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Chapter 2
I Jumped gasping when banging on my hotel door woke me. I sighed sitting up answering
"Hello Mr Stilinski sorry to wake you but you have a call at the front desk from a Lydia?" I nodded "We tried to patch her through but we think there is something wrong with you're room phone
"It's okay i'll just put a shirt on and come answer it. Thank You" The young woman smiled leaving.
I turned back to my hotel room finding the shirt i wore yesterday and putting it on.
As i was walking to the front desk i realized how long it had been since i had heard from Lydia. It's been almost 6 weeks. I last spoke to her the day i got on the plane to New Zealand. I had been to 6 different country's since... How did she know i was here?
I walked into the office and the young woman handed me the phone
"Lydia?"
"Stiles thank good you need to come home?" I could hear the panic in her voice
"Why what happened is Derek okay? My Dad? Kira?"
"Derek got into a fight with another Alpha its bad Stiles he's not healing as he should Deaton can't do anything for him" i felt my body tense up and fail i slipped down the desk landing on the floor "Stiles did you hear me? You need to come home he needs you if not for him for you to at least say good bye?" I choked on of sob stuck in my throat "Stiles say something?"
"I'm coming" I jumped up pushing my body into gear giving the phone back to the lady at the desk "I'm checking out i'll be back in 10 minutes to give you the keys can you put everything through so i just have to sign the papers and leave?"
"Of Course Mr Stilinski right away" I ran back to the room packing my bags grabbing everything that i had brought and throw it into my jeep i had been back in the states for 24 hours i had finished my trip and stopped into the hotel on my way back home to rest after my long flight.
I ran to the front desk handing my keys to the front desk
"Sign here and you're free to go" I handed her the key and ran back to my jeep pushing it to the limit as i drove home it took me what would have been a 3 hour drive 1 hour and 20 minutes. Dad would kill me if he found out i broke all the traffic laws to get here.
I drove past the welcome to Beacon Hills sign and cringed remembering the last time i was there the pain that i was in i pulled into the Hale driveway and seen Issac sitting on the rock head in hands. His head shot up when i stopped next to him
"Mum?" I opened the passenger door inviting him in he jumped in and looked at me "You're back"
"I was always coming back" I drove up and parked behind the 4 cars in the drive way i knew Derek's, Lydia's and Scott's i didn't know who the 4th on was.
I took a deep breath and got out of the car moving towards the front door before could make it up the second step Cora swung the door open making me stop.
"Hi Co-" I cringed as she slapped me across the face my head snapped to the right
"What the hell are you doing he-" She stopped looking behind her at the door I frowned confused
"Derek's calling for you" Issac whispered behind me
I quickly side stepped Cora running into the house
"He's in the lounge room" Issac called
I quickly moved into the room seeing him lying on a mattress in the ground
"Derek" I choked
"HI Stiles" He cringed moving his head slightly to look at me "Come here" i moved to Neal down next to the bed
"Hi my Sourwolf" i felt the tears start to roll down my face "You're and idiot you know that. Why weren't you more careful?"
"He hasn't been careful since you left Stile's he takes risks not caring what the damage is, you left him and he had nothing to live for" Cora started to yell at me
I could hear Derek trying to speak
"And you think it was easy for me"
"YOU LEFT TO TRAVEL"
"I left to work to give him space because i wanted him to figure out without me around if he still wanted me if the mate bond was still there he stopped caring he stopped being there. I just wanted him to be there"
"He wanted you to be here for him fat lot of good that did him it's pretty much killed you have killed" I growled lifting my hands using my powers to slam the door in her face and surrounded the doors and windows with Wolvesbane
"What did you do? How did you do it?" He gasped out but before i could answer him he passes out
"Deaton" I grabbed my cell calling him i could hear the phone ring in the other room he answered quickly "Can you come in here please"
"Of Course" I few seconds later he stepped through the door i could see everyone's shocked face but ignored them
"The healing spell you sent me if i use it on Derek will he heal will he live?"
