter air met her lungs, the sidewalk beneath her feet felt frozen. However those things barely registered in her brain as she continued to run down the almost empty street. Just make it home, just make it home. That was the mindless mantra she chanted.
Xxx
Rin didn't realize she had run the entire way home till she found herself standing in front of the ladder that led to her bedroom window. Panting heavily and out of Breath she took this moment to finally relax. The adrenaline was still coursing through her system but little by little she felt sanity take hold of her mind again. The first thing that popped into her head.
"Hannah! Mitsu-chan."
Rin felt her eyes go wide as she searched her person; hoping desperately she had managed to hold onto her phone. Looking down Rin gaped at her bloody and dirt covered feet. When had she taken her shoes off?
"Aha." Rin pulled the tiny silver contraption out from inside her bra. Thank kami for padded pockets.
"c'mon c'mon."
The phone was dialing; it felt like an eternity Rin could feel the dread and panic start to kick in again.
"m-moshi?"
she fell back against the ladder relief flooding her.
"Mitsu."
"Rin? Rin why are you calling its 4 in the morning."
"I know I know, gomen just tell me is Hannah with you? Is she home?"
"Hai Hannah went home."
"Arigato mitsu-chan."
"hey, where'd you go tonight? We looked everywhere for you."
Rin could feel her hands start to shake violently.
"ah I was with a guy, ill um fill you in tomorrow. night."
"mm night."
xxx
Rin squinted against the harsh fluorescent lighting as she locked the bathroom door behind her. Sighing quietly Rin peered into the mirror and gasped loudly falling back against the wall, her hand immediately grabbed hold of her face another gasp leaving her mouth, blood, her face was caked with dried blood.
It was splattered all over her neck as well. Rin ran her hands down her neck shaking as flakes of dried blood chipped off. It wasn't her blood. Rin realized as she checked herself for any major wounds. It must have been from the guy she shot. Rin could feel the knot in her stomach rising as she heaved into the sink.
"No."
Rin ripped off the corset and skirt with violently shaky hands. It had to go, all of it, her clothes they needed to be burned. First things first however, she needed a shower, desperately. She couldn't help but watch in sick fascination as bright pink rivulets washed down the drain. Rin didn't leave till every inch of her body was scrubbed raw. Wincing she stepped into her robe.
"ok step two."
Saying it out loud helped keep her mind focused on the task at hand. Pulling out the first aid kit from under the sink Rin applied ointment and bandaged her feet.
"step three."
Rin grabbed a brush and yanked out all the tangles.
"step four."
Putting away the first aid Kit Rin pulled out the bleach and cleaner as she scrubbed the sink and shower clean.
"five."
retrieving one of the black garbage bags her mother insisted they keep stashed under the sink in case of flu emergencies she threw her clothes in it. Tying the bag tightly Rin took one last look around the bathroom before returning to her own room. Dark blue hues tinted the sky, her pink alarm clock glowed 6:40 am. Her dad would be up soon getting ready for work. Opening her closet door Rin yanked down an empty suitcase stashing the garbage bag in it for later disposure.
"done."
Rin closed her blinds and locked her doors. Trading the robe for a large shirt she threw back the heavy covers and fell into bed. Praying for a deep dreamless sleep.
Xxx
The blood staining the walls wasn't dark like blood. The color was a vibrant red like someone had painted splashed paint on the concrete walls. The chair was drenched in it. Was someone painting? The chair had restraints on it. Why were their restraints on the arms and legs of the chair? Running her hands through the paint she grimaced at the thick gooey like texture. Thick paint? Ick it was warm too.
"Hello?"
Hannah called out as she looked around the vacant room. Where was she? A muffled voice answered her. Hannah turned her head to the right spotting an industrial steal door off in the corner. Had that door been there before? She hadn't noticed it.
Walking over slowly Hannah called out again
"hello? Is someone here?"
