This is a lengthy one, guys. Hope it makes up for the long wait. SO sorry about that! It opens with a flashback, but the rest of the goings-on take place around the prison.
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"The truth is, his chances don't look very good." Those words weren't met with much of a reaction. The conversation started with condolences and ended up taking a turn for the cruel. An honest opinion. Maybe too honest too soon.
The other man shifted in his seat just slightly, fiddling with the clover half that hung around his neck. He cleared his throat quietly. "If that were true, we wouldn't have even got to hold him." He rephrased his statement the second after it spilled out of him. "Even if that happened, he'd fight."
"He's helpless. He can't fight." Came the argument.
"He'll grow. He'll be okay."
"Whatever this was, it's probably hereditary."
Now the haunting thoughts were given multiple voices, but not everyone in the room sided against the newly single father. "Let's not think about that now. We have a funeral to plan."
That was the reason Patrick's father had enlisted the help of some of his friends. (Even the ones who were worried he'd end up losing someone else he loved soon, and phrased that worry in all the wrong ways.) He couldn't do all the calculations on his own.
He felt useless. Again. But he kept fighting, so he could be there for his son. To see him grow. To make sure that he would be okay.
Patrick watched as a broken shovel handle was pushed through a link in the fence. The jagged edge plunged into a softened skull, and the monster's moans instantly quieted. The witness was less focused on the nature of what needed to be done. His eyes locked on the wedding ring on the weapon-wielder's finger. He wondered how long it had been there. (Going by looks, the woman couldn't be much older than him.) As if marriage was a possibility in this place. The thought brought a smile to his face.
Sure, the mechanics of any sort of ceremony had to be altered. There were no longer any clergymen or judges in this world. At least, not in the traditional sense. That didn't matter. Anything close was sweet-and probably well deserved-by the woman he watched and whoever her partner was. Mid-smile, Patrick reminded himself that he would never have anything close to marriage. He'd known that for years before the outbreak.
Thinking he would only brand himself beyond eccentric if he got caught watching, he went to soak in part of someone else's story. But not until he got to see the woman's other half. The expression the man wore matched one he'd seen on his father's face plenty times. (And not just in pictures, even after his mother was gone.) As she turned away from the fence, the woman's eyes mirrored that expression. Pure love.
And just for a second, Patrick forgot where he was.
Not far off, another pair discussed strategy. He didn't catch what for, but they used playful banter to do so. It was the way they managed to make each other laugh while going about their business-driven by a competitive edge and some inside jokes-that told him they were siblings. Patrick's breath caught in his throat. Turns out, he'd forgotten something else.
As much as he wanted to offer help, they had a handle on things. Even if they had different viewpoints on how to go about them. Plus, his own emotions seemed to be getting in the way of him being of any use. So, he walked on.
Someone walking their way seemed to be momentarily distracted by having to push her curly hair away from her eyes to take any notice of Patrick. He was used to that.
People seemed to have views of him that spanned the spectrum. In some cases, he was invisible. In others, he was the only thing in sight.
He came across the spot where a plate was made up for him the previous night. He'd been given a few non-perishable things that had been collected by the residents. (He couldn't recall what specifically. It wasn't anything he hadn't eaten before.) His main course was a small rabbit. Before the world he knew ended, he'd never even thought to try rabbit. Now that he had, his only reaction was that it wasn't as gamey as he expected.
A small group of children came running by, and it took him a startling second to realize they weren't running from anything but each other. This was a game of tag. Something Patrick never took part in. Something he figured no one would take part in with the threat at their fences. He guessed he was glad they defied that, in their own way.
The kids had a supervisor. A familiar face, one of his rescuers. Carol.
She observed with the same level of skill Patrick possesed. She saw him, and gave a nod in greeting. Not a smile, like the night before. He nodded back, taking no offense to that. Not that a smile would break her focus. But she probably wished she didn't have to supervise tag. Not when there were more important things to be doing. Was there even room for games with what the world had become? The kids sure seemed to think so.
Patrick wasn't ashamed to admit he was a kid at heart. While he kept his childlike wonder, he very seldom acted on it. This is why when someone else saw him, he knew he had a decision to make.
One girl stopped running. She took the braided section of her blonde hair and tucked it behind her ear to get a better look at him. Although he wasn't trying to to look threatening-and would've rather just gone by undetected like he had with the others-this made him stiffen. He could hear the girl's question before she voiced it. "Wanna play?"
Only one decision seemed sane. He had to politely decline.
"No, thank you." No offense was taken, but the girl got back to the game reluctantly. If she hadn't, it would've been over. He saw that the others had also stopped running, which meant she was 'it'. The children's happy laughter sounded mocking as he walked on.
Another few swift steps, another hero spotted. Crossbow in one hand and the other free, since there was no immediate threat to call the weapon to use. Patrick's wandering eyes landed on the arrows for a quick second. It was evident that some had been crafted by Daryl himself. Seeing this, Patrick was suddenly hyper-aware of the orange band around his wrist. He didn't dare look down, not having enough nerve built up to look at himself yet. Instead, he wallowed in a memory that made his head hurt. But only for a second.
He found it odd that he had scoped out the ones who were running things. Maybe it was just because the people who first decided to make the prison their home did most of the work. Filling basic needs. Survival being the top priority. He subconsciously sought them out because he wanted to lend a hand.
He knew they were so much more than their material defenses. Equally eye-catching as well as cringeworthy. A Colt Python and katana respectively. The fourth member of the small crowd carried no weapon, and Patrick couldn't help getting the feeling that was a tipoff to a rift. Playful banter was one thing. When the people who ran things disagreed on how to do that, what did that mean for everyone? If Patrick had stuck around to think that over, he would've blown up his spot.
The whole point of making his rounds early that morning was so that Patrick would find a place where he fit in. He searched in vain, more content to people watch rather than muster the courage to put himself out there. So, his search came up dry.
After that he walked aimlessly, not in search of anything. On the steps sat a girl with a baby in her lap. At a cursory glance, she looked to be his age. Not that he judged her for that. The baby might not even be hers. Maybe this baby was motherless, like him. She had someone to care for her though, and that made him smile again.
Someone bounded down the stairs to meet the others, but he wasn't hushed because the sound hadn't disturbed the baby. He sat beside the girl, leaving a space between them that he wished he could close.
Patrick found himself back in familiar territory. Along his walk, he tried to navigate as best he could. One goal he had accomplished was getting a good feel for the place. As if he'd be staying awhile. He wasn't sure of that, but he was sure he wanted to make an impression.
