Remember Me
Tossing and turning, more tossing and turning the thoughts in her head, they swirled and changed form, catching a glimpse of her dream was impossible as figures took half formed shapes before reforming and disappearing, the scenery it changed, a river? No a house, no downtown, the abandoned building, a scream it echoed a girl sitting in a room her face mauled. The dream changed again she changed again. Falling, failing, she failed her sister she failed her father her mother dead lover all gone Rin broke out in sweat as she kicked hard against the sheets that seemed to bind her, winding their way around her limbs, holding tight. Reaching out towards him Rin called out with all the hopelessness in her voice, all the doubt in her eyes, panic settled in her mind as the dream changed again, Hannah her friend Hannah what had happened to Hannah? No, running lots of running she screamed her mouth taped shut, a bleeding nose, no; she wasn't screaming it was the girl in the room the girls mouth was taped shut, she covered her ears the screaming was unbearable piercing, harsh, grating. Falling, running, drowning screaming tossing round and round everything was cold then hot then black, a chaos her heart thumped harder faster stop! Someone called out STOP! Eyes, gold eyes. Sesshomaru had her in his grasp.
Rin gasped as she came up breathing hard. Wiping the sweat away from her forehead she looked down at the tangled mass of sheets and pillows. Her dream was a blur, all she could remember was panic and then sesshomaru holding her and a, calmness.
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Bankotsu stood outside of Rin's house a smile creeping over his lips. Denial is such a strong blinding emotion. Doubt Is even worse, Lying the stained cloth down beside the door He knocked twice.
"Wake up Rin you can't will this away any longer."
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Rin was in the bathroom showering when she heard it, the "tap tap" of her stupid from door knocker. Toweling herself off Rin wiped the steam from her phone and looked at the digital numbers in green, 5:45 am. Too early for visitors maybe it was the new laptop she had ordered. Rin perked up a bit at the thought. Tightening the plush yellow towel around her chest she hurried down the wooden stairs and opened the door. Staring down pleased she picked up the large rectangular box and went inside.
"I should send that back."
Rin jumped she hadn't expected mitomi to be home, considering mitomi hadn't really been home in weeks. Turning back around clutching the package tightly she got ready to make a quick escape.
"Well mother it wasn't you who bought this now was it? Oh yea that's right! Your ex husband did. Hmm jee darn I guess that means you can't send it back."
Mitomi raised an eyebrow as she moved in front of her disgruntled daughter blocking her from escaping
"Don't you mean dad?"
"pfft, yea no I mean ex husband, dad? I don't have a dad, or a mom for that matter, I mean I mine as well be an orphan I consider myself one. Should we make it official mitomi?"
Rin cocked her head to the side resting one hand on her left hip daring her mom to continue the conversation.
Mitomi stomped up the stairs marking the end of their conversation.
Rin rolled her eyes as she recovered the scissors from underneath the stacks of receipts and bills they kept in the kitchen drawer before picking up the package and making a quick escape to her room.
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Skipping down the steps Rin pulled her coat from the laundry room, it was definitely chilly outside. Popping a muffin into the microwave rin turned to check her bag and stopped short looking down Rin noticed a small redish brown white stained piece of fabric laying a few inches away from her boots. Bending down with one gloved hand she picked up the stiff fabric, it wasn't a dish rag, was it from her mom? Maybe a dress that tore? On closer examination Rin ruled that out as well. Something was odd about the fabric turning on the kitchen light Rin lifted it closer to her face wrinkling her nose at the faint rotted smell emanating from it. Underneath the darkest part of the fabric there was what looked like letters, well kanji it partially spelled party girl. Her mom had a shirt that read party girl? Rin didn't get it laying the fabric back down again she pulled out the blueberry muffin and took a bite, her eyes widened as she bit a part of her glove and the taste of copper entered her mouth. Rin's eyes widened. Looking back down at the cloth it finally dawned on her. The huge dark red brown tint was dried blood.