Another muffled sound. She could make out a feminine tone to it this time. Was there someone behind the door? The muffled sound seemed desperate. Almost as if a girl was screaming. Hannah reached the door running her hands everywhere, she couldn't seem to find a handle or latch to the door.
Moving her ear to the hard slab she called out
"Is someone in there?" she paused, no answer. She tried again.
"c-can you open the door? I can't seem to open it."
That's when Hannah heard a low hum. Followed by a definite scream. Hannah's eyes went wide, as the girl let out another scream and the hum seemed to intensify. It sounded like some sort of saw. Oh god, she thought. There was a girl being tortured in there. Without thinking Hannah leaned against the door trying to make out any other sounds. The door gave way slightly to the pressure. Hannah stepped back and pushed harder. The door swung open smoothly. The scene before her Had Hannah shocked. There was a saw but that's not what horrified her. The saw was sawing wood behind her. No what had Hannah wide eyed was the site of the girl tied up in the middle of the room shackled to the floor with a sack over her head. The blood seemed to pool around a drain next to her.
Unable to speak Hannah rushed over and yanked the bag off of the girls face.
"It's alright; you're going to be okay I'm here to help you."
Hannah bent down and tried to yank on the manacles. No luck they were iron.
"Here I need to find something to cut these with just…"
Hannah stopped speaking as she finally got a good look of the girls face, Hannah gasped; her face. Hannah was looking at herself. She dropped the manacles and reached a hand out.
The other version of herself grabbed hold of her hand tightly and pulled her close.
"don't go, run Hannah, You need to run, the man with the ring will find you, don't let him get you, Hannah run!"
Hannah screamed and backed up as the shackled version of herself hoarsely whispered a warning.
"w-what?"
The girl lifted her head up looking Hannah straight in the eye.
"you are going to die."
Hannah watched wide eyed as blood started too flow out of her mouth, a line slowly formed on her stomach neck and legs.
Screams, all Hannah could hear were screams.
Xxx
Hannah woke with a start jumping out of her bed.
"No no." Hannah could hear herself muttering as she looked around her soft blue room. Running her hands up and down her legs stomach and neck she opened her closet, not satisfied that she was alright till she got a glimpse in the mirror. Hannah could feel herself shaking as she wiped the sweat from her forehead.
"Deep breathe Hannah deep breath, you had a nightmare. Calm down, breathe."
Hannah took several deep breaths before she felt herself start to relax. It had just been an awful vivid dream. Probably from the inevitable hangover she was feeling. Absinth probably not something she should of drank considering it made you hallucinate and on top of the Jell-O shots and Saki she had ingested earlier last night. Hannah started to laugh she must look so stupid right now, thank god she hadn't spent the night at mitsu's. The other girl would never let her live this down, besides the details of the dream were slipping her mind already.
"I'm such a baka."
Xxx
Rin woke up to the sound of her phone blasting in her ear, well actually under her ear. What the hell? Rin stuffed her hand under her pillow pulling out her cell phone.
"Moshi?"
"Sleepy head how are you?"
"Ugh Akiro it's too early why are you calling?"
"Early!" Akiro sounded shocked
"Hai, it's only like 6 in the morning." Rin looked over at the clock as Akiro probably fell over laughing on the other line.
"Oh." Rin raised her eyes as she checked the time and date on her phone, it was Sunday and it was 6 alright, 6 pm. Rin groaned
"stop laughing, you're mean."
Rin threw herself under the covers feeling her cheeks turn a slight red.
"You are so cute when you get things wrong koi, will you roll out of bed now and come have dinner with me?"
Rin thought about saying no just because but that thought left her mind the minute her stomach interjected.
"fine, but I want waffles…and chicken!" Rin smirked to herself he would never say yes to going down to that American joint downtown.
"ok be ready at 7."
Rin was mildly shocked, American cuisine wasn't really his thing.
"oh, ok"
"ja ne koi."
"ja ne."