He hadn't fulfilled that desire in the least bit. Not even with the conversation he had late the night before. The boy he'd spoken with was still asleep. He took note of this as he walked past his cell. Something seen in a blink that meant nothing besides the fact that Carl was tired. And yet, Patrick read things differently.
How often did conversations like that happen? For most people, they were casual. Nothing to fret about. But Patrick had never been good at making friends. And he hadn't. Patrick spoke because he'd been spoken to, and for awhile that had been a rarity. Carl continued talking because of pity. A fluke.
Another familiar face saved him from his doubtful thoughts. For a second she stood square and stared. Then, with a relieved gasp he was sure caught the attention of anyone in earshot, she rushed into his arms. The cross that hung around her neck swaying slightly as she went. "¡Ay, cariño! Me preguntaba dónde estabas."
It was clear she was at the height of her emotions, since whenever that happened she slipped into her first language. (Though, he remembered when she was angry it seemed she knew a whole slew of languages besides Spanish.)
Her multi-lingual rants used to make Patrick laugh-out of nervousness-but in that moment he could only wonder who she questioned on his whereabouts. The woman wasn't even a decade older than he was, but he could bet her motherly instincts had her on high-alert. He was glad her search was a success. It wasn't the first time she thought she'd lost him.
Maybe that was why she addressed him as if they hadn't seen each other in a year.
As they pulled back from their hug, he noticed her smile. It was far less comforting than before, since her once-plump cheeks had gone gaunt. He tried to smile back-even just with his mouth-but he could only manage a shrug and the words: "Me encontraste." Since he had indeed been found. Their brown eyes met in that moment, and she seemed astonished. "I stopped talking," He explained. "I didn't stop listening."
She sighed inwardly. "You never do, do you?"
"I can't help it." The amount of energy he saved up from going months without speaking had to be put into something else. Sometimes listening was all there was left to do.
"What were you doing out there?" She asked, almost angrily.
He took some time to answer, but his expressive eyes gave off the vibe that he didn't realize he was grounded. "Looking for something to do."
"How about rest?"
'Rest' was part of rather lengthy list of words he hated to hear. And she knew it. She knew why. It was practically impossible for Patrick to rest. For him, that was cause for panic.
"I already did." He dismissed, trying to stand his ground and not give up on the job search. Especially since the first attempt hadn't gone well. She inched closer, and he imagined the strain she felt with every step. He remembered the touch of her constantly-cold hands, which reached out for his shoulders then. The movement made him feel as if he would shiver, even though he was wearing sleeves. Not from cold, but fear. The gesture was meant to be comforting, but it scared him because it showed she thought he needed stabilizing. As if he'd crash to the ground without her there to hold him up. The scariest part about it, he realized, was that she was probably right to think that way.
Patrick's posture was usually on-point, but he felt the need to fix it when she voiced her advice. "I know you don't wanna waste time no one has anymore," Her voice was usually an odd mix of soft and stern. Now, she just seemed sorry. When she shook her head, her dark curls that had lost their bounce barely moved. "but if you take it slow today… it would put my mind at ease." She finished lamely.
His mind would be racing if he was the only one in his group taking a day off. "I can't. Not without you…." To unfamiliar ears it sounded like he randomly brought up cyanide-slurring the word-but he was accounting for the other half of their group. She and the others were the only family he had left. If they went on a run without him, he would be unable to rest until they returned. Since, normally, he tagged along.
"That's not what I'm asking. We'll stay," She assured. Then she smiled again. "and I'll tell anyone heading out to see if they can find any stationery." She let go of his shoulders, hoping her smile would catch like fire. Her words seemed to only unsettle him more.
He crossed his arms. Not in a particularly angry way, as his hands only rested on his elbows. But she knew what the movement meant. He was barring himself off from something she'd said. His eyes scanned the floor briefly before finding their way back to her. "Why should I be rewarded for doing something I'm supposed to do anyway?"
"Writing's a way to keep busy." She reasoned, knowing how much he needed that. "It's not a reward. " Her voice lowered as she finished her thought. "It's a crutch."
He nodded, then asked: "What should I do until then?" He was careful with the way he phrased his next question, so she would know he wasn't mocking her. "Am I allowed outside?"
"Soon." She promised. "You have to meet everyone. You didn't really get that chance last night." She sounded apologetic, since she was the one who cut introductions short.
"I slept well." He informed, so she would know there was no apology necessary. She watched his expression shift into bafflement. "That's strange to say." That was rarely the case. Even before the dead walked the earth.
That didn't matter to her. She was just happy he spoke. "Settle in," She instructed after a pause. (For Patrick's group, settling in was usually a day-long process. One they'd always gone through together.) "decorate your… cell." She said the last word as if it were a curse and she was sitting in the middle of church.
Patrick shrugged that off, if only with the look in his eyes. Given the group's history since this all started, the prison was an upgrade. Plus, there was another reason he wasn't bothered by the conditions. "Alright," He agreed, his reluctance gone. "if it'll ease your mind."
With another glimpse of a grin, the woman turned and started walking away. Until Patrick called out her name. The accent he put on it explained why the guys in her group had affectionately nicknamed her "Beady". (In contrast to her doe eyes.) "Viri!"
She turned her head to look back at him, her concern curbed. Then she saw how worried he was once again. Despite how he tried to hold his tongue, it rebelled. He heard himself ask her: "Do I look as bad as you do?"
"...You look worse," Viri answered honestly. The words left a bitter taste on her tongue, since he could be delicate. She gave that some thought and found herself smiling again. "but you sound good."
When she entered the prison walls, Viri knew she was no longer in command. She was a guest in a home another group had built up by making do with what they had and finding more. She was fine with the change in status, so long as she could keep her family safe. She saw the two men that had been in this with her since it all began, standing near the fences with Rick and some of the others.
The numbers had shifted in her absence, and a fresh tire trail leaving the prison meant Michonne was once again working toward her mission. Viri hadn't felt comfortable asking for details, but wondered what it was she hoped to find. And why she went alone to find it.
Whatever conversation the group was having reached a lull when they heard her footsteps approach. Their reaction time was slow in comparison to one of her group. (Before then his ears were tuned to the sound of horse's hooves, rather than what the others were discussing.) He heard her long before he saw her, but that was usually how it went. "Did you see him?" He asked hopefully.
She gave a nod, but said "Yes" anyway. He could hear the relief in her voice better than he can see it in her face.
"How is he?" This question was posed by the man's brother. Nearly identical, but their personalities hardly matched. That was evident even in the way they spoke. The elder seemed angry the group was separated, instead of glad that change wasn't permanent.
