How could this happen? Lily sat with James on the couch as held his face in his hands. They had all thought that the Death Eaters had stopped killing off the families. Lily didn't know what to do. James hadn't even spoken a word since Moody had stopped by with the bad news of James' parents. Lily tried to hold back her own tears, wanting to be strong for James but found herself failing miserably as she wiped away the tears with a tissue. Sirius sat across from them looking identical to James. Sirius had thought of James' parents as their own, they had taken him in when he had run away from home.

"Sirius?" She said, her voice cracking and he looked up at her.

"Would you like some tea?"

He took a breath and nodded before standing up.

"No, don't worry about it, I will get it." She said and rubbed James' back before standing up and walking to the kitchen to get the tea ready. She returned with three mugs, setting down one in front of James, suing a charm to keep it warm in case he decided that he wanted a cup of tea. Apart from James' parents being murdered Lily had thoughts of her father who had recently found out that he had cancer. She prayed he would have the strength to make it through to recovery. What dark times these were, raids were coming more and more often and people were becoming more fearful with every passing day. Lily remembered when there had been a time when she could have walked down the street without worrying about the war or Death Eaters, death had been such a far away thing and now it seemed to be the only thing around. How long would this war go on for?

Sirius stared at his empty cup for what felt like an hour. The Potters had been his family, more of a family than his own had ever been. He was angry. He was sad. He wanted revenge. Why couldn't they have taken his family? Take the whole lot of them; it would probably be better for society anyways. He wanted to stay in control for both Lily and James' sake, silently plotting revenge against the sorry soul who did this. He looked out the window at the setting sun and sighed to himself.

"I'm going to get going." He said as he got up and Lily looked up from her tea. "Keep me posted." He said and she stood up and walked with him to the door. "And if there is anything I can do…" He said and she nodded and hugged him trying to hold back her tears and she kissed his cheek before he stepped outside and rubbed his face. He needed a drink.

This was exactly what he needed to get his mind off things. His thoughts were hazy as he kissed the girl in his arms who anxiously kissed him back. She wasn't the most attractive girl in the world but looks hardly mattered right now. All he wanted was something to sink himself in to, something that would momentarily help him forget the pain he was feeling right now. The sound of glass shattering from somewhere downstairs stalled their activities.

"What was that?" He asked but she hardly seemed to notice. The hairs on the back of his neck stood up as he thought the worst; Death Eaters.

"I didn't hear anything." She said as she tried to kiss him trying to tug off his boxers.

"No I heard something." He said as he got off her and grabbed his wand from his robes discarded on the floor.

"Where are you-."

"Shh." He interrupted as he waited at the doorway, waiting for another sound. Perhaps it had been his imagination, he had had a few drinks and he wasn't in a right state right now perhaps-

"Son of a bitch." Someone said from downstairs and he looked at the girl sitting on the bed.

"Wait here." He whispered and headed downstairs. He avoided the creaky stairs as he reached the bottom and heard shuffling from the living room. He stood around the corner and took a deep breath hoping to catch who ever it was off guard. He turned around the corner with his wand out and saw Rebecca staring at the painting hanging above the fireplace.

"W-Walcott?" He said confused and she turned around with a wide smile on her face.

"Heeeeeeeeeey Siri, what are you doing here?" She slurred as she walked towards him and he lowered his wand realizing she was drunk.

"Walcott what are you doing here?"

"I asked you first." She said and sat down on the couch.

"I live here, why are you here? Drunk?"

"Well you see I ran out of alcohol and I came over to see if you know…had any spare alcohol."

"I really don't have time for this right now." He said frustrated.

"Aw you look like you're…occupied." She said as she looked down at him with a smile. "Who's the lucky lady?" She winked but couldn't manage one eye and ended up blinking at him.

"Here, take this." He said as he walked across the room and picked up a bottle of scotch.

"Ooooh." She said as he thrust it in to her arms. "This looks expensive." She said and pulled open the top and took a long drink. "Good stuff."

"Now will you go?"

"If I didn't know any better I would think you're trying to get rid of me." She said as he walked her over to the fireplace, mentally noting to put out his fire when he had company.

"Yes I am."

"Sirius?" A voice came from the stairs and he groaned as he walked towards the doorway. "I'll be right there."

"Oooh a girl, you devil." Rebecca smirked as she looked at him.

"Yes, now go." He said and looked back at Rebecca. It happened so quickly Sirius wasn't sure what had happened but suddenly she was crying, Rebecca was standing there crying in front of him.

"Why are you crying?" He sighed.

"Sirius I am going to go, it looks like you're…occupied." The girl said from the doorway and turned to walk back up the stairs.

"No wait-." He said and looked back at Rebecca with a sigh.