Rin pulled the covers back and flipped the switch as she opened her closet. She still couldn't believe she had slept through all of Saturday AND Sunday. That was a new one for her, what had happened that night anyways? Rin was drawing a big fat blank as she scrunched up her nose.
"ew" what was that smell? Her closet smelt a little similar to a rotting animal. It was going to definitely be time to clean out her closet.
"nee-chan!"
Rin jumped at the high pitched squeal behind her.
"seriously?"
Keiko laughed as she plopped down among the mass of purple and grey that was Rin's bed.
"I'm practicing pitches for choir."
Rin chucked a pillow at her ridiculously perky twin. Keiko rolled to the other side and stuck out her tongue.
"you missed."
"yea that's what he said."
"oh eeeeeeeeeew nee-chan gross!"
Rin tossed back her head and laughed as she walked into the bathroom to get ready.
"Where are you going nee-chan?" Rin clipped her hair back as she started to apply her make up.
"Akiro wants to go have dinner."
"Did you tell mom?"
"No."
"Did you tell dad"
"pfft no."
Keiko rested her hand on the side of her face in mock shock.
"Oh yea that's right, of course you didn't silly me, you slept for two days!"
Rin raised a single eyebrow at her sisters annoying antics.
"what are you getting at?"
"why'd you sleep all weekend Rin? Why'd you come home at 5 in the morning sat?"
Rin brushed her hair out as she got ready to style it.
"I'm sorry are we playing 20 questions tonight?"
Keiko rolled her eyes at her sister's sarcasm. "That was two questions, answer them."
"You know I love how you're the only one to come and question me about this, isn't that mom and dad's job?"
"Mom and dad have been busy."
Rin cringed as she accidentally burnt herself with her straightener.
"A.k.a their heads are up their asses."
"Rin you're avoiding the questions."
Rin stepped back as she showered her hair in hairspray.
"Help me find something cute to wear huh?"
Rin walked to her closet and started pulling out clothes.
"think it's too cold for shorts keiko?"
"Ooh definitely too cold for shorts, baka."
Rin shrugged.
"How about my black pants and that American shirt dad bought me? You know the white Dior shirt? Oh I could totally top it off with some boots; no I should wear sneakers huh?"
"RIN!"
Rin stopped mid ramble and looked up from her growing pile of clothes on the floor. Her sister looked slightly irritated, well that wasn't a first.
"answer the damned question." Keiko bit out between clenched teeth. Rin sighed loudly as she looked back up at her sister from the floor.
"What do you think I was doing? Mitsu Hannah and I went to the club got pretty wasted and the rest you know, jeeze mom are we done here yet?"
Keiko held Rin's eyes it gave her the shivers whenever her sister did that, it made her feel entirely bare as if her sister could see into her mind.
"You're lying to me."
Rin glared at her sister.
"You know what? Shut up, I don't need to tell you jack it's not my fault you don't have a life, now are you going to help me pick out something to wear or not? Its almost 7."
It was like a slap in the face, her sister just threw up walls left and right, she couldn't take it, all these secrets, her sister leaving and being gone for days at a time, staying out all night. It was all such bullshit. Getting up stiffly Keiko turned and walked to the door standing just outside of it.
"Black ripped pants with the white American Dior shirt; no sneakers wear your black boots."
Rin smiled up at her sister and she dug out the said shirt from the pile.
"Oh you're right; it's so cute arigato nee-chan"
Keiko couldn't believe it, she was shocked and slightly put off, she was oozing sarcasm and her sister just seemed to just ignore it all and toss it to the side. Grabbing hold of the door Keiko called out "You're such a bitch." And slammed it shut.
Rin laughed as she took a final look in the mirror slipping on her jacket and grabbing her phone before climbing out of her window. She didn't care that her sister thought she was a bitch. It wasn't any of her sisters business anyways what she did. Besides if she invited her along mother and father would definitely notice the absence, Keiko was after all the favored golden child in the family.