What the hell? Rin thought as she put down her muffin and picked the fabric back up again. Yep definitely blood it still reeked of iron, and it also smelled rotten which meant it was very old blood? Why would her mom leave a bloodied piece of clothing on the kitchen floor? Rin thought about that for a second, did she even really want an answer to her rhetorical question? Oh she really didn't Rin shuddered at the possible answers. Pushing the metal lid up Rin hesitated throwing it away, a big part of her was saying none of this made sense. Debating she finally closed the lid and tucked it into her bag. Deciding to save it a little longer till she either got the courage to ask or forgot about it and then when she would finally remember it would have been so long that she'd toss it anyways. Looking up at the digital clock Rin almost panicked, she would be late for gym if she didn't hurry and catch the subway, on the other hand An idea popped into her head. What if she paid sesshomaru sama a visit? He still had her purple pills after all and thanks to him she had the worst time trying to sleep without her hydrocodone marijuana mixed pills.
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Blood soaked the concrete floor rolling down in pink streams before spilling over steel drains. No screams, no muffled moans, whimpers of pain. Silence filled the vast room. At one point in time suffocating its inhabitant. She wasn't suffocating anymore. Closing swollen eyes for a minute of black bliss she no longer felt the heat of fresh tears against her cheeks, nothing left to cry about. Those were her last days. A slow acceptance of her fate had crept into her mind. It had built a slow yet solid wall over the months she had been locked away. So It came as no surprise when the bullet sunk into her flesh and bone, The grim reaper had come, and she welcomed him with open arms as she would any new found friend.
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Walking through the soft snow Rin smiled remembering days of early childhood first snow fall was always her favorite. The snow so soft beneath her boots flurries falling all around her sort of like a winter wonderland. The streets and sidewalks started to disappear as the snow washed over the lines erasing all boundaries. The harsh cities disappeared you could almost imagine you were in a different world, a quieter softer world.
Rin closed her eyes and pulled back her hood embracing the kisses of the icy flakes against her skin. The feeling was so rare she savored every moment of the public solitude as she continued to walk down the middle of the 4 lane street. Instead of taking the subway to school this morning or walking she had taken a detour to sesshomaru's house well mansion in her opinion. Was he home? Most likely not, did she have a key to get in? yes she had snagged one when he had brought her over last time and taken her pills. The last two times she had been at his house she had either been under the influence or under the influence of him. Rin decided she would visit the mansion sober for once. Who knows maybe there was an alarm system and he would be notified wouldn't that be a spectacle? Or perhaps she would stay until he came home not like she had a curfew or a mother that worried. Rin laughed at that thought, I wouldn't be surprised if my mom put a hit out on me or contracted my death. Little did rin know she would eat those words soon enough.
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Bankotsu sipped his morning tea and watched as the steam rose into the air disappearing into the marble staircase above. If anyone walked into bankotsu's residence no one would stop to think a serial killer lived here. Cream and whites covered the walls huge glass doors gave it an open feeling. Monochrome colored kitchen w marble flooring and counter tops. Crisp and clean cream and beige and black furniture. It looked like something out of a HOME magazine, not the private residence of bankotsu yin. Closing his laptop he leaned back an sighed contentedly. In just a week Rin would be in his grasp yet again and this time she wouldn't run away. She would no longer proceed to be the one who got away.
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Walking up to the estate rin hadn't given any thought to security, an alarm system, a moat, armed guards or boobie traps perhaps set around the ridiculously large house. Now watching it come into view she gave thought to it. Walking up to the gate rin looked around for any sign that something would stop her, or any wires she might trip. Nothing stood out, all she could see was a rusted gate and lots of sakura trees. Hmm maybe the sakura trees will eat me she thought dryly. Slow purposeful steps took her leisurely up to the front door. Large cherry oak doors loomed above her looking ever so slightly intimidating. A thought crossed her mind, this was completely crazy she should be in school not taking the red line subway all the way to her mother's bosses house just because they had sex once when we was completely plastered and shit faced. Well he did have her purple pills…but she could always buy more. Rin snapped her fingers as something dawned on her. Did he take the pills because he wanted her to come here? Was there a subliminal message hidden in his actions? Well that was pretty sly of him she had to admit.
