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March 9, 2006

Dear Diary,

So me and Katie have been in Seattle already for four days. She refuses to go home yet until I'm happy which is fine.

I'm just afraid of how I'm gonna pay. And I don't mean the money part for the trip. I mean what I have to pay when I get back.

Since I've left I've received many phone calls, which I've ignored. Apparently I've done something right out of this whole thing, because Alice hasn't been able to find me.

Knock on wood.

I've had fun though. For the first time in a month I was able to hang with my best friend and act like a complete idiot. I've been able to smile a little more and not think about my depression issue.

It's until the days are over that I start crashing again.

I've tried not to cry. I keep telling Katie that's it's all good and that when we get home I'll be better. Even I know that's a lie!

So now we're shopping and I'm bored. Again. This girl could shop forever if she had the money.

I was sitting in the dressing room, and looked up from my book. Katie came out wearing a purple outfit and she looked at me.

"So?"

"Cute," I replied.

She huffed and walked over, snatching the journal from my hands.

I knew she wouldn't go anything bad because she understood it was my relief. But still.

"You didn't even look Sky!" she said, narrowing her eyes.

I reached for my book and she moved a bit so I wouldn't get it. I sighed, rubbing the bridge of my nose, and shut my eyes.

"Why are we still shopping? We have to go back soon. It's already been four days. When my family sees me again I'm gonna be grounded for like, I don't know, ever!" I said. I felt myself shaking my head, already hearing Alice flip out.

Katie crossed her arms.

"We're still here because you're still depressed. Well sorta. I admit, not as much! But still depressed," she said with a shrug.

I looked at her and she smiled hopefully.

"We can leave after this store," she said, raising her eyebrows.

I looked at her outfit and smiled.

"That really is cute," I said with a nod.

She grinned.

"Thank you!" she said, handing me my journal and walked into the dressing room.

I rolled my eyes and glanced out of the window. I saw that the sun was up high signaling mid day.

Katie came out, dressed normally and she shrugged.

"I don't want it," she said walking by me.

I watched her confused.

"Then why did-? Ugh! Never mind," I said standing and following her.

We got to the car and she smiled.

"Ready to leave the great Seattle?" she asked.

I nodded starting it and pulled out and onto the highway. We had already packed this morning.

"You know something," she started.

I looked at her so she knew I was listening and she went on.

"Ethan gave me his number the first day we got here," she said. I looked at her shocked and she nodded grinning.

"Yeah, yeah! Look!" she yelled, holding it up.

I glanced at it and then pulled out on the interstate.

"Dude! So I guess you got what you wanted!" I said smiling.

She nodded looking at the number on the paper.

"Yeah. I'm happy. I really liked him," she said. I rolled my eyes.

"Well I hope so. You guys talked for about an hour every friggen time we walked by him," I said shaking my head.

Katie nodded with a smiled and looked out the window.

"So…what about you and Jake? How's that going?" she asked.

I didn't answer her at first and instead just drove.

"Not now," I said, touching my locket.

She looked at me, her hazzle eyes pure green.

"Then when!? You never talk about it! It's been a full month and you haven't said one word to me about it! I thought that this trip would make you feel better-"

"No it has!" I said looking at her.

She crossed her arms, raising an eyebrow, and I sighed.

"It isn't just…something I can forget about when I shop. I mean, I can forget until the day is over and done with. Then it probes my mind again y'know. I can't seem to get away from it," I said shrugging.

She nodded and I sighed again.

"I guess I'm just tired of trying to figure it out. So I'll just stop worrying about it for now," I said looking at her with a smile.

She looked at me worriedly and I shook my head.

"I'll be fine," I said.

After that it was quiet.

It was darker by the time we pulled into Port Angeles. Katie was asleep against the window and I was about to fall asleep.

"Geez. When I said I was tired from it all I meant it," I said, shifting so I was more awake.

I parked in front of Katie's house and shook her arm, shutting the car off.

"Katie. Wake up we're back," I said.

She jumped and her eyes snapped open.

"The flying pigs are leaving with my marshmallows!!!!" she screamed. I retracted my hand and stared wide eyed at her.

She breathed heavily and looked at me.

"What the hell is wrong with you!?" I yelled. Katie giggled nervously and held her hands up with a shrug.

"The, um, flying pigs had my marshmallows," she stated.

I rolled my eyes opening my door.

"Yeah, I got that thanks," I said getting out.

She got out too and got her stuff from the back seat.