Xxx
"Are you going to talk to me?" Rin stared across the table at her boyfriend Akiro who had been the epitome of silence since he had picked her up at 7 It was now 8:15 and still nothing. Eating in absolute silence had just about killed her. "what's with the quiet?" She watched as Akiro took another bite of chicken and simply stared at her. Rin felt like she wanted to scream, what the hell?
"Babe seriously what's going on? You're killing me with this no talk treatment."
Rin watched as Akiro wiped his mouth took a sip of his drink and stood up.
"Are we leaving?"
Akiro said nothing as he turned and walked out towards the register to pay.
Rin slammed her head hard on the table as it finally occurred to her he might still be angry with her about the argument they had, had last Wednesday night. Oh for Kami's sake!
"give me a break jeez." Rin mumbled as she threw on her jacket and followed Akiro out of the restaurant.
"You know your being a total child! That argument was forever ago, you got to let some stuff go sometimes."
Rin yelled as she gripped his arm turning him around so she could finally face him.
"Akiro, talk to me this is so freaking stupid."
Finally his eye brows creased; thank god he was showing some emotion. Akiro yanked his arm free of her grip.
"You're an idiot Rin."
That's all he said as he turned and walked away. Leaving Rin frozen in motion.
Those were definitely not the words she was expecting.
"I'm a what?" Rin chased after him, she could feel her aggravation levels rising.
"Where the hell did that come from! Akiro, talk to me!" Rin went to reach for his sleeve again but instead wacked him in the arm as he turned to face her again.
"Where were you this weekend? Hmm? Drinking? Partying? I thought you were going to be done with all of that..."
"Well..."
"shh! Don't interrupt me; it's my turn to talk. Months Rin, months you've been doing this ever since you heard about that club, and you know what? I've finally figured it out, your filling that hole in your soul, that empty gaping hole that your cold parents left in you. I know your selling drugs Rin."
Akiro took a breath as he collected his thoughts, Rin couldn't speak she was immobile, he had figured it out, Rin could feel her little world start to crumble, she didn't know how she was going to talk her way out of this one.
"You know what else I realized? My estranged half-brother deals at that club. You know Bankotsu? So guess what Rin I know what's going on, your fucking that demon behind my back aren't you Rin."
Rin felt the tears start to fall hot against her cheeks.
"No."
"NO? You are not having sex with a demon? My estranged brother? Really you're not?
Akiro stepped further away animosity evident in his tone
Well he says otherwise. He also says you've been dealing for him, hm playing pet are we Rin?"
"No, Akiro it's not what you think; it's not what it looks like."
Akiro threw back his head and laughed.
"You are such a horrible liar rin; you know what this looks like to me?"
Rin shook her head as Akiro turned around. "It looks like I caught you red handed Rin and there is not a damn thing you can say or do to make me believe otherwise."
Rin watched as he turned and walked down into the subway.
Xxx
The whispers were everywhere, bits and pieces of conversation floated around her as she tugged her sweater tighter to her body.
"She did..."
"…that's what I heard nenji say"
"…its Rin…mitsu…"
"…she's gone…"
Rin turned to her sister her brows furrowed.
"What is everybody talking about?" Keiko who seemed just as confused as her sister shrugged her shoulders. Rin grunted in aggravation this had been going on all morning, whispers and stares. She was going to blow if she didn't get some answers a.s.a.p.!
Marching over to nenji Rin cornered the punk dealer.
"What the hell is everyone talking about ji ji?
Nenji dropped his books and raised his hands as he stared down at the small frustrated girl.
"Hey no beating around the bush with you, huh?"
Rin shoved his chest making him slam a little harder into the lockers behind him.
"No, now tell me what the fuck EVERYBODY IS STARING AT!" Rin yelled louder for all inquiring minds to hear as she turned her head letting everyone know that she knew they were watching her start to breakdown.
"Oh you mean all the whispering behind your back?"
Rin felt her face get red hot as nenji stared down at her with an amused smile.
"Yes I mean all the whispering behind my damned back, now tell me."