"Up," Viri said, though she knew that wasn't the answer the men were looking for. "and begging to be out here."
That was dismissed with a scoff. "Patrick doesn't beg."
The younger twin gave his brother a look, though most didn't catch it because his eyes had been darting around in his head all morning. He was trying his best to take in all the novelty. "Maybe you haven't been listening hard enough, Simon."
Half of the conversation going on was silent, between the glares Viri's family exchanged and the preparations the three others made. Checking off a mental list of everything they loaded up the car with. "Listening to what? When was the last time he talked to us?"
"Just now." Viri informed, though she knew it would only give the brothers more to bicker over. This was something they'd done since they were kids, and she never condoned it. Only then did it feel welcome, because that was their way of letting off steam. And like herself and Patrick, the two sounded better than they looked. Her eyes still glazed over at the sight of their scarred olive skin.
The revelation made the glares stop. Simon's mouth dropped slightly. Then, he asked: "What did he say?"
"He asked about you."
Skeptical, Simon rephrased that for her. "He asked about Ira."
"And you." She assured. "He wants to us to stay until we all get our strength back."
Simon gave an understanding nod. He planned on sticking around anyway, to help Ira get familiarized. Though there was something in Viri's tone of voice that struck a nerve for his brother. Something he didn't pick up on.
Rather than narrow his eyes in suspicion, Ira pursed his lips. "I bet he didn't ask you to tell us that." At those words, he had the others' attention. Even Rick, Glenn and Maggie, who had finished gathering everything they needed for the run they were about to take. "One thing I've learned since he's been with us: the only thing Patrick wants is for it to never be about what he wants."
Simon could see Viri trying to swallow a lump that had formed in her throat. She tried to turn this sad truth around. "He also wants to write again." She looked to Rick in that moment. "He's gonna need supplies for that, if you don't mind."
There was a pause, but he answered: "We'll keep an eye out." Hearing that, Glenn smiled to himself. He knew the way to make the most of these runs was to have a good eye. And to know where to look. His wife's eyes set their focus back on the prison. She knew there were some goodbyes that still needed to be said. Quick as they would be and routine as these trips had become. "I'll go wake him." Rick decided in a spoken thought. Not that there was really any debate on telling his son he was about to leave. He didn't expect a response, but something his group would learn fast was that Simon always had something to say.
"Maybe you should let him sleep. You oughta be happy he can manage that."
As his brother and Viri well knew, the somethings Simon said were usually critical. They were braced for an argument to start, but Rick simply said: "I am."
Ira only spoke once he was inside. "He's considering it." He caught the questioning look his brother sent him in his peripherals. (On someone new, he wouldn't recognize the expression. Especially not looking at them straight on.) Seeing that Simon missed the point, he repeated himself and filled in the blank. "He's considering it. Letting him sleep."
Bare walls were a blank canvas in the days before the outbreak. Put there not only to hold up houses, but to show off projects. Projects that had a good chunk of time set aside for them. Where Patrick would forget his concern for the world around him and be consumed by creativity.
That curbed concern had never come easily. And now it was impossible. His sensitive ears caught the coos and cries of the baby, and bits and pieces of conversations held by people passing through. They were all preoccupied, and he was just trying to trick himself into thinking he was. Though, in his experience, he could only trick himself into thinking negatively.
Pushing that thought aside, he kneeled on the floor in his cell and clutched at zipper pulls attached to a backpack he'd had for years. (One that made good on a promise to last him awhile, though it had some wear and tear.) Those pulls were now just broken loops, once home to small stuffed toys. None of which were his originally. Which is why he had appreciated them so much. Now that they were gone, all that was left as a reminder was sharp, pointed plastic. He left things that way because it was a line of defense. Not much of one, but he took whatever he could get when it came to that.
He opened the smallest of five compartments to find a meager number of pens and markers. All the pens had run out of ink. He wasn't sure why he kept them. They had no more use, and the memories attached to them had all been written down.
The next compartment contained eyeglass cases. All except one went untouched, because they weren't needed. And that's why he kept them around. It was the same sort of logic behind bringing an umbrella in hopes that it doesn't rain.
Getting tired of the position he was in, he sat down lazily. Without conversation to keep Patrick's his mind off how the floor felt, he was a lot more conscious of it. He could tell that soon enough he'd move to the bed. Once he found something worth unpacking.
Before closing the second compartment, he noticed a bottle of eyeglass cleaner. When he picked it up, he saw that it still had a few drops left. With an eyebrow raise, he opened one of the cases, empty aside from a small swatch of fabric. It had seen its fair share of dust, but he noted that it had also helped to clear away blood. The red tint had set in, turning the powder blue a pale purple in spots. He decided it was too dirty to do any good, and opened the other three cases to see if he had spares. No such luck. He actually chuckled finding out he was ill-prepared. At least for now, that didn't matter as much.
He moved on to the third compartment, which had all his wearable items of clothing. And one item that wasn't.
He looked at the orange t-shirt, which had a pretty sizable square torn away. For a moment his thumbs just kept tapping at the fabric he wanted to keep as intact as possible. If he didn't put it to use, he'd have to bother someone else for something to clean his glasses with. So, he gripped the shirt where it'd been torn before, and used that as a guide for getting the piece he needed. No sharp objects necessary.
When he was done with cleaning his glasses, he opened the fourth compartment. Which held every journal he'd managed to hold onto. All full. It also had a deck of cards that had never left their box. A few were sticking out of the top because they didn't belong there in the first place. The fact that they were laminated was a clue to that.
The last item in the fourth compartment was Patrick's only spare weapon: A Parry blade with a spear point, made from stainless steel. It was better than his other two knives, but he only ever used it once.
He wondered if the blade was still as sharp as it had been, but he didn't want to test it. Maybe it only seemed dull because it had been out of use for so long. It was like that last real swatch he used to use for cleaning his glasses. All it did now was collect dust.
Maybe it was perfectly capable of getting things done. If only it'd be given a job.
He pulled the blade from its sheath and looked it over. It was perfectly clean. It seemed brand new. It forced him to face his reflection.
He could see his glasses were slipping down the bridge of his nose, so he adjusted them. Every bruise and blemish seemed magnified. He couldn't tell the difference between beauty marks and dirt anymore. It didn't take long for him to get tired of looking.
Patrick put the knife away with a thought he didn't realize he voiced to no one: "Should've got it in black."
