He's Just Not Himself
Hello everyone! I normally write Schmece but lately I've wanted to explore the very complicated emotions of Mr. Nick Miller and Jess' role in that. Hope you all enjoy and be sure to leave a review to let me know what you think! -BK
He's just not himself so they tell him to try therapy.
He doesn't because he's Nick Miller. And Nick Miller doesn't talk to people.
Let alone spend money talking to people.
But they tell him anyway, noticing the shift in behavior ever since he and her ended their relationship.
It's not that he's angrier, or sadder, or happier, or more selfish, or more quick-tempered.
They can't put a finger on what it is, really.
He's just not himself.
They think he's unobservant but they couldn't be more wrong.
He doesn't talk to people, remember? So how would they know?
He knows Winston's in love with his job and his life...and his cat.
He knows Schmidt's in love with Cece.
He knows Cece's in love with Schmidt.
There's a lot of happiness in the loft these days but it irks him that the spirited atmosphere was brought about by change.
Winston never used to care about his job.
Schmidt never used to care about anybody.
Cece never used to be here.
His life was so different five years ago, just like his roommates.
Wasn't it?
He still lives in the same room.
He still wears the same clothes.
He still works in the same place, albeit as part owner.
He's still grumpy, he still plays True American, he still doesn't know much about being an adult.
He doesn't care what they think...to himself he still is himself.
He realizes he's wrong when he remembers her.
The glasses-clad brunette who moved in five years ago.
Maybe change wasn't so bad?
Because if she never moved in then Winston probably wouldn't love his job or his life,
Schmidt probably wouldn't love Cece.
And Cece probably wouldn't love Schmidt.
That's what Nick thinks, anyway.
She's a seismic force in a small package and she changed all of them.
One night he forces himself to ask, How did she change me?
He thinks of when they were together.
Oh, that's right.
He became himself when they were together.
And that's why, right now, he's just not himself.