IITS ch40

A/N: Good Morning! I slept in, which is rare...but I was up til 3 am finishing this bad boy!

Tissues will be necessary for the next few chapters...and I have to tell you all ch40-50 are my fav ch's of this whole fic...stay strong...we're almost...almost there...I promise;)

Two weeks later

EPOV

The heaviness in my chest continued to grow stronger every day since Bella and I had 'talked'. But, it didn't stop me from spending all of my free time with her and Kendall.

I knew that they were leaving. And, they would both be taking my heart with them. There was nothing I could do to stop it, even if I wanted to.

The right thing to do was to let her leave in peace. My head knew that however my heart strongly disagreed.

I began to pick them both up in the mornings. We would drop Kendall off at her preschool then go to work together. Our lunchtime routine continued, as well. But, after work we'd pick up Kendall, run by Renee's house so they could change clothes and then we'd either go to my house and cook or go out to somewhere for dinner.

It was like I had always imagined life to be if I had been married and had a family of my own.

Alice yelled at me for days about not putting up a fight and demand that she stay and give me a chance to make her happy. I finally quit answering her calls because I just couldn't take it anymore.

I was in love with Bella but I wouldn't ask her to stay somewhere that she didn't want to be. She wanted to be in Forks, that's where her heart belonged, so I would watch her drive away as my heart shattered with every mile that spanned between us.

For now, I relished every second I had with the two of them. I laughed and I joked while I buried the hurt and sadness.

"I had a great time tonight, Edward." Bella said through a yawn as I turned onto her street. I smiled at the sleeping baby girl in the backseat in my rearview mirrior, then glanced at Bella.

"I did, too." I whispered back and saw her smile at me.

"You know...you really are perfect Edward." She said with a whisper only to gasp with regret that she spoke out loud.

"Not hardly." I gulped and fought the urge to pull over and kiss her senseless.

"No, you really are...and...well, if things were different ….." her words just hung there, swirling around us as we both seemed to get lost in that daydream of 'what if'.

"Yeah." The words fell with a gush of air as my throat felt tight and heart felt like it suddenly got ripped in two.

Neither of us spoke again as I pulled into the driveway and got out to open her door. Once Bella was out of the car I walked around to get Kendall.

"I'll get her Edward." Bella started to say before I put up my hand.

"Soon enough she'll be all yours, let me do this while I still can." I said as I felt the tears begin to form in my eyes.

I opened the car door, unbuckled the sleeping baby girl, she whimpered a bit before her little arms wrapped around my neck while I carried her. My arms held her tight and close as I breathed in her fragrance that smelled of pizza and cotton candy.

We walked into the quiet house and Bella showed me to Kendall's room. She flipped on the bedside lamp and I stood in the center of the room, afraid to put her in her bed.

"Can I...can I just sit here and rock her for a few minutes?" I asked quietly, but my voice shook with emotions.

"Oh...um. Sure. I'll just go fix her a water sippy." Bella said as I noticed her own eyes were wet.

I sat in the rocker once we were alone and slowly moved the chair.

"I'm going to miss you more than you'll ever remember, precious girl. You have to promise me that you'll take good care of your mommy. And please..." my voice trembled as a tear rolled down my cheek. "Please don't forget about me."

I heard a gasp and turned to see Bella with tears streaming down her cheeks.

A/n: Yeah, that would have broke my heart right there...and it still does as I re-read it;)

See ya soon...Kyla