Going up to the door she hesitated should she knock? Grabbing the handle she almost fell over with shock as the door clicked and creaked open. Was this real? Did sesshomaru actually not lock his front door? Pulling her hand back suddenly Rin waited for some type of explosion to go off or maybe the door was just unlocked…people leave their doors unlocked right?
"this place is in the fucking middle of nowhere who would think to get this far anyways? Maybe theres some kind of dragon guarding the kitchen."
Rin mumbled to herself as she considered crossing the threshold ..yes no, maybe? Hmm eeny meeny minie mo? Rin closed her eyes and opened them.
"fuck it lets do this shit live"
Deciding thinking it through was overrated Rin simply spun around and walked in the direction she landed in which uncoincidentally happened to be the foyer of sesshomaru's house.
"Well that was time saving"
Walking further into sesshomaru's house rin stopped by the end of the foyer and kicked off her boots no need to track snow into the house and leave a wet trail, taking another second Rin slid off her coat leaving on her scarf and gloves she tossed them to the side walking further into the house she thought "if I was a purple pill where would I be?" sliding leather clad hands across the wall rin blindly searched for the light switch stepping carefully so not to trip on anything coming across a circular object her eyes took a minute to adjust to the bright lights
"holy shit this guy really is loaded" taking in the large black marble counter tops and stainless steel appliances and the white and grey marbled flooring she whistled softly to herself and she walked in further to inspect the expensive kitchen
Glass containers filled with dried herbs and noodles
"he actually cooks? No way theres gotta be a chef" Rin stopped mid inspection and snorted at the thought of sesshomaru dining alone while some poor chef served him an elaborate feast..suddenly curious Rin searched around looking for the dining room table…"probably not in the kitchen, turning back around her skin began to crawl with goose bumps
"oh shit better close the door before he comes home to a cold wet wood floor."
Retracing her steps amusing herself with the countless thoughts of what sesshomaru would look like lounging around his huge mansion She wasn't prepared for the shock as she raised her head and was met with liquid gold eyes and a bemused scowl
Letting out a scream Rin's gut reaction was to run back into the house turning around she realized that wouldn't do her any good turning around again Rin realized she really couldn't leave through the front either…acknowledging her predicament Rin stood shocked and shaking in front of the man she had slept with just a few weeks ago also known as her mothers boss.
"fuck"
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Sesshomaru had received the annoying beeping on his phone the minute the silent alarm had been triggered. Not knowing who it was since the camera's were down due to the previous nights snow storm Sesshomaru decided to call it an early day and head back home personally to meet the intruder and let loose some aggression…he was however caught off guard when the intruder turned out to be Rin. Now standing before him in her pink fuzzy socks blue jeans and a sheer black long sleeved extremely low cut blouse He couldn't help the arousal and sudden disgust that flooded his mind for a brief second. arousal at the show of cleavage and slight outline of her nipples and disgust at the realization that this girl whom he had taken advantage of was indeed only a child. Wide violet eyes stared up at him her cheeks flushed pink from the cold as she nervously chewed on her bottom lip.
"Rin?"
Rin cocked her head back and smiled up at sesshomaru trying to keep a calm exterior, her stomach was at the moment tying itself into very elaborate knots.
Sesshomaru curious as to why she had decided to break into his house and how she had gotten in waited for her explanation.
Rin looked down twiddling her thumbs
"I want my pills back."
Sesshomaru raised an eyebrow at her short explanation.
"You want your pills back…aren't you supposed to be at school?"
Rin stopped fidgeting and looked up at sesshomaru
"Aren't you not supposed to be taking advantage of minors?"
It was sesshomaru's turn to fidget under her scrutiny, her violet eyes unwavering. Sighing out in frustration sesshomaru ran his hands through his hair ;
"Didn't we have this conversation already Rin?"
Rin continued to stare up at him straight faced,
"Did we?"
