Author's Note: First let me thank everyone who had reviewed, alerted, or put this story on their favorites it means a lot to me.

So by now I'm pretty sure you know what memory he's going to show her and which one of hers.

Warning: Mention of self harm in this chapter.

Enjoy!

Disclaimer: Do I really need to say that I don't own them? I'm just playing with someone else's toys and do return them in the same shape I have found them (well that may not always be the case).

Severus summoned the pensive from the other room, Hermione watched as he pulled a memory from his head dropping it into the bowl. She stood going over to the table, she leaned forward lowering her head into it and was transported to a bar.

~~^~~Pensive Memory~~^~~

"So you'll do it?" Severus asked the blonde sitting next to him.

"For that kind of money I'll do anything you want honey."

Severus stood motioning the woman to follow him.

The scene changed to outside his house as he opened the door saying,

"From now on you need to act the part."

"Anything you say sugar."

She watched as the woman stopped on the steps and giggled then followed him the rest of the way up.

Hermione watched as Severus looked to her closed door, a look of deep sadness passed across his face before he schooled it back to his normal features.

Once the door was closed the woman started to strip her clothes off, Severus walked up to her stopping her hissing,

"No, just what I asked for."

The woman looked disappointed but jumped on the bed.

The next few minutes what happen shocked Hermione. They made a whole lot of sex noises and such then it sounded like climaxes.

Hermione watched as Severus threw money at the woman leading her back down stairs and out of the house. He came back up the stairs going back to his room standing by the wall that separated their rooms.

She moved so she could see him, her stomach tied itself in knots when she realized he was crying.

The memory suddenly changed to her room.

Hermione sat on the bed, a book open in front of her. She took furious notes as she read. She jumped when she heard the front door open then closed. She closed the book, a look of expectation of her face as she heard his feet on the steps.

Her face fell as she heard a distinctly female voice say,

"So talk, dark, and handsome are you going to have your wicked way with me?"

"Something like that." Severus answered.

Hermione looked scared, Hermione had to step closer to hear herself whisper.

"Please, I don't want to…." She saw tears fall from her eyes.

Hermione heard his bedroom door open then shut, the voices seemed louder now.

Hermione laid down on the bed covering her head with her pillow.

Words came floating into the room, there was no mistake as to what was going on.

Hermione threw the pillow across the room, she stood pacing at first. Then she stopped at the wall that separated their rooms, she leaned against it sliding to the floor. She drew her knees up to her chest wrapping her arms around them.

"Why?" she asked quietly "Why make me listen to you?"

Of course the only answer she received was the sounds of sex coming from the next room.

She watched herself bang her head into the wall behind her

"Why can't you say that to me?"

"You could love me like that."

The sounds from the next room became more urgent.

"Why am I not good enough? What have I done wrong?"

Her head hit the wall again,

"Why can't I hear those words from you, any words. I've done everything you've wanted, I whore myself to you and you still want to flaunt that I'm not good enough. Maybe death would be…."

She never finished the sentence when yelling from the next room told of shared climaxes.

Hermione walked back over to the wall, she fell to her knees yelling at the wall.

"I love you, that's all I ever did. Why do you think that is so wrong?"

She was sobbing as she hit the wall with her open hand.

"What did I ever do that was so wrong that you treat me like….. like….." her tears and sobs started again and she wasn't able to speak.

She finally took the wand without a word cutting herself, she closed her eyes just breathing deeply then closed the wound.

She hissed and look at the ring on her finger, the anger flashed across her face then pain.

She watched as Severus came into the room, drank that damn potion then rutted around on top of her.

~~^~~End Pensive Memory~~^~~

Hermione pulled out of the memory, the memory she now remembered fully. She gripped the edge of the table to keep herself upright, breathing in gasp. It took her a little while to get the memory to settle back into her mind, finally she turned.

Severus was standing looking into the fireplace, she stared at him for the longest time without saying a word. Finally she found a few but none of them could convey how she felt at this moment.

"You son of a bitch."

Severus said nothing, didn't move. She didn't know what pissed her off more at the moment, the memory of him doing that to her although it was in a new light or the fact that he just stood there.

She turned around completely before saying,

"What? You have nothing to say? Too fucking bad you couldn't have kept your damn mouth closed while we were married."

Severus watched her out of the corner of his eyes, as he saw her pale then raise the sleeve of her shirt looking down at her arm.

"I thought Bellatrix did them all." She said quietly then louder she said, "Well how do you feel now? Knowing that you had that much power over me?"

She started to walk toward her room then changed her mind she walked up to Severus then did something that she never thought she'd do, she drew back her fist and punched him. When he looked up at her she saw the small trail of blood from his lip, for a moment she felt bad then it was gone when she remembered every time she bleed because of him.

She raised her sleeve showing him her right arm saying, "This is the only thing on my arm that Bellatrix left me with, all the rest are compliments of you."

She turned running from the room, then the dungeon. She had no idea where she was going to go, she didn't even have her wand but there was no way she was staying anywhere near him.

Severus watched her leave as her words finally sunk in, he turned to follow her though he knew that she wouldn't appreciate it but he couldn't let her run around the castle like that. He would take her wherever she wanted to go.

He looked everywhere he thought she would be, the last place was the one he never went to anymore and most of the students knew that, the astrometry tower. He started up the steps, he had not been here since the night he killed the headmaster. He didn't need the pain that accompanied the place, but if she was there he would follow.

Hermione was standing on the wall looking over the grounds, this really was a beautiful place. She heard footsteps, she wondered briefly if it was Filch coming to catch a student out of bed.

Severus stopped on the top step his heart fell to his feet when he saw her standing on the ledge, the wind whipping her hair around her face.

Author's Note: Comments really do make me smile and brighten my day.

Also I wanted to let you know that I have a couple of Severus/Hermione videos on youtube, the link is in my profile.