A/N: Hey guys. How have you been? Sorry I've been gone for awhile. I was on vacation. My very first one ever! It was pretty awesome. We spent a week just camping and swimming and thats bout it. My whole family went so that was an adventure in it self lol. Anywho hope you guys can forgive me for the delay for an update. Hope you allare enjoying the chapters. I want to that all of you for the awesome reviews. They mean the world to me and your oppinon on my writing helps alot. Thanks guys.

Warning: This chapter may include thoughts of suicide and mentioning of rape.

Chapter 21.

Callie's POV

I was kinda nervous for the simple fact that Arizona hasn't said anything since Addison departed nearly ten minutes ago. She was just laying on me, not that I minded in the least little bit. I was actually greateful that she was here with me. Laying in my arms where I know she is safe. I knew something was up, but I didn't want to push her. So I sat and waited patiently.

About fifteen minutes passed and I felt Arizona tense up then ask

"If I tell you something do you promise you wont get mad?" I couldn't help the smile thatcame to my face thinking of how child like that Arizona could be. It warmed my heart, cause even though with all this despair that she was facing she was still in their. her old self.

"Never." I could never be mad at her not even if I actually did try.

She turned her head to look at me and I noticed the tears that were in her eyes. How can such a beautiful person such as Arizona be in so much pain that was caused by someone that she trusted?

She locked her sky blue eyes with mine.

"Promise?" she asked so small that I started to tear myself.

I lifted my hands to her cheek to wipe the tears that were finally cascading down her cheeks away. I looked her straight in the eyes hoping to convey the truth that I was saying through my eyes.

"Nothing you say or do will ever, I mean ever make me hate you Arizona. I am here for you even if you don't want me here. I'm not going anywhere." I continued to hold her face in my hands and stare in her eyes. Trying my damnest to give her the strength that she needs. Arizona was the one that broke eye contact.

She started to rummage around the bed. She pulled an envelope from her side and just held it in her hand.

"I had these done today. I'm not sure what to think. I've known for a week about it already and after everything that has happened, I just feel numb. It's too late to do anything about it and I don't know if I would be able to anyhow. I feel so lost and confused that I feel as if I am in a nightmare that I just can't wake up from. But, on the plus side at least im not alone in this nightmare. Your here with me and it makes this bad dream seem barable. I'm afraid I'll wake up and you will no longer be their and that this really is happening and your gone. I can't lose you Callie. You the only thing that makes since right now, and if I open my eyes from this hellish dream you would just be a figment of my imagination. I've tried to think of ways that I could do this alone, I've thought of ways that maybe if I left here for good, you all would be happier. I'm not going to lie, it's still their. Just run away from this mess and never come back. I am not the type of person to admit that I need help, but the only type of help that I need right now is just you. I need you Callie. I have never asked anyone for anything but I am not ashamed to say I need you."

I held her a little closer to my body. Life with out Arizona... I just could'nt imagine it. And to be honest, it scared the crap outta me to even think of it. I stayed quiet though knowing that she was nowhere done yet.

"Do you remember about a month and a half ago when I came to work wearing a long sleve shirt under my scrubs? Well, I tried then but I didnt get very far cause everytime I thought of taking my own life your face was all I saw. You saved my life and you didn't even know about it. You were always constantly in my head. I may have distanced myself from you, but you were always here." she places my hand on her her heart and intertwines our fingers together.

"I came home one night and I had just barley even closed the door I was nocked out. I don't know how long I was out for but when I woke up I was tied up in a basement. they gagged me. Randy was their with two guys I have never seen or meet before. I was naked hiding in a corner thinking that maybe if I made myself to where they couldn't see me they wouldn't hurt me. I had no idea that randy would be capable of the sick and demented things that she made me do. I was in that basement for three days while they tortured me and Randy to the cheif that I was sick at home with the flu. I remember both of the guys had tied me to a table that they put down their and took turns beating me and raping me. I cried and cried. Never in my life had I felt something so painful in my life. I was a virgin. I have never had sex with a male in my entire life and they took that away from me. They called me a disgusting dirty whore that diserved to get the shit kicked out of her. they would whip me with anything that they found and also raped me with the same object. They took my virginity with a leg of a table. Randy would watch these guys hit and rape me. She just stood in the cornor and watched them with a smile on her face. She never stopped them. She encouraged them to do it harder. Telling them that I liked it hard and rough. When the guys had to go to the bathroom they did it on me. They peed on me saying that they were marking their teritory. They treated me as if I were a dog. Hell, I think a dog would get better treatment than I did. Randy would sometimes get in the mix with them. Helping them hurt me. They would untie me for a little bit then come back for me. I fought with everything that I had to get away. They were to strong though. I had almost gotten away when out of nowwhere Randy punched me in the face and nocked me out. I bounced my head off the cement floor and passed out. I was only able to wake up when I noticed one of the guys taking me analey. The pain from my head and bottom was too much and I passed out again. When I woke up I was laying in my bed. I was washed and in pajamas. Randy was laying in bed next to me and I just curled myself in a ball and cried myself to sleep. That wasn't the first time that they took me their. You were my strenghth to get me out of my hell hole. Literally"

I tried to hold back my tears, but it didn't work. I was openly crying for the pain that my Arizona went through. All I could ask myself was why? Why her?

"Was hung from my wrists to endure hours of whipings across my back. But, none of that compares to the pain that I felt when I saw you in this hospital bed because of me. That was the scariest thing in my life. Thinking that I might lose you because of myself. Right now this very momnet I am oh so pissed off for the fact that she had to leave wth a parting gift. What I hold in this envelope will probably change everything. Actually, I know that it will change everything. It will change for the simple fact that I can't do anything about it right now. I can't predict or even see what you will think of me from this."

We sat in silence. i never even tried to interrupt her. She need to get this off her chest and her heart. She needed someone that she could trust and I will do whatever I can for her. I will be her rock when she needs someone to cry on. I would never leave her. Whatever is in the envelope does not matter for the simple fact that she is here and she had to go through in order to be here with me.

Her head was resting on my shoulder and after all that she has told me I wanted her to feel like she was loved for the very first time in a long while. I lifted her head to look at me. Very slowly I gave her a peck on her lips. Her lips were so sweet and soft. She needed the reassurance and I had no problem in seeing that she got what she needed and desreved.

Arizona was the one that surprised me and deepened the kiss. She took and I gave fully and open hearted. Her fingers combed through my hair making me feel grounded and not like I was on cloud nine from the amazing feelings that she was creating in me.

We pulled away slowly. She rested her forehead on to mine and was breathing hard. She opened her eyes and the twinkle in her eyes was back. It took my breath away. It was the look that I have been searching for for a long time now. The look that first drew me to her. With out thinking I said what was swimminginmy head since I meet her.

"I love you Arizona" I kissed her again and she immediatly pulled away.

" Dont say that, please don't say that." Silent tears falling

" I am absolutly inlove with you Arizona Elizabeth Robbins and I have been for a long time now." I said trying to make her look at me.

"Please don't." She kept pleading with me.

"Too late mi amor hermoso." This time it was Arizona that initiated the kiss.

A/N: And thats the end of this chapter.

mi amor hermoso means "My beautiful love". Love google translate. anyways hope you all like d this chapter. let me know. Please click the little review button and tell me what you think. Thanks again guys.