IITS ch46

A/n: Tissues ...you'll need tissues...

BPOV

As the silence stretched between us, I let myself get lost in the comfort and safety of Edward's arms.

"What are you thinking, baby?" His voice broke through the air as he spoke against my hair.

I snuggled deeper into his chest as he tightened his arms around me and inhaled a deep breath.

"How amazing this feels." I admitted and listened to his heartbeat with my ear on his chest.

"It's more than I ever dreamed it could be." He said with a sigh.

I knew I needed to tell him about my past, things that I hadn't told him yet. I was damaged goods; defective and unworthy of a man like him.

"Edward?" I whispered.

"Yes, Bella." His voice was deep and vibrated against my cheek.

"I can't have children." I spoke soft and held in my own pain.

I felt him tense and then relax after he kissed the top of my head.

"I've been married twice and divorced twice. I married Jake right out of High School and neither of us was ready for the responsibilities that came with a marriage. He just wanted sex and I wouldn't give it to him until we were married. It only lasted two years and that whole last year we didn't even live together." I let out a deep breath.

Edward's hands rubbed soft against my arm in long lazy lines but he didn't speak, allowing me the silence to finish what I had to say.

"I stayed single for a while and then I started dating and old boyfriend from school, Mike. We wound up getting married and started to try for a baby. Unfortunately, after months and months of nothing, I got tested. They found cysts on my ovaries as well as both of y fallopian tubes were blocked. They cleared them out but there was so much scar tissue and damage that I couldn't conceive or carry a child."

I felt the tears on my cheeks before I realized that I was crying.

"Oh Bella, that must have been devastating to you." His voice was soft and gentle as he continued to soothe me. I nodded my head against his chest because it truly was devastating.

"Well, Mike didn't want a defective wife and before I knew it he had moved all of my stuff out of his house and filed for divorce. So, I resolved myself to the fact that I was going to be a lonely, single woman. Then one night a young woman came into the police station, she was eight months pregnant and scared. Her mom and I had gone to school together, we still saw each other around town. The young woman, Bree, didn't want the baby and the father was long gone. She asked me if I would adopt her child. Two months later I brought Kendall home from the hospital and she's been mine ever since."

My words hung in the air as we lay in each other's arms in the silence once again. I waited for him to reject me, to push me away but he didn't.

He tilted my head up so that he could see me, "It doesn't make me love you any less, Bella."

A/n: um...yeah, I know Bella's pain, personally...and I couldn't love Lonerward anymore than I do in this moment!

See ya soon, Kyla