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Chapter 12
Peeta's POV
I don't sleep much. My nightmares keep me awake. I dream about her. Gale coming back and taking her away. Gale hurting her. I just can't keep my mind from thinking about this whole situation. After some unsuccessful attempts I decide to stay awake and watch Katniss. She looks so peaceful, so innocent. I hold her as close to me as possible. My broken ribs are finally giving me a break after I took the painkillers Greasy Sae left on my nightstand. I kiss her forehead and caress her cheek. It's around 10 and I ask myself if I should wake her up and make her eat something. "Peeta" she murmurs in her sleep, bringing me back to reality. "I'm right here" I whisper in her ear. "P-Peeta, please stay" she says a little louder. "Baby, I'm not going anywhere, it's okay Katniss." Her facial expression is blank and I wonder of she is having a nightmare or just dreaming. "NO, PLEASE PEETA, DON'T LEAVE ME" she cries. "Katniss, Katniss wake up" I start shaking her. "NOOO, PEEETAAA" she starts to scream over the painful sobs echoing through the room. "Katniss, love, wake up right now. Please" I shake her. "PEETAA" she is reaching for me desperately. "Shhh it's okay, it's okay love" I hug her to me and whisper soothing words in her ear over and over again. "Y-You w-w-were d-dead." She tries to say over her sobs. "I'm okay and I'm not going anywhere" I try to calm her down. "It's okay. You are okay. I'm okay. We are safe now." I kiss her lips slow and sweet. "I love you. So much." I whisper against her lips. "I love you too" she whispers back. She finally starts to calm down. I lean in again and start kissing her more passionate.
I keep kissing her soft lips for a long time. She is still struggling to breath so I slow down a bit. We haven't been this close since the Victory tour. I want her to feel safe and loved. I want to show her without words how much she means to me, how much I love her. Even though I love being here with her, the conversation I had with Gale won't leave me thoughts. "We need to talk" I whisper once we pull away. She looks at me with those silver eyes full of tears. "What about?" she whispers. I take a deep breath. How am I going to talk to her about something like this? How do I ask her about that night, how am I supposed to make her remember? "I..I got in a fight with Gale this afternoon." Her expression shows pure fear. "W-what did he tell you?" she asks, a little tear makes its way down her beautiful face. "Everything. I mean…Katniss I know about that night." Now terrible sobs are shaking her body. "I'm sorry. I'm so sorry." I can't believe she is apologizing for something she didn't choose. My poor Katniss, always blaming herself for things she can't control. "Shhh, Why are you apologizing? There is nothing to be sorry about!" I say while caressing her cheek. "I let another man touch me." How can she think that way. "No you didn't, he did this to you baby." She won't stop apologizing, no matter what I say. "Shhhh please stop crying. I can't take watching you suffer like this. Everything is going to be okay. We will go to a doctor and…." She cuts me off "No, Peeta please no. I don't want anybody to know about this. I can't go to a doctor" she says over her tears. "Baby, we need to get you checked. Nobody is going to know about this, we will find a doctor that we can trust and the pain will go away. I promise." I try to convince her, but there is no use. "No Peeta. Please, I just want to forget about this. I just want to forget." My heart breaks every time a tear stream down her soft cheek. "We will forget love, I promise we will forget. But before we need to go to a doctor so we will be sure you are okay." I have to, I think to myself over and over again. It's for her own good. "I won't let anybody hurt you never again. I promise that we are always going to be together and we will get through this." She won't answer me. She looks hurt and scared. I can't take it. "Katniss look at me." She is looking around the room like she is trying to find something. She looks at everything except me. "Please baby look at me." She won't. "I just want what is best for you." Tears haven't stopped running down her face and I'm starting to get worried. "Katniss please say something." It's like her mind shut off and she doesn't know where she is or who I am.
Katniss's POV
I can't. I can't see a doctor. I don't want anybody else to know what happened between me and Gale. I don't anybody else to touch me. I don't want anybody else to see me. I don't want to be with anybody else. I know Peeta is trying to help me but I'm a lost cause. My mind is wandering around the same dark place it did when I first came back. I don't feel anything, I don't hear anything, I don't see anything. "Katniss please look at me. Please come back to me. I can't be without you baby please." I barely hear Peeta's desperate voice calling my name. Why am I doing this to him? He is just trying to take care of me. But how do I stay when the pain is to much to handle. I don't want to feel the burning sensation between my legs that I got used to since it won't go away. I feel weaker every second. 'KATNISS PLEASE TALK TO ME." Someone is shaking me. I hear cries. Someone is calling my name and crying. Peeta. I'm fading away and leaving my Peeta behind. I don't want to leave him. He never left me, he never gave up on me. "PLEASE KATNISS PLEASE. I LOVE YOU BABY, PLEASE STAY WITH ME. KATNISS ANSWER ME." He sounds so desperate that my heart is breaking in little pieces. I love him so much. He means everything to me. I feel someone hugging me and kissing my face. I won't let this dark feeling to consume me again, I need to fight for him.
Slowly my vision comes back and then my hearing. The only thing I hear is his desperate cries. "P-Peeta" I try to say, even though it feels like the words are stuck in my throat. "Oh God… Katniss can you hear me? Please look at me. Are you okay? Stay with me baby. Please" Tears are streaming down his angelic face. I try to turn my head and look at him but my vision is still a blur and I can't see him. When I feel his lips against mine I know that he is the anchor that will keep me sane. I won't lose it this time. I wait until all my senses are back and kiss him back. Our passionate kiss lasts a long time. I want to make sure he knows that even though I feel like I can't handle all this pain I will still be here for him. Whatever happens from now on I need to remind myself that it's not about me anymore, it's about him. He needs me as much as I need him. I know that if I lost Peeta my life would be completely over. I don't want him to experience that pain.
Hi again. Next chapter we are back to action. This is probably the third short filler in a row. I'm sorry guys but I needed to get some stuff out of my way. I love your reviews so keep it up. Have a good one and I will see you guys as soon as I finish writing my first long chapter for this story, which will be in 3 or 4 days. I'm so excited that I'm going to watch Fifty Shades of Gray tomorrow. Anybody watching that?