The fourth compartment looked practically empty in comparison to the others because the rest of its contents had been used up. Food, ammo, medical supplies. All the rest of the essentials. The kinds of things he figured everyone else had their bags stocked with, instead of what mostly just took up space.
The last compartment was stuck shut. The material had gotten caught in the metal teeth. Patrick hadn't gotten a chance to fix it recently because he and has group had been constantly in motion, or at least on guard when they were stopped. Which meant there was no time to look at books or pictures. He used one of his own knives and broke into his own belongings.
He took out the handful of books he had, and placed them in a pile at the foot of his bed. Some were without covers, some had notes scribbled in the margins, and some had yet to be read. There were field journals, manuals, how-to books, novels. Even children's books. Some of which were written in braille. Eleven books in all. He figured that was considered a library these days.
He only had one photo album. It practically fit in the palm of his hand. Every picture in there was wallet-size of smaller, and the other pictures were stuffed into a manila folder that closed with a string. The earliest picture he had was one of his parents sitting on bleachers wearing matching clover half necklaces. There were a handful of pictures of him as a baby, and he thumbed through them until he found ones he recognized. The most recent ones looked oldest. They were polaroids, but the colors were all washed out. It was convenient that some still had adhesive on the back.
Patrick arranged the pictures on the floor in front of him. There were so many to choose from they almost reached the wall opposite his bed. He switched the order up to try and match the images engraved in his memory. Once he had them sorted out, he hung them up. It was a shoddy job because there wasn't enough adhesive to go around and some of the pictures were curling at the corners. It wound up even worse because he refused to use anything he found around the prison to move the project along.
He tried to make things as presentable as possible. Not that anyone would judge him on it, all things considered. He did that for the sake of wasting time.
Taking a few steps back, he reviewed his work. He instantly hated it. Not because it was done poorly. He took the job as seriously as any one he'd ever been assigned.
It didn't look good. Not just because materials he would normally use were in short supply, but because this was an overflow of information on display for anyone who happened to walk by. He'd known that at the start, but seeing the finished product made his stomach feel more empty than it ever had outside the prison walls.
With a swallowed sigh, he reached up and took the pictures down one by one.
It started slow and controlled. He was careful not to tear anything. Soon, he was taking things down by the fistful. He could feel his nails digging into his palms. Through all that, Patrick's eyes stayed dry.
When the walls were blank again, he regained his composure and unbent the pictures. Some were beyond salvaging.
He put all the pictures back and decided the only homey touch he'd add that day besides his little library was a privacy screen. Which meant he would have to make friends, because no one he knew had anything to spare.
Ira brought a whole new definition to the term 'perimeter check'. He had seen everything around the outdoor portion of the prison five times over, trying to take in every detail. The new faces, the areas people had built on to suit their needs in some way, the potential jobs for everyone in his group. He was mindful of it all. He had to be. He couldn't afford to waste daylight. Not when he could barely see in the dark.
Once he knew his surroundings enough he stayed by the fences. Keeping them clear. He tried not to let the walkers pile up on the other side. That was something that would always need taking care of. That was something he did well at. Slow-moving objects were easiest for him to follow. The barrier the fence created between him and the dead helped the situation even more. Plus, the blade he used was long enough that it kept distance between them. Ira didn't have to be right up against the fence.
He locked his eyes on the creatures, before looking away. Not because he couldn't handle the gruesome image. It was easier for him to set his aim that way since his depth perception was off. Most of the time, he took perfect shots.
He kept a persistent pace, knowing well that his brother and Viri kept their eyes on him. He couldn't see-not with his back turned-but he could feel it.
"How long has he been at that?" She whispered. (A question they'd posed about Patrick numerous times.) Not low enough.
Simon shrugged, not bothering to whisper. "If we count the bodies it'll give us a clue. He knows he's useful. He just forgets sometimes." He was hoping that last part was louder, so Ira would be reminded.
"That sounds familiar." She observed, making Simon laugh. Harshly.
"Yeah… I think I got a job for him." He kicked the sorry-looking box in front of him lightly. It was small, missing flaps and had some holes. It was filled practically to the brim with scraps of metal.
"What's he gonna do with that?" She asked, sounding almost chipper. She knew Patrick had a knack for building things, which meant he could probably come up with a million ideas. If he ever allowed himself to think without doing for that long.
"Ira says they have snares." Simon answered, thinking: Why wouldn't they? He saw a skeptical look enter Viri's eye.
"And you think he can make more?"
Simon scoffed. "I think it'll keep him busy either way."
Ira sliced through a walker's skull sideways, fully aware that his knife would bump into the other end of the link before it reached the thing's temple. It was already going down, but he pulled back with force in hopes of startling his brother with the sound of metal clashing against metal. It worked.
The motion was so quick he couldn't process it, but Viri took a step forward. "Are we still at this?" The younger twin asked, with a sharpness in his tone. He used his knife to point, and it was effective. Though the other two knew he wasn't threatening them.
Simon seethed, his teeth clenched. "This isn't about me not believing in him." He didn't raise his voice, though he felt the urge to do so with the unconvinced look Ira sent him in reply. "From what I've seen, he'll make it work. But even if he doesn't, at least he won't drive himself crazy." Once Patrick was done decorating, he needed another way to fill his time. "So don't give me another speech about how I-of-all-people should have more sympathy for the visually impaired." Before he could finish his sentence, the other two were laughing.
Though Ira still took this very seriously. (Since Viri was poised to step between them if things got too heated, it was obvious she did, too.) "I never said his eyesight has anything to do with your attitude."
"I'm trying to help him." Simon reasoned. "Doesn't that tell you something?"
"You said what you're doing. Keeping him busy." Ira dismissed.
"That's what we have to do."
Viri watched as the brothers turned to her, silently asking for her opinion. After a pause, she said: "He's happy when he's busy." Not just that. He was also at his most confident.
Ira sighed and spoke softly. "He shouldn't be sad when he's not." With that, he turned to get back to work.
His back was turned when his brother asked: "What was the last thing he said to you?"
"How?" Ira responded, offering no context. After a breath, he repeated the question Simon posed to him. "What was the last thing he said to you?"
Simon seemed to be put right back in that moment. He sounded sad when he said "Maybe you're right."
"Nobody's usin' these. You can have 'em. I set some stuff aside for you guys."
Patrick looked at the table the blonde girl, Beth, gestured to. Everything was there for his group to take. Including the table.
"Thank you." He told her as he took one large, tan-colored sheet. Since that was all he needed at the moment. It unfolded when he picked it up, and the fabric was noticeably wrinkled and ripped. Missing a piece in the middle.
"Sorry." She said when she saw it.
