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So did you guys like the last chapter? Pretty interesting right. Well I hope that you all are enjoying it so far.

well without further ado her is what you have been asking for.

Chapter 9.

After my agonizing night with Randy and Danielle I felt out of myself. Like I was living in a whole different world at least. The only person that I would talk to would either be my patients, patients parents or Karev. Everyone else I didn't care about. Ok, so that's not true. I cared about two other people but I would not subject them to the hate that I was trying to face.

It had been two weeks and I seemed to have cut everyone out of my life. Some had recognized the change in myself, while other's didn't think anything of it. I was doing the job I loved, that seemed to be the only time that I was truley happy. The only time that I wouldn't fear for my life.

Mark somehow had managed to occupy Callie for me. That was a blessing in disguise. Mark on the other hand had made it a point to follow me around every chance that he was able to. I was becoming annoying. I needed to get away from him and everyone at the moment. A moment to clear my head. So I went to the only place I could think of.

THE ROOF.

I opened the door for the roof when the rush of the cool fall wind hit my face. the sun was just setting casting an array of color over Seattle. It was a breath taking view. Never had I seen something so peaceful and calming as I was at this minute. Lights were starting to adorn some of the buildings surrounding the city, and I couldn't help but to wonder what other peole were doing. Were they some big executive that had more money than they could count? Then my gaze went to the cars that were lining the streets. I wondered if these people were going home to loved one, their families or if they were heading to work. This was truley easying my mind.

I was so caught up in my thoughts that I hadn't relized I was crying. Why was I crying? Was it because I envied everyone around me? Was it because the love of my life thinks that I hate her? Was it because the so called 'Man-Whore' who I have come to think as my other brother was able to touch or to even hold my love? All of these questions were running through my head at a fast pace. Not stopping. Each one taking my breath away little bit more each time.

All of my sudden thoughts were halted with a simple statement that I said aloud.

"I deserve it all" I bowed my head coming to the agreement. I deserved everything that I got out of life. Granted it would not be the best life for anyone, but I deserved everything that I was dealt. Whether it be death at this point or not. I have become one of the biggest dissapointments to everyone. I was a a fluke. A sick joke. even to myself.

"No, you dont deserve it." a voice sounded behind me. A very calm voice that held one thing that I hated beyond everything. Sympathy.

"Go away. Please just leave me alone." No, I can't do this. Not now not ever.

"I'm not going anywhere Arizona. I am here for you, rather you like it or not. So deal with it." Ok, im starting to get pissed. Why won't he get it through his head.

"Mark, I need you and Callie both to stay away from me please. this isn't just for me. It's for the best and for both of you. Can't you just for once listen to me?" I asked.

"No, I will not listen to you cause right now, right this second, you are not making any sense. You say you love her, but yet you leave her broken with her wounds that are so deep that even I can't stitch them up? All we wanna know, both of us is why? Why won't you talk to us?" He was still talking in a calm voice which I think pissed me off even more. If only he knew everything that Randy had threatened me with. With the two people that ment the world to me. With my own life, and so much more.

"It's for your own good. Just leave it at that." I started to walk off the roof when Mark grabbed my arm. I wasn't thinking. It was an automatic reaction. I feel to the ground in a fetal position, covering my head with my hands, like I was awiting an attack once more.

"Please don't I will b\do whatever you want, please." I kept repeating over and over again. I chanced a look at Mark, embarassment qashed over me. the look on Marks face, I'm not even sure how to discribe it. It was sort of a horrified look as well as ashament.

He crouched down beside me, I was crying even harder than before. He touched my shoulder trying to calm me down and I flinched. Never have I ever flinched when Mark touched me. Not until now at least.

"It's ok Arizona, I'm not going to hurt you, I promise. Please lets go inside. It's getting cold outside. I don't want you to get sick." I slowley unraveled myself from my position and with his help got up. Hissing in pain at the whole movement of getting up as well as from his hands hitting a praticularly sore spot on my shoulder. He didn't say anything. Just lead me back inside. We went to an abandoned hallway and into a exam room.

"Arizona, let me see. I promise to be gentle and not hurt you. I would never hurt you. Let me make sure you are ok." Mark asked. The look in his eyes were as if he were begging, with also the hint that he didn't want to know.

"K" was all I said. He slowly lifted my shirt over my head, i looked at the floor feeling quit exposed at sitting here without a shirt in front of him. I felt something wethit my hand. I looked up and saw that Mark was crying.

"Zona, what did she do to you?" Lost for words, cause if her knew just what happened im pretty sure that he would lose his lunch and a lot more. I bowed my head once more.

"I'm just going to inspect you to see if thier are any broken bones ok."

"You don't have to. I have two ribs on the right and three on the left that are broke. My wrist is sprained. Other than that I'm fine." I whispered. He didn't listen as usual and unwrapped the bandage wrap that was around my waist. It fell to the ground.

After It was removed Mark rushed to the waste bin in the corner and did as I thought her would, emptied his stomach.

"We need to get you out of there." Mark said I started to panic.

"No! I can't leave. Please don't. Please I can't. Please. Please." I started to hyperventilate. No this isn't going to happen. Not here not now.

"Arizona, calm down. Breath. Just breath with me. Long slow breaths." He held onto me so I would mimick his breathing pattern. I found it relaxing which helped my regain my breathing.

"You need to get out of thier. I can't stand to see you like this. your body looks as if Picasso decided he didn't like the canvas anymore. Zona, your smarter than this. why are you staying with her." He asked

"She threatened to kill her. I can't Mark. No, I can't. Please don't make me. I'll do anyhing you want!" I backed away from him when he said I needed out again.

"Kill who?" then as if it dawned on him, his face went pale as a ghost. "She knows then? Thay your in love with her?"

"Yes"

"Zona."

"No, I have to protect her as well as you." I grabbed my shirt and put it back on, with a little difficulty.

"Do not, I repeat DO NOT tell anyone anything Mark. This isn't just about Callie and I, it's about you too." then I turned and walked out.

I went home shortly after that. Too drained to deal with much of anything else. But my night was other that relaxing.

Randy came home shorlty after five.

'I was told you left work early, is that correct?" randy asked. I thought that just by her tone of her voice that she sounded like she was ginuinly wandering why.

"Yes ma'am"

"Why?"

"I wasn't feeling well ma'am"

*Smack*

"How about now?" Not tonight please not tonight.

"Much better now ma'am"

Since I came back home randy made it a point that I would thank her for any abuse she bestowed apoun me.

"Good, cause I am By far done with you"

*Smack* *Smack* *Smack*

*TBC

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