Lily cracked open an annoyed eye as she looked at the window from which the sound of tapping was coming from. She looked at the clock which read four. Who the bloody hell would be owling them at four in the morning? She nudged James who rolled over with a moan and she kicked him with her foot.

"Come on I'm sleeping." He moaned.

"Well it takes far more energy for me to get up than you." She said and he sighed before there was another more insistent tapping.

"Please get it dear." She said and he sighed as he get up.

"Only because you're carrying my unborn child." He said and staggered to the window and opened it.

"It's from Padfoot." James said as he looked at the writing on the envelope.

"Whats he want at four in the morning?" She sighed as she pulled more of the covers that James had managed to steal back over to her.

"I don't know, let me open it." He said as he got out his wand for light.

"Oh Merlin." James said as he stood up staring at the letter.

"What? What's happened?" She asked now alert as she turned over.

"Becky is at St. Mungos." He said as he dropped the letter and rushed to the jeans and shirt laying on the ground and Lily grabbed the letter and read through it.

"She did what?" She said and re-read through the letter before getting up as fast as she could.

"I knew it was a bad idea." James said with a sigh as he waited for Lily to get ready and stood around looking impatient and Lily glared at him.

"You know that is not going to make me go any faster." She said as she got on some jeans and a sweater.

"Come on." He said as she slipped on some shoes and followed him out.

Lily and James rushed down the halls until they saw Sirius sitting outside one of the rooms with his arm in a sling. He looked up as they approached and stood up.

"Where is Remus?" Lily asked looking around.

"I don't know. I went in to check on Rebecca and when I came out he was gone." He said and Lily looked at the room.

"What happened to you?" She asked as she looked at his arm.

"Well Moony told us what Rebecca was doing and I was a little edgy about it so I decided to drop by to see if everything went alright and I couldn't find her so I checked the basement and well the potion didn't work because I saw Moony trying to get at her. I so I distracted him long enough for her to get out and this is the result." He said motioning to his arm.

"Padfoot you're lucky that's all you got." James said patting him on the shoulder

"James why don't you go look for Remus? I'm going to check on Becky." She said and walked in to the room. Rebecca was lying in the bed pale as ever with a few scratches and a bandage wrapped around most of her right arm.

"Oh Becky." Lily gasped as she closed the door and walked over to the bed.

"Lily?" Rebecca croaked as she opened her eyes.

"Becky thank goodness you're alright." Lily said as she leaned over Rebecca.

"Is Remus alright?"

"Yeah he is fine. Becky what were you thinking?"

"I didn't want to hurt him. I was so sure I had locked the cage right, I guess I was just distracted. Lily he is going to blame himself for this, it wasn't his fault, I insisted on being there, I knew the dangers. I need to see him." She said as she tried to sit up.

"No you're staying here until you are better, Becky you could have been killed, do you understand that or bitten. What were you thinking?"

"Yes I understand that Lily but I love Remus, where is he?" She asked as she looked around. "Where is Sirius?" She asked.

"They're outside. Becky you are going to give me premature grey hair." Lily said as she sat down with her hand on her stomach lightly.

"Grey gives character."

"Who on earth told you that?" Lily asked humorously.

"My father." Rebecca said smiling.

"Well it different for men I suppose, grey gives character, so do wrinkles."

"I hope I don't get wrinkles." Rebecca said as she touched her face.

"It's kind of inevitable."

"No way, I am going to stay young forever by bathing in the blood of small children." Rebecca said and Lily rolled her eyes.

"Well stay away from mine."

"Hey." James said as he poked his head in and held up two mugs. "I got some tea if you want some."

"Thank you dear." She said as he walked over and handed one to Lily and held out the other to Rebecca.

"Thanks but I'm not much of a tea drinker." Rebecca said and James gave a sigh of relief.

"Good I drank a little over here." He said pointing to the side of the mug and then looked at Lily and motioned towards the door.

"I'll be back in a little bit Becky, James dear keep Becky company and make sure she doesn't leave that bed." Lily said and James watched her as she walked out before looking at Rebecca and taking a sip of his tea.

"How ya doing?" James asked as he sat down.

"I'm fine, how is Remus?"

"I don't know…" He said with a sigh. "We couldn't find him."

"What do you mean you couldn't find him?"

"We couldn't find him, he is somewhere around here but we just cant find him."

"Great." She said as she pulled herself up.

"W-what are you doing?" James asked as he stood up quickly looking to the door and back to her as she sat on the edge of the bed.