"What makes you think I would know?"
"The fact that you're asking that question."
Rin stared up at nenji daring him to rebut that last statement.
Nenji looked around; a group of people had formed a huge half circle. All eyes curious; wanting to know if their local drug dealer would spill the beans to the michigo sisters. Where was the principle? Wasn't their 5 minute passing period up? When was the bell going to ring? Nenji looked down with pity in his eyes; he really hadn't wanted to be the one to break the news to the girl.
With a final sigh, Nenji dropped his head and looked out at her.
"An amber alert was put out this morning for Hannah su-young."
Rin's eyes shot up in surprise as she backed up a little. This wasn't what she had expected.
The bell rang ending the silence and dispersing the crowd. Nenji picked up his bag and walked off, leaving rin standing their alone in the hallway at a loss for words.
Xxx
The sound of water hitting the sidewalk seemed to have intensified it had been two weeks since the amber alert had been posted about Hannah's disappearance. Authorities were saying that it was possible they might have a serial killer loose in japan. However Rin couldn't shake this feeling she had, like an evasive itch in the back of her mind that she couldn't scratch. Looking up Rin stopped just outside of the blue dragon theatre, Mitsu hadn't talked to her in days. Rin winced as she remembered the fight they had when mitsu accused Rin of being the reason why Hannah was missing. Rin had been shocked and had blown up on the girl. Taking a deep breath Rin looked around, hoping to spot Akiro, they hadn't spoken in weeks either, not since the night he had figured out she was dealing for Bankotsu.
She zipped up her coat pulling her beanie down on her head as the wind kicked up splashing rain in her face and bringing with it the pungent smell of the building next door. Rin wrinkled her nose in disgust. That building had been there under construction for almost a year now and yet not a damn thing had been done to it. On top of that it stank, horribly whenever it rained. Rin gagged a little and she wrapped her scarf around her face to try and mask the scent. Ugh it smelt like something was rotting in there, a dead animal probably rats or raccoons or…Rin turned as the blue lights to the theatre turned on illuminating the darkening street. Rin felt herself become a little dizzy, deciding to walk further down the street to get away from the scent she could feel vertigo hit her, stumbling on a crack in the cement she grabbed hold of one of the lamp posts,
"ahh"
Rin heard the blood rushing in her ears and felt her heartbeat start to pound in her head, She gasped for air as an unexpected pain shot through her head, clutching tighter to the pole as a wave of intense nausea hit her soon after.
Lights flashed in her head almost blindingly followed by noises and sounds, well more like voices, it was like a video running through her head but it was all choppy and too loud. She bent down as images felt like they were being shoved into her head, running, the club, jakotsu, bankotsu, running down the hall, a car ride, being drugged. Rin's eyes shot open wide as the memories from that weekend flooded back into her mind.
Rin definitely felt sick to her stomach as the evasive itch she felt in her head had finally been scratched. More like rubbed raw. Bending over she emptied the contents of her stomach onto the street beside her. What was she going to do?
Xxx
It had been two days since Rin's nostalgia had finally dispersed leaving her feeling completely vulnerable and at a loss for what to do. She had wracked her brain for hours trying to put the pieces of the puzzle together. She had blown up Akiro's phone with messages texts and missed calls at least a dozen times but he had really meant it when he said they were done. Crying out in frustrations Rin chucked her pillow at the wall.
"Whoa someone is angry, how ya holdin up sis?"
Rin glared at her sister, "just fuzzy peachy great." She ground out through her teeth annunciating each word.
"Seriously are you alright?" Keiko sat down beside her.
Rin looked up at her sister, their eyes locked, how could she ever tell her sister that the world had just crumbled beneath her feet and right about now she was free falling straight into the black pit? Her sister would never understand, they spent so much time together but honestly lived such different lives. Where would she even begin? "Hey sis my boyfriend found out I was playing pet with his estranged demonic half-brother and same said demon drugged me and almost had me killed and my best friend is missing and it's entirely my fault oh and I just realized all of this two days ago."