"Is it an apology you want?"
"Would an apology compensate my loss of virginity?"
Sesshomaru's eyes widened, she was lying to him, she had to be that wasn't her first time, Although there really was no way for him to tell that. Sesshomaru found himself in one of those rare moments where he was completely tongue tied, unsure of what to say. The silence dragged on neither of them speaking nor moving, just standing in the middle of his foyer watching each other. Rin was the first to break the silence after what felt like a millennium
"No, you can keep your false apologies, that's not why I came here."
Sesshomaru getting tired of this show down turned and walked down the hallway to his right beckoning Rin to follow him. Opening two large oak doors Sesshomaru led Rin into his study taking a seat on one of the leather couches he asked
"Then what is it that you came here for, please enlighten me."
Rin's demeanor changed completely as she took a seat on the couch across from the curious demon. He could feel the shift in her moods as she transformed from callous and calculating to a nervous scared girl. As she spoke sesshomaru could see she was still trying to uphold her wall although her poker face was failing miserably.
"I told you, I want my pills back they were expensive."
"and you decided the best way to do this was break into my house?"
"yes."
Rin wasn't sure what was going on with her emotions she wanted to get up and sit right next to him lay her head in his lap , she felt so safe when she was around this demon , this house it felt like a safety net something she could cloak herself in her castle of fortitude. She couldn't explain why she felt this way just that she did; but what would sesshomaru think if she told him that. Although on the other hand he had admitted to liking her, well no she mentally corrected herself he admitted to being attracted to her, two different meanings completely with two entirely different sets of implications.
"Rin.."
This was crazy Rin decided having a brief moment of clarity in her inner thoughts, coming to his house breaking in. You've completely lost it Rin. She told herself.
"Rin…"
Rin looked up a blank stare on her face as sesshomaru looked at her expectantly waiting for something, it dawned on her she had lost herself in her inner rantings.
"can you repeat that?"
Sesshomaru sighed again rubbing his temples as he did so in slight aggravation.
"Please escort yourself out Rin"
Ouch, that definitely stung Rin sat there for a few seconds more a little hurt by the dismissal. Standing up Rin walked out without saying another word.
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Walking through the snow Rin pulled her hood up over her head as she finally found her way back onto the main road heading towards the metro station. Walking down the concrete steps Rin stopped dead midway down there in front of her walking out of the train was a demon cloaked in a black trench coat followed by two human men looking up towards the stairwell as he continued to walk her way. Bankotsu
Heart pounding she turned as fast as she could and ran back up the way she came she could feel the adrenaline taking over as she booked it full speed down the street. Rin didn't dare look back. Running like the devil was at her heels she plunged through shrubs and trees her breathing erratic and heavy as she pushed herself to go even faster too frightened to stop and think it hadn't dawned on her that she was running back towards sesshomaru's mansion until she found herself pounding on the now locked door. No one was answering still in fight or flight mode Rin's hearing was temporarily heightened and the sound of snow crunching beneath shoes sounded like claps of thunder. She could sense someone directly behind her nowhere else to run Rin screamed as a hand grabbed at her shoulder turning around arms out hoping to strike her assailant hard
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Sesshomaru had just gotten back into his car heading out for his merger meeting this evening with shintou & co, He had just started backing up when something small and black had darted out from the trees to the east of his house. Realizing it was Rin as the little black thing stopped to pound on his door Sesshomaru stopped his car and got out annoyed at first until the smell of her fear and adrenaline overwhelmed him. What had her so completely terrified?
Trying not to frighten her more Sesshomaru called out her name, she wasn't responding walking up to her slowly as to not startle her or scare her further at this point she was endanger of going into shock from how fast her heart was pumping. Standing behind her he reached out to grab hold of her shoulder try and pull her out of her current manic state. However it had the opposite effect as she panicked further screaming hysterically trying to punch him. He quickly realized she was coherent in the slightest. Something had really scared her. Sesshomaru grabbed hold of both her arms turning her around and locking them criss crossed across her chest preventing her from accidentally hurting herself.