"Of course it should theoretically heal everything and he would make a full recovery but Mr Stilinski you're heart is not strong enough for you both" I felt the tears roll down my face harder
"I don't care if he dies i die and i can't live with out him there's no me with out him. I have to try will you help me?"
"I don't recommend this Stiles"
"I don't care either help or get out either way i'm going to try and save his life" He nodded moving to the other side of Derek
"Put you're hands over his heart gently" I slowly did "Now close your eyes and think of him think of all the good times think of him healed and strong and happy wish and want for those Stiles wish and want. Tell him how you feel put all your love into" I nodded Closing my eyes remembering the first night we told each other we loved each other the first night we made love where we shared our deepest darkest secrets.
I love you Derek Sourwolf Hale i love you and if you love me you will fight, fight with me Derek come back to me remind me why i fell in love with you in the first place
Because you are strong and a fighter and you care even though you don't show it. I love that you were there for me after i started to have panic attacks again or that you would drive 3 hours just to be with me after I've called you in a freak out." i started to hum along to a song in my head
There's a devil in your smile, it's chasing me
And every time I turn around it's only gaining speed
There's a moment when you finally realize
There's no way you can change the rolling tide
But I know, yes I know, that I'll be fine
This time I'm ready to run
Escape from the city and follow the sun
'Cause I wanna be yours, don't you wanna be mine?
I don't wanna get lost in the dark of the night
This time I'm ready to run
Wherever you are is the place I belong
'Cause I wanna be free, and I wanna be young
I will never look back now I'm ready to run
I'm ready to run
"Please heal" I felt the energy drain from my body "If i don't make it tell him that i love him and that my life was better because of him he is my soulmate and all ways will be" Everything started to go black
"Stiles you have to stop it's killing you"
"He's not healed ye-" Before i could say anything else i lost everything my strength my power everything went black
Am I dead?
I slowly opened my eyes seeing Derek sitting next to me in what looks to be our bedroom
"We died didn't we were in heaven right now aren't we. Damn it i was hoping it would work and you would be saved. I'm so sorry for leaving if i knew this was going to happen i would have never left i love you Derek please forgive me i miss you i need you"
"Stiles shut up for a second" I closed my mouth glaring at him for snapping at me "Were not dead you didn't die neither did I but you're going to wish i was dead once i'm finished yelling at you" I smiled hearing the love in his voice
"I love you" I whispered sitting up
"Don't ever think about sacrificing your life for mine again my life is not worth living if you're not here with me. Deaton told me about your gift do';t ever do it again"
"Don't jump into fights you know you're not going to make it out of" I snapped back at him
"I heard what you said to me when you were doing that healing thing" i slowly sat u.
That was a bad idea everything started to blur and black. I passed out again
The next time i opened my eyes the room was black i felt the urge to pee
I moved extra slow this time so not to pass out and moved towards the bedroom door as i reached to open it the door swung open just missing my face.
"Shit" I yelled "You had to have known i was there" I didn't even know who it was until i seen the red eyes "Derek"
"You need to go back to bed Deaton said you need to rest for a few days"
"I need to pee and i'm not going to rest till we talk because there was a reason for me leaving in the first place and i need to know" I pushed past him and went to relive myself.
I looked in the mirror seeing how pale i looked i could see my cheeks bones. I really gave him everything i had. Does it matter though
'Come one Stiles just go out there and get it over with if he doesn't want to be with you anymore you can figure it out'
I stepped out of the bathroom seeing him sitting across the hall watching me
"I never wanted you to leave i never wanted you to think that i didn't want you anymore because i do want you i love you Stiles i've loved you since the moment you sat in the front of your dads car telling me you weren't afraid of me... but maybe a little. Everything in me wanted to laugh for the first time in i don't know how long Laura was the only one that could ever make me laugh. I knew instantly you were my Mate and i know that for those months since you got back from College i had been just leaving because i got use to just having someone here at home"
"That's what it felt like it just felt like you enjoined the convenience of someone here when you drifted into town"
"I know and it wasn't because i didn't love you anymore it was because while you were at College i learnt how to push my want for you aside because i didn't want you to see how much it hurt for me not having you around because i wanted you to go of and make new friends and study and it's what i still did when you came home it was easier to push aside it still hurt it felt like someone was sitting on my chest and i couldn't breath but i got use to which is why my trips became longer and i didn't stay here for long."
