IITS ch50
One Week Later
BPOV
The house was completely unpacked and it felt good to be back in our own house again. But, I couldn't stop this nagging feeling that something just felt...off.
I talked to Edward every morning on his drive to work, again on lunch and on his way home from work. He ususally texted me mid-morning and mid-afternoon. Then, we would get on either skype or chat and talk until the early morning hours.
I had an appointment to meet with a therapist next week and he did, too. We both realized that there were matters from our past prohibiting us from moving forward in our future, albeit whether we were together or not, we needed to work on ourselves.
I had only talked to Renee the night we arrived home to let her know we'd made it. She hadn't even called to check on Kendall. It was one thing for her to punish me but to do that to my child was unforgiveable in my eyes.
Edward was still seething about that fact. But, as I told him time and time again, it was for the best. Renee would only wind up hurting or disappointing Kendall in the future and it was better to just let that relationship dissolve now.
Rosalie and Emmett had taken to coming by whenever they could and Kendall relished their attention. Especially Emmett's...she talked to him about Edward all the time.
Rosalie tried to get me to talk about him, all the time, too. She didn't understand how I could find this perfect man and then just walk away from him.
She didn't understand that I hadn't necessarily walked away from him, but that I needed to be here to move forward with my life.
Charlie's death had been a traumatic experience for me and I had always felt that by moving to Phoenix I ran away from the pain instead of dealing with it head on. Granted I knew that I wasn't dealing at all with any aspect of my life back then.
But, then I had met Edward and he helped me realize that I still had life to live.
I only wished that he were here living life with me and Kendall.
However, life isn't that simple and I would never ask him to give up what life he had there.
That's not to say I hadn't thought about it.
A/n: Progress people...baby fucking steps but progress;)
See ya soon, Kyla