He shrugged it off, not understanding why she thought he expected anything would be perfect. It never had been.
"It's just a patch job." He told her with something of a smile. "It'll give me something to do." Though that t-shirt was kept around for a reason. Now, that reason would be to help fix the privacy screen.
"You're gonna need a needle and thread." She said, guessing she should've gathered that as well. She knew where he could find some, but before she had a chance to say so, someone found them.
Patrick recognized him, but only as the boy who bounded down the stairs to sit next to Beth earlier in the day.
"Ladies, gente...man." He greeted, the last part coming out awkwardly as if it were two separate words.
"Zach." Beth replied, under a laugh. The baby in her arms cooed. The two teens looked amused and surprised.
Zach just smiled. "See? They know. Maybe they can't say it yet, but they know." He was fascinated by how intuitive babies were. Possibly because he wasn't always as intuitive as he'd like to be. His observation made Patrick smile even more. He was already adjusting, interacting with people who inspired confidence. He introduced himself. Mid-handshake, Zach spotted his bracelet. "That's cool." He said casually.
The response sounded just as casual, but it didn't feel that way. He worried he'd go mute again, but heard himself say "Thank you."
"Do you remember where you got it?" (That was an odd question. It wasn't like Zach could go back and get one for himself.)
"...I made it." Patrick informed. Beth's big blue eyes saw him flinch before he said so, but Zach didn't seem to notice.
"Even cooler." He complimented.
Patrick still smiled appreciatively, but hardly made an effort to keep talking. He had tons of questions running through his head about who they used to be and who this world had turned them into, but he kept them to himself. It seemed hypocritical to do otherwise, thinking back on the quiet rampage in his cell. So he thanked them again, before heading back there.
On the walk back, he noticed some things. Carl's family's cell was empty. He spotted something in there he hadn't been able to see in the dark. (Even when Carl's flashlight was pointed at him.) A crib.
He had gotten an answer without even asking the question. The sight made him stop short, but only for a second. He kept moving to avoid another barrage of thoughts. They only chased after him.
Another sight along his walk was a source of relief. The curly haired woman who hadn't noticed him before was sitting on her bed, sewing. She was skilled at it, too. Not even looking as she did her work. Her eyes focused on the man talking to her. The one who had been discussing strategy with his sister.
"I thought you'd be out there longer today."
"Normally I am," She said, seeing why he'd think that. "but... Ira took over for me."
Patrick's ears perked up at the familiar name. He tried not to listen too hard when the man replied, waiting for a reasonable window to interject. "Good. You deserve a break."
She grinned, and the teenager wondered if she agreed with that. "I just hope he doesn't overwork himself." She said her next sentence with almost no decorum. Not only because she thought none of Patrick's group were around to hear. The bigger reason was that this was true of everyone in their little community at one point. (And not admitting it might be more wrong.) "They all look like a wreck."
"They'll be alright." The man said with a smile. A smile directed at Patrick. She turned her head, almost embarrassed and a little guilty. The boy's feelings reflected hers. The expressions they both wore were apologetic. "Hey, man." (He said this though the two others knew Patrick's name. The teen took it as a title, a sign of respect. Besides, four names were easier to remember than dozens. He hadn't learned theirs yet, on account of being sent to bed early the previous night.) "You need anything?"
Patrick curved his fingers to rest on his thumb. A polite way of pointing the adults hadn't known existed. "An extra needle and thread, please."
The woman could tell he noticed the clear box-once containing tacks-that housed needles and spools. Some were running low, so she handed him a near full spool with the thickest needle she could find stuck through the sticker at the top. She was careful not to push it down too far, or else he might prick himself. "You came to the right place."
This sparked a smile between them and he thanked her, the pause at the end indicating that he wished he knew her name so he could thank her properly. He stuck a Mz before the pause, hoping that would signify that he'd never been comfortable calling adults by their first names.
It had been tough enough for him not to call Viri Ms. Valdez when he first met her. He'd known calling both twins Mr. Berman would get confusing. So they made him stray from that path. He didn't plan on doing much more of that.
Either this woman didn't care about his plans, or she just didn't like being called by her last name. "Karen." She supplied. She enjoyed being playful-especially after feeling like she'd hurt the boy-so she added: "This is Tyreese."
Patrick almost blushed, seeing she was acting sweet and stubborn all at once. He was used to that, too.
"It's nice to meet you both. Thanks again." He held out his hand for them to shake and they both accepted. He was relieved, figuring that sooner or later someone would reject that offer.
"No problem." She assured. "You can keep that if you want. And if you need anything else, feel free to drop by."
He smiled again, despite wondering if she was overcompensating for what he overheard. He didn't dwell on it. There was work to be done. His hope was that there would always be work to be done. He left them to their moment.
When he got back to his cell, Simon was sitting on the top bunk, thumbing through one of the books.
Patrick felt a chill run through him even before the man asked: "Remember when you wouldn't leave your room for days?" He remembered vividly, but avoided the question altogether. He stepped inside his cell silently. He saw Simon's face drop. "What, you only talk for Viri now?" Patrick replied with nothing but a pitiful look. The man hopped off the bed, threw the book back on the pile and said: "We miss you out there." in a much nicer tone than his expression implied. Patrick's mouth stayed still, but his eyes moved to the box propped up alongside the bottom bunk. This prompted Simon to explain: "I got you a present." Patrick still hadn't found words, which made the man more worried than angry. "Ungrateful bastard." He muttered mockingly, hoping to cut the tension.
Patrick's face exploded into a smile. "Alright," Simon decided. "That says enough for me. Get over here."
Patrick did as he was told, and put what he was carrying down next to the books as Simon spoke. "One of the ways they get food is by setting snares."
"We."
Simon gave him a look that didn't really need a confused "What?" to follow it. Though he said this like he was out of breath, having the wind knocked out of him by one small word.
"Them and us. That's… we." Patrick felt physical pain trying to get that explanation out, since it was so awkward. Though Simon understood.
He understood, but he didn't exactly agree. "Yeah, maybe. Point is, you could probably build more."
"I could try. I will try." Patrick quickly corrected himself.
"Great," Simon said with a hint of enthusiasm. He scrunched up his nose a bit when he continued. "but first, I think it's very important that you know that we have functioning showers here." Patrick laughed nervously as the man finished his thought. "You could really use one. Priorities." Then, in a joking way, he added: "You could shower. You will shower, right?" Patrick nodded, and Simon didn't notice any reluctance because that only went on in his head. "Good job. You'll be doing us all a favor. " His eyes landed on Patrick's wrist, which was skinnier than he ever remembered. The bracelet around it had slipped so that it settled around the middle of his hand. "Watch out," he advised, pointing a stern finger. His tone suddenly tired. "You're gonna lose that."