"He's gone." She mumbled.

"Who?" He asked dryly. He had really hoped to score tonight but of course he would have to get interrupted by Rebecca, a drunk and crying Rebecca nonetheless.

"Remus. He's gone."

"What? What happened to Moony?" He asked now alerted as he looked at her attentively now on full alert. "Is he alright? What happ-."

"He left me." She cried and grabbed on to him. "What did I do to make him leave?"

"Left? Where did he go?"

"I don't know." She blubbered as she pulled away from him and wiped her tears. "He just…poof." She said and took another drink from the scotch bottle and Sirius sighed and ran his hand through his hair.

"Give me that, you're already drunk enough." He said as he pried the bottle from her fingers.

"I'm not drunk, gimme that back you butthead." She said as she scrambled to get the bottle back from him.

"No, stop it Walcott, why don't you take a seat?" He said and saw the girl walk out the front door. "Yeah so much for getting laid." He muttered to himself and sat down on the couch, holding his face in his hands for a moment before looking up.

"So what happened?" He sighed.

"I don't know." She whimpered. "He- he just said he was l-leaving and not to wait for him. When I woke up…he was g-gone." She said and leaned her head against his shoulder as she cried. He wasn't sure what to do. He had never been good with crying girls and the idea of Rebecca crying was sort of a scary thought. What was he supposed to do? Give her a pat on the back and send her on her way?

"Hey…hey." He said as he put his arm around her and she scooted closer to him and wrapped her arms around his neck.

They stayed still for a while until she stopped crying and her breathing got even.

He glanced around the room and froze when he felt her lips against his collar and slowly trailed up his neck.

"What are you doing?" He said before her face appeared before his and quite suddenly her lips were pressed up against his. His thoughts flashed back to months ago when she had kissed him in that alleyway. The adrenaline rushed once again as he felt his heart racing, he had never wanted that kiss to end and now here she was kissing him…again. He couldn't help himself as he kissed her back. He wanted her, he wanted all of her but wait- this was wrong. Oh stupid conscious, always kicking in at the worst time. If he did this there would be regret from both parties, she was drunk and hurt, two things that did not go well together.

"Stop. Stop!" He said as he pulled her away from him and she stared at him slightly breathless. "This isn't right. You don't want this-." He said before she kissed him again, trying to straddle him.

"Yes, I do." She gasped and he pushed her away from him and stood up.

"No, you don't, this is wrong." He said and started to pace as she watched him. "You are drunk and upset and it would be very wrong of me to take advantage of that."

"I want this." She said as she got up and he backed away from her.

"No, you would regret it."

She stared at him for a moment before glaring at him.

"Fine." She snapped and gave him a shove before walking to the fireplace and grabbing a handful of floo powder and disappearing.

He stared after her and looked around the room…and still he was sleeping alone tonight, just great.

It was quiet as Rebecca stared around the kitchen, rubbing her temples from her hangover. It would be her luck that she had run out of hangover tonics hence the reason she was dealing with a hangover. She stared at her toast with contempt before reaching forward and taking a bite. She tossed the rest back on to the plate and chewed the dry bread before she heard a knock at the door. She got up and walked to the door. She peered through the curtain and saw Sirius standing outside the door. She debated on whether or not she wanted to see him right now, especially after what had happened between them.

"I know you're there." He said as he leaned in towards the door and she sighed and opened the door a crack.

"What do you want?" She asked, leaning against the doorway.

"I just wanted to make sure you were alright."

"Yes, I'm fine. Goodbye." She said and went to close the door but he stuck his foot in the way. "What do you want?" She asked frustrated.

"Are you sure?"

"I'll be fine alright?"

"Okay, if you say so." He said and turned to leave.

"Do you want to come in?" She asked suddenly and he stopped and turned around. "I could really use some company right now." She sighed pushing her hair behind her ears.

"Are you sure?" He asked and she nodded and held open the door. He walked inside and she closed the door behind him and walked in to the kitchen and sat down.

"Help yourself to some toast." She said motioning to the plate of blackened bread.

"I don't think that is toast." He said eyeing at it carefully.

"Sure doesn't taste like it either." She muttered bitterly and laid her head on the table.

"Did you hear…about the Potters?" He asked quietly.

"Yes, Lily owled me. I thought that was all over." She sighed as she sat up.

"Yeah, so did I."

He sat down across from her and looked around.

"Are you…doing anything today?" She asked as she looked down at her nails before looking up at him.

"No, why?"

"Well…do you want to go do something?"

"Like what?"

"I don't really care to be honest, just something to get my mind off…everything." She said and got up.

"Uh, sure."

"You don't have to if you don't want to."

"No, I want to." He said and she nodded.