Speaking evenly and calmly into her ear as he continued to restrain her sesshomaru called out to Rin.
"Rin, Rin you are safe listen to my voice its me sesshomaru, calm yourself its alright, you're safe."
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Cruel teal eyes piercing, threatening, that image burned in her mind as she thrashed in her captures arms she could hear the blood rushing in her ears, her heart thudded she kicked to the beat of it. First her right then her left arm were snatched and secured across her chest, she struggled kicking out, certain of her death if she couldn't escape. Screaming she screamed but it sounded far away The adrenaline was making it hard to see straight any more, Bankotsu had her and he was going to finish where he had left off, of that she knew. Spots were starting to form at the edges of her sight a voice broke through her panicked state, it sounded so calm so warm she could feel herself stilling as the spots closed in followed by cloaks of darkness creeping upon her, sparing her . Rin passed out in sesshomaru's arms.
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Mitomi awoke to a peaceful condo, no alarm clock no cabinets opening or closing in the kitchen…sitting up slowly from her spot on the couch she wiped the drool from her mouth and rubbed her sore neck…she had passed out in the living room, the empty wine bottle and quarter full wine glass explained what her memory couldn't recall. Squinting at the digital clock it read 4:57 am. Rin wouldn't be up yet. A rare moment passed as Mitomi stood and made her way sluggishly up the steps, careful not to make any noise she cracked open her daughters door, just to take a peek make sure she wasn't dead she told herself.
The bed was in disarray but empty, opening the door further Mitomi walked in cautiously looking around half expecting Rin to be passed out on the floor face down. No sign of Rin on the floor. Or at her desk, standing still Mitomi listened for any noise indicating that her daughter might be taking a shower. She did that sometimes. Sometimes Rin would be sitting in the shower early in the morning after having come back home at some ungodly hour. Walking over to the door leading to the bathroom Mitomi listened..no noise , peering inside she switched on the light. The bathroom was void of life too. a slight tightening of her chest and racing of her pulse started…worry was setting in …Rin hadn't come home? Where had she gone? Mitomi quickly shook those motherly thoughts away replacing her worry with misplaced anger. Rin often didn't come home there were times when her daughter wouldn't come home for days. She had never given it any thought before why would she now? Hell let her fall in a drain and die.
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Rin was in that room again panic began to form in her chest spreading swiftly to her limbs and vocal cords a paralyzing fear washing over her as she opened her mouth then closed it opening it once more screaming silently as she stared up into the shadows, her worst fear had come true, she knew who her captor was. cold teal eyes stared down at her, she could feel them boring holes through her the figure moved from the shadows stepping out into the dim yellow lighting. No not her, she realized after a moment they were staring right through her, turning her head she saw what the cruel teal eyes were examining, a girl bloodied bruised and covered in dirt, her hand bound together attached to a piping along the ground. Long dark golden locks covered the girls face. Rin stepped aside as Bankotsu moved closer to the unconscious girl. A small bucket cradled in his hands. He knelt down shielding the girl from Rin's view, Rin watched tentatively as he slowly poured iced water over the girls head, The girl moaned and rolled over coughing and retching. Rin moved to the side to get a better look. Bankotsu was watching her a cruel unnatural smile plastered on his face. The girl was holding herself up barely by her elbow as she retched onto the concrete floor, shaking as she finally let herself lie back down. Rin's breath Hitched in her throat as she got a look at the girls face. Bruised cut, and swollen she was barely recognizable except for those piercing green eyes and the glint of her emerald nose ring.
"Hannah?"
Rin said the name, barely a whisper passing through her lips. Black dots danced at the edge of her vision Rin reached out trying to speak out, to move. Hannah was being tortured, she had to save Hannah. She took a step forward and another, the ground had given way underneath her. Rin started to fall,
"Hannah!"
everything faded to black.
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I know its been forever im so sorry about that but here it is! Another chapter ill try to get this next one out a lot faster than this last chapter