Patrick's heart stopped for a second, and an old fear crept into it. "I really wish you wouldn't say that like it's definite. I don't want it to be true."
"Neither do I," Simon agreed. "so watch out." He was ready to go outside again, but was held back. If only by a tone of voice.
"Si?"
The man smiled. "I really missed that." He turned around. "What?"
"Are you gonna tell Viri I didn't do anything?" Patrick's tone was more guilt-ridden than threatening, as per usual. He didn't expect Simon to listen even if he told him not to mention it.
Sighing, Simon asked: "Why would I bother telling her you didn't see the point in hanging up a bunch of useless crap from your half-ton backpack for total strangers to see?"
Patrick's eyes found the floor before he looked back up at Simon. He hated having to correct people, yet he was so proper in the way that he spoke. "It's not all useless; and they're not all strangers."
"...Alright then." Simon said, relieved rather than annoyed by that information. "Get clean and get to work." Patrick sent him a thumbs-up in reply that only seemed effortless. "Much appreciated." the man said, clearly mocking the teen. They both smiled as he left, but only the elder kept smiling once they were out of each other's line of sight.
Closed eyes and cold feet. That's what the prison showers reduced Patrick to. He had only taken his shoes off, to prepare himself. It wasn't very effective, as he couldn't even keep his eyes open. How was it that a place of cleanliness brought on the creepiest feelings? Feelings he only brought upon himself.
Frustrated, his eyes flew open with force. The place was something out of a nightmare, though there was nothing out of the ordinary with it. He knew he should feel grateful that it was even there. Even if it came in blurry once he took his glasses off. He pressed on, but didn't make it too far. His glasses fell to the floor just ahead of him. It took a second for his brain to process, and he almost stepped on them.
He could feel his breath leave him. His chest caved in and his mouth hung open. He gasped for air that evaded him despite his efforts, and his arms felt like someone had cut them open, filled them up with rocks and sewn them back up again. The blood rushed from his head to his bare feet. His eyes brimmed with tears until he couldn't see, and the more he tried to breathe the less it seemed to work.
The reality was, he was hyperventilating. Some part of him knew that. He knew that if he didn't remind himself how to breathe, his breathing might stop. In the back of his mind, he heard counting and a clicking tongue. Big breath in. He held it and then let it out. Repeating the process until the world around him returned to normal. It took minutes, but it felt like hours.
This was a good motivator for him because he didn't have time to waste. Once he was over the panic attack, it made it easier to forget fear and focus on what he had to do.
Wild pigs and horses had been seen by many of the prison group in passing, but Ira was among the first to realize just how much of a valuable asset they could be. He wasn't too sure what struck up the conversation between him and Hershel, but he liked having someone else to talk to while the members of his little group had their own business to attend to.
Viri was getting all their clothes clean, which was strange because she was less fond of domestic work than being a part of the action. But she'd promised that she would take things easily, and she had yet to break a promise to Patrick.
He tried to make it a fair trade, but once four makeshift snares were built he had to test them. He just didn't expect to get caught in the act.
Simon had been keeping tabs, and seeing him so far from the safety of his cell made him nervous and angry. He tried not to sound like it when he addressed Patrick, which was rare. "Ya know, the good thing about snares is they do most of the work for you." The boy looked up, his eyes more curious than concerned. Another rarity. "All you have to do is be. Patient." The last two words were punctuated for emphasis, since Patrick's patience ran thin whenever something concerned himself.
Other people, he could wait on. That's why he wasn't bothered that he hadn't talked to anyone since Simon gave him this job to do. The first of many. A job he wanted to carry out thoroughly. "They aren't going to set themselves." Patrick reasoned.
In response, Simon sent him a look that expressed words he would never actually say aloud: Are you sassin' me, boy? The thoughts he voiced were: "I can handle that. Besides, didn't you just get yourself cleaned up?"
"Yesterday." Patrick replied, because that was the deal. He figured a day was soon enough. Obviously, the adults didn't see it that way.
"I still keep track of the days," Simon revealed. "Just not the way you do." He watched the teen give a weak nod in reply. "Why don't you go back inside, wash up again and talk to your… not strangers?" He couldn't exactly call them friends yet. Patrick hadn't.
"About what?" There didn't seem to be much to discuss. Not with all the work the residents had to do.
Maybe that's why the person who talked to him the longest since he got there hadn't exchanged one more word since.
While Simon pushed him back in the direction he needed to go, he said: "Despite the way you talk, you're really just like any other kid. 'Cause you have trouble listening."
Patrick laughed. "I did listen," He said as he tried to turn around and look at Simon, who was still playfully pushing him in guidance. "I just figured my time was up."
Simon's narrowed eyes locked on his. "What is that? Prison humor?" Patrick gave a goofy grin in affirmation, making the man scoff. "You really are…" He trailed off, noticing something. Something other than how wide Patrick's eyes went in reaction to words he had yet to speak. "a terrible listener." He hooked the bracelet Patrick was still wearing with one finger. "I told you to watch out for this."
"I am." He said softly, though the words offered Simon no reassurance. Simon followed the boy's logic. In Patrick's eyes, the best way to keep track of something was to keep it close.
That didn't work when what he was keeping track of was close to falling off. He'd worn it so long he probably wouldn't feel a difference. It was a part of him now.
"I think you should find another way." Knowing how stubborn Patrick had been about this, Simon said something else to make the boy see his side. "How many tries did it take you to build those things?" He pointed behind him, where the snares were. One of which looked like it might not function the way it was intended. (He tried not to point out that specific one, knowing it would only make Patrick upset.)
The sound in response was a telling one, that expressed there were really no words for the difficulty. This had taken a lot of energy and improvising. That much was clear.
"Exactly. Go be social."
Patrick's only response to that-as he went on his way looking over his shoulder at Simon for a moment-was an eyebrow raise and a lopsided smile. Being social wasn't an easy job, but he would try his best.
He waved to Ira and Hershel as he passed them. Moments later, Viri was back at Simon's side, with a plastic bag full of now-clean clothes. She could see he looked scared, despite being back on the safe side of the fence. "What happened?" She asked as she handed the bag over.
He gave her an appreciative smile, though he sounded sad. "Patrick keeps pushing his limits." He said under a sigh.
"Trying to handle everything on his own." She said, proving that she'd seen that herself.