"Did you know you stopped kissing me stopped telling me you love me. Calling stopped if i would call you would never answer you just stopped, it may have made you feel better but it didn't make feel better." I against the door behind me and slid to the ground "I want to remember how we fell in love why we fell in love. I want to know if you love me because i'm your mate and you're wolf wants me or do you love me because you want to love me." Derek open his mouth to say something but i cut him off "Don't answer that right now i want you to think about it really think about it then tell me"
"But Stiles"
"No i'm asking this of you Derek please"
"Okay"
"I'm going to stay at my dads for a few days come to me when you need to"
"Stiles you can't drive home you just got so tried talking to to me you had to sit down"
"I know someone from the pack still here... Issac" 4 seconds later he came running up the stairs "Can you take me home please you can borrow my Jeep to get back"
"No i'll follow you home and i'll bring Issac back"
"i can walk" i rolled my eyes growling at them both "How about Derek you stay here and Issac can just bring my jeep back when i'm feeling better"
"Sounds good to me" Issac said smiling at me
I heard the slight growl from Derek
"Stop" I half yelled "He's taking me home don't try and Alpha him i asked him to because i want him to so stop" I turned away from Derek walking towards Issac "Can you help me down the stairs i don't know if i'll have the strength to make it all the way without falling"
"I've got him" Derek jumped up lifting me bridal style and carrying me down stairs to the car i wanted to protest but i knew it was pointless
"I could have walked it may have taken a little longer but i would have been fine"
"I know it's just the longer you are here the more i don't want you to leave and i don't want to force you to stay" i sighed wiping away the tears beginning to roll down my cheek screw you gravity
2 Nights Later
"Okay Stile's Melissa and i are leaving are you sure you're going to be okay"
"Yeah dad i'm fine plus Erica, Boyd and Issac are coming over a little later""
"Okay Son if you need anything call us okay don't strain your self or anything"
"I won't be careful in the rain" I smiled as Melissa and Dad walked out the door. I'm so glad they finally figured out they where meant to be now.
I turned back to the tv flicking through the Channel i smiled when it came to Arrow. I smiled when i seen it was my favorite/hated episode 4x09. Oliver getting down to propose and Felicity getting shot
"Damn you Oliver Queen" I yelled at the screen "You couldn't have pushed her lower to the ground she was still on the freaking chairs" I jumped when there was a knock on the door "Crap you can come in guys" I said normally knowing they would hear me.
I frowned when i didn't hear the door open "What the hell" I stood up walking to the door throwing it open
I gasped seeing Derek standing there drenched from head to toe from the rain
"Derek?" I stepped out the door slightly to see if his car was there but it wasn't "How did you get here?"
"Walked" I stepped back letting him
"i'll grab you a towel" I slowly moved to the laundry room grabbing a few of the towels that where in the dryer.
I came back out passing them to him
"Why did you walk here did you're car brake down"
"No" i sighed one word answers
"Are you okay?"
"No" I sighed when he hadn't even started to dry himself
I grabbed the towels out of his hands and started to dry his face and head throwing one of the towels to the ground grabbing his leather jacket and pulling it off "Go have a shower i'll put you're clothes in the dryer and grab you some dry clothes"
"No"
"What? Derek you have to speak in more then one word sentences"
"I said no. I'll shower when we talk"
"Okay then what do you want?"
