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UNCERTAINTY
She felt something akin to anger when she saw Emily being dragged down the steps by the smaller woman. Which, of course, she expected, but what she did not expect was for that anger to be directed towards the brunette herself. Soon enough though, she dispelled such thoughts; there was a time and a place, and now certainly was not it. Now, she needed to figure out a way out of here, for both of them.
Watching the smaller woman place Emily into a chair with great difficulty, her heart skipped a beat as she saw the brunette's eyes flicker open momentarily and strong hands grasp air, trying in vain to defend herself. Emily never would give up without a fight and she loved her for that. But the surprisingly strong fist that met with Emily's face as she struggled feebly to break free, knocking her out cold once again, reminded JJ just how much she did love her.
She tried desperately to contain herself, knowing that she was much better off not giving this woman the satisfaction of knowing what emotional pain she was causing her, but she knew that she was failing. Yes, she was angry at Emily, for reasons that she couldn't quite place in that moment, but more than that, she was terrified. It didn't matter that her own life was in danger and her one lifeline was now unconscious, because the woman she loved was so helpless, powerless, and she couldn't do a damn thing about it.
Moments later, with Emily not going anywhere any time soon, the small woman returned to her spot in front of JJ, taking up the same position that she had before. "Don't worry. She'll be awake soon enough, but right now I'm not done with you."
The brunette woman accentuated her final word with a point of the blade that she'd suddenly acquired in JJ's direction, but something in her grey eyes left JJ wondering if she really was in danger, or if her captor was simply searching.. searching for answer or some semblance of understanding. However, when she looked a little closer, she saw something new in the smaller woman's eyes and it chilled JJ to the core. It was almost as though she had lost the fearful uncertainty that was present just minutes before and had found a new sense of determination; determination that told JJ that this woman was set on more than destroying them physically; she was going to make them hurt, just as she had all of these years.
"She was quiet afterwards." Looking up, she saw the confusion in JJ's eyes and continued with a smile. "Oh, sorry. Let me clarify. She was quiet afterwards – after we'd spent the whole night fucking. After I'd spent the whole night inside of your girl over there."
JJ didn't like the way that she emphasized 'your', and she hated the pang of jealousy that shot through her as she pictured the two of them together.
Unfortunately this jealousy hadn't gone unnoticed by Sarah, and instead it simply egged her on. Walking over to JJ, the woman then leveled herself with blue eyes. "Me and you aren't much different, Jennifer. She played us both. How long until she told you that she loved you?"
The small woman waited for a response that she didn't receive, before rising back into a standing position and continuing. "It was a couple of months for me. She came to tell me one evening that she couldn't do it anymore, and before she left my house that night she uttered those three words."
JJ seemed lost in her own mind at this point. It stung to know that, and thinking back over her own situation with the brunette, she now had questions for questions and a suddenly genuine uncertainty for Emily's motives. It almost made her jump as the woman ripped the tape from her mouth and her words filled the air once more.
"Did she ever stay much past the fuck?"
No.. JJ's mind answered for her whilst she still tried in vain to remain nonchalant.
Sarah smiled whilst focusing her attention on the blade in her hand and asked something that would, unknowingly, give the blonde a sudden strength that she didn't know that she had. "Did it take long for you to fall for that Emily Prentiss charm?"
"What makes you so sure that I genuinely love her? What makes you think that she's the "player" in all of this?" Sarah's attention snapped to JJ and the confusion in her eyes was blatant. JJ felt strangely emboldened. She wasn't sure where this had come from, but realising that this was her only chance, she continued. "In fact, it was just two days ago that I had my mouth wrapped around my ex's cock." She'd never said such a crude thing in her life except probably during sex, but it was the only way to turn this situation around and give the impression that she really did not give a crap about Emily. "So what makes you think that I really care what happens to her? Let's get one thing straight.. Emily is incredible. Amazing in fact." A small humourless laugh left her lips before she grew suddenly serious once again. "But at one thing, and one thing only."
The words lingered in Emily ears, the way that music does to a coma patient..
The smaller woman raised an eyebrow as if asking a question, and JJ let out a further humourless laugh before responding to the silent query. "Oh you know what I mean. You've felt her fingers inside you, her lips on you, her tongue working it's magic at that perfect spot.. She wanted to give all of this up, but I couldn't let that happen. She's one pretty great fuck is our Emily. Honestly, some of the things she does.. Wow.." The words made JJ's heart hurt, but she pushed on. "I'm beginning to wonder if those skilled fingers of hers are really worth all this trouble, though."
She might have been only semi-conscious, but the pain that those final words sent through Emily was far worse than the pain she currently felt crushing through her skull.
JJ fought the urge to quickly take it all back. She knew that Emily was out cold and would never know any of what she had said anyway, but it literally hurt her to say them. That was, until, she questioned their sincerity. Did she want anything with Emily after all of this?
But before she contemplate that little question any further, she was startled from her thoughts by a groan coming from the other woman in the room and the last ditch efforts that she'd just made in attempting to outsmart Sarah failed. She yelled frantically upon seeing Emily suddenly burst to life before she felt tape pressed against her mouth once more, silencing her pleas.
She fought back tears as she heard Emily say her name and the clear venom that the two brunette's exchanged for one another, because all she could do was watch in hope, helpless and useless, as she wondered what lay in store for the brunette, for her, for them.