"What do you want to do?"

"I don't know, what do you want to do?"

"Do you still have your bike or have you trashed it already?" She asked and he smiled.

"No I still have it."

"Let's go somewhere."

"You hate the bike." He said amused.

"Well as long as there is no funny business."

"I can't promise anything." He grinned.

Sirius couldn't help but watch Rebecca as she lifted her head up as the wind blew through her hair. He was always astounded by her effortless beauty. It was one of the things he loved about her. She wasn't one of those girls that needed the world; she was simple yet so complicated at the same time which left him with surprises at every turn. What might things be like if they were together? Would they fight all the time or would it be nice like this? Just happy in each other's company. The waves crashed on the jagged rocks below them and she sighed as she leaned her head against his shoulder and they just sat together listening to the waves, enjoying the moment they had until the sun finally set.

"Today was nice." She sighed and kissed his cheek. "Thank you." She whispered and leaned her head against his shoulder again. He silently wrapped his arm around her shoulders and pulled her close to him. The whole day had been wonderful with Rebecca. They both seemed to forget their pain as they spent the day together in the park and having a late lunch before staying at the beach until the sun went down, it had been a day they both needed to relax, leaving the war behind and just enjoying each other for the first time ever, no fighting, just talking and laughing. Everything was perfect.

"Yeah it was nice today." He said, his fingers lightly trailing down her arm until it lay around her waist." Are you cold?" He asked as he looked at her and she smiled at him and shook her head.

"But just know I fully intend to steal your jacket for the ride home." She said as she played with the zipper on his jacket.

"I might have to disagree."

"Well I am going to have to disagree with your disagreement. I WILL win."

"Well I WILL leave you behind." He said simply.

"Oh you wouldn't dare." She said and slapped his chest lightly.

"I might." He smirked.

"Well I suppose we should head back." She said and stood up and he looked up at her as she held her hand out to him.

"Come on." He took her hand and she helped pull him up. He grabbed her and tossed her over his shoulder in one swift movement making her shriek.

"You put me down this instant Sirius Black!" She screamed and he smacked her butt lightly. "And that is not there for your enjoyment, put me down. NOW!"

"Maybe I should throw you off the side of the cliff." He said as he wandered dangerous close to the edge.

"If you drop me I swear I will kill you." She grumbled and smacked his butt.

"Ooh that feels good, do it again." He laughed.

"Dirty masochist. Which would probably explain why you like the ego beating, you're a masochist, ewww." She said with a laugh.

"Yep, my entire closet is filled with whips and chains."

"I wouldn't doubt it." She said dryly before he placed her back down on her feet next to the motorcycle.

"I did not appreciate that." She said and fixed her hair.

"I did." He grinned and handed her the helmet.

"You know I don't really see the good in having a helmet, if we crash, odds are we will probably die, especially with your driving skills." She said as she put it on.

"Hey they are much better than they were before."

"I'll give you that I suppose." She said with a shrug and got on the back of the bike.

"How are we going to find the way back with it being dark and all?"

"We will use my brilliant navigation skills." He said and she scoffed. "Are you ready?" he asked and she wrapped her arms around his waist.

"Yes and ready for take off captain."

"Alright, here we go." He said and they lifted in to the air. She held him tighter as she tried not to look down as they rose higher and higher in to the air before he took off quickly.

"Sirius I said not too fast." He said and she could feel him laughing as he gave a loud 'whoop' in to the darkening evening sky.

"Just relax and it will be alright." He said as he looked back at her.

"Eyes forward." She said and pushed his face back to the front.

Sirius parked the bike on the side of the house and walked her up to the door. She unlocked the door and turned around to face him with a smile.

"Thanks for today. I had a lot of fun."

"Yeah, it was fun." He said as he put his hands in his pockets as he looked down at his feet and looked back up at her as she smiled at him.

"It was pretty fun." She said and looked at her hands as they both looked around.

"So I guess…I'll see you later huh?" She asked.

"Yeah, uh huh." He said with a nod as their eyes met and they stared at each other for a long moment. It happened in a flash as she grabbed him and pulled him in to a kiss. He responded as pressed her up against the door as he kissed her back, grabbing a hold of her waist.