He nodded. "He's gotta learn to adjust. What's gonna happen days from now when we go on a run and leave him here?"
Her head turned sharply, and all her focus was set on Simon in that moment. "Why would we leave him here?" Once he had his strength back, she didn't see the point. Doing things as a unit was their way.
"We haven't seen anything that makes us not wanna trust these people. Patrick will be safe with them. So will Ira."
She stared, her head slightly cocked to the side. "Now you're doubting your brother's ability, too?" She asked disappointedly.
"No." His sharp tone drowned out a sob. "We all cut it so close." Viri knew that. She still felt guilty over it. "I never want it to get that bad again. If letting them stay here while we go out helps, that's what I wanna do."
She looked straight at him sympathetically, but said: "It won't help." She took his free hand and saw that she had his full attention. "The good, the bad… it's all gonna come in waves. And none of us are safe from the flood."
After another fast shower, Patrick was reevaluating the work he'd done on the privacy screen. Turns out, it took all the fabric he had left to patch up. The needle and thread had been given back, and what looked like an orange target now filled in the missing middle piece of the sheet. That orange once matched the band Patrick wore, but it was richer in color because it had been in storage so long. He placed his hand in the center of the 'target' to see the contrast. What he saw was that he should have heeded Simon's warnings. What he saw was his own bare, skinny wrist.
He fought off another panic attack, not wanting to be back in a place where that was his most common response to issues that arose. For a moment, his eyes burned. Though tears never left them.
He wasn't sure what made him angrier. The fact that he'd lost the bracelet and had nothing left to replace it with, or the fact that Simon was right. He thought about walking it off rather than retracing his steps. Odds were, he wouldn't find it again. And inside, there wasn't a lot of space to run.
Before he came to a decision, he heard a voice from behind him. A voice he hadn't heard in two days.
"Hey." He turned to see Carl standing there, holding baby Judith. And the bracelet he'd been ready to make himself forget about. "Here."
"Thanks." He said, his tone full of the relief he felt. He knew there was no time to question where the bracelet was found. No time to mention the next story he was sitting on. In a moment, Carl would go off to greet his father who was returning from his run.
That was confirmed when Beth came into view. Carl handed his baby sister over with the same reluctant look he wore when Beth said she missed him, and give her to him to hold. Patrick didn't know anything about that.
But what he was sure of-as he put his bracelet with the inkless pens and the capped markers-was that Carl had the best job in the world.
Dinner that night felt like another feast. Not because the group was eating anything particularly special. It felt like a celebration because the numbers hadn't dwindled at all. That was something put in danger day to day. Especially when people left for chunks of time, and there was the heightened fear that they would not return.
Patrick made a point to learn as many names as possible.
He wrote them all down, along with the names that he already knew. He wrote on graph paper in red pen, with both impressive speed and control. Some stopped eating to watch. Each name was written as a different pattern of loops and lines. Simon jokingly scolded him to stop showing off, but he couldn't help getting creative.
As he wrote, he created a failsafe for his memory. And kept a dream alive that this world had threatened to kill.
Patrick initially thought the pile of Legos he came across the following morning had about the same appeal as a game of tag.
Yet they pulled his attention away from the work he had to do multiple times. The fourth time around, he actually considered sitting down to play with them. Just the thought made his stomach turn.
Especially with the sounds he couldn't tune out, of Carl taking his gun apart feet away.
The noises plagued his ears. In a similar fashion that the younger boy's short story had. He'd dropped by Patrick's cell at an early hour-by his standards-to give the abridged version of the day he was born. An exchange. An explanation of how it happened, who was there.
And who was not.
Those words weren't supposed to hurt. They were supposed to be a comfort, proving once again that Carl could relate to him on some level. But he didn't get the brightest of beginnings, either. Patrick hadn't hoped for that.
Every movement overheard shamed him for allowing the thought of playing to cross his mind. It was clear the other boy didn't see that as an option anymore. Even though his father had brought the Legos back especially for him.
That should've been reason enough for Patrick to find another way to fill his time. These things didn't belong to him. Just because they hadn't been put to use didn't mean it was his job to make sure they were. What good would that do anyone? Whose mind would it put to ease?
Patrick kept up this debate with himself in hopes that the harsh world would win out over this little bubble of contentment he'd stumbled across. He found he wasn't as stubborn as his father when it came to avoiding things that made him truly happy. Even the trivial things.
He sat down in spite of himself.
What struck him was how bright the colors were. It had been awhile since he'd seen anything that hadn't taken on a general tint of 'bland'. Including his clothes. That-despite being clean-made it look like he blended in with the wall behind him.
Maybe he had seen richer colors before then. He just didn't take time to appreciate them.
He looked over the pieces, and he wasn't shocked that he'd be building something mobile. That made sense, given how restless he was. He felt like it would take more effort to pick up the first piece than it would take to build the entire vehicle.
His eyes bounced around briefly. Carl and Beth were hard at work at jobs they took on themselves.
While she didn't have much change in routine, her looking after Judith was extremely important. She only broke her focus to send Patrick a smile. It seemed encouraging, and any doubts he felt about doing this faded.
He took his time, even though there was hardly any guesswork about how the thing fit together. Most of it was automatic, like he was used to doing this. And he was, he realized.
He liked putting things together a lot more than he like taking them apart.
As he went about building, he wondered why he'd been so stubborn before. It was actually fun if he let himself forget about everything else.
That part was a challenge, emphasized by how immediately aware he was of the sound of approaching footsteps. He kept most of his attention on playing, although his ears were still in tune to everything around him.
He sensed another smile, but it wasn't directed at him. He looked up in response to a greeting that was. "Hey, Patrick."
"Hey… Mr. Grimes." He hoped he didn't sound as guilty as he was back to feeling. He tried to make up for that with: "Thanks for grabbin' these."
Rick was smiling, which offered comfort that hadn't quite caught up to Patrick again. It was good someone was playing. The only sad part about it was that someone wasn't the person Rick had in mind. "Well, I-" He gestured toward the Legos as he went on. "thought Carl might want 'em."
At first, words failed Patrick. He'd recognized that. And it was one thing to do something he felt was wrong. It was an even worse thing to have it pointed out. He averted his eyes, but only for a second. "They were just sitting there..." He exhaled. He wasn't sure if it was a sigh or a way to stop himself from thinking like he was. Like choosing to be a kid was a bad thing. Even here. Especially here. "I figured it'd been awhile." He breathed again and felt better, despite not knowing what the look in Rick's eyes meant. "I'm not ashamed that they're for ages four to twelve." Saying that solidified the feeling.
