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Chapter 19

Addison's POV

"Addison" was all I said till I hugged her to me for dear life.

In all the time that I have known Arizona, have I ever seen her this broken. This was not the same Arizona that I have come to trust and to love. Granted I don't exactly know her like Mark and Callie do, but I saw the reason they do a long time ago. She is one of the sweetest and kindest people that you will ever meet.

If you needed anything, Arizona made sure that she was able to find it for you. If you needed a shirt she would give you the one straight off your back, that was for sure.

The thing that gets me is why this had to happen to her. She did not deserve to have this type of life, the one that she was living for so long. She didn;t deserve the hurt that she has suffered already and know she has something esle to worry about. Something that did not come from love. Whatever her decision I will stand behind her one hundred percent.

"It's ok sweetie, no ones going to hurt you again do you hear me? I will make sure of that." She still had a death grip on me afraid that I was going to leave her alone.

Her whole personna was diferent as well. She didn't speak like she used to. she was more quiet and reseved. Maybe for the fact that if she would say something she would be hurt from the words that she spoke. Her features haunted me she was way too thin, her cheeks were sunken in making her dimples nearly disappear from sight. She was pale, kinda like the sickly pale that comes with staying up for a week straight with vomiting. This definitely was not Arizona, per se.

"I'm sorry, Addison. I didn't mean to fall apart on you like that." she mumbled. I think if it were not for me being so close I would not have heard what she said.

"Oh honey, you have nothing to apologise for. I am so glad that you are here and that you are ok. You will get through this. I will be their if you need me at anytime. Even just to talk ok? I know that right now is a crap time but you are strong and hell even to stubborn to let this get you down for too long." That earned a chuckle out of her. Just hearing it brought a smile to my face, cause hearing it I know that she would be just fine with time.

"I have to ask, can you tell me what happened that way I know how to do about you examination. So I won' t hurt you anymore than you are?" she nodded her head. I sat on the edge of the bed while she still clung to me.

To be honest I didn't want to let her go. It didn't seem real for me but once i looked into her shallow eyes that use to be so bright and happy, i knew that it would be real. She never tried to pull away. She seemed as if she were comfortable to be held. Maybe she was never really shown affection at all.

"Randy and I had a fight and somehow I must have passed out from her pushing me or me hitting my head, i don't know though. When I woke up I couldn't see anything. I was blindfolded. I could tell that I was naked though. I was couldn't move my arms or legs. She had tied me to the bed using zip ties. This wasn't the first time she had done it though, so I tried to relax as much as I could. I kept thinking to myself. if it's anything like last time, I can handle it." She took in a shakey breath and was quiet for a moment.

She was gathering her thoughts. She shifted a little in my lap burying her head in the crookof my neck. I could feel the tears before i heard the sob. I slowly rubbed my hand over her back only to t\feel it tense under my hand. I kept rubbing till I felt her start to relax. By her hugging me as she were, she was sitting on my lap, slowly she started to talk once more.

"I felt it before I heard what was going on. I felt rough hands running up between my thighs. I knew for a fact that this was not a womans hand. I got use to Randy doing things to me that I never paid much attention to her until she released me the next morning, but this was different. This was different. I tried closing myself off to try and get him off of me. He just laughed and started hitting me. Trying to get me to open myself for him. He started to get pissed, like really pissed. He took off his belt and started hitting me with it on my thighs or stomach. He hit me one last time on the top of my vigina. I tried to get away I promise I did. But when he hit me I accidently opened my legs and that was all he needed. I have never been with a man before and he took that away from me. It hurt so bad Addison, It went on for hours. There were three guys that I know of for sure. If I wouldn't do something one of the other's would hit me or poke at me till i did what the wanted. I know Randy was their cause each time they hit me I could hear her laughing in the back ground. I was humiliated."

By this time she was crying so hard that I had to try and calm her down. I was sort of relieved that she quit for a brak. The story she was telling was making me sick to my stomach. The visual that I got in my head of the torture she went through was more than I could bare. I had one more quick question for her.

"Was that the only time it happened?" She shook her head no. That made me appaled only further.

"Not their were four other times that this happened. The other times they used things. They used canes to beat me with and objects to rape me with. I know cause they told me one that they used a boken table leg." What? I was starting to get enraged with this information.

"randy was always there. Laughing and telling them, give it to the bitch, the guys would just laugh and be even more rough."

"How far along are you?" I asked

"I don't know." She whispered.

"Come on, lets take a look." She nodded her head and untangled from me. I stood up so she could lay on her back on the table.

"I'm gonna do a vaginal examination ok?" She didn't speak again. just kept nodding when I asked her something.

She had alot of damage done to her inner walls. Cuts that should not be their as well as alot of tearing. I gently rubbed ointment on the tears and cuts. Making sure that that these wounds would heal.

"You have quite a bit of tissue damage. But within two to three months everything should he healed enough. I am going to prescribe an ointment that should help the healing process. You will need help applying this 3 times a day. Is their a certain person that you trust that would do this for you? How bout Bailey?" I asked thinking of a person that arizona trusts and won't go telling her buisness like everyone else.

"I don't know." Was her only reply. I made a mental note to talk to Bailey myself about Arizona's treatments.

"Ok, lets have a look shall we?" Again all I got was a nod.

I govered her legs to ensure her more of privacy. I didn't want her to feel as if she were on display once again. I gently lifted up her gown to expose her midriff. I grabbed the transducer off the cart. I placed a generous amount of jelly to her belly. What I saw shocked the HELL out of me.

"Ah...Arizona? How log ago was the first insident?" I asked.