AN: Hi guys! Sorry this update is so late. I think I have finally fixed my computer! Yay right. Maybe now I can update even more. Seriously missed updating. This chapter might be a little on the dark side. Explains how this whole situation really started between Arizona and Randy. Hope you all enjoy the chapter. You never know I might be posting 2 chapters today. It all depends on how much I get into it. So please enjoy Peace, Love and Trust. Again, thank you for sticking through this with me.

Chapter 17.

Callie's POV

I could only stare as I saw the beautiful face of an angel. I had to close my eyes thinking that I was dreaming. Upon opening them again I could tell it wasn't a dream. Arizona truley was sitting here with me. Even though her eyes were puffy from crying and her features were of a paste coloring, she was still the georgeous person that I fell in love with.

I couldn't help the sob that escaped my lips. The sob that just thinking that I would never be able to see her again crossed my mind. Gently raising my hand I placed it on her cheek. The feeling of her skin on my hand was all I needed to confirm that I was not dreaming. She truley was here with me.

By this yime we both were crying our eyes out. I pulled Arizona into a hugging embrace the best that we both could manage with our injuries, Mainly, I just needed to feel her. To know that she was here. It was like my imagination kept playing games on me. Kinda lije if I blink then she will disappear. God knows that was not what I wanted in the least. I wanted to hold her till I could hold any longer. I wanted to kiss her pain and tears away, to let her know that I would forever be here for her. To let her know that I would be thier to comfort her through the good and bad times.

But, their was one thing that was truley bugging me. ok I take that back their was more than a couple of things, mainly a big list that I needed to know. I, unfortuantly had to break our little moment. i needed answers that only Arizona could answer for me. I was going to be patient knowing that this was going to be a hard subject to broach. But I needed to know.

"Why didn't you tell me Arizona?" I whispered in her ear, only to fel her pull away so fast that I could still feel the heat of her body against mine.

"I couldn't let you see the real me." What was she talking about 'see the real me?' I probably had the dumbest look on my face from trying to figure out what she just said that I blurted out with out even thinking.

"Who is the real you? Are you still the same person that helps children every single day? Are you still the person that loves to wear wheelie sneaks just to see her patients light up by the pure adorableness that it brings? Are you still my best friend that no matter what happens that can still bring a smile to my face or any other person for that matter? Do you still eat an abundace of doughnuts when you are in need of comfort? But mainly Are you still a good man in a storm?"

She grew uncomfortably quiet to the point where i thought she wasn't breathing. If it were possible it seemend that her skin color grew even paler. She looked everywhere but at me. Searching it seemed for the answers that I was looking for. Finally, I heard her take in a ragged breath.

"Callie...I'm still everything that you mentioned. Maybe not so much the last part." her beautiful eyes started to mist over. She still had a hold of my left hand and I started to feel it losen its hold, I held it tighter not wanting to lose what little comfort it brought.

"Arizona, you by far are a good man in a storm. You save children, you save little tiny humans. Hell, I bet even that dimpled smile that you got going could probably save some ones life... actually I know for a fact that it could save someones life, cause it sure as hell saved mine."

Arizona pulled away all together.

"Callie, don't. Just don't. I am the reason that you are here in this bed. You giving me compliments is not going to help that matter by making it better for me. What is it that you want to know? What happened that started this? Well lets see where should I begin?"

She was starting to get angry. LIek her face flushing and a wild look that replaced the clear blue that I fell in love with the first time that I saw them.

"I killed her son when I was an intern. I killed him and was unable to save his life. I tried my hardest. Brandon was the sweetest little boy ever. He loved the movie 'Cars' he loved trains and when he wasn't feeling good from the radiation he was on he would only let me rock him in the rocking chair that we keot in his room. His favorite song to be sung to him to calm him down was 'one sweet day'. I was their for him from the very start. Then one morning we ran scans on him to check the progress of the tumor, it grew from the size of a pea to the size of a grapefruit. We rushed him into surgery that same day. He never came out. his heart ws so weak that he just could'nt take any more. He died with my hands inside of him. I guess that was when Randy snapped. Did you know that she went to med school just so that she could get revenge for her son? Did you know that she transferred here just so that she could kill me? No, you probably didn't"

All this information was too much to take, but I didn't want her to stop. She needed to get this out. She had been holding it in for far to long. It angered me to see what all she has been through that I was never thier for.

"Did you also now that she whould whip me when she saw me talking to you? She thought that I was cheating on her with you. The very first time was when Bailey found me. You wanna see what it looks like now?"

Before I could respond she tore the back of her gown off. What I saw horrified me to belief. She had strips all over her back, even with carving like the mord 'mine' and 'cheater' etched into her. This beautiful person has gone through so much and for someone to hurt another person this bad was beyond me. Tears were streaming down my face. I was the cause for her pain for the hurt that she went through. She quickly pulled the gown back up and turned swiftly toward me.

"Did you know that she used to have me sleep with men just for her pleasure? Did yuo know that she would pay these men to use objects to rape me with? Did you Callie? Did you?"

By this point her voice was raising higher and higher. I tried to reach for her hand again more to calm her down then for my own benefit. She was not going for it. She continued to pace the small room while she retold some of the abuse she went through. my heart broke a little more each time she told me something different.

"Do you wanna know why I didn't tell you?" she stopped pacing just to look at me in the eyes. Serius look on her face that scared me.

"the reason that I didn't tell you was because she threatened to kill you and Mark. She even had a box that sat in the front room that had your name on it. You wanna know what was in the box? It was a gun with yours and Marks names on it. More than once if I didn't comply to a demand that she wanted dhe would reach into the box that had a combination that I didn't know and start to load the gun. I was to terrified to tell anyone Callie. I was to afraid that this world would lose one of the most beautiful people that I know. Was I being selfish? Maybe. But it was my selfishness that kept you and Mark alive."

She started pacing after her confession. I didn't really know how to feel at theis point except betrayed, hurt, hostile, depressed,were only just a few, but mainly pain for the fact that it happened to Arizona. I had mixed emotions about everything that I was hearing.

Suddenly their was noise outside of the room. The door flew open and Mark came busting through. I looked over to Arizona only to find that she wasn't their. Insteasd she laid on the floor in the fetal position murmoring "Please, don't hurt me! Please, I'll do anything that you want. Please, don't hurt me" over and over again.

i looked over at Mark and he looked down at Arizona. Carefully walking over to her as not to startle her he bent down and laid a comforting hand on her back, only for her to flinch away. I was able to find my voice.

"Arizona, sweetie, it's ok. It's just Mark." She looked up very slowly and saw that it was infact Mark. The look in her eyes broke my heart to pieces. It was the look of a scared little kid, afraid that her parents were their to punish her. She looked so small, so fragile. Iknew from that second I wanted her with me always. Forever.

"Mark, bring her here please" I whispered. Mark looked up at me and nodded his head as if understanding what I wanted. Very easily he lifted Arizona into his arms and laid her on the bed next to me. She rolled over and clung herself to me crying.

Mark stayed in the room for a little bit. Before he left I asked him what it was that he needed. His look of concern went to immediate rage. It was a look I have never seen before.

"Arizona...Arizona is..."