"I am going to go find him."

"I don't think that is a good idea. Lily said to keep you here."

"Yeah like that is going to happen." Rebecca scoffed and got off the bed and started for the door, holding the back of her hospital gown closed behind herself with her good hand.

"Becky I really think you should lay back down." James said and the door opened and Sirius poked his head in.

"Hey, you're supposed to be in bed." Sirius said and closed the door.

"I keep hearing people tell me where I am supposed to be, I think I will decide where I am supposed to be thank you very much, move Black."

"Please get back in bed; you haven't been cleared to leave yet." Sirius said as he continued to block the doorway.

"Hey I am a Healer and I say I am cleared." She said trying to get past him but he kept stepping in the way.

"Please move." She grumbled.

"Walcott if you try to leave this room I will have to resort to drastic measures which I would prefer to not resort to." He said as he crossed his arms over his chest and Rebecca looked back at James who had advanced on her slightly.

"If I had my wand I would kick your ass, both of yours." She said as she pointed at James and back to Sirius before making her way back to the bed and sitting down.

"Did Lily find him?" James asked Sirius.

"Yeah, they are down at the cafeteria talking." Sirius said and pulled up a chair and sat down by the door.

"I don't think its necessary to guard the door do you Black?" Rebecca asked bitterly.

"Yes I do." He said and she sighed and looked around the room which had gone silent with only the sound of James sipping on his tea.

"I'm going to get some more tea, Pads you want a cup?" James asked as he got up.

"Sure." Sirius said and let James past the door.

"Why does he get to leave?"

"Well I would think that its kind of obvious." Sirius said dryly and she scoffed rolled her eyes and turned her body away from him.

"Are you going to pout?" He teased.

"Maybe."

"Come on don't pout, its going to put wrinkles on your face."

She turned and glared at him as he smiled at her.

"Yes I can see it forming." He said as he got up and walked over to her. "Right here." He said as he used his finger to point to her forehead as he grinned.

"You're hilarious." She said sarcastically and he took James' seat next to her.

"I think so."

"I'm sure you think a lot about yourself Black."

"You know, I don't think about myself as highly as you think."

"I'm pretty sure you do." She said with a knowing smile.

"You know." He said and sighed. "I'm not like you think."

"What do I think?"

"What everyone else thinks, that I'm some spoiled rich pureblood."

"Well…" She trailed.

"I left that life behind me, long ago, I never wanted any of that and I know I'm not perfect but I'm trying not to be that person, that spoiled rich pureblood, and it is hard because that's what everyone assumes."

"Sirius-.'

"I know that's what you think of me and I can tell its going to take a lot for you to see otherwise but I've got time." He said and looked up at her. "I just hope you might be able to see me otherwise." He said and she bit her lip and laid her hand on his.

"I'm sure in time I will have deflated your ego enough to make you half as sensible as you should be." She smiled.

"I'm sure you will." He chuckled.

"Thank you." She sighed.

"What for?"

"Saving me...I probably would have died if you hadn't come, so thank you." She said and paused. "And I'm not saying it again." She said as he smiled and went to say something.

"You're welcome. Besides, who would deflate my ego if you weren't around?" He smiled and she laughed.

"Why don't you go home and get some sleep? You look exhausted."

"I kind of feel it." He said and leaned back in his seat. "Are you sure you don't want any company?"

"Yeah I'm fine."

"You're not going to try to escape will you?"

"You never know." She smirked.

"Well I will only leave if you give me your word you will stay here until the Healer signs you off."

She frowned at him and he gave her an identical frown and they looked at each other before she burst out laughing.

"Fine, I'll stay here."

"Do you promise?"

"Yes I promise, cross my heart hope to die yada yada."

"Alright if I hear otherwise-."

"What are you going to do?" She asked smartly as she raised an eyebrow and he faltered for a moment.

"I don't know right now but I will figure out something awful, got it?"

"I kind of want to leave just to see what you'll do." She chuckled and he sighed.

"Please stay in the bed, alright?"

"Fine, go home and get some sleep, I'll see you later."

"Alright, feel better." He said and got up and walked to the door.

"See you." He said before stepping out of the room

Rebecca woke to the sound of the door clicking closed and cracked open an eye and saw Remus standing at the door.

"Remus?" She said and rubbed her eyes before sitting herself up. He stayed by the door and she squinted in the darkness to see him.