"Sirius." She gasped as he kissed down her neck and she pushed off his jacket and let it fall to the floor as he reached behind her and opened the front door. They stumbled in to the hallway as he pulled her shirt off and tossed it behind him, kicking the door shut with his foot. They kissed fiercely as she tugged on the ends of his shirt to bring it up over his head, only pausing momentarily to bring it over and drop it to the floor. She ran her hands down his broad, muscled chest. God he was gorgeous! Her nimble fingers in a flash undid his pants and pushed them off his hips and they fell to the floor and he stepped out of them, kicking off his shoes as he did so. His hands cupped her backside as he lifted her up and she wrapped her legs around his waist and they broke apart looking at each other passionately before he captured her mouth with a hungry urgency and carried her to the next room. She moaned as his tongue made sweeping, swirling motions inside her mouth and his fingers fumbled with the clasp of her bra. He set her down on the back of the couch and unhooked the bra before slipping it off her. He could help but admire her beautifully formed, naked breasts as they heaved with every breath she took. His head bowed as he took a breast in his mouth, her back arching to him and he wrapped an arm around the back of her to keep her from falling back.

"Sirius." She moaned and ran her fingers up in to his hair, tugging on it slightly. She could feel his growing erection hard against her making the warmth in her womanhood ache for him.

"Please don't make me wait." She moaned as she held tight to him. The light from the moon coming in through the window was the only source of light in the room outlining his God like body which she ached to have more of. They moved on to the couch and he laid them down kissing her and tugged on her shorts as he did so until she kicked them off.

"Are you sure." He said in to her neck as he kissed down it to the shallow of her breasts urgently. "We should be doing this?"

"I will...kill you if...you stop now." She gasped as his fingers kneaded the portals of her womanhood which had already soaked her panties with the slick wetness of her excitement. His fingers slipped under the band of her panties and yanked them down quickly and he shirked himself out of the last garment before their fully naked bodies pressed up against each other.

"God you're beautiful." He sighed as he looked down at her, his eyes wandering her body before returning to her eyes which stared at him with the same lustrous gaze. He lowered himself down to her, kissing her neck, kissing her ears, kissing her jaw as he moved himself between her legs. His lips made his way back to hers which parted with a loud gasp as he eased himself inside of her. His face buried inside her neck as he lightly ground himself in and out of her slowly, feeling each and every inch of her that he could.

She couldn't remember the last time anything felt so sensual as he rocked against her, his movement more urgent without the need to be asked so. She met his thrusts and matched them, her breathing erratic and soon it almost became a struggle to get enough air in to her lungs as he thrust in and out of her. She writhed beneath him as she felt the wave after wave of pleasure leading up to the climax and she cried out with her release followed by his own.

The popping from the fire woke Sirius and he took a deep breath before he heard sigh next to him. He opened his eyes and came face to face with Rebecca who was currently still asleep. He was breathless as he stared at her; there wasn't a word he could use to describe how beautiful she looked. Her hair messily spread out all around her, a few strands falling over her face. She looked so peaceful, content like he had never seen before. He closed his eyes as he rolled on to his back. What had he done? Remus had left not two days ago and here he was, lying on the living room floor with Rebecca after a long night of passion. This was wrong. Remus was his best mate and Rebecca had been his girlfriend. But how could he deny how he felt about her? How he had felt about her for a while? He wouldn't say it was love, Sirius Black never loved. He cared about her, very much in fact, more than he would have liked but he just couldn't help it. He had more than once tried to convince himself he didn't care for her, trying to find all her flaws and focus on that but after a while he soon came to adore her flaws, everything about her. He knew i would never work between them, it would be too weird, after all, she had dated his best friend.

"Good morning." She murmered as she shifted her head on his chest and lightly kissed his chest. Was she even thinking of him that whole time or had she been thinking of Remus?

"Hey." He mumbled and took a deep breath before resting his hand on her bare back.

"Last night." She said as she sat up and looked at him with a smile. "Was amazing to say the least." She said and leaned down and pecked his lips. "But don't let it get to your head." She chuckled and stretched as she looked around. "It's so late." She sighed as she looked out the window before getting up and walking out of the room, lazily ruffling her hair behind her. If there was ever a butt so perfect she sure had it. He groaned to himself as he pitched a tent under the small blanket he had draped across his waist. He laid back on the floor where they had ended up at the end of their activities, and sighed to himself.

She returned a few minutes later dressed in a tank top and some sweats and leaned against the doorway as she saw him pulling his shirt over his head.

"I'm going to make breakfast, do you want anything?"

"Uh, I think I am going to head home." He said and sat down on the couch and pulled his shoes on.

"Oh." She said surprised and he glanced back at her.

"I should uh, you know check up on Prongs and Lily see how they're doing." He said and she crossed her arms over her chest with a nod.

"Alright then."

"I guess I will see you later." He said as he got up and looked at her.

"Yeah, sure." She said and he ran a hand through his hair wondering what to do next before he nodded and turned to walk to the front door. He paused as he reached out for the handle and shook his head to himself before walking out.

I hope you enjoyed the chapter, thanks for reading and i love the reviews guys, keep it up. Next chapter will be out Thursday so keep an eye out for that.