It was a rule he had for himself, but most of the time he broke his own rules.
"You shouldn't be." Rick agreed, leaning forward and giving him a tap on the shoulder. It was strange, but it always seemed to happen that way. The moment Patrick got completely comfortable with something, it was practically over. The silent signal also meant goodbye, which just seemed to shove that thought of getting a grip on something he wouldn't have much longer in his face. That's the way his world worked.
He heard Rick walk over to Carl, who was still focusing all his energy on cleaning his gun. (Patrick wondered if his thoughts wandered at all during the process, or if he was able to shut them off.) "Hey." The man greeted. His son echoed the word, but his voice didn't have the same sort of tone. It sounded more like a reflex than a real response. And Patrick didn't have to be looking to know that he didn't make eye contact.
It was easier for him to sense when someone was looking in his general direction-like Judith, whose eyes settled on him briefly while he played-but knowing when eye contact was avoided was only clear in this case because he knew that tone. He'd used that tone.
After too long of a pause, Rick said: "Carl."
"Yes?" Another reflex reply, said without looking up. Within the next second, everything was put back in place. And even though the younger boy's eyes remained focused on his gun, there was still one small sign that he had respect for his father. Why else, Patrick thought, would he wear that hat?
"Carl." Rick repeated, more stern this time. Another tone of voice Patrick remembered well. The kind that was effective in getting attention. "I need your help with somethin'." The man told his son. Patrick could tell the response to this was another reflex, even though he hadn't looked anywhere but directly in front of him in awhile.
It was strange even for Patrick to have his hands full only with Legos. He didn't consider himself a fighter, but it was a rule to never be without weapons. A rule he'd only broken that morning, when Ira told him to forget about one of them for awhile.
At first, he took it as a joke knowing he'd been manning the fence. Then he thought about it more, and realized the group agreeing to put their guns down didn't leave them totally defenseless. In his case, the new rule was just another reminder to stay hyper-aware.
He would never really forget. He couldn't. Finding what felt like home at a prison didn't change that. Nothing would. Which is why muscle memory had him occasionally reaching for something that was no longer there.
And why Carl wasn't expecting what his father said next: "Leave it behind."
"What?" The younger boy voiced confusion and reluctance that Patrick had felt hearing those exact words. Under different circumstances.
"It'll just get in the way."
When he got done with playing, Patrick was alone with his thoughts. Beth had invited him outside-and of course that was where he'd rather be-but something kept him in.
A distance of mere feet had allowed for a world of separation. No wonder he and Carl hadn't made conversation then. What could they possibly say to each other that would be understood in that moment? The younger of the two didn't look like a kid. And Patrick questioned why he felt proud of himself for acting like one.
Fun was another lost luxury. It wasn't like the group didn't deserve to have fun anymore. There just wasn't always time. He remembered it more. What it had been like. He remembered that the fun times were the ones he would prefer to just skip over. That was more regretful than risking people judging him for not acting his age.
Age, he realized as he stared down at the tabletop where Carl had left his gun fairly close to an open but untouched coloring book, was not the issue here. They were both kids. The difference was that Patrick had made the choice to be a kid that didn't see the world's end as an end to childhood. Carl didn't think he had that choice.
Maybe what they needed was a balance. But Patrick didn't think there was a fair amount of room for work and play. He had never allowed for there to be. He decided-as he looked over the project he'd been working on-that playtime would just have to come in pieces.
The way Patrick saw it, he and Carl had the right to act like kids. They were also required to act like adults. Being one or the other would just make for disaster.
Both mindsets existed within the two of them. Sometimes they fought each other. When both attitudes existed in harmony, allowing one to take control at the appropriate times, that was when it all clicked.
That's when Patrick realized where he stood. Where Carl stood. And he made sure to write it down lest he forget.
That day wore on and most of the group was ready to retire to their cells before the sun even set. As Carl made his way back to the spot where he'd left his gun, he took in the expressions worn by everyone he walked past. Most of them were visibly tired, achy even, but none of them looked particularly upset. Even with all the changes taking place lately.
It was going to take getting used to. Carl had a feeling he would never be able to wake up at the crack of dawn. That was just one of the reasons filling the role of a farmer full-time was out of the question for him. It was odd. He had to lose part of himself to do that, even if was only a part-time thing. Just being without his hat that long had him feeling out of sorts.
He'd changed a lot already. He knew that. This didn't make up for any negative changes. This felt like going backwards.
The floor under his feet already felt less familiar. The sound of his footsteps bounced off the prison walls and aimed back at him, since he was alone in the area. The spot where the Legos were strewn across the floor had been cleared. He glared at the empty space. Not angry that an opportunity had been stolen from him. Angry that the opportunity no longer existed.
He stopped just before he got back to the table, awestruck by the sight of whatever Patrick built sitting atop it. Next to his gun.
The toy car served as a paperweight for a note, which made it look like a gift. And a chance, to have that missed opportunity back.
The note was written in calligraphic script with red ink on a torn of piece of a page from that abandoned coloring book. The message was short, from what Carl could see. In his dull shock, it took him a second to realize that it was addressed to him.
Young Sir
Sleep was always the same slow process for Patrick. It was a chore for him, and one of the only chores he didn't enjoy putting in work for. His brain didn't stop on account of his body. It raced with thoughts he couldn't sort out. Until tiredness caused those thoughts to quiet, he lied there with one hand tucked under his head. Counterproductive, he figured. Since he'd never be able to fall asleep in that position.
It was eerily quiet since he was the last of the group to turn in for the night. Or, more accurately, among the last.
Something cut through the silence, and it startled him until he realized what it was. The sound of small rubber wheels rolling along until they bumped into the nearly empty box by his bottom bunk. Patrick took that as another answer to a question he had never voiced.
His eyes opened, and a smile graced his face when he caught the glow of a familiar flashlight shining along the walls...
Thanks for reading, PLEASE REVIEW! (If any of you have read one of my other stories, you know that cursing is a rarity. It just makes more sense here, giving the rating of the show, but it will be sporadic.) I have a bunch of Patrick's backstory in mind, but where I could use inspiration is for events in the present time. Let me know what you guys want me to elaborate on, who you want to see more of and what you wanna see happen. Ideas are GREATLY appreciated.
Just for some background, I didn't count Patrick as a Woodbury survivor because he's listed under Prison Newcomers on the wiki. Also, I'm not sure about who would've found him, but I call Carol and Daryl his rescuers because he's first seen with them when he's introduced.
I'll update ASAP! =]