"Come over here, don't hover by the door like a creeper, come here." She said and beckoned him over to her. It took a moment before he moved from the door and walked over to her slowly and she reached over and turned on the light a little to see him better and he stared at the bandages around her arm.

"Oh god…" He choked as he stopped and she covered her arm up with the blanket.

"Remus I'm fine."

"I hurt you." He said and backed up to the wall and leaned against it as he covered up his face. "I never wanted to hurt you Becky." He whimpered and she sighed and got up and walked over to him.

"No, please." He said as he winced away from her.

"Remus, look at me." She said and after a moment he pulled his hands away and looked at her.

"What happened was an accident and it was not your fault- AH! I don't want to hear it." She said and held her hand up to silence him. "I don't love you any less alright? It was my choice, I knew what I was getting myself in to, this was in no way shape or for your fault." She took his hand in her own and he pulled it away from her and took a few steps away from her.

"How can you even stand to look at me? Or be near me? I am a monster, look what I did to you."

"Remus, I don't care what you are, alright? I've told you this a million times and I don't know how many times I will have to say it. I don't care about your lycanthropy, it isn't who you are."

"Becky it is who I am, it is the only thing I am."

"It doesn't make me love you any less." She said as she walked over to him. "Werewolf or not I love you and nothing is going to change my mind so- so you might as well get used to it because I am not going anywhere." She said and stared at him. Her expression softened after a moment and she sighed as she looked at him. "Will you hold me?"

"Becky-."

"Just hold me; I want you to hold me."

She could see his internal conflict as he looked to the door for a moment before looking at her and he closed his eyes for a moment before reaching out his arms slightly and she stepped up closer to him. He slowly wrapped his arms around her, careful of her arm until his arms were completely wrapped around her.

"I love you Remus." She sighed and laid her head against his shoulder.

Rebecca stared at the pot of water she was boiling for the past five minutes. It really was true when they said that it takes longer if you stare at it. She heard the pop of an Apparation outside and she grabbed her wand off the counter. Since she had returned from the Catacombs they had set up an anti- Disappartion field around the house with the exception of one spot near the house which you would only know if shown but Rebecca always feared they would somehow find it and come back and get her. She walked to the front door and peered out the small window and sighed when she saw Lily waddling down the pathway. She pocketed her wand and waited for Lily to approach the door. As she rose her hand to knock, Rebecca flung open the door making Lily yelp and Rebecca laughed.

"Becky that's not funny." Lily said with a frown.

"Sorry Lil couldn't help it. Come on in."

"Are you sure it's not too late?"

"Yes I'm sure."

"Is Remus here?" Lily asked as she walked inside.

"No."

"Where is he?" Lily asked curiously and Rebecca closed the door behind her.

"I don't know, he wasn't here when I got home this afternoon, he just left a note saying he would be home later so I actually have no idea where he is."

"Oh, that doesn't sound like him."

"I know but what can you do about it? Want some tea or something; I was heating up a pot of water.

"Yes tea would be lovely; do you still have that tea we got a few weeks ago?"

"Yes as if I would ever drink it."

"You said it smelled nice."

"Yes it smelled nice but it taste awful. I keep it just for you."

"Oh, well thanks."

"No problem. I'll meet you in the living room."

"Alright." Lily said and walked in to the living room as Rebecca got the mugs ready and walked to the living room.

"Here ya go." She said and handed the mug to Lily.

"So how are you?"

"I'm alright I suppose."

"Are things still not better with Remus?"

"No. I just feel like he doesn't want to be around me any more."

"Have you talked to him about this?"

"Yes and he just says he needs time with this and to give him space with it."

"I'm sorry Becky."

"I just hope he stops his self loathing some time soon, I hate when he gets like this."

"Don't worry Becky he will come around."

"Yeah I sure hope so."

"When do you come back to work?"

"Albus says maybe a few more weeks just to be safe." She said and sighed. "I hate this, I really do. Every time I go out I keep looking over my shoulder to make sure they aren't going to take me back and it's just really frustrating."

"Well hopefully the war will be over soon and we can all go back to living normal happy lives."

"I have a feeling that might be a while."

"Oh Becky don't think like that."

"Lily come on, this war is going to take forever."

"Well I certainly hope it ends soon. I mean, a war is no way to bring up a child." She said as she laid a hand on her stomach.

"You guys will be fine."

"No." Lily sighed. "We'll always be looking over our shoulders, all of us will until this war is over."