Yea somehow rin just didn't see that going over too well.
Rin managed to pull a smile up around her face trying to look alright.
"I'll be okay."
Keiko took another look at her almost identical twin and hugged her back.
"I'm here for you rin-Chan"
Rin hugged her sister back.
"So I've got a pretty hot date tonight wanna see my chosen outfit?"
Rin pulled her English book up from the floor, "Sure go put it on."
Keiko squealed and rushed back towards her room. Stopping at the doorway
"Are, are you sure? Cause I can totally just ask mom or I mean you've got so much going on right now."
Rin took one look at her sister's pleading eyes and shook her head.
"Baka shut up and go put the damn thing on already yeesh!"
Another squeal punctuated keiko's exit.
xxx
"Rin-Chan what do you think of this dress?" Rin looked up from her book.
"Kawai Keiko-Chan"
"Really, you think so chibi? You don't think the red is too much?"
Rin sat up from her bed crossing through the bathroom that joined the two sisters rooms, "Nope but you need an accessory."
Keiko stared at Rin eyes inquisitive as she vanished into her room returning with something wrapped in a black cloth. "Rin-Chan what's that?"
Rin smiled mischievously "Something sexy Keiko."
Unwrapping the material revealed a bright blood red silk fan with black wood finishing the handles. Unfolding the item Rin held it up for inspection.
"Oh wow chibi it's beautiful! How did you ever get it, can I really borrow it? Would you really trust me with it?"
Rin laughed, "Hai Keiko-Chan I do. Besides that dress is perfect for it."
Keiko embraced Rin excitedly, "Arigato, Arigato Rin-Chan!
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Rin was too upset to sleep. Dinner had been a nightmare. Her mother had insisted on a family dinner, well of course a family dinner without her sister was simply a cover phrase for verbal assault on the blip in the family. The blip being Rin, In fact she could remember the reason her mother named her rin. Her mother used to tell her the reason every day.
"Rin do you know why I named you rin? Because you remind me of a little annoying defective bird, that I have to feed and take care of, but you don't even sing. And you cannot fly. Oh my poor, poor defective little Rin." She would whisper that last sentence into her ear. Talk about a woman who had lost touch with her maternal instinct. Well on second thought, her mother never had it to begin with.
Tossing the covers over her head Rin buried herself under the mass of pillows and blankets wishing a dreamless sleep would simply take over. Yet lady luck was not feeling merciful tonight. Rin thought irately as she slumped out of bed and into her closet. Pulling down the shoe box that held her assortment of pills and all other paraphernalia that she owned Rin squawked as the suitcase adjacent toppled over thumping loudly on the wood flooring.
"Shit" Rin cursed under her breath as she turned on the closet light.
A piercing scream was emitted from somewhere within her body as she looked upon the small heap of blood stained and soaked clothes.
With shaking hands Rin picked the clothes back up as images presented themselves before her. The man she had killed with her own bare hands. His eyes, she had seen his eyes, his face. They had held a look such a look, and she couldn't erase it from her mind, she was the last person he saw alive. Rin shut her eyes and shook her head furiously. Shoving the clothes back into the closet Rin downed two oxycodone pills and slammed the closet door shut before falling back into bed. This time sleep hit her like a bad train wreck.
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There was a knock at the door. Well more like a pounding. Rin rolled out of bed agitated it was bad enough she had waited up until 3 in the morning trying to call Akiro's phone to apologize again. And now only a half hour after she had fallen asleep someone was ringing the doorbell. "Rin answer the fucking door!"
"Yea, I'm going to shut your mouth bitchtress!"
"What!"
Her mother's shrill scream could be heard from down the hall as Rin stomped down the stairs and wrenched open the door. Oh how she wished she hadn't. Two police officers stood their faces grim as one of the held up a worn black leather jacket with a silver dragon sewn into the back "No. No. No, no, no, NO!" Rin couldn't feel the tears that flowed down her cheeks effortlessly as she screamed at the top of her lungs, while she stared at Akiro's jacket.
