A/N: I know its been a while since I updated and I am so sorry. Life gets in the way sometimes. I hope everyone enjoys this chapter. As always reviews are welcomed.

"You're pregnant?" Olivia asked as she ran her hands along Alex's stomach.

"I wanted it to be a surprise to you." Alex said as she became scared of Olivia's reaction "You're not to mad are you?"

"I am some." Olivia whispered "I've always been there for every step of the process. How did you…?"

"We still had some of your eggs left over from the last time we tried. I began treatments a little over three month ago using them. The first try was a failure but as you can guess the second time was a success. I haven't seen the doctor yet for confirmation but I took a pregnancy test this morning when I got to work and it came back positive."

"That's my baby?" Olivia asked still in shock over everything

"It is."

"My baby?"

"As in is it your DNA then yes. Whether it was or wasn't it's still your child."

Olivia stood and began pacing the floor while running her hands through her hair. Alex had went behind her back and gotten pregnant. She knew without a doubt that Alex didn't sleep with anyone but the fact she snuck around and did it was unnerving.

"How could you Alex? Why not just tell me that you were ready to try again."

"What part of I wanted this to be a surprise did you not get. I was scared you would say no after last time. Look the miscarriage almost destroyed us."

"But we came back from it like always. No matter what we always survive."

"We do" Alex said as she stood and walked to where Olivia was pacing "Will we survive this?"

The raw emotion in Alex's voice stopped Olivia in her tracks. That one sentence spoke volumes to her. How scared she was that she destroyed what they had.

"We will Alex" Olivia said with tears in her eyes as she pulled Alex to her "I'm just a little hurt. Don't get me wrong I'm thrilled to but I've never missed anything to do with our children."

"I just wanted to surprise you that's all I promise. I wasn't trying to sneak behind your back or anything like that."

"I know." Olivia whispered as a smile began to creep along her face "So this is my baby?'

"Yes. Who else's would it be?"

"I know but"

"But what?"

"What if it happens again? What if we lose this baby to?"

"Starting Monday I'm only working half days for three days a week until I finish the project we are working on. That should take about another three weeks. Then after that I'm taking a leave of absence. The only strenuous thing from then on out I will be doing is taking care of a house for you and our daughter."

"Not even that if I can help it."

"I know you think your superwoman but honey you can't do it all." Alex said laughing as the tension started to leave the room.

"I can try."

"Just to let you know you will always be my superwoman."

Olivia had to laugh hearing, Alex, the woman who had done it all say that. Granted it was probably the cheesiest line she ever heard but hearing it come from her lips meant the world to her.

"Does anyone else know?" Olivia asked a few hours later as she cleaned the kitchen from their impromptu dinner.

"Know that I'm pregnant?"

"Yeah."

"Stud I may have kept it from you but you would have been the first told no matter what."

"I'm glad." Olivia whispered as she wrapped her arms around her wife from behind and placed her hands on her stomach.

"Are you ok with this?" Alex asked hesitantly as she entwined her fingers through Olivia's and leaned back against her.

"I am." Olivia whispered into her neck "I'm just scared."

"About?"

"What if it happens again? We both know and understand that it was a complete accident but in the back of my mind I can't help but wonder if that was god's way of saying I shouldn't pass on my genes. I wouldn't be so worried if you had used your eggs instead of mine again.'

Alex swallowed hard . She couldn't believe she was about to ask the question she was about to ask.

"Would you prefer I had an abortion and go back in a few months to try with my eggs instead of yours?"

"WHAT?" Olivia screamed as she tried her best to reel her anger back in. "How dare you ask that?"

"Because you seem uncertain of us having this baby?"

"Because I'm terrified. Because this time it could be worse. I could lose you and our child. I know without a doubt that I won't be able to handle that."

"Liv" Alex whispered as she spun around in her arms truly understanding Olivia's fear for the first time "I understand how you feel. I have that same fear every morning when I watch you getting dressed for work. It hits me full force as I watch you clip your holster on. And when I kiss you good bye I have to wonder if it will be the last time. None of which I or you can control. We just have to take it day by day, like we do every day"

"I know Blondie, I know."

"So lets not jump ahead until we have to. I'm already preparing to take extra precautions this time. In three weeks I will be a stay at home wife and mother. As I get closer to my due date I'm going to be extra cautious."

"I don't doubt that, but it doesn't ease my fears."

"It doesn't ease mine either but how about I make you a deal."

"What's that?"

"If for some reason we lose this baby we look into adoption."

"Is that something you would consider?"

"I would but only if your fine with it."

"I had often thought about it but you seemed so adamant about us having a child with our genes that I never brought it up."

"I wanted at least one to carry on our genes and we have that in Madeline. I am more than open to adopting."

"Have I told you lately how incredible you are?" Olivia asked as she peppered Alex's neck with kisses.

"Not in a few hours" Alex moaned out "How about you show me again."

"It will be your pleasure" Olivia husked as she whisked Alex into her arms and carried her into the bedroom.