There was a silence as they both sipped on their drinks before Rebecca heard footsteps at the door and suddenly the door opened. Rebecca pulled out her wand and stood up before Remus appeared at the doorway and she lowered her wand.

"Oh, hey Lily." Remus said and shrugged off his jacket and hung it up.

"Hey Remus." Lily said and stood up, gripping the couch to help herself up. "I will be heading off; I'll talk to you later." Lily said and gave Rebecca a hug.

"Yeah, see you later." Rebecca said.

"Have a good night Remus." Lily said and gave Remus a small smile and wave before walking out and Rebecca turned to Remus and raised a questioning eyebrow at him.

"What?" He asked and she sighed and picked up the mug Lily had used and put it in to the sink.

"I had a meeting with Albus." He said and walked down the hall to the bedroom and she leaned against the sink and stared at the faucet before looking to the doorway. Ever since the full moon Remus had been distant from her, he generally tried to keep as far from her in bed as he could and it seemed she almost had to force him to look at her. No matter how many times she insisted it wasn't his fault and that it was behind them she could see it bothered him more than he let on. She turned off the light to the kitchen and made her way to the bedroom and saw the bathroom door closed with the shower running. She pulled out her pajamas as she watched the door and got changed before crawling in to bed, the shower still going, well perhaps she would talk to him tomorrow.

Rebecca walked in to the house and heard something from down the hall. She pulled out her wand as she made her way down the hall slowly and silently. She peered in to the room and spotted Remus throwing some shirts in to his trunk.

"Remus?" She said confused and he stopped and turned around.

"You're home." He said and she looked around the room noticing pretty much all his stuff had been packed in to the trunk.

"What's going on?" She asked as she dropped her purse to the floor as she stared at him and he leaned against his trunk as he looked at her fidgeting nervously.

"I'm leaving." He said and ran a hand through his hair.

"L-leaving? Why? Where? Why are you leaving? Remus I know you feel bad about what happened but you don't have to leave, I'm fine and it wasn't your fault." She said as she walked up to him.

"Becky I never wanted to hurt you and I did, I can never forgive myself for that." He said and sat down on the edge of the bed. "I've taken an assignment." He said and looked at his hands. "I'm leaving for 6 weeks." He said and stood up.

"6 weeks? Where are you going? Remus please-."

"And I don't want you to wait for me." He said as he looked at her and she stared at him in shock.

"Are you- are you breaking up with me?" She asked as tears prickled at her eyes.

"Becky I love you more than anything and I only want you to be safe. You deserve so much more…so much better than what I can ever give-."

"Remus I don't want anyone else, I want you, please, please don't leave me." She said as she walked up to him, gripping the front of his shirt. "I need you." She said and a tear fell down her cheek, which he wiped away.

"Becky I am too dangerous and I think all this was a mistake. You were never mine to have."

"Don't you say that, don't you dare say that. I have always been yours and you are not dangerous, what happened was an accident-."

"An accident, which could have been avoided." He sighed and she laced both hands on the sides of his face.

"I love you Remus."

"I love you too Becky which is why I am doing this." He said taking her hands and lowering them.

"Remus…" She said weakly as she took his hand. "Please."

"I'm sorry, I truly am, I shouldn't have let it get this far." He said and pulled away from her.

"Remus." She said grabbing him and kissing him.

"Becky please-."

"I need you." She said and kissed him passionately. "I love you." She said wrapping her arms around him. She lightly pushed him so his knees hit the back of the bed and he sat down as she continued to kiss him.

"Oh Becky." He sighed as she pushed him on to his back crawling over him.

"Make love to me please." She saw as she kissed along his jaw and ran her hands down his chest.

"Becky please don't-." He said as he closed his eyes, stopping her for a moment. He opened his eyes and looked up at her as she stared at him.

"Please." She said softly as she leaned back down and captured his lips as he gave in to her.

When Rebecca woke she shot out her hand to Remus' spot and felt it was empty. She sat up and looked around the room. His trunk was gone and she felt her stomach drop as she saw all his possessions were gone as well. She felt a cold chill in the air as she looked around before getting up with the sheets wrapped around her tight. She opened the closet and saw his clothes were gone. She looked in the dresser and saw his drawers were empty. She felt sobs in the back of her throat as she sat down on the edge of the bed. How could he just leave like that? A tear fell down her cheek as she tried to keep from crying but couldn't help herself as a fresh sob escaped and she laid back on the bed curling up in the blankets taking in the scent of him as she cried.