Rin felt as if whatever had helped her hold such a strong composure had finally given way to the weight that was her life. Holding onto her boyfriend's favorite signature jacket she almost welcomed the obscene crude sobs that echoed in the room blocking out any coherent thoughts.
Unfortunately the cops were not finished. Speaking to her father and mother. Rin was too beside herself to understand what the authorities meant when they said they had two bodies needing identification.
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6 months had gone by since the night of February 15th the night both her beloved boyfriend and younger sister were found violently murdered. Since then her parents had divorced, the fighting had escalated in her house, to the point of shattered glasses and domestic violence. They had turned their anger out on Rin as well; she rarely used the front door anymore seeing as how her scalp could no longer withstand the abuse of her mother's claws digging into it when she wanted someone to lash out at. Her father had moved back to the United States. He had used his contacts at his law firm with the judges to ensure he wouldn't get custody of his only remaining child.
To say her mother was beyond livid was the understatement of the century. They had decided to keep the house, her sister's room now set up as a sort of shrine everything had been dusted and cleaned and put away neatly in her room, no one was allowed in there, ever.
However through all of this upheaval Rin had built an iron wall around herself and each day that wall thickened and reinforced itself as she continued to slowly recede from the world until she was simply going through the motions of life without really living. That wall though couldn't be kept up forever as walls often crack, even iron walls crumble when rust sets in. It was an unintentional crack almost unnoticed. For months Rumors had spread about the kids gone missing, Hannah had never been found but it was widely assumed she was no longer among the living. They all looked at her with contempt, hatred some of them and Rin had hidden behind her fortress of fortitude. Peers and staff had been shocked when news had reached about Akiro's murder. Found lacerated and gagged in the alleyway behind the blue dragon theatre.
Cops had claimed it a drug hit, however everyone who knew him knew different. All eyes fell upon rin all fingers pointed at her back when they thought she wasn't looking. Dirty comments whispered when they thought she was far out of hearing range, even the teachers commented.
Rin was at a loss. Her sister had been the final blow. Finally found and confirmed dead Rin knew exactly who had committed the murder, it was never really a question in mind, the way the body was described, it was his signature for disposal, she even linked him to Akiro, though she had no proof she knew he had done it. A drug hit? Bankotsu had enough drugs to put an entire block in chains. So when the name calling began it came as no surprise to her and fighting back she never gave it even half a thought. Her public verbal abuse was just punishment. Was it not? Rin had thought herself numb to most of the comments, not really noticing when exactly they had slipped through that tiny undetected crack in her wall. It only took one word as she made her way home. Just one word uttered right behind her back.
"You're a killer rin! You turn everything you touch to stone."
Rin continued walking although the words seemed to sting more than usual.
"You hear me? You are a murderer!"
That word, no one had spoken that word it was of course vastly assumed considering most blamed her for the recent deaths of the people she loved dearly. But to hear it out loud with such conviction.
"Murderer"
"Murder"
Rin was a murderer, she had committed murder. By way of her own selfishness. Her own vanity and need for attention. It was more than Rin could bare to give thought to.
She felt parts of the wall follow suit as the crack seemed to grow climbing up and down the rusted paths, the words flooded through like an infestation. At first stinging, then slowly digging their way in deeper. She was utterly helpless to fend it off. Too much at once. Rin headed home with one sole purpose, to end this.
Her heart had broken 6 months ago and today Rin was finally feeling the missing pieces.
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Tada! A 20 page background story of just exactly how Rin came to be, well I hope you enjoy and it has given me enough time to work on the rest of this story, sorry I've taken forever I honestly got stuck on a few parts but I didn't want to drag the flashback out more than 2 chaps. Anyways please review let me know what you think questions opinions helpful critiquing always welcome and encouraged until next time
Au revoir!