"You" He moved forward grabbing my face and pulling me forward crashing his lips against mine
His hands were in my hair, his scent was all around me, his lips were rough against mine, and they burned, melting me until I wasn't sure who I was anymore, until I wasn't sure of anything. My hands seized his face, pulling him closer to me.
His kiss was so familiar, yet it never failed to melt me. I could never assemble a coherent thought when he was kissing me; all I could think of, all I registered, were his lips moving with mine, and the sound of my heart in my ears, beating so fast I was surprised it didn't break down.
I didn't want to pull away I was lost in his kiss, lost in his scent, and I wanted to stay lost forever. Somehow. My fingers ended up tugging on the ends of his hair, wanting to keep him there,
My heart stuttered and jumped when he suddenly deepened the kiss, surprising me. It didn't seem like he wanted to pull away either. His hands left my hair and ran over my shoulders, down my sides, somehow burning me and making me shiver at the same time. My mind was in a complete whirlwind, and I was quickly losing all sense of myself. And I was beginning to feel very, very hot
My hands left his hair and clutched onto his shoulders, trying to use them as a means to pull myself even closer to him. My hands started to slide down his chest, and I let them. His chest was solid under my fingers, his muscles tensing in response. I put my hands under his shirt I loved to stare at his bare chest, but touching it was oh so much better. He made a growling noise, low in his throat, that made my heart beat painfully fast. I felt his hands wrap around my waist tightly, and so quickly I wasn't sure how it happened, I was wrapping my legs around his waist. I almost fainted. His lips were rougher, more fervent against mine, and his hands ran up my spine and back down again, setting my skin on fire. My mind was clouded; I couldn't think, I could barely breathe, I thought my heart was going to explode… but then he stopped putting me down and pulling away.
I hunched over with my hands on my knees taking deep breaths in
"Wow" i whispered he had never kissed me like that before "What was that?"
"Me showing you my love i was giving you everything i had in the kiss because i wanted to you to feel how i feel every time you kiss me every time you touch me. I want you and only you, you are my mate Stiles and i'm sorry that i was pulling away in the last few years i didn't want i just felt it was easier and i was wrong because i didn't realize how much it was hurting you. I love you Stiles i need you I don't know if i can live without you anymore it's more painful then anything else that I've ever been through" My heart melted Damn you Derek Hale
"It's all i need to know i needed to know that you still need me you still want me to be your partner in crime"
"I want you so bad i need you as my partner in crime" I smiled jumping up wrapping my arms and legs around him "Take me home and show me how much you love me"
"I would love to but i didn't bring my car."
"My dad's not going to be home for at least a few hours" Derek started moving heading to my old room
A few hours later
" That was." I couldn't even come up with words
"Marry me" Derek blurted out before i could say anything else he moved letting go reaching his jeans and pulling out a white velvet box "From the moment i met you i knew i wanted to spend the rest of my life with you and at first i didn't know you were my mate because i didn't know anything about it until i read on of my mums books and she explained it and everything she said and write down was you but that didn't matter because i already had love you before I knew any of that. Sometimes i love and hate you sometimes i wish i could rip your throat out-"
"With you're teeth" I whispered
"With my teeth. You where there for me when i decided to re build the house and the first day i set foot in it once it was finished. When i'm driving places and those stupid one direction songs come on the radio my head tells me turn them off but my heart tells me no because they remind me of you or when i see parents with there kids I know that's it's you i want to have babies with to see little you or me's running around the house. I want to come home from work and see you my husband playing around with our children. I want to Marry you Stiles i want you to be my husband. So this is me asking you. Will you marry me?"
"Hell yes!"
And that is the end lol i know it took me a lot longer then i thought it would but I've had this insane headache for the last few days plus i start back at work tomorrow and it's slightly freaking me out haha. But i wanted to thank every one that has reviewed or bookmarked or down Kudos it means so much to me I've missed this so thank you all