"Well that was fun right?" she asked looking at me. I nodded smiling.

"Defiantly. Thanks for taking me out. I haven't been the same person I am lately," I said with a shrug.

She grinned and hugged me tightly.

"It's fine. When you see Jacob you'll get better. He's the medicine you really need. No matter how much you don't want to admit it," she said to me.

I nodded hugging her and she ran up the steps.

"See you around! Make sure you turn your phone back on and be careful! It's dark already!" she said.

I nodded getting in.

"Alright," I said starting the car.

She waved at me as I drove off and I rolled my eyes.

I went to Forks and didn't like the dreaded feeling I was getting.

"Man, I'm gonna get it from everyone. I don't even know where to start," I said helplessly.

So I went to the Cullen's house.

I pulled up and got out. I walked to the door and heard talking.

Bella was here too.

I opened it and everyone looked at me. Edward sighed gratefully when he saw me and Alice ran a hand down her face.

"Schyler!" Bella yelled, running at me.

She hugged me tightly before pulling away to look at my face.

"Are you okay?! Where were you!? I was so worried!"

I shook my head smiling some.

"I'm fine. I just left for a while," I said, looking at all of them.

Alice looked me up and down.

"What are you wearing?" she asked smiling.

I looked at myself and shrugged.

It was a blue jacket over a green tank top and then some ripped jeans with some green and blue Nikes.

"It's uh new," I said quietly.

Edward frowned at me.

"You shouldn't have left like that. No one knew where you were. And you were blocking off everything. What if you would have gotten hurt?" he asked, crossing his arms.

I looked to the side.

"I went to Seattle. Katie and I did. We wanted some time to just get things off of our minds. So we left. I didn't tell anyone on purpose. I knew you wouldn't let me go because it was the big city and the killings have been happening down there," I explained.

Bella nodded, crossing her arms.

"You're right. It's too dangerous to do that. Do not do it again," she said, narrowing her eyes.

I glared at her and Emmett sighed, walking up to me.

"Well she's back and fine. It's not like she lost a leg on her way back. Stop picking on our little Schyler," he said, ruffling my black hair.

I rolled my eyes fixing my hair and Alice hugged me.

"I'm just glad you're safe," she said pulling away. She winked at me with a small smile.

"I love your outfit. I want to see the rest of them," she said quietly before walking back to stand with Jasper.

Jasper nodded at me and Rosalie shrugged.

"At least she's not dead," she said walking off.

I saluted at her.

"Thanks Rose. So um where's-?"

"Oh they're coming," Edward said crossing his arms.

I groaned and looked behind me as the door opened revealing Esme and Carlisle.

"Schyler!" Esme breathed relieved.

She ran over and held me to her tightly. Carlisle came in and hugged me also before looking at me.

"I don't know what you were thinking but you scared us greatly," he said sternly.

That's when I started to feel bad.

Esme pulled back holding my face in her hands and I sighed.

"I'm sorry," I said softly.

Esme smiled some and hugged me again.

"I'm so glad you're safe," she said. Carlisle seemed to relax tenfold and looked at all of his children.

"Did you already yell at her?" he asked.

Edward nodded.

"The instant she walked in," he said smirking.

Esme pulled away from me and frowned.

"Well I hope you didn't yell too bad. She left because of all the stress. She is the youngest and most fragile out of all of you. You need to start taking care of her and try and help her through her struggles. Running from things you can't handle is a common and wise things to do. Just because she's afraid to face something doesn't make it wrong," she said, putting her hands on her hips.

'She's right. I run but I…I just can't deal with it by myself,' I thought, looking down.

I shook my head and looked at the clock.

"Look it's getting late and I need to get home," I said sighing.

I was exhausted. I'd deal with this crap later.

When I got to my car I sat there for a moment before nodding sternly.

"I know what I'm doing," I said heading for La Push.

Me: Oh yeah! Schyler is back in Forks!

Audience: *whoops*

Me: Yep Schyler is back but it seems as though her problems have only gotten worse. Is that true? Of course! I had some suggestions into putting the Cullen family back in so I did that for those wonderful e-mails! *giggles* In the next chapter I promise you there is Jacob Black!!!

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Me:*laughs* Yeah, yeah! Jacob and the gang are back in the next chapter and we will be seeing them a lot for the next few chapters actually! Now, I know he hasn't been in it much but we get to see a little of the whole pack in the next chapter! So be sure to review and we'll get back to you soon! Bye!!