Chapter Forty;

Sirius wasn't sure when he drifted off – but when he woke up, he looked down and saw two black eyes staring. "Morning" Sirius said, giving Severus a lopsided grin.

"Morning." Severus replied as he continued to stare.

Sirius quirked his eyebrow. "Is… something on your mind?" Sirius asked. Severus opened his mouth to speak, but then he closed it quickly. "If you have something to say, love, I want to hear it." Sirius said as he pushed off the bed and stretched his arms and legs as he stood.

"Where're you going…?" Severus asked, frowning.

Sirius stopped in mid-step and turned to look at him. "To the bathroom?" He said, raising his eyebrow at Severus – who was now avoiding his gaze by staring at his hands in his lap, wearing a worried expression.

Sirius sighed and walked into the bathroom to do his morning routine, and after he emerged, Severus hadn't moved at all. Sirius frowned and crawled onto the bed, pushing Severus to lie back and hovering over his body and kissing his neck. "What's wrong, love?" He asked, nipping at Severus' neck.

Severus held the back of his head and shook his head. "Nothing…"

Sirius huffed and pushed up to stare Severus in the face. "Do you trust me?"

"Yes…" Severus said, frowning.

"Do you love me?" Sirius asked, smiling.

Severus sighed. "Of course…"

"Drop your shields and let me into your mind" Sirius ordered.

Severus' eyes widened. "What? Wh-"

"Shh. You said you trust me, just do this for me, okay?" Sirius whispered, pushing his lips to Severus' for a chaste kiss. "Please" He murmured against his lips.

Severus was quiet for a moment, biting the inside of his cheek. "Okay…"

Sirius quickly grabbed his wand from the bedside table and pointed it at Severus' face. "Legilimens" He spoke clearly, blinking as he was sucked into darkness. He felt what Severus felt, he could read his thoughts. Many things ran past as he was inside Severus' mind. He pulled out and pulled off Severus, sitting on the side of the bed. "That's how you feel… what you think?" He whispered, a bit concerned and disappointed. "You think…" He trailed off, looking at Severus out of the corner of his eye – whom had pulled the blanket to cover his naked body and turned away on his side.

"Let me see if I got this right, you're insecure – you thought after you let me…" Sirius paused to clench his fists. "After you let me fuck you, you thought I would leave, and then run off and have a good laugh at Snivellus?" He asked, turning to look at Severus, whose back was still turned to him. "Which is why you made me wait so long, right?" He asked, quirking his eyebrow. "You're also scared that you did horrible for your first time – and you're scared that maybe I might get bored with you like I did with others when I was a teenager." He explained, glaring at Severus' back.

Sirius huffed and ran a hand down his face. "I'm tired. I didn't get enough sleep…" He complained, climbing back in bed and lying back, staring at Severus. "Love?"

"What…?"

"I love you" Sirius murmured, leaning over and placing a kiss to the back of Severus' neck.

"Oh…"

Sirius rolled his eyes and pulled Severus to turn on his back and then moved him to lay his head on Sirius' chest. "Oh?"

Severus scooted up to rest his head on Sirius' shoulder. "'M, love you too."

Sirius grinned and hooked his arm around Severus' shoulders, kissing his forehead. "Just so you know – I've never said I love you to anyone. You're the only one, and last night was amazing. I would never leave afterwards, I've grown up, whether you want to acknowledge that or not. You were also one of the best I've ever had, so don't even think you're not that good at sex, and I'm not just saying that." Sirius murmured, smiling against Severus' forehead.

Severus turned red. "Oh."

"I also could never get bored – because… well, who could get bored with you? Your mood swings of love and hate keep me entertained" Sirius said, smirking.

Severus nudged his side. "Shut up, Siri."

"Siri? Oh, a nickname. How cute, just like how I call you Sev, 'eh?" Sirius asked, grinning.

"Shut up" Severus said, yawning and nuzzling his face into Sirius' neck and hair and closing his eyes.

"Tired?"

Severus nodded. "Yes…"

"I see." Sirius said as he turned his gaze up to the ceiling.

It was quiet for a few minutes, Sirius listening to the shallow breathing of Severus as he drifted off. He smirked and leaned his head back up and placed a kiss to the top of Severus' head before lying back down and closing his eyes to once again drift off.