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Chapter 12: The Secrets We All Hide
(Keith's P.O.V., Present day)
I keep wondering how Kate is doing. It can't be easy always hiding yourself from people. Especially the fact that she is Cresselia, its kind-of a big thing to hide from people. It's not like she can hide it forever, either. And exactly how long is she planning on keeping it a secret, anyways?
(Kate's P.O.V., Present)
I'm afraid of everyone learning the truth. Keith and Rythmi were the first people to ever really understand me at all, and I haven't even told them the full truth. The full truth… I've spent my entire life hiding it from people. I've become so good at lying about myself that I'm not even sure exactly who I am.
My brother N, he always pursued his own ideals. I pursued not truth, not ideals, but dreams. A long time ago, I learned the world wasn't black and white. Good, evil, eventually it all blends together. There is no such definitive right or wrong. Just as life and death are not separate entities. Any of such couldn't exist without the other.
I always wondered what a black and white world would be like. There are people who do see the world as black and white. I, personally, see the world as shades. Shades of every color, even those unimaginable. Sometimes, I close my eyes and see a world so different from ours. Free from the perceived evils of strife and war. A perfect world, my perfect world.
Then I hear the gleeful shrieks of little kids playing, or the couples laughing together. That's when I remember things aren't perfect for a reason. They aren't perfect so we can learn, so we can live, and above all, love. There are very few people I truly love. Maybe I'm slightly cold towards people, maybe I don't trust easily, but I have my reasons. The reasons are such that I'd rather not share.
Every time I close my eyes I remember. I remember the entire world that used to be. I remember Darkrai, and our fateful goodbye. As he's my brother, I'd very much like to see him again. Still though, history is doomed to repeat itself. That's what I'm afraid of. I can learn from my own mistakes, but I can't make others learn from theirs…
(Keith's P.O.V., present)
My face paled as I read Luana's letter. I couldn't believe it. Oh Kate, why did she find it so important to hide the past from us? Her parents' death when she was little, her own brother abandoning her, and then a fire destroying her home. Maybe that was why she was so different. No, that wasn't it. She was different because she is different. I guess some things are impossible to explain.
Then there was the whole "Lady of the Moon" thing. What exactly was that anyways? The weirdest part for me was, if she was Cresselia, then was she a pokémon or a human? Or both? Or neither? Or, or, or… argh! I think my mind is going to explode if I think about this any longer.
Everything about Kate is super confusing. That includes my feelings for her. I want to tell her I like her, but it's so difficult. Impossible. Terrifying. That, and every other word of fear. It's like, totally unachievable. Totally.
(Kate's P.O.V., present)
I really, really miss Keith. Rythmi too. Everyone, in fact. Still though, I miss Keith the most. I think I might actually love Keith. The thought makes me rather nervous. And what's going to happen to Keith when I have to leave. When I have to leave forever.
That reminds me, I still have yet to get Rythmi and Isaac together. I really love playing matchmaker, but it always seems to annoy other people. Oh well, you can't be friends with everyone.
The only person I know who truly understands me is Keith. You know, it's so much easier to hate than it is to love. When you hate, it allows you an emotional release. When you love, it's an emotional roller coaster. Up, down, your emotions fly every which way. Is it worth it? The only answer I can think of is yes. Yes, because true love releases an incredible feeling. It's indescribable.
Love isn't black and white either. There are so many different ways love manifests in people, like friendship, family, or well… love. Those are the three different types I know of. There isn't one set example of how love should be, is, or was. I think that may be for the best, too. If everyone or everything were the same, then how would we know how special an individual was?
Our differences are what make us special. Yet, people hate each other for their differences. I don't understand why. Arguments and hatred, they hurt me. Being able to sense others emotions, I feel the pain and hurt of others.
"Hey Katie!" I whirled around. Who else was on the middle of the forest, anyways? I had been spending most of my time here after the fire. We had found a strange guy on our way back, and we took him to the Base. The dude hasn't said a word since.
"Hi Luana," I signed, "How is everything?"
"All's good Kate. I just wanted to give you a letter from Keith."
I smiled as she handed me the letter. I signed a quick thank you to her, and ripped open the letter.
Dear Katlyn,
How are you? I miss you a lot. I just wanted to let you know that I always am available to talk.
Your friend, Keith.
I was kind of puzzled at this point. Why would Keith send me a letter just to say he was available to talk? That was weird, even for him. I looked around, but Luana had already left. Something was going on here, and I was going to find out what…
Hi! Thanks for reading this. Sorry it was short, and weird. I have something planned for next chapter, so just you wait! *Evil laugh* Um, anyways, I hope you enjoyed this, and please review. Thank you so much :)